2019-01-11

She chose to jump off the building and die on New Year's Eve

Ziluo Ningyan

Yue'er sat blankly in front of the window, looking at August 15th The full moon, and then looking at the lights of thousands of houses outside, everyone else was having their families reunited during the Mid-Autumn Festival, but she was alone guarding her shadow.

I have lost count of how many nights my husband has not been home. It wasn't because he was busy at work or for any other reason. He just didn't want to see her or was interested in seeing her. She was already dispensable in his eyes. I used to call home, but now I don’t have a phone anymore.

Her best friends and best friends always envy her. She found a rich husband and married her right after graduating from college, truly realizing that doing well is not as good as marrying well.

But is this really the case?

People always feel that others are doing better than themselves, and others think that they are doing well. In fact, the rich have the troubles of the rich, and the poor have the happiness of the poor.

Yue'er carefully recalled the sweetness of the past.

I remember that when I was a freshman, a senior came to pick me up. The senior was tall, sunny and handsome, and was two years ahead of Yue'er. Yue'er blushed when she first laid eyes on him. The senior looked at her with bright eyes.

The senior helped her carry her luggage into the dormitory. He enthusiastically led her around the school and introduced her to her, asking her to ask him directly if she had anything she didn’t understand or didn’t know. Got her cell phone number.

Yue'er kept blushing, her heart was beating like a deer, and her palms were sweating.

From then on, Yue'er's cell phone always received text messages from her seniors asking to see her under various excuses, sometimes even during class. If Yue'er doesn't return, the senior will appear at the classroom door or window, or a note will be handed over by a classmate. Several times she was criticized by teachers for not respecting teachers and teaching. Yue'er felt aggrieved, but she could do nothing about the senior's insistent behavior.

Yue'er is beautiful and has the temperament of Xiaojiabiyu. She is always surrounded by many boys, some handsome, some not handsome, some lively, some not lively. They always use various excuses to help her. The senior was very angry and declared domineeringly to everyone that Yue'er was his girlfriend and told other boys to stay away from Yue'er. As a result, Yue'er really became the senior's girlfriend.

Through the gradual contact, Yue'er learned that the senior was a rich second generation. Every vacation, I always take her to play all kinds of things she has never seen before. In front of her senior and his friends, Yue'er felt that her knowledge was very poor. At the same time, she also felt that she was really happy to be loved by such a handsome and rich boyfriend.

Unfortunately, the happiness did not last long. One day half a year later, a girl named Xueer who dressed boldly came to her and told her that her senior had fallen in love with her and that she and her senior were both rich second generations. , they were a perfect match, and the senior was just playing with her. Yue'er instantly felt that the sky was falling, and she suddenly felt inferior.

Yue'er hid in the dormitory and thought wildly, and her senior didn't come to her, which made her feel that what Xueer said was true, that her senior had really fallen in love with someone else and abandoned her.

Yue'er and her senior lived in the same city. One of them came from an ordinary family, and the other came from a rich second generation. One has a lively and cheerful personality, while the other is silent and reserved. Yue'er thought, what does the senior like about me? What else is there besides appearance? Is it a submissive character?

Maybe I really don’t have a chance with my senior, so let’s forget it. After suffering for a long time, Xueer thought so. But she couldn't resist missing her senior, and always wanted to know what he was doing and why he didn't come to her? Several times, she secretly ran to the back door of her senior's classroom and looked through the crack in the door to see what her senior was doing.

In the days that followed, Yue'er really saw her senior and Xue'er chatting together and attending class together. Yue'er's tears welled up.

But the senior didn't seem to know what Yue'er was thinking. He was still in class and playing ball happily with the boys. It seems that he forgot that there is a well-behaved girl waiting for him to date.

Yue'er lives helplessly in her own world. She thought that her senior had moved on and that maybe she really wasn't good enough for him. He is so outstanding, has good academic performance, is handsome, and has a cheerful personality. Many girls blushed when they saw him. Apart from appearance, I really have no qualifications to match him.

After thinking about it, Yue'er planned to give up painfully and focus on studying.

Two months passed like this. One day, the senior came to Yue'er again and asked her to watch a movie. Yue'er asked him, aren't you in love with Xue'er? The senior was stunned: Did you see it? Yue'er said, yes, she told me that you are in love. The senior said, no, we just study together and discuss some issues. Yue'er's mood improved immediately, is it true? The senior said, really. Yue'er burst into laughter and threw herself into the senior's arms, complaining in her heart that she thought too much.

In the next two months, the senior began to ignore Yue'er again. Instead, he talked and laughed with Xue'er, and even watched movies together. Yue'er thought to herself, are they really just having an ordinary relationship?

