Abao’s 21-day Bigu Health Awareness Day 16

2018.1.13 Day 16 of 21-day inedia

Weighing: Hotel accommodation, no weighing

Wake up: 5:00

Awareness: When I woke up in the hotel, it was still dark outside. I noticed it when I was about to swipe my phone, so I stopped immediately. In the dark, I began to sit and meditate. I was reading "The Tibetan Book of Life and Death" recently, and the author mentioned that meditation is the best practice and one of the methods that can best connect with oneself. Maybe the time has come to receive this message immediately and start practicing it immediately.

After half an hour of meditation, your body feels clear and smooth, your lower back feels hot, and distracting thoughts pop up in your mind. Follow the method taught by your yoga teacher, focus on your breathing, and slowly calm down. The earth breathes naturally. It was indeed very effective, and my mood was soothed little by little by the silent essence.

I remember what Bigu Qun teacher Liu said: The culture handed down by the Chinese ancestors is all about slowness. Practice tranquility from slowness, enter concentration and generate wisdom. When wisdom arises, everything will be peaceful and you will gain great freedom!

Breakfast: warm water

Awareness: Because I don’t eat during inedia, I need to drink mineral water. Last night at the hotel, I opened a large vat of Nongfu Spring sold in the hotel and boiled a pot to drink. I didn't realize it at the time, but later I felt more and more that what I drank was not mineral water, but tap water, because there was no sealing film when I opened the bottle cap, and it opened with a simple twist. The seeds of doubt are sown, and the water will taste wrong no matter how you drink it, and it will feel awkward no matter how you drink it. In the end, I threw it away and bought mineral water from outside.

Thinking about how people get along with each other in life, this seems to be the case. Once a seed of distrust is planted, there is no timely communication to repair it. When you look at that person again, you feel something is wrong and unpleasant. Soon we will become strangers.

The hotel provides free breakfast, but my daughter has not had it since she went to school. I cannot eat it. Hehe, if I did not enjoy the free things before, I would feel uncomfortable for a long time. Today I calmly had breakfast with my daughter outside. After returning to the hotel, I went to the restaurant for a tour. Then I returned to the room and drank water calmly.

I can really feel my inner firmness and my calmness against external temptations. I must praise myself!

Lunch: warm water, nuts

Realization: My daughter had a half-day class in the morning and had to participate in an English competition in the afternoon. My daughter wanted to eat steak at noon, so I happily took her there. Nowadays, all meats, especially pork, beef, mutton, chicken and duck, don’t interest me at all, especially steaks and barbecues, so I basically stay away from them. But I don’t object to others eating it, and I will happily watch others enjoy it. Because there is no right or wrong, just different choices.

But I know that my perseverance in fasting and the changes in body, spirit, knowledge, awareness, etc. brought about by fasting have infected my daughter. My daughter, who is a freshman in high school, admires me very much, so now she can listen to me seriously, and she no longer resists the truth and things I say as before: You can't even do it yourself, and yet you educate me with great principles. Whatever you say I think is wrong and I won’t listen. Don’t tell me.

Therefore, to educate children, parents only need to actively work hard to grow themselves, and use their own growth, achievements and life style to infect their children, which is much more effective than simply preaching.

During the meal, my introverted daughter took the initiative to mention the wealth game I took her to participate in, and also talked about some of her new opinions and ideas, and saw some old mistakes in her previous communication and interaction with people. There is confusion caused by the pattern, and I also understand that entering the inner circle of the game (the rich circle) is to have more opportunities to choose from. If she just sticks to the old way of getting along with her classmates and the people around her, and cannot learn to cooperate, then she will be isolated by her classmates and the society, but she does not want to be isolated.

To be honest, this was a huge surprise. My daughter's self-isolation has always been a concern and anxiety for me. I have repeatedly presented facts and reasons to try to get her to change, but it has no effect. I am grateful for my motivation on the last day of 2017. It is really a wonderful gift.

Dinner: Warm water

Awareness: My stomach is growling with hunger, but I don’t want to eat nuts anymore. I just drink water in small sips because I feel a little angry after eating nuts. It’s solved. It’s the second time I’ve had a tuba since my ineditation. It’s so refreshing, haha.

Because I had a long drive today and my back was a little uncomfortable, I went to a blind massage shop that I am familiar with to get a foot massage and body massage. During my health care session, the masseuse and I discovered that when I climbed on the massage bed and got a massage, I no longer felt like I was holding my breath.

In the past, masseurs always said that my Qi and blood deficiency caused a lack of vitality in my body, so I would have difficulty breathing when I lay down. Unknowingly, this difficult problem has healed itself. Okay, no wonder I’ve been in particularly good spirits recently. Bigu seems to be really magical, and you can find surprises every day.

Sleep: 23.30

Awareness: Being dragged by a friend to talk about something. The story was very long and I felt like I could never finish it. Recently, I have been going to bed at 23:00, which seems to be the lowest limit I can accept. After this point, my anxiety and uneasiness will come out, and I feel that I will make a mistake if I don't fall asleep. My body will also cooperate very well and keep yawning, crying, and feeling sleepy...

It may be true. It is because of awareness that when you get up, what you eat and drink, what time you go to bed, what you do, why you do it, and if you don’t do it again, you can’t help but think about the things hidden behind the pattern. On the surface it may seem pedantic and verbose, but all my changes are really constantly manifesting through awareness.