Lost paradise, Danson Tang.

Episode 65438 +0

silent

When I am sad, I just bite my mouth tightly and breathe hard;

When you are angry, it doesn't matter if your fist hurts at all;

When you want to talk, the flowers and plants around you seem to have souls;

When you are injured, you should learn to hide and lick the wound like a wild animal;

When you are too tired to stand up, just lie down!

Look at your own paradise, it used to be so colorful,

Colorful and silent.

If he can, he wants to be a gardener and plant potted plants in his shop. Watching the flowers and plants planted by hand grow from germination to blooming, and smelling the Qingpu aroma from the soil at the fingertips will make him feel thoroughly remoulded and give himself some reasons to live in this world.

Those plants are quiet, but at least you can listen to him talking to himself; The trees will not make his loneliness seem out of place; Even if they are bad, they won't hurt anyone.

In his childhood memory, human beings are selfish. A seriously ill mother kicked a child who had been hungry for several days into a human ball from the ruins in the name of her happiness. He also knows that more similar things happen in other corners, which seems to be an eternal truth.

Once I was hungry and cold, and there was only one thought in my mind: I have to live hard until I die, as long as I can. He survived with this simple and firm belief. Then I realized that even lovely fairy tales are a jungle!

Therefore, he doesn't have to pity himself or others.

As long as you think so, how much it lightens the heavy memory, at least, thinking of the red blood on those strange faces, the heart-wrenching pain will no longer make him so painful.

He is not good at emotional overload. Fortunately,

Apart from coffee and flowers in the room, he only has a telephone to contact his employer, a heavy machine and a single bed.

"One" is a lonely number.

After a long time, you will get used to it.

The shadow is like this.

He is a killer, a killer who wants to be a gardener.

He often wears mourning clothes,

For those souls who don't know, and for himself.

A shovel of dirt filled the hole between the flowers and plants, as if burying a person gently.

So he put on the cross, and whenever a life dies before his eyes,

The eulogy of redemption was ironed on the chest,

Slowly eroding his wound.

If this goes on, maybe someone will kindly help him end it one day.

Shadows occasionally think so.

This became a bright hope in his desperate life.

He held the cross tightly and prayed that day by accident.

Once upon a time, Ying liked to spy on a person with a long lens.

I don't know the other person's name, but I can clearly see his whole person in miniature.

Small and unguarded.

His life focuses on round and bright lenses.

The assassination target of this mission points to lush mountains.

Talking happily to his girlfriend with his back to the camera beside him,

Maybe he talked about two or three things about the future, maybe!

For an instant, the shadow wanted to know what happy outline his figure would have.

He closed his eyes and ended the distractions that sprouted from his heart. When I opened my eyes again, I saw the blue sky in front of me, and the man's back turned into a very clear black spot.

He pulled the trigger, and there was a smell of fishy smell in the air besides scattered smoke.

The little figure fell down.

Like a broken puppet, it's so heavy that even the girl next to it can't get up.

"Help! Somebody help us. Help! " The frightened girl struggled for help.

Shadow can't help but stop for a minute. The vague figure of the helpless girl reminded him of his former self and poor mother.

He frowned painfully and held the gun until his fingers ached. Why did his chest hurt badly this time?

That's obviously a common occurrence for him. Yes! He just saw deja vu, and no one reached out to help him at any time. Life is so capricious and fragile.

Took a picture of a movie, and the parting picture became one of his collections.

He also hopes that his collection can be gentle and beautiful, like cotton candy in a child's hand. However, he has never taken photos of family gatherings, and this life is doomed to have no chance with them.

"You did a good job." The employer said.

I was puzzled when I gave a copy of the photo to my employer. Is this evidence of completing the task or proof that I have a heart of stone?

He was paid handsomely, and the heavy figures sometimes overwhelmed him. It was all over, and the girl's sad voice kept his heart at the top of that mountain.

