Desperate days, very fulfilling

Dragging my tired body, I went back to rent a house, and the hour hand had pointed to the 10 scale.

Turn on the shower, enjoy the pleasure of water dripping on your skin, wash away the fatigue of the day, cheer up, and then there is a hard battle waiting.

Everything is ready, fatigue is swept away, you lie there quietly, waiting for me to review. In black and white, piles of test papers are spread out on the desktop. It's already 1 1 p.m. For the next three hours, it was just you and me, listening to the quiet night and Sasha writing.

2

Desperate days, very fulfilling, for that long-cherished dream.

When I was an intern in my senior year, I found a leisurely job, thinking about preparing for the civil service exam while working. On the one hand, the work is leisurely, and on the other hand, the book is on the table, the dream of fighting.

Students have found their favorite jobs, and plan where and how to play during their graduation trip. I am still working hard for the dream of the public exam, and I have temporarily put away my fun. After all, I know which is more important.

17 The national examination is over, which is the end of a paragraph. The day of the results was night, and a link was suddenly sent in the public examination group to check the links of the results. With excitement and nervousness, I entered the admission ticket number and ID number. After a few seconds in the refreshed circle, two grades appeared, and the total score exceeded 1 10.

My heart is cold, but I hope for a miracle, but after all, there is no miracle and I have no chance to enter the interview.

That night, my classmates dragged me to drink at the snack stand all night.

three

Life goes on, dreams are still there, and the days of despair have to go on.

/kloc-After the Spring Festival in 0/7, I resigned. Even if the boss of the company tries his best to keep me, I can't stop a heart that despairs of my dreams.

When I got home, I bought videos, examination papers from different provinces, and planned the time. From Monday to Sunday, from morning till night, I stayed in a small house to fight.

Some people will ask, are you tired? Of course, I will be tired, but not tired in the traditional sense, but happy. If you want to reach a certain height, can you not be tired?

After two months of closed-door training and numerous simulation drills, it's time to show your skills in the examination room.

Go back to school one week in advance, get familiar with the examination room, conduct the final examination, and everything is ready except the examination room.

The night before the exam, I was lying on the clean Simmons in the hotel, tossing and turning, unable to sleep, recalling various topics and thinking about my two-month practice. How can I fall asleep when I set foot on the battlefield again tomorrow? I finally got over it in the morning, with dark circles under my eyes. I ate breakfast in a hurry and set off for the examination room.

At the entrance of the examination room, there are already many candidates, some with their eyes closed but mumbling, some with full review notes silently reviewing, and some eager to talk to each other in twos and threes. Among them, propagandists from various public examination institutions are busy among the candidates with a notebook and an interview course leaflet that will increase 10 points 30 minutes before the exam.

At 8: 30 in the morning, the automatic door at the entrance of the examination room slowly opened, and the candidates flocked in. Then they found their own "belonging" and had a silent contest.

Towards the end, two hours passed quickly, and I haven't had time to answer all the questions. Think of the bell of time. I reluctantly handed in my test paper and answer sheet. Go back to dinner alone and wait for the war in the afternoon.

In the afternoon, I returned to the examination room, and suddenly several positions were vacant. What was there in the morning was gone in the afternoon. Understandably, I didn't do well in the morning exam and didn't want to accept the suffering in the afternoon. I am glad that there are few competitors, and I have been killed before the war.

Finally finished the exam, drew a semicolon for the two-month struggle, and felt good about myself, waiting for the results to be announced.

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After Labor Day, I went back to school to prepare for the graduation party. Busy booking photographers, clothes, hotels, preparing for the graduation party and contacting the graduation party.

Once, when I was a freshman, I listened to the employment experience sharing meeting of senior graduates. One of them was successfully admitted to the civil service. Listening to their sharing, I secretly set a goal to share my successful experience on stage like a senior when I graduate.

The goal is ambitious and the reality is cruel. At the graduation sharing meeting, there were two places in the class, one was admitted to the graduate school of Ningbo University and the other worked in a big enterprise in Shenzhen. Failure in the national examination saved the unknown consequences and there was no job. How to share?

