I just had a tryst with my first love hotel many times. I felt like I was back in time. I could have made it to dawn tonight, but just now his 5-year-old son called me.

The love story of two mosquitoes%D%A%D%A Night fell slowly. Insects chirped in the grass, one after another. There are two mosquitoes resting on the grass blades. %D%A%D%A The male mosquito took a sip of the grass juice, gently pushed the female mosquito that was stiff with anger, and coaxed softly: "My dear, just take a sip, you won't be here all day." I'm really worried about whether I can eat or drink..." The female mosquito glanced at the dew-covered grass blades with disdain and said unhappily: "How can I eat such a bland thing? You talk about it every day? Don’t you find it annoying to say it every day?” “Are you deliberately going against humans?” The male mosquito looked at her anxiously, “You don’t know how many things humans have prepared to deal with us. I smell that smell. You are just dizzy, what if you..." %D%A "You are a coward, you know?" The female mosquito looked at him coldly. Then it flapped its wings and flew away from him. %D%A%D%A The male mosquito looked worriedly at the light coming from people's windows. He knew she was in there. For some reason, he had a particularly bad premonition tonight, which made his body resting on the blades tremble constantly. He really wanted to see her and know that she was safe, although he couldn't restrain her ambition to drink human blood. He suddenly realized sadly that this alone might destroy both of them. %D%A%D%A The dew became heavier and he felt cold, but she still didn't come out. %D%A%D%A He thought of their previous life, not as two mosquitoes, but as two penguins. Living in a world of ice and snow, he happily walked elegantly and calmly as a gentleman all day long. %D%A%D%A At that time, he was the best penguin. Love her deeply. Like all penguins preparing to propose, he ran around hard to find the pebbles. He traveled long distances, leaving behind one unsatisfactory stone after another, and when he broke his head and bled, he finally found the most exquisite and smooth one. He felt that only this one was worthy of her. %D%A%D%A　But, she married another penguin. He, who followed behind, picked up everything he threw and gave it to her. There are rough and imperfect stones, but there are many and they are piled up. He quit sadly, but followed her, and in this life, he was willing to accompany her, just like a mosquito. Tormented by a heart-wrenching waiting, he risked his life and flew into the human window. %D%A%D%A Sure enough, I saw her, leaning on someone's arm, sucking, her blue wings trembling gently. And he discovered with horror that the "person" whose left arm could not move was quietly raising his right hand... "Get away!~~~~" he shouted heartbreakingly, But it was too late, she curled up in a ball in pain and fell to the ground. He flew close to her and knelt beside her, a mass of blood, with tears streaming down his face. She struggled to open her eyes and looked at him, quietly shedding tears. %D%A%D%A "What a pity, what a pity..." "You ruined both of us..." He tried to help her, who was bleeding all over her body, "Why, "You always refuse to listen to my advice?" "I know...but I can't help it...because, because I am pregnant with your child...it needs nutrition..." ....The grass juice is not enough, I have to suck blood...I know I will die, but you will continue to live, humans will not hurt you, because you have not offended them..." She He blinked his dying eyes for a moment and said with a smile: "Actually, if I give birth to a child, I will also worry about it until I die, but this is our responsibility as mothers... Even if we have to work hard for thousands of people, We must provide the best for future generations..." "Why? Why didn't you tell me earlier?" "I know you love me, if I Tell you, you will do it for me, then you will be the one who dies now... I can't bear it... If I can give birth to a child for you, I will have no regrets. ...I owed you something in my previous life, and I wanted to pay it back in this life, but ended up owing you more... In my previous life, we were penguins.