Lingering, like scattered ripples, intertwined with a short childhood, and slipped away.

As soon as the task was completed, Shadow quickly unloaded all the equipment, put on ordinary clothes and returned to his residence as an ordinary person.

Walking on the deserted spiral staircase, footsteps knocked off the lonely echo.

It was an old apartment with peeling walls and a musty smell accumulated over the years, and rats could be heard walking on the ceiling.

Not very glamorous, but this is his position in this city. Small and cold is enough.

Second set

meet with

If I hadn't met you,

Me, what will it be like? What about me?

Perhaps, I won't suddenly feel that today's sky is as blue as the ocean;

I won't chuckle because I think of a memory of hiding from the rain;

You wouldn't expect the other end of the phone to ring;

I won't be confused by the feeling of missing, but I still can't help reading your name.

But I met you,

I can't imagine life without you.

It was an afternoon in late summer, and the last guest in the store had just left, and the golden light filled the empty exit.

Her footsteps are light, like a cat. At first, I didn't notice the shadow. It was her hair tips and gardenia trees passing by, whispering to each other. He looked at the light, and then he saw her.

Neither too early nor too late. What a coincidence that he met her at this glittering moment.

Just like the coincidence that he has known her for a long time, he can't tell why. "Everyone looked for him for thousands of times, and suddenly looked back, and the man was in the dim light." She looks so kind and sad.

The flowing wind is still, and the fragrance of vanilla garden condenses on her Gherardini mouth. If she says she is an angel, he will believe it, too.

"Are you the boss?" She looked at the shadow for a moment and asked.

Shadow stood up slowly, his hands were full of dirty mud, and in front of her, he felt ashamed involuntarily.

Seeing that he didn't answer, the girl wondered, "Aren't you?"

"I am." Cried, he couldn't even say who he was.

Seeing his slightly dull reaction, the girl smiled and asked, "Can I draw here?"

She said that she was a student at the University of Arts and often went to the mountains to paint. She passed by on her way down the hill. She thinks this garden shop is beautiful and wants to stay a little longer.

"Be my guest." This time he answered quickly and simply.

Guests come and go, no matter how long they stay, there will be a banquet after all, and he won't focus on anyone.

Unexpectedly, a few days later, the girl came again, as if she was keeping some kind of agreement and could see her every once in a while.

She still took one or two pictures she had finished painting on the mountain, picked a corner that would not disturb other guests and concentrated on painting.

Always say hello to Ying first, and talk about trivial things, for example, what are the names of the flowers planted now? It seems that the weather on the mountain is not very good today.

She is the only one who won't feel depressed in the face of precious response. Every time we meet, we still repeat the same old topic tirelessly, and later it even makes Ying feel funny. Looking at his sudden smiling face, the girl was shocked and didn't know what she had done.

"Some of your negative emotions must be very strong, right? I don't think you are easy to be sad. "

Once, when he was at work, he mentioned her strength half jokingly.

"Those sad feelings have probably been used up by me at one time!"

She just smiled mysteriously, walk on by.

Although there were many guests coming and going, after a long time, Ying began to care about the existence of this girl. She seems to be a sweet and talkative girl, but she is very quiet when painting, as if to devote all her energy and thoughts to painting, so absorbed that naughty children pass by noisily without bothering her. In a way, they are very similar, independent and incompatible with the people around them.

The girl's smile is so light that it can be easily blown away by a gust of wind.

The girl's painting is very sad, quieter than the withered winter.

Although the flowers are so presumptuous, there is not even a beautiful shadow in her empty eyes.

Ying was attracted by those familiar eyes, and could no longer hold any dreams and hopes. She is so similar that she can take off her eyeballs and put them into his body.

The rain suddenly began to rain, making a noise, as if to dispel the sweltering heat these days. He didn't expect to drive the girl into his shop.

Her hair was wet when she appeared, but she was glad that the painting tube was safe.

