Read "Ye. Rain" If I could go back to the past, I would never run away again

Some people say that life is a process of constant choices. Our current lives are due to the choices we made in the past.

If you were asked to make another choice about the people and things you have met before, would you make a different choice?

I recently read a book called "Ye Rain" written by the young Chinese writer Huan Seng, and I was deeply moved. In the book, Liu Kunming, an oncologist at the Provincial Hospital, heard three stories told by others while drinking in a bar.

The three women in the story have different names, but they have the same mystery and similar experiences, which makes people feel that there is a vague relationship between them.

01. The story of Xiaobai in the 1980s

Xiaobai is a new employee of the food factory. As soon as he entered the food factory, he gained the admiration of a man named Chen Shuping.

Chen Shuping is a relatively thick-skinned person, so his co-workers gave him the nickname "Tree Bark" because of his thick skin.

Shupi fell in love with Xiaobai at first sight and launched a stalking offensive against her, but Xiaobai was always indifferent to him. At most, he only nodded or smiled lightly.

Shubi had a friend who was also nicknamed Lin Yong when he was younger. At that time, he was secretly in love with another female employee named Lu Xiaomin in the unit. But after several contacts, Xiaomin found that Lin Yong always refused to get close to her and was always very polite.

On a rainy night, when Lin Yong was holding an umbrella to help an uncle find a dog, he accidentally discovered Xiaobai squatting under a tree and crying. He walked over silently and stood beside Xiaobai, holding on. Umbrella stood there for a long time without saying a word.

Later, when Xiaobai got tired of squatting and crying, she rested her head on Lin Yong's calf, and Xiaobai's body temperature quietly caused waves in Lin Yong's heart.

After a while, a man came over and took Xiaobai away.

Shupi expressed his inner distress to Lin Yong because he did not get a response from Xiaobai.

Lin Yong thought of the man on that rainy night, so he enlightened Shupi and said that maybe Xiaobai had a man she liked or her family had already arranged a marriage for her.

Later, through Shubark's observation, he found that the look and expression in Xiaobai's eyes when he saw Lin Yong was what he longed for but could not get, so he decided to give up and encourage Lin Yong to chase Xiaobai.

Although Lin Yong also fell in love with Xiaobai, when he thought of the bark, he decided to hide this feeling in his heart.

A few days later, Lin Yong met Xiaobai again with an injured foot, and took the initiative to carry her back home.

That time, Lin Yong saw the man again, saw the timid expression on Xiaobai's face, and the eyes full of gratitude and love for him.

Chen Shuping later left the food factory because of his fruitless pursuit of Xiaobai. Lu Xiaomin, who accidentally saw Lin Yong carrying Xiaobai, also left the food factory.

In the end, Xiaobai also left the food factory, leaving Lin Yong alone.

02. The story of Ruo Mo in the 1990s

Fu Xijie worked as a copywriter in a company in a city in a third county in the south. He was used to exchanging letters with pen pals every day.

One day, as usual, he went home and opened the mailbox to take out the letters.

When he opened the letter in the room and saw that the recipient was a woman named Ruomo, there was also a sketch and portrait of the recipient in the letter.

He looked at the address again and found that it was from the door opposite him. Then he realized that the letter belonged to someone else, so he folded the letter paper, stuffed it into the envelope, and sealed it again.

He suddenly felt strange: The uncle who lived across the door had been dead for more than 20 days, and no one was renting the house. How could there be a letter sent? It was sent to his mailbox by mistake.

Two days later, he heard from his neighbor’s aunt that the woman who lived opposite him came back very late every day, and he didn’t know if she was doing something shameful.

Only then did she learn that the house opposite had been rented to the woman named Ruomo half a month ago.

Since he had never met him before, Xijie became curious about Ruomo, so he wandered in the corridor to make sure there was no one in the corridor, and then knocked twice on the opposite door. Seeing no one in the room answered, he stuffed the letter through the crack of the door.

At night, he deliberately stayed up late, hoping to come out when he heard some movement outside the door to see what kind of woman it was. But after waiting for several nights, he fell asleep quickly, and in his dreams, a woman whose face he couldn't see clearly always appeared.

The next day, the postman came to deliver the letter again, wondering why there was still a letter after the uncle opposite Xijie passed away. Xijie lied that he had borrowed the address of the uncle opposite him to write to his pen pal, asking him to The postman put all the letters to the door into his mailbox. He wanted to find out what happened in Ruomo's letter.

In the evening, Xijie received a letter from his brother who lived in the provincial capital, saying that his father was critically ill and asked him to go over and see him for the last time.

Since his brother took his parents to live with him, Xi Jie lived alone in the family house. Since his father was still dying, he asked for three months' leave from the company, preparing to accompany his father on his final journey.

Half a month later, my father left. After handling the funeral affairs with his brother and sister-in-law, Xijie stayed and wanted to spend more time with his mother.

My brother bought Xijie a mobile phone and said that he met his college classmate Huang Shuqing two days ago and left her mobile phone number and asked him to contact Huang Shuqing. He heard that she was organizing a class reunion.