In fact, I have always loved you, but I married him... because he gave me a lot of pebbles, do you know? We live in a world of ice and snow. If there are not enough stones to make nests and hatch eggs, our offspring will be frozen to death by the ice before they hatch... That stone you gave me is so beautiful and crystal clear. But that is love. Pure love cannot support a long-term marriage and responsibility for children... I didn't marry you, do you hate me? "%D%A%D%A" He shook his head desperately and burst into tears. "It's my fault. I didn't protect you, I couldn't give you everything you need, and let you suffer like this... In the next life, we will be praying mantises." Okay? On the wedding night, you ate me and gave birth to a child for me...if I died in your belly, I would be very happy..." "No, no, let's make two. Cicada, okay? Drinking dew every day, singing happily... Be careful, be careful..." The smile quickly pulled away from her face, she gasped for breath, and tears fell in strands. Xiuxia said, "Come on, people are coming..." He looked back and showed a desolate and regretless smile, "Silly boy...aren't we going to be cicadas together? "Pa!" There was a crisp sound, accompanied by a voice of satisfaction, "Huh, another smelly mosquito was killed!"%D%A%D%A He hugged her tightly the moment before he died. Their blood flowed together and condensed into a drop of bright red tears%D%A%D%A I wish everyone who responded to the post and read this article may love, happiness, health and happiness....%D%A% D%A It only takes a second to fall in love with her, but it takes a lifetime to forget her%D%A After parting, we can no longer be friends because we have been hurt, and we cannot be enemies because we have loved deeply.%D%A These words are no longer relevant. I know how many friends I have heard from you! But it also happens to us. So, we can only become the most familiar strangers in the world and pass each other in the vast sea of ??people%D%A Knowing you, I am satisfied. Maybe others say That’s right. My feelings are like those of a child! But I also want to know why I can’t treat my feelings like my work! ? Many times, if you love someone too deeply, I will get drunk, and if I hate you for too long, my heart will break easily. %D%A I have no choice but to never see you again, but there is still your shadow in the depths of my heart, and I still hope to see you. I can live a good life. Because when I loved you, I didn’t bring happiness to the person I loved, and I might even have hurt you.%D%A%D%A Meeting the wrong person at the right time, meeting at the wrong time. The right people are all the same, which is a kind of silent sadness. Everything is lost to time.%D%A%D%A I always look for excuses to fall, and I am afraid that one day, I don’t even think about the excuse of being lost. I found it. Tell yourself, the people around you also said so, time will prove everything, time will change everything.%D%A%D%A　But, now I still can't forget it.%D%A　I want to forget it. It is a lifetime of giving up; if you don’t forget it, it may be a lifetime of pain.%D%A Why do all things always have to be proven and verified by time? We are living people, but everything seems to be like this. Helpless. Giving up and chasing are both difficult choices, and letting time heal the wounds is the best escape and the best excuse to choose!%D%A So throw all the blame to time!%D%A Therefore, it is all the confusion caused by time! %D%A%D%A If we leave, we will be strangers! %D%A%D%A Simple strangers can be known, but it is difficult to know this kind of stranger again %D%A%D%A　How lonely and helpless it is to pass by the person you love%D%A%D%A　I also want to come to you, tell you that I love you, and announce to the world I love you.%D%A%D%A　But I really can’t do it. I don’t want to bother you anymore.%D%A%D%A　If I don’t really love you, if I don’t break my heart with pain, who will remember it? Who? %D%A%D%A Promises will only make myself more painful, so I never give you a promise and I am more afraid of hurting you! %D%A%D%A No matter how beautiful the flower is, it will always wither%! D%A%D%A　The world is small, let alone in the same city. Encounter is inevitable. But I know that no matter whether we meet again or not, we are destined to be strangers. After a quick glance, they went their separate ways. All the past days, the you I once loved, have become fading memories.