"Didn't you bring an umbrella?" He was surprised at her embarrassment.

She poked out her tongue playfully. "I always forget to bring my umbrella."

For a moment, the shadow didn't speak. He was angry with her for not taking care of herself, and because he had no reason to be angry, he was angry with himself and spoke coldly.

"Don't you know that a bad cold can also kill people?"

The girl was dazed, and her round eyes were full of water, as if she would fall off at a touch.

It was the first time that he realized that he had hurt the girl, but he couldn't figure out which word he had just said was barbed, so he had to throw a dry towel at her.

Holding a towel, the girl gently buried half of her face like a sad child who found comfort.

"It's so warm!"

The shadow kindly asked her to take shelter from the rain. He is not so hospitable at ordinary times, just because that girl gives him a sense of intimacy. To some extent, they are the same kind.

"How about coffee?" He picked up the cup.

"... no milk or anything? "She asked.

Shadow paused. He doesn't touch dairy products. How can I put it? It's like something that people with families drink.

"Sorry," the girl shrank apologetically. "I'm afraid of the bitter taste of coffee."

Shadow couldn't help laughing, after all, they are not the same!

"However, your coffee is delicious. I should like it." She told him thoughtfully.

After tasting a few mouthfuls, I found that the shadow brewed coffee added more cream and sugar, and the sweet warmth was intended to make the body cycle hot.

He must be a good man, and his kindness is always silent.

"Do you believe in heaven?" The girl touched the cross on his chest and asked unexpectedly and persistently, "Can you believe it?"

He paused. "I don't know if there is a paradise, but I believe that it is definitely not the place where bad people should go."

"You are not a bad person, how do you know you can't go?" She is persistent and lovely about the vision of heaven. "If they are bad people who turn to good, there must be a paradise where they can go."

Shadow noncommittally, distressed her stupidity. "Maybe there is no heaven at all?"

"yes. I know a place closest to heaven! "

She showed an obsessive look, like a child, talking about places with green grass on the mountain. Just reach out and you can touch the sky.

Heaven is eternal, and she wants to pull herself and her lover into that scene together.

It's just that my lover died unfortunately. Since then, no matter how many times she came to the same place, the pain of eternal separation between heaven and man always made her unable to describe her lover.

"My name is Li Er. In return for your coffee, I'll take you to see the nearest place to heaven next time. "

Episode 3

Enjoy your four seasons.

When you are sad and crying in summer,

You pretend to be angry in autumn,

Your shining winter,

So, what about spring?

Our time is not there yet,

So I want to hold your hand again and see what kind of scenery there will be.

Li Er comes from an ordinary family, her father is a retired civil servant, her mother is a housewife, and she has a sister. At first, because her sister chose the music department first, she was unconvinced and embarked on the road of art painting.

"Later, I really liked painting. I prefer painting landscapes. Don't you think my portrait looks like heaven? "

The first thing you should see is the top of the mountain in her painting. Later, she really took him to that place.

Li Er said that the place is beautiful, and the wind blowing from the valley is full of the ancient fragrance of trees and vines.

The side face she painted was full of the sadness and solemnity of the martyrs. She thought, if she was left alone, would she really go to heaven?

Is it because there is no one in the world who makes her want to stay?

But it's good to have her here.

He likes to be with her, as if he had drifted for a long time and finally had a place to stay.

He likes to listen to her ramble about trifles, as if ordinary life is not far away.

He likes to watch her smile, as if his indifference to coquetry would be forgiven.

"Ah! Why don't you talk about yourself? "

When it's quiet, Li Er will ask him gently.

"I have nothing to say." There is always a little hesitation before answering.

"I know you clearly, but I don't seem to know you as well as I thought;" I know your name and address, but I can't tell you more. "

"If you really see through me, you will be disappointed in me."

He smiled mournfully, but failed to find the loneliness that Li Er stopped asking.

However, when the shadow is more and more concerned about everything about Lear, her thoughts are unfortunately still stuck in a non-existent person.

