Don’t worry, don’t worry

Some things happen without cause or effect.

Some love, no fate, no share, still intoxicated.

In this battle of love without gunpowder, I stubbornly believed that I had never lost to you. However, after a chance encounter some years later, I suddenly realized that there is no winning or losing in love.

Don’t miss it, don’t get hurt.

In the year of graduation, I left the city that made me despair and exhausted physically and mentally. I thought I would never come back and see you again in this life. I have tried hard to change the fingerprints of my fate, but I never expected that there is a deeper desolation hidden behind my fate. In front of the torrent of fate, we are as insignificant as dust. We can only let fate control us, meet and fall in love, and finally end tragically in an unexpected way.

Due to a business trip for the company, I returned to the city where I spent four years in college, a city that was once unforgettable and full of scars. It’s been a long time since we last saw each other, but the city’s landscape remains the same, but people’s moods have undergone earth-shaking changes. I carried my luggage and stepped into the hotel door with a complicated and heavy heart. "Mo Nian" didn't take a few steps before he was stopped by a deep and gentle voice.

The moment I turned my head, a familiar yet unfamiliar figure came into my sight. I froze in place, tears rolling in my eyes. I bit my trembling lips and couldn't say a word for a long time. "Mo Nian, it's really you. How are you doing?" Mo Sang greeted with surprise and caution. I don't know if the answer is good or bad. Finally, the word "not bad" slowly came out of his mouth.

Good or bad are just moods that are not worth mentioning in four years of separated love. So what if love is gone. Mo Sang, you will never understand after all. Mo Sang handed me a business card. I took it calmly and turned around and left without giving Mo Sang a chance to continue the conversation. I was afraid that my tightly held tears would eventually burst out, and I was even more afraid that Mo Sang would see me in such a miserable state. However, the moment he turned around, tears couldn't stop flowing down, and his vision gradually blurred.

Mossan, I thought we would say goodbye and forget each other forever. I thought I would hold my head high and turn a blind eye to you standing in front of me, but I was wrong after all. The moment I met you, I couldn't help but have red eyes.

"1" His name is Mo Sang, and he is a senior in the same department as me in the third year of my freshman year. I first met Mo Sang in the freshman club recruitment center. I vaguely remember the night after returning from military training, Mo Sang, dressed in a suit and leather shoes, knocked on the door politely and entered. Standing in the middle of the dormitory, he was so handsome and gentle as jade.

I am a person who does not believe in love at first sight. I used to be paranoid that love at first sight was too illusory and only existed in novels or TV plots. But the moment I saw Moissan, I was convinced. Love at first sight exists. Mosang is the Minister of Sports. He patiently and enthusiastically introduced his club, the Sports Department. Finally, he smiled at me and asked, "Sister, is there anything else you want to know?"

The moment I entered Mosang, my heart was beating like a deer. non-stop. I have long been unable to extricate myself from being intoxicated by Mo Sang's delicate appearance and outstanding temperament. "Mo Nian, the senior is asking you," she hurriedly returned to reality after being reminded by her roommate Xiao R. I blushed and replied incoherently, "Yes, I want to sign up." Mo Sang smiled helplessly, "This school girl is so cute." In this way, for Mo Sang, I entered the physical education department.

So every Tuesday became the day I looked forward to the most, because during the regular meeting on Tuesday I could watch Moissan up close and unbridled. Every Tuesday, I would give up the opportunity to have lunch and come to the classroom where the meeting was held early just to sit in the first row. At that time, my biggest wish was for Mo Sang to notice me. Later, I added Mo Sang from the Sports Department’s QQ group, and every night I would stare at Mo Sang’s profile picture in the list. Every beat will make me excited for a long time, even if it is a task notice from the sports department.

"Two" Mo Sang was so outstanding when he was a student, and every part of his body exuded a light that others could not match.

Mo Sang is recognized as the male god among the girls in the school, and is the right-hand man in the eyes of teachers and school leaders. I knew that there was a long distance between me and Mo Sang, so I silently followed Mo Sang's steps, regardless of the hardships of the journey and the difficulties before me. Just to be able to stand next to Mo Sang gloriously one day and become the golden boy and girl that everyone envies, a talented man and a beautiful woman.

The annual sports meeting is an opportunity for members of the sports department to show off their skills. It is also an excellent opportunity for Mosang to notice me. With no athletic ability, I signed up for the women's 3000-meter event without hesitation. Every morning, I would get up early and drag my exhausted body to the playground to practice running. Then I would be tortured endlessly by the pain of dozing off in the morning class. In every scorching afternoon, I still run on the playground track with the scorching sun above my head, sweat soaking my clothes and soaking the entire track. During that time, my skin was tanned by the scorching sun, and I fell behind a lot in my homework.

For countless late nights, I sobbed quietly in bed. For several moments, I wanted to give up. But every time, Mo Sang's face would appear in my mind. Mo Sang became my only spiritual support, supporting me through countless painful moments. The sports meeting came as scheduled, and my efforts were not in vain. I won the first place in the women's 3000-meter event. Standing on the podium and looking at the admiring glances from Mo Sang, all the sadness and pain were quietly let go at that moment.