Yue'er couldn't help it anymore and called her senior to ask. The senior said that Xue'er made a bet with him. Xue'er said that he didn't dare to watch a movie with her. How could a man like him be so timid? Yue'er was speechless.

Two months later, the senior became enthusiastic about another school girl, Jing'er. Yue'er felt that the senior was a bit too carefree. One moment he was nice to one person, and the other moment he was nice to that one, just like Duan Yu's father. Yue'er complained to her senior, who said Yue'er was too small-minded. We are just classmates, playing together. My girlfriend is only Yue'er. Yue'er was very happy to hear this.

Her college life was spent with her seniors courting other beautiful girls again and again. Yue'er was always afraid that her boyfriend would be seduced by other girls. Every time she complained, the senior immediately took her out to play several times, and she felt that she was thinking too much.

The senior said that he would marry her after graduation. Yue'er is very happy. She comes from an ordinary family and doesn't have a big heart. Marrying a good husband will be good for her, and having another child will make her family live in peace and harmony.

The senior actually kept his word and actually married Yue'er as soon as he graduated. The senior finally became her husband, and Yue'er felt like she had fallen into a honeypot. Don't be too sweet.

Yue'er continued her studies, and her husband started to get involved in the family business, leaving early and returning late every day. When Yue'er came home, her husband hadn't come back yet. When her husband came back, she was already sleepy and fell asleep. Her husband, smelling of alcohol, fell beside her, and Yue'er got up again to serve him.

Sometimes, Yue'er feels like she and her husband are living in two worlds. Her husband asked Yue'er to stay at home as soon as she graduates and take care of her husband and children, and not to go out to work, as long as he takes care of her, he is Yue'er's heaven.

Gradually Yue'er smelled her husband's perfume. She never used perfume and always liked the natural feeling. She questioned her husband. He said that there was a beautiful woman accompanying him when he was socializing, and he didn't do anything. He was just acting for the occasion. She said Yue'er was petty and made a fuss.

Yue'er wondered if she was really too sensitive?

Time passed very quickly, and Yue'er also graduated in the blink of an eye. She obeyed her husband obediently and stayed at home with her husband, but without children, she could not teach her children. Read novels and learn how to put on makeup. But as time went by, I felt upset again.

My husband gradually stopped coming home, either saying he was on a business trip or talking about business, and the house gradually became deserted. Yue'er felt like an abandoned cat. Occasionally I complain to my husband. He says he is busy and wants to play by himself. Don’t act like a child all the time, being pretentious when being raised by others! Her husband's words made Yue'er feel like she had been slapped hard on the face.

Yue'er thought about it for a long time and chatted with her best friend. She said, you can't be bored at home all the time. Why don't you go out and find a job so that you can be in contact with society and you won't be so bored. Yue'er tried to mention to her husband once that she should go out to find a job, but her husband became furious: If you go out to find a job, where can I put my face? Isn't the money I gave you enough? Yue'er didn't dare to say anything, nor did she dare to go out to find a job.

My husband still didn’t come home. I used to call him to let him know, but then I stopped even calling him. Yue'er didn't know what her husband was doing or who he was with, and she didn't dare to ask her parents-in-law.

One day her best friend called her and told her that she couldn’t help but tell her that twice she saw her husband cuddling with different women into the building opposite their company. High-end hotel! Yue'er was dubious and asked her best friend to call her next time she saw her.

Yue'er starts to suffer from insomnia. Has her beloved husband cheated on her? Didn't he say it was for entertainment? Isn’t it necessary for business? My bestie must have seen it wrong? She didn't believe that if he didn't like her at first, why would he marry her, a girl from an ordinary family?

Yue'er doesn't want to receive any more calls from her best friend.

But the call from her best friend came again just a week later, asking her to go to her company immediately and not to drive.

Yue'er rushed over quickly. Her best friend asked her to go directly to the hotel to block people, but Yue'er didn't dare. She huddled in her best friend's company and stared at the door of the hotel.

Three hours later, my husband’s figure finally appeared, along with Xueer’s enchanting figure. Yue'er's mind went blank. She didn't expect that her husband was still interacting with Xue'er, even so blatantly! Where does he put himself?

Yue'er couldn't help it anymore and called her husband to ask. He was furious: Are you too busy at home every day and you are stalking me? Yue'er said no, I only see it occasionally. Her husband said that he just went to the hotel to discuss business matters with Xue'er, but Yue'er actually believed him. Yue'er told her best friend about this and said that her husband was just going to discuss business. My best friend sneered and only said, wait for my next call.