He knows.

She shed tears at the photo in her wallet, and he sighed silently.

She was in a daze by chance, and he quietly wrote down the outline of her face.

Her hand touched him gently and he felt a corner of his heart melt.

He found that she was more cheerful every day, but he didn't dare to expect it. It was his own credit.

He wanted to kiss her, but he saw the struggle in her eyes.

When he thinks of her, he will wonder who she is thinking about at the moment.

For the shadow, Lill is his belief and his paradise.

"I know you shed tears for him, but my life is no longer barren and withered because of those tears."

"You don't know who I'm crying for, just as I don't know when your heart is no longer so defensive."

"Should I give up my identity as a killer?"

I wonder when he started asking himself the same question.

Huo Ran's idea, which had never wavered before, ran into his mind when he was carrying out a new task.

The mission was a success, but it should also be injured.

Like a street mouse escaping into a dark alley, he covered his bleeding wound and worried that he would never see tomorrow's Lill again.

In order to prepare for this mission, I haven't seen her for a long time, nor have I heard her voice. How is she?

Shadow struggled to catch his tired body and limped back to his residence. In the dizzy field of vision, I accidentally saw a familiar figure under the street lamp, thin, but never so tightly holding his heart.

She turned her head to one side and found him, and the whole person lit up.

"Li Er, why are you here?" The shadow carefully hid the wound.

"I was just passing by, thinking that I might be waiting for you. I am awesome! " She sniffed her nose, which was red with cold, and smiled.

Liar, obviously waiting here for a long time, even my hair has become cold.

"Shadow?"

He leaned against her, smelled the faint fragrance of her hair, panicked and stopped.

"Are you okay? You are different in peacetime! "

"I'm fine. It's good to see you. "

It turns out that I miss you so strongly that I hold my heart firmly until my heart aches and I am deeply moved.

There is nothing to hesitate about! He secretly made up his mind

He wants to get rid of this sad life! He wants to live next to Lill!

After making up my mind not to be a killer, I should have received a phone call from my employer. He refused without thinking, but the situation did not allow him to do so.

There is a gang that has a great influence on society. To solve the gang boss, we must borrow the skills of the shadow.

"If you don't answer, no one else can do it." The employer strongly reminded, "Think about the consequences of the imbalance of triad order."

"I quit, I can't do it anymore."

The employer said in a high voice, "Tell you what! Consider it the last time. I won't call you again. "

Shadow bit her lower lip tightly and hesitated for a long time. "... I promise. "

He thought, this is the last time.

The fourth episode

miss

Sometimes I feel lonely because the person I miss is not around.

Sometimes hope seems slim, because there is no courage to pursue it.

Sometimes we regret it, because time cannot be reversed.

Sometimes there is no special reason between your hands.

Just because you missed it, you missed it.

"Tomorrow is your birthday, and I want to send you a gift at the first time!" Lill agrees with the shadow excitedly.

"You don't have to give me anything."

He hasn't received any gifts, and he can't even remember his childhood birthday.

"I just want to give you a gift," she insisted, as if seeing through a part of him, "so that you can have something to cherish."

I already have one. The shadow stared at her son tenderly without saying anything.

He is very happy, obviously very happy, but he doesn't know what to do.

Now he is very happy and worried that all this will be as fragile as a dream.

"The gift for you also helps me to sort out my feelings. After reading it, you will understand that I have left the past behind. "

When Li Er said those words, his sad expression showed determination, as if he had secretly made up his mind.

Nevertheless, on the eve of her birthday, Lill went to the mountain early in the morning to paint, thinking that she should never forget that person!

The shadow of that person will always be branded in her heart, and he will inevitably see the brand of missing in her eyes.

However, he is still with her, so stupid himself, even he feels incredible.

After coming back from the mountain, Li Er was so tired that he fell asleep on the sofa.

