Xiao Xiao falls red, where does the soul go?

There is a biography of Xiao Hong called "Xiao Hong the Drifter". The word "wandering" really focuses the basic state of Xiao Hong's life experience in a simple and appropriate way.

In 1926, at the age of 15, Xiao Hong said goodbye to the Hulan River, and then traveled from Harbin to Beijing to Shanghai to Japan to Shanxi to Wuhan to Hong Kong, crossing from Saibei to Lingnan, leaving a trail in the land of China. A long walking track.

Xiao Hong's inner journey is also the same, she has been "wandering". For example, when it comes to love, the men she has struggled with include, in addition to Wang Enjia, who was engaged, Xiao Jun who lived together, and Duanmu Hongliang, who was married, she also had close contact with Lu Zheshun, Li Jiewu, and Luo Binji in one way or another.

What makes people feel even more desolate and sad is that on January 22, 1942, this female writer who left such famous works as "The Field of Life and Death" and "The Story of Hulan River" in the history of modern literature was... He was in the golden age of 31, but his beauty was gone. After he died of illness in Hong Kong, under the clouds of war, he was hastily buried in a foreign land. He could not return to his hometown and was still "wandering" in misery.

As soon as she lay on the operating table of Queen Mary Hospital, Xiao Hong had a premonition that she would die soon. On his deathbed, Duanmu, who had not been around for more than forty days and finally showed up, told the funeral affairs.

The first item is that I hope to rest beside Mr. Lu Xun’s grave in Shanghai. But now, with the Japanese invaders trampling under their iron hooves and the sky filled with war, fulfilling this wish is purely a fantasy. So there is a request to take a step back and bury yourself on the shore near the sea.

Duanmu followed Xiao Hong's last wish, and together with Luo Binji, who had been taking care of Xiao Hong at the bedside, they arrived at Repulse Bay holding the porcelain jar containing the ashes. Finally, I chose a flower bed not far from the Lido Hotel. Under a phoenix tree, I dug a pit with four hands, put the urn in it, covered it with soil, piled up a few stones, and inserted it. A wooden sign that reads "Xiao Hong's Tomb".

These four words were written by Duanmu himself.

This position is very consistent with what a young poet sang before his death on the train decades later, "Facing the sea, the spring flowers are blooming". The Phoenix tree blooms, bright and blazing, like a burning cloud. After the flowers bloom, the fallen flowers are in full bloom, and the ground is covered with a bright red brocade.

Duanmu thought very carefully. Fearing that the ashes placed in one place would not be found later, he buried the ashes in another urn prepared in advance at the same campus of St. Stephen's Girls' School in Repulse Bay. We chose a hillside facing the northeast, which is very secluded. It is also under the Phoenix tree, but there is no wooden sign.

In this way, Xiao Hong slept alone in a foreign land. The poet Liu Yazi's poem "Ms. Xiao Hong" seems to speak for Duanmu, expressing his mood at this moment: "Du Ling brother and sister are so shallow, the dream of Xiangdao Yunshan is empty. Private love and public love are both sorrowful, and I am left to cry with hot tears. Xiao Hong."

As time passes, stars change. In 1957, the Cosmopolitan Hotel in Hong Kong wanted to build a swimming pool in the area of ??Xiao Hong's cemetery. Xiao Hong, who was "wandering", could no longer live in peace. Therefore, with the help of many enthusiastic people in Hong Kong and after many negotiations, it was finally decided to move Xiao Hong's tomb to Guangzhou.

Hong Kong, represented by Ye Lingfeng and Cao Juren, and Guangzhou represented by Ouyang Shan and Qin Mu, held a grand ashes handover ceremony. The elegiac couplet next to Xiao Hong's portrait is full of affection, sadness and sadness, which is shocking: "People appreciate wonderful writings and prove their talents, but they are also jealous of heaven; their souls return to the paradise, see the magnificent mountains and rivers, and treat them like you."

What is particularly regrettable is that Duanmu, Xiao Hong’s husband and family member, was not able to come to the scene in person to personally welcome his wife’s ashes, which he held in his arms 15 years ago.

After the ceremony, a Xiao Hong cemetery was built at the Yinhe Cemetery on the outskirts of Guangzhou. Although it is "the soul has returned to the Promised Land", "Promised Land" does not mean the "homeland". The Pearl River and the Hulan River are still far apart, one in the south and one in the north, out of reach. Xiao Hong is still "wandering".

1987.

, In November, Duanmu, accompanied by his wife, finally came to Guangzhou. The 75-year-old man is walking with a staggering step. Step by step, standing in front of Xiao Hong’s tomb in Galaxy Cemetery. Looking back on the past, he had mixed feelings, and his wife read "The Wind into the Pine·Sweeping Xiao Hong's Grave" on his behalf: "We will never forget each other between life and death. The setting moon fills the beams of the house. By the plum blossoms and willows, the Hulan River is also Xiaoxiang. Wash away the old spots of thousands of years. , The ink-carved bamboo is new. / Cherishing the candle does not compete with the charm, and the sword shines with its own light. The wind and frost are endless, the mountains and the water are the same. The ends of the earth are not far away, and the Milky Way faces each other every night." A petal of fragrance, after 45 years of farewell, it can be regarded as the fulfillment of a few wishes.

In 1992, the Hulan County Government renovated Xiao Hong’s cemetery in Xigang Park next to Xiao Hong’s former residence. Duanmu took out a strand of Xiao Hong's black hair that he had kept close to him for more than fifty years, and buried it in a tomb by the Hulan River.

However, this cemetery is still just a green silk grave without a single ashes. Xiao Hong still has no soul to return to her hometown and is still "wandering".

In 1997, Duanmu passed away. His wife, following Duanmu's dying instructions, took half of his ashes to Hong Kong and scattered them under the phoenix tree on the campus of St. Stephen's Girls' School where Xiao Hong's half of his ashes were still left.

Duanmu accompanied Xiao Hong and continued to "wander" in Repulse Bay.