When do you feel hopeless?

The most disappointing thing in my life so far is my failure in the college entrance examination.

When I was studying, I heard so many great principles, but because I had never experienced them, I felt that there was nothing wrong with them. Even if I understood them, it was difficult to force myself to persevere and learn with self-discipline.

Before the college entrance examination, it seemed to me that everything went smoothly. I got into the best high school in the high school entrance examination and performed well in the exam. In high school, all the students were top students. They lagged behind at first, but gradually caught up. Their grades were generally in the middle range, and occasionally they were among the best.

I mainly live on campus as a freshman in high school and don’t have a mobile phone. In addition to studying, I also read books and occasionally play with my mobile phone and computer behind my parents’ back. Generally speaking, most of my time and energy are spent on studying. superior.

In my sophomore and junior years, I basically just followed the crowd. Although it is a good school, there are also cases of copying homework in good schools, and in my opinion, it is quite serious. After all, I was in junior high school. I have basically never copied my homework. Although the school is not good, it is far away from the poor students. After all, I don’t have a mobile phone, so I have always been a good student. When I got to college, I became an average student among good students, and I also had a taste of the fun of playing with mobile phones. I basically never wrote my Sunday homework, and I couldn't help myself from being addicted to novels.

Later, the results have always maintained a middle position. But in the third year of high school, due to the expansion of the school, the dormitory building was demolished and there were very few dormitories. The teacher suggested that we try to leave the accommodation opportunities to students who live far away. Following the trend of accompanying students to study, my mother also accompanied me to study. But studying with me hurt me. I often stayed up late playing with my phone and slept all day in class.

I'm sorry for the precious time in my senior year of high school, for the time when I should have struggled, for my mother who accompanied me in school, for my father's expectations, and even more sorry for myself for having worked so hard.

The senior year of high school was originally wasted, but if I performed well or even normally, there would be no problem with ordinary 211. However, I was too influenced by my classmates during the college entrance examination, which made me less and less confident. When I got to the last chemistry exam, I didn’t even want to take it. I was in a very bad state.

But in fact, in the end, I did not do very poorly in the exam. Those who came out with me and thought they did very well in the exam, some did very poorly in the exam, and they were not as good as me. But my chemistry was affected after all, and I got a C in the exam. The moment I learned the results, I was completely disappointed.