Maybe what I'm going to say next. Some people will call me mistress. I work as a receptionist in a hotel. Some time ago. We have guests. Come and deal with it

Your idea is dangerous! Wake up! Get back from the cliff! Don't look for hope in such people I am a man, and I know the nature of men. All men have sexual desire, and those who have no sexual desire are not real men. The difference between a person's good and bad lies in whether he can control his desires reasonably. I also experienced a girl who secretly loved a man, regardless of whether he had a family, how old he was, whether he had money, and so on. If I accept her, it will ruin my family and her youth, so I would rather give up my career than break off contact with her. Although there was disappointment at that time, it was better to have long-term pain than short-term pain. I suggest you cut the gordian knot. You're not in too deep. Get out.