The shadow crouched beside her, staring at her sleeping face like this. I think even if time stands still, it will be a kind of happiness.

Shadow found the wallet that fell to the ground out of the corner of her eye. When she picked it up, she touched the photos that often made her cry.

In that photo, the man next to Li Er looks a little familiar.

The more he stared at that face,

A precognitive fear will gather into a pool of cold water bit by bit, penetrate into the body from the soles of the feet and climb up his cold back.

No, it can't be him! It shouldn't be!

Shadow rushed back to the room to find the archive photos of the past shooting target.

His hand fumbled wildly among piles of various faces, and those pale faces came straight at him with unbearable memories, which made him sick.

Then, he saw the man who looked like the man in the wallet photo!

In an instant, the rushing blood and shortness of breath stopped.

"It's him!"

The man who was attacked by a shadow on the mountain turned out to be Li Er's dead lover!

Shadow can't believe it, drop the photo and run out the door!

"My boyfriend died here. At that time, I was alone. It's no use asking for help. No one heard me shout. I'm sad and scared! Watching his body temperature slowly get cold in my hands and watching him die like this seems like a nightmare. But I often wake up in tears and find that all this is not a dream, it is true. Although I can eat, sleep and draw as usual, he is gone, there is no corner, and I can't find him anywhere, because there is only one person missing in this world! "

It suddenly occurred to him that when Li Er was painting on the mountain, she once talked about the past, and the nightmare she told pulled him back to the past. Yes! The top of the mountain under the clear sky in Wan Li, the clear figure in the long lens, the haunting voice. ...

He was there when it happened! It's him! He did it!

He heard the crash.

Once so close to heaven, is collapsing, and Li Er * * * has a past, present and future.

All turned into small pieces of rubble.

In fact, the shadow has long been self-aware, and there is no paradise for people like him.

He killed many people, most of whom had an abominable face. On one occasion, however, he withdrew his gun and was ready to leave. A little girl passed by him. I heard the little girl call the man who fell to the ground "Dad" and thought his father was still sleeping.

At that moment, he felt a sharp knife stab deeply into his chest, as if the dead man had fought back, leaving an indelible scar in his heart.

From that day on, he realized something. One day, he will fall heavily, roll in the abyss and fall to pieces!

I just didn't expect that day to come like this!

Zhang Zhang's hand, he looked at the empty palm and couldn't catch anything.

Knowing Lill, he began to yearn for heaven with a glimmer of poor hope. Maybe, as Lill said, there will be a paradise where people like him can go.

"So I am the real naive person ..."

Shadow has a hazy heart, drunk, may temporarily paralyze the feeling of a splitting pain.

He is the last person who wants to see Lill sad. Unexpectedly, he took her lover's life.

In the future, how should he face Li Er?

Can they have a future?

Suddenly, the employer called to inform the location of the shadow gang boss.

His mind was in chaos and he felt sorry for himself for the first time.

Put on the clothes for the task in a hurry and look back at the direction of the sofa.

Lear's innocent sleeping face made him reluctant to give up and was in great pain.

"Maybe, only by getting rid of my past can I be with you!"

The shadow came to the designated place to wait for the mob boss. I don't want my hands to be stained with bloody resistance and convince myself that this is the last struggle, which is entangled in his mind.

When I saw the mob boss coming out of the hotel,

Pick up the gun and turn your back on the camera.

Who knows that the indelible drunkenness has blurred the line of sight again and again.

"Bah!"

He gave up his pike now, took out his pistol and rushed at the gangster.

The emotion that wants to end everything can't tell whether it is anger or anxiety.

After a sweep, his gun was aimed at the boss's face quickly and accurately.

The frightened expression was instantly mistaken for Li Er's dead lover.

The sight of the top of the mountain reappears vividly in front of my eyes!

Shadow lost his mind, and his hesitation before pulling the trigger made the boss seize the opportunity to shoot him.

A burning pain runs through the abdomen!