How can loving you be a mistake?

I can finish the above calmly. Why did I come to the end of the world to complain today? Yes, the second keyword with the highest occurrence rate between us is "cold violence". In fact, our relationship has reached a false and prosperous climax in the past month. Unfortunately, it is easy to be frustrated by a small matter. Over the years, as long as he is angry with me, he can keep a cold face for several days and never say a soft word to make up with me. All for the company or the family. Yesterday, just after we had a very happy meal, I muddied away by buying bread. He was so angry that he turned around and even canceled his plan to go to the furniture store. Yesterday, I was really discouraged to death. Why can such a small thing break out? Why did I do everything wrong and let him be such an eyesore? Let me not oppress him and give him space, which is what he has been asking me, so I went out to live in a hotel alone last night in a ridiculous way. I give you the space you want, who gives me the warmth I want? It's like hitting a stone in my heart and coming here to vent. Yes, I am such a loser. I'm slowly losing my friends. I dare not say. I can't even give up this relationship. I used to be young and beautiful, and I was eager to find a prince to live a romantic love life, so that I could spend it slowly. Looking back on all this, I feel that my life is a failure.

Sex life is like the last fig leaf, and should not be discussed online. Actually, it's also my melancholy point. We seldom have sex, once or twice a month at most, although it is harmonious every time. Not only now, but for many years. He didn't go to bed until he was most tired and sleepy. He usually sleeps by watching videos, so I don't have to count on it before going to bed. I can only have it when he wakes up in the middle of the night or when he is interested in the morning. If you want to say that he is not good or has been around for a long time, the requirements are not high. In fact, I really have a desire to say something shy, but my husband doesn't cooperate and it's hard to say. We don't have children, and he doesn't want them, because he thinks that having children in his own personality is also harmful to the next generation. Although I don't like children very much, I always think it's okay to have one. But I know that nothing can change his decision, like everything I said today, and I don't know what I can do to change it?