Reading "Above Destiny"

-This is the unique survival declaration of "post-90s wheelchair youth". /kloc-0 was born in Lanzhou in 1994. He has suffered from osteogenesis imperfecta, which is rare in the world since he was a child. He spent most of his 22-year life in pain and sweat. He went through several operations and passed death twice. But when his spine changed from a straight line to a painful "S" shape, his mind and spirit had already changed into another shape: an "O" shape, a perfect "O" shape. He is the pride of China, the eternal soul walker in my heart-Liu Daming.

Above Fate-The First Operation

Last spring, I celebrated my sixth birthday, and my memory became more and more accurate. I thought this peaceful and happy life could last, but it soon changed beyond recognition, so that for a long time, my memory of the past was full of great doubts. I can't believe it disappeared so soon.

That year, I had the first operation in my life, and the expert's words were half fulfilled. But I still don't know fear. I lie in bed all day, squinting at the sun. I found that the smaller my eyes are, the more colorful and gorgeous the light is. I hold the lamp in my hand, observe its colorful colors and feel its vibrant warmth. My legs are getting more and more painful in the days when I play with the light. At first, I was free to lift my legs. Later, even the simplest expansion and contraction made me gnash my teeth My face is getting paler and paler. In sadness and disappointment, I was taken to the hospital by my parents.

"Let's take a picture."

When I heard this sentence when I was a child, I knew I was going to the radiology department to take X-rays. This is a foreign name, which more or less offsets my resistance. In the photo studio, there is a long, narrow and cold bed. Just above it is a huge machine. On its right, there is a mechanical arm. Under the mechanical arm, there is a small cube. My leg was fixed by the doctor. He warned me not to move. I agreed in a panic, afraid to move. He went out and tightened the heavy iron gate. In such a big room, I am the only one in an instant. The cube moves towards the leg, and it gradually turns pale yellow. To my surprise, there was a "hissing" sound like a python spitting letters all over the house. I still kept a fixed posture and didn't make a hullabaloo about it. I know that I must cooperate unconditionally and be patient at this time. Only in this way can time pass faster.

After taking photos, my parents and I walked into the doctor's office. I leaned against my mother's chest and looked at the hut timidly. We were silent and didn't know what to say. A few minutes later, the doctor spoke, his tone is very dull:

"Surgery must be performed and metal needles must be used to support the long bones."

I don't understand him. I only heard two musts.

"Less film, it kills a lot of cells at a time. After all, radiation is not a good thing. "

With these two words, he walked out of the house. I looked at my parents and my father suddenly said:

"Let's have fun at the weekend, eat something delicious and see the beautiful scenery!"

At that weekend, most of my fantasies came true. My father took me and my mother around the park in a battery car. I also played the merry-go-round that I was afraid of. In the evening, we ate delicious fried noodles on the roadside. I put my arms around my parents' necks and thought it was the happiest day of my life.

A few days later, I was admitted to the hospital. I was in the hospital with a smile. On the way from home to the hospital, there is a huge sculpture. When I saw him, I knew this was the way to the hospital. But I didn't panic. Before that, I had a few happy days and I felt very satisfied. I picked out a few things to bring, including my picture book, toys, and a few pens that can only draw different colors. I know I'm moving and moving my family to the ward.

On the morning of the operation, I was stripped naked and put on a long cart. My mother's eyes are red, and my father is standing in the corner farther away from me. The force that has reached an agreement has broken most of its promises before it started. The doctor quickly pushed me away. At the moment when the elevator was about to close, I raised my hands to say goodbye to my parents. At this time, I felt a little scared-I was separated from my closest relatives, and then I was left alone, whether sad or happy, I was alone.

I just tasted the tears, and the past clearly reflected in my mind, as moving as a movie. I vaguely know that the prophecy of the past will take shape, and I will sleep in this cold carriage and accept the final judgment of fate. I stroked my body and scanned my skin with my eyes. I saw the veins of blood vessels clearly. I think, on such a refreshing morning, my former partner must still be asleep, but I'm going to an unknown place and accept a completely different life. I looked at the doctor beside me stupefied. They must think my life is terrible. My weak life will definitely make them feel sorry. It makes me sad to think so. I want to express something, but I can't say it.

The operating room is more spacious than I expected. All kinds of instruments are piled up in all directions. They emit different lights and make different noises. Doctors are wearing the same clothes and walking around me. When I saw many brilliant potions spewing out from sharp needles, I suddenly understood what I wanted to say! I want to get rid of all this, I don't want to stay here, I want to end this terrible time immediately and return to happiness! It would be great if my leg stopped hurting. Even if I stay at home alone for a few more years, I will have a hundred wishes. I'm annoyed. Faced with great pain, I began to yearn for the most annoying time. I think I am the hypocritical and greedy person in the story. What can I do? At this moment, I only have the right to be hurt.

"What should I do?" I timidly asked the doctor next to me.

"Watch an interesting movie!" He pointed to the moving screen and said. I know he is lying, but I am embarrassed and don't know how to expose him.

"How long does the operation take?" I asked again.

Just watch the movie, about three or four hours. You don't have to think about it. You just watch movies in your dreams. "

"After the operation, if I don't have any pain, can I go home?

"yes! But it will take a while, about a month, so I can only lie down. Bear with it. "

Then he raised my left arm and said:

"bear with it, it will be fine soon!"

I felt a sharp pain in my muscles, and then everything began to spin. I felt like I was going to sleep.

Brother Daming:

From the moment you hear your name, see your story, read your words and remember everything you said, you will have a good list of things you like or dislike. Just these years, Brother Daming. I have many favorite writers, and I am willing to share them with others. But you've always existed outside those people.

In my soul world, I need a pure land. This pure land does not need appreciation or criticism from others, nor does it need any gossip. It's my little world, and the owner of the little world is you.

Many people have read the article "Dream of Youth", of course I like it, but what moved me most is this one. Everyone has dreams when he is young, but not everyone has experienced the first operation. Brother Daming's mood was exactly the same as mine when he had his first operation. I also thought about doing a book review about fate, but I finally gave up. In my opinion, the best way for readers to gain reading comprehension is to pay tribute to the original and real text, which is far more wonderful and useful than this book here.

So here, Kim dedicated this article to you who have been here, me who wrote articles, and

Liu Daming, the eternal soul walker in my heart.

17.5. 13. Silently see this word.

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