No matter whether the melancholy is always lingering, no matter whether the pain will never recover, no matter whether there is still love that has not been expressed, no matter whether we still miss each other forever because of the same years, after all, everything has passed. Life comes to us in different ways every day, and there is not much time to linger. We can only move forward, welcome, say goodbye, and then start. %D%A%D%A Alcohol is not a catalyst, but after drinking, I feel the urge to cry for no reason; maybe it’s because I think of the past, maybe it’s because I feel tired and want to cry quietly... I know that life and... Growing up, I was very fragile, and wine just gave me a reason and cover to cry. %D%A The twists and turns of life, the bumpy growth, the pain along the way, a person's loneliness and strength, are all quietly released after the anesthesia of alcohol. What flows in the tears is the sadness of my youth... ,,%D%A%D%A Suddenly, I wanted to get drunk; I thought I would forget it when I was drunk, but it seems I was wrong! It's hard to let go of emotions, and despair of all thoughts. Although it's not heartbreaking, it's still unforgettable! The mixture of confusion, disappointment, melancholy and helplessness left me breathless! Unknowingly, I became obsessed with the past! Love is no longer a sin, hate is no longer a relief, longing and memories brew into a cup of beautiful but unbearable strong wine in the light lovesickness, which makes me intoxicated! Suddenly, I want to be alone and decadent, because there is no one who makes me not tired!%D%A%D%A Like someone is a feeling, but not liking someone is a fact. Facts are easy to explain, feelings are indescribable. Love is when someone suddenly feels like the same person as before, and our hearts suddenly have an earth-shaking feeling. We really want to be close to her, want to hug her. No matter whether we are happy or sad in the future, we don't think about why we loved her in the first place. Only when we don't love someone do we find out why we don't love them. %D%A%D%A When you stand in front of the person you love, your heartbeat will speed up; but when you stand in front of the person you like, you only feel happy; when you talk to the person you love, you It feels hard to talk; but when you talk to the person you like, you can talk freely. When the one you love cries, you will cry with her; but when the one you like cries, you will comfort him skillfully. When you no longer love someone, you will close your eyes and hold back tears; when you no longer like someone, you just cover your ears. %D%A%D%A In the end, love can only love one person, but love can like many people! Some people say that like is a light love, but love is a deep liking. Human emotions are actually very complex, and sometimes they are often hard to explain or understand. You can only respect your own feelings when facing each other and cherish each other with your heart. %D%A%D%A It only takes a second to fall in love with someone and forget them. . . . . . But it takes a lifetime. %D%A%D%A According to legend, there is a kind of soup that will make you forget everything after drinking it. Forget all sorrow, forget all hatred, forget all unpleasantness and things that you want to forget in your memory. Of course, that also includes forgetting love, forgetting love...%D%A If you forget sorrow, there will be no sorrow, and you can stretch out your wrinkles. eyebrows, worried face. All the unfairness and unhappiness in daily life will go away with forgetfulness, and people will become clearer, as if the sky covered by dark clouds suddenly turned blue. %D%A Forgetting hatred means staying away from hatred. When the heart is not blinded by hatred, when everything becomes a passing cloud, people will feel relaxed. Forgiving others will also save themselves. %D%A If you forget love and forget love, you also forget everything you don’t want to remember. When you are struggling to love someone, when you are helplessly hesitating for a relationship, suddenly forgetting is such a great happiness%D%A%D%A No one can be so free and easy. , no one can truly forget! The days of love, hurt, and pain can never be erased. The passage of time increases the pain in the memory. It makes the pain clearer, makes the heart more haggard, makes love, hate, love and resentment...%D%A%D%A If you learn to forget, you will also learn to forgive yourself and save yourself. Since you love without regrets, separation always has its helplessness. When a person goes from childish knowledge to thinking he has seen through the world and this society, it is all a journey of the mind. In fact, this is not the case. There are too many written truths and too little real understanding. It is human nature to blame others and blame others, and most people are selfish. Life is only a few decades long, why are you so exhausted? Why not learn to forget? Blindly pursue perfection, but in this world, there is no perfect thing at all. Perfection is a defect, and defective things are truly perfect. This is especially true in life. People who live without regrets are not happy.

