I want to find a tree hole.

14 was in Luoyang on business. I fell asleep after 2 am for three consecutive nights and woke up around 8 am. Now my head is blown off. It hurts. I know my body is tired and my eyes hurt, but I'm not sleepy. At this moment, I really want to talk to someone. I turned around in my mind and flashed a few names. I sent a message to a friend of mine and didn't reply to me.

? After a short silence, an idea came to me. I want to find a tree hole and talk to it about my thoughts. I want to pour out the bad feelings accumulated in my heart. At the moment, I am so fragile that I feel deeply hurt and embarrassed by my wrong choice. It's written. I'm already in tears. Specially chose music to cure physical and mental fatigue as the background music.

I like to talk to myself quietly. When I am with myself, I feel very comfortable even when I am lonely. Although I am particularly tired and helpless, I am eager to have a warm person around me to give me a hug or encouragement, but I am not persistent and let everything go with the flow.

? After contacting the boss and colleagues of the new company, I felt the obstacles and difficulties in my progress, because I saw a lot of myself in each other. I think the communication between us is very difficult. I often feel that my new job is chaotic, and I don't feel the discipline and rigor of the organization, and I don't feel the consistency of words and deeds. Everyone did their own thing. Many sectors of the company are immature and have many loopholes, and many objective factors are not transferred by personal will. After working for half a month, I feel that my work is different from my expectations, because I have invested time, money and energy and I am optimistic about the industry itself. I have the idea of leaving and stop at my thoughts. I want to find a new breakthrough, but I think the biggest obstacle is the friends who led me into the company.

? At present, the biggest obstacle to this job is that my body can't stand it and my energy can't keep up ... I wrote here and lay in bed for a while.

? Later, I was upset by the news from my colleagues. I came out of the hotel and ate in a nearby restaurant. While waiting for dinner, the background music "The light of dawn passes through the night ..." is very appropriate. I pulled back to my dialogue and remembered the self-dialogue I just wrote in the middle.

? At the moment, the meal came up. It looks delicious. There is a self-healing Daoxiao Noodles in Henan. I ate it. ......

? Let's call it a day. Thank you for being with me when I needed it most.