Although the trial lecture is over, growth is beginning

? This summer vacation, I have gone from offline lectures to online trial lectures. In order to prepare for these short 5 minutes, I believe that for every teacher who gives trial lectures, it is a worthwhile period. A time to cherish and remember.

After two failed assignments, I wanted to give up. I felt that I had missed too many opportunities and was afraid that I would never be able to fill the gap. But at the same time, I was thinking about giving up, but at the same time, I didn't want to give up. So I started making courseware and spent more than a day making the courseware, but I was still thinking about whether to sign up. What should I do if I don’t dare to speak after signing up? What should I do if I don’t speak well? I wanted to move forward, but was dragged back by countless hesitations and entanglements. Later, when I saw teachers in the group encouraging each other, I also encouraged myself to give it a try! Regardless of the outcome, at least having the courage to stand up is considered progress. Just do it, strike while the iron is hot, and quickly check in and scan the QR code to join the group. However, it was too late that day, and the small check-in was not submitted, so the ppt was not sent. The next day, I went to the hospital with my elders at home, and checked my mobile phone in the middle of the day. Only then did I realize that I had not submitted the ppt, which determined the order of the trial lectures, so I quickly posted the ppt that I had saved in advance to the group. However, after the submission time was compared, it was not my turn on Friday. I was very sad because I had a certain death mentality and wanted to die early and be born early. One more day of delay would make it even more sad.

? After the first trial lecture, I felt even more uneasy. Although I flipped over ppt whenever I had time when I got home and practiced silently in my mind, I still felt unsure. Plus going out on weekends makes it even more difficult. Firstly, I promised my son to take him out to play, so I couldn’t break my promise. Secondly, I had already booked the air tickets a long time ago, so I couldn’t waste it, so I had to pack up and set off! I really wish I couldn't do anything else, because this year there are too many chores to do, including the decoration of the new house and the housework at home, and I really don't have much time at my disposal.

? As a last resort, I recorded the ppt as a video. Whenever I stopped to rest, I would take it out and read it, and recite it silently in my mind. Seeing that Tuesday was coming, I became more and more anxious, so I went out with my computer on Monday, found a relatively independent and quiet place for lunch, and stayed there after the meal. Firstly, I wanted to try the wheat, and secondly, I wanted to see Play back and complete the small punch-in assignment. You don’t know if you don’t try. I was shocked when I tried. I typed all the words wrong. The moment the teacher reminded me, I really felt that I was too lax and wasted time and expressions. It happened that teacher Xinyi said that the ppt document should be converted into a pdf document. After careful inquiry, I found out that the pdf document is very stable, but cannot be displayed dynamically. My original design had dynamically presented the content one after another. If I use pdf format, the effect will not be achieved. So I re-adjusted the ppt and removed the dynamics. If they had to be presented one after another, I made two pictures. I worked hard until around two o'clock that night. After adjusting the ppt, I practiced and tried to teach. I practiced over and over again and changed what I wanted to say over and over again. I always couldn't grasp the timing. Fortunately, the last few times were at the right time, so I went to bed with trepidation. Bar! I spent all my sleep and dreams trying out the lectures and revising the content of the lectures.

? Tuesday was a day of absent-mindedness. Because I was thinking about the trial lecture in the evening, I followed my husband and son around all day long, and it was not even a quick glance. We headed back home before five o'clock. The half-hour journey ended up taking nearly an hour, but something happened again when we got back to the hotel. I was so panicked. Seeing that it was almost seven o'clock, I just Board cctalk. While listening to the warm-up interaction, I used WeChat to send a video to adjust the headphones and video to make sure everything was fine. I took a deep breath and adjusted myself. When the teacher gave a trial lecture earlier, I also followed along, but I always timed out. It’s the eighth one’s turn, my heartbeat is racing, there’s nothing more painful than waiting,

? Finally it’s my turn, I take a deep breath, put on the mic, open the handout, adjust my voice, everything is happening. He was proceeding in an orderly manner, but as he was talking, the headphones suddenly went silent. At the beginning, I was holding the earwire in my left hand and there was no sound, so I used my left hand to turn the headphone jack, and my head moved back and forth. I even stopped talking for a few seconds. My mind was confused. I quickly unplugged the headset and plugged it in again, but still no sound. There was no sound, and I was wondering if there was a live broadcast failure and the trial lecture would be terminated.

In desperation, I quickly checked to see if anyone in the comment section said they couldn't hear it, but I didn't see it, so I continued talking, and finally at the last moment there was sound in my headphones. During the interaction, my mind was still blank and my palms were sweating. I had no idea what I had just said or how I said it. I had practiced it so many times, but I had not practiced this version. It’s better to try it out on the mic than to practice it ten thousand times.

? I have finished speaking, but my heart is not any lighter, because I really don’t know what I have said, so I can only wait for the live broadcast to end and watch the replay. Time passed by minute by second, and I was so tormented that I had no intention of listening to the trial lecture anymore, so I entered the WeChat group and saw the screenshot posted by Teacher Xinyi. I confirmed that I just couldn't hear it. It was almost ten o'clock, but Still can’t watch the review. At this time, the child and his father came back (for the trial lecture, they were sent outside), and they said they would take me to eat to reward me. I didn't need a reward. I was eager to watch the replay now! I thought that my mobile phone could also have cctalk and watch it, so I went out. When I got to the place and sat down, I hurriedly watched. Finally, I was able to watch. I saw that the performance of the teachers in front was really excellent. Relatively speaking, my trial lecture was probably the worst. I finally saw myself. I watched it several times. There was a pause in the middle, the sound was interrupted, the whole process was expressionless, and the speech was incoherent. The final sentence was "Thank you for your listening!" All right! Speechless to myself!

It was past 12 o'clock when I had something to eat and went back. Due to system reasons, I couldn't read the review anymore. So I tried to write something. I wrote some snippets, but they didn’t make it into an article. I thought I’d take some time the next day to organize them and submit them. Then tragedy happened on this day. I dropped my phone in the water when I went out early in the morning and couldn't use it. What’s even more tragic is that I don’t remember any passwords. My husband’s phone is from China Telecom, and mine is from China Mobile. There is no way to change the card. Not to mention whether the phone can be used, it just gives me a headache if I can’t log in to WeChat without the password. It doesn't matter if I don't use it for ten days and a half, but this is a special summer vacation. Although I rarely speak in the group, I watched silently. Seeing everyone encouraging and helping each other made my heart warm. It is this spirit that brought me from offline to online.

? In the words of teacher Zhang Song, I just don’t know how to save evidence and protect myself. Everything in my phone is not backed up or stored separately. There are many meaningful pictures in it. Not coming back. I hope that I will gain wisdom and be more rigorous in doing things in the future.

? This trial lecture has ended. It brought me not only 5 minutes, but also thinking, thinking about how to improve myself, thinking about how to teach children well, and thinking about how to persist in doing something. Get things done and do them well. I really feel that I am very lucky. From meeting Hujia, joining Qingjiao, to becoming one of many English learners, they have given me strength time and time again. I will continue to work hard, take root downwards and grow upwards like a seed. Put concrete actions into practice...