So the pursuit of perfection is actually the pursuit of a perfect mentality. %D%A%D%A In fact, giving up is also a kind of beauty, giving up silently once, giving up a favorite but undestined friend; giving up a lot of investment but no harvest feelings; giving up some silly expectations; giving up someone The one I love. %D%A%D%A Listen to the music again and tell the story again in the new time and space! Because this is a kind of natural farewell and giving up, it is full of detached spirit, so it is sad and beautiful! There was a feeling that I wanted to make it forever. After many years, I found that it had gradually disappeared. %D%A%D%A Then I realized: %D%A What we hold in our hands is not necessarily what we really have; what we have is not necessarily what we really engrave in our hearts! In fact, many times in life you need to consciously give up! There are so many beautiful things in the world. We have been yearning for and pursuing the beauty we do not have. %D%A%D%A　Busy in order to obtain. In fact, what you really need can only be understood after many years of experience, and you may even spend your whole life without knowing where it will end! And for the good things we already have, we have a sense of anxiety and worry because of the experience of often gaining and losing them. %D%A%D%A The sigh of the sunset, the worries of blooming and falling flowers, life is inherently unhappy! Because when we have it, we may be losing it, and when we give it up, we may be gaining it again. In fact, we cannot have absolute certainty about everything. If you deliberately pursue and possess, it will be difficult to get rid of the misunderstanding of worrying about gains and losses. Therefore, life needs to sublimate a quiet and detached spirit. People who understand know how to give up, people who are sincere know how to sacrifice, and happy people know how to transcend! %D%A%D%A　“I didn’t come to this world because of you, but I am more attached to this world because of you!%D%A%D%A　If I could be with you, I would be full of love for this world. Grateful, if I couldn’t be with you, I would walk away silently, but I would still not lose my love and gratitude for this world. I am grateful to God for allowing me to meet and part with you, to complete a poem created by God!” Life gives us endless sorrow and eternal answers.

%D%A%D%A Therefore, An Ran gives up and sticks to detachment! No matter how the worldly life changes, no matter what personal choices are, no matter how heavy the things in our hands are, we are brave even though we are escaping, and we are happy even though we are sad! We are walking towards the depths of life as usual, we are gradually giving up and becoming firmer as usual! %D%A%D%A There is a feeling that is always recognized as "missing" when you have insomnia; %D%A%D%A There is a fate that is always believed to be "eternal" after waking up from a dream; %D% A%D%A There is a kind of vision that is always seen as "nostalgia" when we break up; %D%A%D%A There is too much love that cannot be realized in life%D%A Some people will end this love with regrets %D%A　Some people will continue this love with a smile%D%A???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? The realized love still shuttles between the spirit and the body%D%A The love for Hanyun is the love that I cannot realize%D%A No matter how deep the fantasy is, it is just a fantasy after all%D%A No matter the eyes of expectation How profound but ultimately fruitless heartbreaking%D%A I am older than Hanyun%D%A Normally, my life would end earlier than Hanyun%D%A If we could live together% D%A　But if I leave first, Hanyun will live a lonely life. This is the result that I cannot bear to see%D%A. My ordinary nature also makes me clearly realize the impossibility of this kind of love%D%A Even if I strive hard, will the pointer of reality allow a miracle to appear to embellish my ordinary life%D%A I know this situation is slim%D%A There will be too many people who like and love Hanyun%D% A: Do I have enough ability to win in this competition of love%D%A I know the probability is low but I still imagine that the impossible opportunity will come to me%D%A Love%D%A Hard work and sweetness%D%A Realized love%D%A That is an achievement celebrated with joy and smile%D%A Unrealizable love%D%A More of a helpless shaking of the head in regret and pain%D %A A deep understanding of a person will make love develop and continue deeper%D%A A deeper understanding of Han Yun also allows my subtle love for her to continue to ferment and brew a more mellow taste%D% A: But I found that