Xijie contacted Huang Shuqing in time and attended the class reunion as scheduled. Huang Shuqing was the school beauty in college, and he recognized her at a glance. When Shu Qing heard that he was not married yet, she said that she would introduce him to a partner one day.

After the vacation, the first thing Xijie did when he got home was to open his mailbox. There are many letters stored in it, many of which are from Ruo Mo.

Xijie opened a letter at random. The letter was written by a man to Ruo Mo. It seemed that she was very aloof. Because he did not receive a reply from her, the man expressed despair.

Recalling that he had been away from home for three months, Xijie felt that he had delayed other people's letters and felt very sorry, so he wanted to write a letter to Ruomo to express his apology.

But when he picked up the pen, he knew how to write overnight. It wasn't until I went to work at the company the next day that I used my free time to write the letter.

Unexpectedly, as soon as he finished writing, a colleague who often bullied him snatched the letter away. He stood up to grab it, but the other person squeezed it tightly and only heard a "squeak" sound. Torn in half.

At this time, his long-simmered anger suddenly broke out. He picked up the pen holder on the table and threw it at the man. The other person dodged. He grabbed another pen and threw it over. Resigned angrily.

After returning home, he wrote a letter to Ruo Mo under the pseudonym "Mo Ke", but the sender's address could not be the address of Ruo Mo's house across the street.

He suddenly remembered that his brother had a friend. After he went to the provincial capital to develop, he entrusted his house to be looked after. That address could be used as his second mailbox to receive Ruomo's letters.

After that, Xijie would receive calls from Huang Shuqing every day, and they would chat all over the place every time.

After writing a letter to Ruo Mo, he looked forward to Ruo Mo's reply every day, but he didn't receive any reply.

Just when he wanted to give up, Ruomo replied. The content was simple and casual, which was his favorite style. He replied quickly and continued to wait for a reply.

When he received a reply again, even Huang Shuqing felt his pleasure on the phone. He decided to continue communicating with Ruomo.

One evening, when he came home from outside, he saw a woman standing opposite him.

She has delicate features and is wearing a white dress. He was in a trance for a while, and he knew that she was Ruo Mo.

Before he said hello, she spoke first, saying that she was a new neighbor and asked him to borrow a screwdriver.

After he lent it to her, he was restless in the room. When she came to return the tools, he was actually a little incoherent.

He tossed and turned at night and couldn't sleep, so he decided to go for a walk. So, he came to the night market street. At the intersection, he saw a woman in a white dress with long hair reaching her waist.

He recognized it, it was Ruo Mo. He looked at her quietly until she left quietly.

For half a month, Xijie neither received a reply nor saw Ruomo again in the night market. Xijie was devastated, and Shu Qing heard his loss again on the phone.

He felt more and more that Ruo Mo was a mysterious woman, and he didn't know what kind of feelings he had for her.

Finally on New Year's Day, Ruomo wrote back and said that he had been traveling for a while. Then their correspondence continued, and he saw her again in the distance on the night market street.

The last time was on the eve of the Spring Festival. He saw her again in the night market street. She also saw him and approached him.

With permission, he sent her home. Halfway through, it started to rain. They took shelter from the rain at a roadside shop, and he took off his coat and put it on her.

Looking at the cold winter rain, she said quietly: One day many years ago, it rained like today, and the weather was very cold, two people. But from that day on, my life entered a dark night, and I became a shadow under the lamp. ”

Xijie didn’t answer the call and didn’t know what to say. After the rain stopped, they continued home and didn’t speak again along the way.

Later, Shu Qing’s phone number She came more and more and invited him to help her company many times, but he refused. Ruomo slowly expressed her affection for him in her reply.

When Shu Qing came to the county town to find him, she told him. When she expressed her desire to be with him after her marriage failed, he refused again.

In the summer, Ruomo said that he would no longer correspond with "Stranger", but they still kept going. They had a habit of going back to the community together at the night market, and they became a couple in the eyes of people in the community.

When they agreed to go on a trip together, three days before departure, Xi Jie's baby daughter Ma Linlin came to see Xi Jie.

After Ruo Mo found out, he asked Xi Jie if he was still going to travel. Xi Jie vaguely replied, "Let's talk about it tomorrow." Ruo Mo left without looking back. p>After settling down with Ma Linlin, it was already dark. Xijie went to knock on Ruo Mo's door, but there was no sound in the house.

When he went to the night market again, he saw Ruo Mo again. Standing under the streetlight. He was about to walk over, but the streetlight went out.

Later, he never saw Ruomo again. A week later, a new tenant came across the door.

03. The story of Rumeng in the 1910s

In the winter of 2011, in a southern city, there was a very famous and unique bar called "Zongqing". "It was opened by a foreign woman. She was nearly middle-aged and her charm was still there, attracting a large number of young die-hard fans.

One day, Huang Wei, a second-generation rich man in his 20s, brought his friend Lu After spending time in the bar on Erwu, he made a bet with Liu Yilin, a swinger, on whether Huang Wei could catch Rumeng within ten days. The bet was half of the shares of their respective companies.