Walking on campus, I met several girls in Grade One and asked them why they didn't go to the experience sharing meeting. They said yes, but when they came back, there were no seniors. Hearing their answers, I gave a wry smile and comforted them that all the other seniors and sisters were fine. It may be helpful to listen to their opinions in the future. They didn't go back after all.

That year, I was a part-time counselor in the freshman class, and I was an excellent senior in their eyes.

Students have their own homes, chatting about all kinds of wonderful things encountered in the internship process, quietly listening, indifferent, everyone has their own choice, since they have chosen the road of public examination, they will go to the head.

At the graduation reception, the crowd was excited and there was a trace of sadness in the excitement. Last time as a student, I got along with my teachers and classmates. After eating this meal, we parted ways and met in the Jianghu, or never met again. Try to take pictures, take selfies with everyone alone, and try to keep the last memory. Whether you are drunk from beer or not, you won't be drunk tonight if you serve white wine. Confessions, kisses to teachers, hugs to female classmates, and all kinds of things that I dare not do at ordinary times are brave at the moment. If you don't do it, you'll never get another chance. No matter where he goes tomorrow, it is enough to have you with him today. Finally, I cried round and round, and the scene was spectacular.

There was one last carnival left yesterday. The next day, I sent away one classmate after another. I saved it for the last time until the logistics handed over the dormitory property in the class, calculated an account, divided the remaining class fee by the number of people in the class, and divided it in turn, which was the last class.

Dragging my suitcase, I shared a room with several students outside the school, waiting for the results to be announced. I also looked for a job during the period. After installing the LED screen for a day, I don't want to do it on the first day; I have been doing telemarketing for a week, and when I sleep at night, my ears are full of insults from guests during the day. As a result, I took a box of zongzi at the Dragon Boat Festival and sent a message to the manager, so I quit.

The days of waiting for the results are tormented and expected. Before the results come out, buy the book "Three Supports and One Support" and read it. Idle is idle anyway. All roads lead to Rome.

The final score came out, but it was a few days harder than the day before. Not bad, 120+, promising, a little excited. I bought a lot of vegetables and cooked a good table by myself. By the way, treat yourself to dinner.

The menu came out, and I looked through it several times. I don't have my own name. I finished my eggs. In response to this nonsense, "the greater the hope, the greater the disappointment." Defeated again by four points.

That year, 2065438+June 2007, I applied for a position in a county in Nanchang.

five

Failure is failure, there is nothing to be afraid of, maybe you haven't worked hard enough. Go on working, and fight black all the way.

In July, I got a job as a pre-sales engineer in a technology company. I just received a smart classroom project from Normal University, debugging teaching equipment in a room without air conditioning under the poisonous sun in Nanchang in summer. * * * On the fifth floor, there are more than 200 classrooms, and one classroom after another is being debugged. Like rain, sweat keeps soaking the T-shirt. But thinking about the project bonus and the dream of public examination, I am somewhat relieved.

During the period, I participated in the "three supports and one support" exam and still missed the final. Life goes by slowly and work goes on. I just finished a month of debugging without air conditioning, sitting in the control room, so cold that I couldn't wait to put on my coat. I envy the way college students sit carefree in the classroom on the screen. Recalling that I was so carefree. Occasionally, I can see the empty classroom. Couples snuggle together, do all kinds of ambiguous actions, and switch projectors from a distance, scaring them into panic and being honest at once.

Life is boring, you have to have some fun to make yourself less boring.

Lucky or unlucky, I was lucky. I took the exam in my hometown's institution and successfully entered the business. This is my first interview since many exams. I was very excited and excited, and finally I was not killed in the first level. But later, the troubles came together.

Father knew that after he entered the interview, he wanted to quit his job and come back to attend the interview training class. However, he happens to have a project here, and he is in charge of the whole process. He couldn't find the right person to take over the project at the moment, and the boss treated him well. At this moment, he suddenly felt irresponsible.

On the one hand, my father insisted on going back, on the other hand, the progress of the project was inseparable, and I was in a dilemma.

I bought a pack of cigarettes and a lighter, and rode a yellow car in the night, running wildly in the university campus. This is my first time to go back to school after graduation. On the familiar campus, the teaching building and library are brightly lit, and couples in twos and threes are walking on the playground. Familiar environment, but can't find a sense of belonging.