As he walked off the podium, Mo Sang said jokingly, "Mo Nian, I didn't expect that you, despite your weak appearance, are actually an athlete. I really admire you." I pretended to be relaxed and replied, "Well, you underestimated me. So easy." But Mo Sang, you know, behind everything that seems effortless is a lot of hard work, but you never know my hard work. .

"Three" gradually became familiar with Mo Sang during the subsequent interactions, and the conversation content on QQ gradually evolved from task notifications to casual conversations. Every moment when I miss Mo Sang, I will take out my mobile phone and look through the chat history with Mo Sang page by page, and then recall every word over and over again. The phone screen unlock also quietly changed to Mo Sang's birthday, but Mo Sang didn't know anything at this time.

The New Year’s Day party is coming soon. I overheard from my classmates that Mo Sang was the male host for New Year’s Day this year. In the recruitment competition for female hosts, my Mandarin is not very good and I wrote down mine without thinking. The name is "Mo Nian". So I began to practice my pronunciation hard, and began to study every action and expression of the party host. Among the many outstanding ones, I finally stood out and became Mo Sang’s hosting partner. That night, I finally stood next to Mo Sang in my evening dress. That night, Mo Sang and I finally became what others call a talented and beautiful woman. It’s just that I know that talents and beauties are just what others say, nothing more.

Mo Sang kept running forward, and I tried my best to catch up with Mo Sang. Mo Sang liked to read, so I borrowed stacks of books from the library and read them day and night. Mo Sang liked photography, so I worked hard part-time and finally bought a camera with the money I earned from part-time work. Mo Sang likes to travel, so I researched the cities he wanted to visit thoroughly. I work hard to become what Mo Sang likes, and I work hard to be excellent, excellent, and excellent. Finally one day, I became the girl beside Mo Sang, no longer just the girl other people said.

"Four" It was at a social gathering that I, slightly drunk, finally mustered up the courage to confess my love to Mo Sang. Mo Sang was stunned for a while, and then fell into deep silence. I didn't force Mo Sang to reply immediately, but turned around and left in Mo Sang's silence. That night, I left early with the excuse of something else. The wind was biting on the road back to school, but I broke out in a hot sweat. Either happy or nervous.

The next night, when I was about to fall asleep, I suddenly received a text message. There were only three words in the text message: "girlfriend" and the sender was "Mosang". I stared at the phone screen and almost screamed with excitement. That night, I didn't sleep all night. That night, I had the first love of my life - Moissan.

In his senior year, Mosang served as the president of the school student union. With Mo Sang's help, I successfully entered the school student union, and my abilities and social skills have been greatly improved.

Mo Sang taught me a lot about human nature. During my interaction with Mo Sang, I changed from a girl who was not familiar with the world to a strong man who was able to navigate the social arena with ease. Mo Sang was very kind to me and took great care of me. When I was nine years old, I thought I had caught the whole summer if I caught that cicada. When I was nineteen years old, I kissed Mo Sang on the face and thought I could be with Mo Sang forever.

However, beautiful things are often short-lived and fleeting. Mo Sang always chooses blue clothes for me when I go shopping. He says I look best in blue. He would always make me rose tea that I didn’t like, and he would always stare at me blankly, as if he was looking for another person through my eyes. Every time I tried hard to control my thoughts, and used the excuse that Mo Sang was good to me to blind myself. Falling deeper and deeper in love with Moissan. But all the peace was finally broken by a girl named Meisheng, and all the previous doubts were explained by this girl named Meisheng.

Meisheng is Mo Sang’s ex-girlfriend. The day Mo Sang agreed to be with me was also the day Mei Sheng and Mo Sang broke up. Meisheng got my phone number from Mo Sang and asked me to meet at BIUE. Meisheng ordered a cup of rose tea. She said that rose tea has always been her favorite. Meisheng wore a long blue dress, which was noble and elegant. Meisheng said, "You are indeed somewhat similar to me. Mo Sang has indeed not forgotten me." At this time, I was as embarrassed as a clown when the fog was solved. It turned out that I had always existed as a substitute for others.

Later, Mo Sang and I broke up. On a hot summer afternoon, I felt cold all over while walking on the road. No matter how much I begged, Mo Sang turned around and left decisively. The last words Mo Sang left for me were "The person I have always loved is Meisheng, not you."

After I went back, I threw away all the objects related to Moissan, deleted all contact information with Moissan, and automatically blocked everything about Moissan. After graduating from college, I left the city where Moissan was located.

In life without Moissan, I strive to become better. I served as the president of the school's student union. After graduation, I entered a Fortune 500 company with my extraordinary abilities. I got everything I had ever hoped for. I thought that I had never lost to Mo Sang. But I was wrong, there is no winning or losing in love. No matter how I pretend to be strong, Mo Sang will always be a scar hidden deep in my memory. The moment we meet again, there will still be bleeding and pain.

Don’t think about it, don’t think about it, you will be obsessed with it all your life.

Mosang Mosang, a lifetime of vicissitudes.