"Zongqin" has. This feature is that if anyone spends 100,000 yuan, Rumeng will personally accompany him and drink a bottle of wine for free. On this day, Huang Wei spent 100,000 yuan, and Rumeng did not wear the usual tube top dress, but also changed into white. Wearing a shirt, jeans, and black half-boots, Huang Wei took the opportunity to ask Rumeng to go to the island. Rumeng refused while drinking, saying that it was not the life she liked and left after drinking. .

In the next few days, Huang Wei stalked and inquired about Rumeng's residence, and shamelessly entered Rumeng's house, but was still rejected

When he was annoyed. When she wanted to leave, Rumeng suddenly fell ill in the bathroom, and Huang Wei hurriedly sent her to the hospital.

The doctor diagnosed that it was stomach bleeding, but it was not serious, so Huang Wei left the hospital with peace of mind. .

After returning from the hospital, Huang Wei disappeared for two days, and no one knew where he went.

The gambling period was over, and Huang Wei thought he had won. company, unexpectedly Huang Wei had transferred 99% of the company's shares to his friend Lv Erwu in advance, and Liu Yilin only won 0.5% of 1 share in Huang Wei's name.

Although Huang Wei kept the company, But the bet he was chasing after Rumeng spread in the company, and also reached the ears of his girlfriend He Yixuan, the "political marriage" arranged by his father.

When He Yixuan tried to use family power to control him, he broke up with He Yixuan. When he was depressed, he would often go out and drink "indulgently".

As time went on, the relationship with Rumeng became much closer, and occasionally he would send Rumeng home.

After He Yixuan found out, she found someone to take revenge on Rumeng and the bar. Huang Wei arrived in time and spent 300,000 to the gangsters to calm down the storm.

In order to retaliate against Huang Wei, He Yixuan married Lu Erwu and legally misappropriated the company shares that belonged to Huang Wei.

After experiencing this, Huang Wei lost everything. He and Rumeng's hearts gradually got closer, and they both felt like they had met their close friends.

So the two made a desert island appointment. After long conversations on the desert island and heart-to-heart communication, the two got closer.

But after returning, Rumeng began to avoid Huang Wei again. Huang Wei questioned Rumeng and expressed his feelings again. He knew that Rumeng loved him, and avoiding her was just a struggle.

After confirming that Huang Wei truly loved him, Rumeng bravely came together with Huang Wei.

Huang Wei made a request for Ru Meng to see his father during the Mid-Autumn Festival. Rumeng agreed, but only asked to meet Huang Wei's father at his own home.

On the day of the meeting, Rumeng was very worried that Huang Wei's father would mind his age. When Huang Wei's father entered the door, both of them were stunned for a moment, and then they started a silent verbal battle.

The more Huang Wei listened, the more confused he became. After his father left, Rumeng didn't give any explanation. He just said that he would take him to meet his relatives the next day. The next day, Huang Wei learned that Rumeng's mother had died long ago. After leaving Rumeng's hometown, they lived together in a hotel for the first time.

After returning to the city, they said goodbye to each other and returned to their respective homes. When Huang Wei went to "Zongqing" again to find Rumeng, he found that "Zongqing" had changed beyond recognition and was being renovated into a hotel by others. Rumeng had disappeared and could no longer be contacted.

Huang Wei had a car accident on the way to find Rumeng. He remembered that when his father left Rumeng's house last time, he told him to break up with Rumeng. He knew that Rumeng left quietly for Complete him and stop looking for him. After returning to the company, he chose to forgive, rebuild his old relationship with Lu Erwu, and continue to start his own business.

03. We are all people with stories

When Liu Kunming returned to the hospital and saw the signature on the medical record of a female patient suffering from gastric cancer, he learned the truth. Bai, Ruomo, and Rumeng are actually the female patient in front of him: Bai Ruomeng.

The three stories he heard were actually three different encounters in her life. In these three emotional experiences, she chose to escape, leaving her alone even when she was seriously ill.

In the 1980s, she met Lin Yong. In the 1990s, she met Fu Xijie. In the 2000s, she met Huang Wei. Huang Wei's father was her former lover, a man with a family, a wife and children, a man who consumed her youth and abandoned her.

Her current life stems from her past choices. Others come in and out of her life, and she also comes and goes in other people's lives.

And isn’t that the same for each of us? Therefore, we are all people with stories. What kind of life you are living now comes from your original choices.

This time, when Bai Ruomeng faced the disease, she wanted to escape and face death, but Liu Kunming's words dissuaded her and told her not to give up on herself, to actively cooperate with the doctor's treatment, and to accept it bravely. The challenge of illness.

Through the story of the heroine, I have questioned the concept of "fate". I used to think that everyone's life is arranged by fate. Many things are destined by God and cannot be circumvented no matter what. . But this book "Ye. Rain" made me feel that fate is the result of one's own choices. This is what the so-called "everything depends on man-made" means. Whatever choices you make will produce corresponding results, that is, causality.

If Bai Ruomeng had not chosen to be Huang Wei’s father’s lover when she was young, and if she had chosen any of the male protagonists in the three stories, her life would not be what it is now.

So, life is a process of constant choices. If you make the wrong choice one step at a time, happiness will be further and further away from you.

Youth is fleeting, keep it and cherish it!

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