Wandering, weighing, thinking, finally decided not to resign, talk to my father, review myself, and ensure that I am admitted.

For your promise, you have a beginning in life. I work in the central control room with air conditioning during the day, occasionally secretly look at the set of interview questions, and go back at night until 2 o'clock. I persisted for a month, but at that time my work was a little easier, otherwise I really don't know how I could persist.

During the interview, people lost a few pounds, went to the examination room with trepidation, and came down as if they were sentenced to death. It felt very bad. It's really bad to follow your heart. Instead of attacking others, I was attacked by others. The first interview is over and the fiasco is over.

See you in the national examination!

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20 18 national examination did not fall behind.

After the interview, the institutions work slowly, go to work on time, live a life of two points and one line, go to work during the day, review at night, and buy food and cook at weekends to treat themselves.

Day after day, the dream is still in my heart, and the time of despair continues.

Sometimes I chat with my classmates who go out. I either get a raise or a promotion, but I'm still standing still.

There is a plant called Phyllostachys pubescens, which does not grow for the first five years. When the rainy season came in the sixth year, it rushed up at a speed of 6 feet per day for about 15 days, and finally it grew to about 90 feet, becoming the height champion in the bamboo forest. The first five years were not long, but they grew downward. Take root and lay a good foundation. Only when the water and nutrients necessary for growth are obtained can they be accumulated in the sixth year.

Always use this story to encourage yourself, often and desperately, and you will definitely get the desired results.

Inspiration is inspirational, and life will not be moved by inspiration. You have to test whether you are supporting yourself or being pushed by time.

Once again, the national examination served as cannon fodder, and it was calm in the torrent of millions.

At this point, I left my internship to graduate for a whole year. Everything is back to zero. The difference is that there are many times more experience in the examination room, and nothing else.

seven

Keep working hard, keep preparing for the exam, and keep dreaming for a long time. I didn't turn the arrow before opening the bow. Shoot me.

I was a little tired at first, and experienced numerous exams, national exams, provincial exams, three supports and one support, public institutions, and then national exams and provincial exams. ......

I wonder how many times this cycle will go through. I dare not think, and I don't need to think. Well said, youth is capital. While you are young and active, it's not dark yet.

After the Spring Festival of 20 18, the situation after the Spring Festival of 20 17 was repeated. Make up your mind, cross the rubicon, resign with tears, and the boss will keep you. Finally, I wish myself success in the exam. If I fail, the door of the company will always be open for you. When I left, I went to the hotel and treated me to a big meal. Thanksgiving, with this meal, I really learned a lot.

At home, I rented a room in the county alone, sat at the table from morning till night, went out to buy food, simply filled my stomach and continued to review, and went home to eat a chicken soup cooked by my mother to supplement my nutrition at weekends. Day after day, tireless, hard work, hard work.

Another provincial exam, the two-month countdown points to 0. I also lay in the white bed of the hotel, tossing and turning, sleepless all night, waiting for the fierce battle the next day.

The examination room is still crowded, but the time has changed from 20 17 to 20 18.

After that, I rode my bike around the Ganjiang River, tears streaming down my face. I was finally liberated, and I fully released my pent-up mood, laying the foundation for my desperate youth.

The joy of "spring breeze is proud of horseshoe disease, and you can see all the Chang 'an flowers in one night" is nothing more than this.

Cycle after cycle, the days of despair began to count down, and 18 successfully entered the interview, ranking second. No matter how difficult it was, I finally squeezed into the interview and signed up for a 30 thousand yuan counterattack class. After a month's class, after an interview, I succeeded in fighting for a day, killing the first place and getting the first comprehensive score. Followed by physical examination, political examination, and finally landed successfully two years later.

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Now, I have been working for half a year. To be honest, the air on the shore is not bad.

Today is another year's provincial examination, and millions of public examination troops are practicing hard in the examination room. Maybe some people became famous in World War I, maybe some people lost their reputation in Sun Shan, and they need to start all over again. In any case, I hope that on the road of chasing my dreams, I will keep going, and I won't beat you because of a temporary failure.

Because the days of despair are full.

Thank you for that difficult time, I will remember it all my life. If you do it again, you will still choose to work hard.