the initial plain attention has now evolved into a subtle feeling, and I realized that I had fallen in love with her%D%A. I know that I am very whimsical%D%A, but the seeds of this love are still sprouting and growing. Still continuing her pregnancy%D%A Love may not be realized%D%A Just don’t wake up your sleeping self and let yourself face the cruelty of reality%D%A Self-deception is also a kind of relief and a way to deal with pain and helplessness Choice%D%A Loving Hanyun is my dream%D%A Liking Hanyun is my dream%D%A Supporting Hanyun is my dream%D%A Let these dreams continue their sweetness%D %A　Let these dreams continue their slumber%D%A Let these dreams continue their splendor%D%A I once asked the sky if there is an afterlife%D%A If there is still Hanyun in the next life, I will still be there %D%A Will I remember my love and affection for Hanyun in this life? %D%A Will I continue to pursue and work hard like this in this life? %D%A Heaven has not answered%D%A But my question still remains I am continuing%D%A But at the same time I am also calming myself%D%A I want to analyze and clarify my thoughts and behaviors%D%A I want others to know%D%A I love her% D%A A kind of pure love%D%A A kind of subtle love%D%A A kind of love that cannot be realized and inherits dreams%D%A This kind of love tells me that what I pay is worth it%D%A%D %A: There is a kind of feeling that is always understood to be "lost" after parting. %D%A%D%A I hope my brother and his wife can live happily every day. %D%A%D%A I haven’t contacted my family for a long time. The phone suddenly rang today and I picked up the phone. It's mom! %D%A I am so happy. Facing the arrival of the New Year, I really miss home and want to go home and reunite with my family. But being far away from home, I couldn’t do anything. "Mom," I called.

But I heard my mother's voice on the other end of the phone tremble a little, "What's wrong?"%D%A　"Oh, it's nothing, I just miss you a little..."%D%A　Obviously I know that my mother has something to say to me He said, "If you have anything to say, just say it." I urged. %D%A "That's right," Mom said, "Yesterday I went to burn paper for your father, because it requires a boy to burn paper. So I went to your uncle's house and asked your uncle to help burn it, but your grandfather didn't like me. , they all disagreed, everyone ignored me, and finally..." Mom's voice choked up. %D%A "That's enough! Stop talking!" Unknowingly, my tears flowed down. A picture appeared in front of me. It turned out to be my father's smiling face. I imagined what my mother said. I didn't dare to listen anymore and hung up the phone, my heart still couldn't calm down. %D%A I used to want to see them so much, grandpa, grandma, uncles, aunts... at least that’s what I thought before I answered this call. But now I have changed my mind. Is this person worth missing? I really want to ask them, uncle, my father is your biological eldest brother, have you forgotten how he died? Without my dad, would you be where you are today? If your father hadn't been cutting firewood in the mountains to earn money for your studies when you were a child, would you be as happy as you are now? Why? Why can't you even do this most basic thing? Are you worthy of your own conscience? Even if you are biased against my mother, is it wrong for her to ask you to help my father burn paper? Why are you so cruel? Why? %D%A Grandpa, I know you have always disliked my mother. You have so many sons, and they are all so outstanding. What does it matter if you lose one of my fathers? Is that what you think? I feel really bad for my dad. Is family love so unworthy of testing? Will you also ignore me if I don’t make any money when I come back? Why? Why do you only see money but no family affection? Can family affection be compared with money? Can family love be measured in money? %D%A I am just a child. In my impression, dad is the greatest. I had never imagined before that the separation would come quietly, and how pale it would be in my heart! If my father were still alive, I wouldn’t have passed high school and then started working. Wouldn’t it be a pity to give up such a good education? If my father were still alive, my mother would not be discriminated against like this, and I would not be homeless. %D%A　Oh, God! Why is it so unfair? Why do I let the person who loves me most in the world leave me? Why? Dad, where are you now? Can you hear the call of your beloved daughter? tell me what should i do? %D%A A phone call made me think a lot. It’s time for me to work hard. For dad, mom, and more importantly for myself...