Another week passed, and my best friend called me again, so I asked Yue'er to call her. Yue'er rushed over again, bringing the telescope she bought recently, intending to see clearly. When her best friend saw the binoculars she brought, she became very angry and scolded her for being too cowardly. Go see it for yourself. Yue'er said, if he didn't do bad things, what would I do? My best friend said, outsmart me, don’t you know how to outsmart me?

How to outwit? Yue'er was stunned.

You can go to the front desk of the hotel and ask. Just say that person is your boss and you are in a hurry to see him. Which room in the hotel has he entered? Then hide and watch? My best friend hates that iron cannot become steel.

Yue'er nodded stupidly, looked around to make sure no one was paying attention to her, and then cautiously stepped into the hotel and asked the front desk: Hello, miss, the man who came in just now is my boss. I'm looking for him in an emergency. Which room is he in?

The receptionist glanced at her and told her the room number, then continued playing with her mobile phone.

Yue'er pressed the elevator button and looked at the rising numbers, her heart beating faster. After the elevator stopped, she looked left and right and found a corner to hide. Waiting for my husband to come out.

As a result, it was almost dusk before her husband walked out with a woman on his arm. When Yue'er saw it, her eyes almost fell out: it was Jing'er. Yue'er suddenly felt depressed, and she couldn't help but rush to her husband: How do you want to explain?

My husband was stunned at first, and then slapped him: Damn it, you, a psychotic woman, are stalking me again, all day long.

Are you still looking for trouble? Yue'er was slapped so hard that she almost fell over: What's your relationship with her? Last time you came here with Xue'er, and today you come here with Jing'er?

Husband: Do you care where I go? Did you make money? Did you support your family? You haven't done anything yet and you're still looking for trouble? Did you feel full after eating?

Yue'er: I don't make any money or support my family. Didn't you tell me not to work? Didn’t you say that I would embarrass you by going out to work?

Husband: I asked you to die, will you die? It's annoying to watch you look like you're dying every day. Do you really think you're a fairy? Let's go!

Jing'er started to cross her arms as if watching a good show, and as soon as she heard the greeting, she took the man's arm affectionately.

Yue'er didn't go home. She was paralyzed at the door of the room as if she was stupid. She didn't wake up until her best friend called. Her best friend hurriedly came over and took her home.

Yue'er seems to have lost his soul, doesn't speak, eats, drinks, or sleeps. In her innocent world, he always thought that her husband only loved her, but the truth was so cruel. She kept muttering: How could he find another woman? Why is he looking for another woman?

Her best friend was afraid that she would not be able to think about it, so she called her parents. The parents rushed over and took their daughter home.

Yue'er was still in a daze, not talking, eating, drinking or sleeping. The parents called their son-in-law to ask what was going on? Her husband never answered the phone, and Yue'er didn't tell her parents.

Yue'er settled down at her parents' house, and her husband didn't even get a call. There was no Mid-Autumn Festival, no New Year's Day, and as the New Year was approaching, her husband was still nowhere to be seen, paying no attention to her.

My best friend called me several times and asked Yue'er to be more open-minded. If it didn't work out, she would get divorced, find a job, and live her own life. Yue'er still can't think about it. She has always had a mysophobia and she can't accept her husband sleeping with other women.

The parents also advised their daughters to be more open-minded. As a man, working hard outside will inevitably come into contact with many women who love money. What can you do if some women automatically throw themselves into their arms? The world is like that. People are so rich, but they just turn a blind eye and pass by.

Yue'er suddenly remembered a saying: If a man cheats on his wife, he will definitely not love his wife that much. Only if you no longer love, will you not care whether the other person will be hurt?

New Year's Eve came in a blink of an eye. Yue'er's condition improved a lot and she returned to her home. There is a layer of dust in the house, but my husband still hasn’t come back.

Yue'er's heart gradually became cold. She bought some vegetables, made four dishes and one soup for herself, ate some slowly, and then sat in front of the dressing table, crying while making herself The makeup was stained with tears as soon as it was applied. I wiped it off and applied it again. Over and over again, some redness came out on my face, but my eyes were swollen.

She quietly listened to the sound of firecrackers in the distance outside, put on the white wedding dress she had ordered when she got married, walked to the balcony, glanced at the lights of thousands of houses in the distance, and thought to herself: I wish I came into this world pure and didn’t take away a trace of filth when I left!

Then, she jumped down like a beautiful snowflake.

The man was woken up by a phone call in another woman's bed. He was shocked when he heard the news that Yue'er had jumped to his death. He cursed in his heart: If you die, you will die, you careless woman!

It is said that Yue'er's parents went to their son-in-law to ask for an explanation, and the son-in-law paid 300,000 yuan.

Half a year later, the man married another woman.

When the second year comes, Yue'er's grave is already covered with grass...