October·Xinyu slightly wavered

October is the season of autumn. The sky in October is pure and clear, and the endless blue is filled with the hope of harvest and the joy of harvest.

The wind in October, warm and cool, swirled her familiar dance posture, kissed my cheek quietly, whispered my heartfelt words in my ear, and evoked the feelings I had in my heart. Faint memory.

(1)

Sometimes it is really tiring to think about life, but life is like this, it cannot be smooth sailing, there will always be some things that make me unhappy and make me unhappy. I remember when I was a child, my grandma told me that the most real days are the days with bitterness and sweetness. A person cannot live too smoothly. A comfortable life will paralyze a person's mind and make him spend his whole life doing nothing. Just imagine, a mediocre person lives in confusion all day long, not knowing the heights of the sky and the depths of life, and what is the so-called life. How is this kind of life different from that of a fool? What is the meaning of such a life?

I often feel an inexplicable sadness in my heart. Is life unhappy? Or my demands on life are too high. I shook my head, actually it was neither. In fact, many times, it is my own vanity that causes trouble. Life is your own. Whether you are happy or not is entirely up to you. Only you know whether you are happy or not. Because I have too much helplessness in my heart, I often let my thoughts be immersed in a kind of contradiction. There are some things that I still don’t understand how I should do the right thing. Maybe there are some things in this world that never have a reason or a correct answer.

Am I content? asked myself countless times. Yes, I am very content with a stable life and comfortable days. But why am I still chasing those so-called dreams? It turns out that people are like this, and they can never be satisfied. The same is true in life, the pursuit is always endless. To say that I am content is actually a reason to comfort myself. In fact, many times, when I envy others, others also envy me. No one can truly be content with their current situation, and no one can be truly satisfied with the happiness they have. Perhaps it is because of this dissatisfaction that we continue to pursue and make progress.

(2)

I like listening to music, but I don’t understand music. I watched my daughter’s dexterous little hands dancing on the piano keyboard, playing beautiful songs one after another, but I couldn’t play a complete song.

I like silence, but only in the dead of night is the peace that truly belongs to me. Enjoying silence and enjoying your own time in tranquility is a real beauty.

I like words. I like to indulge in my own words to understand myself and express my emotions. It is a kind of spiritual comfort and sustenance. Words know my heart, and they sparkle the happiness and sadness deep in my heart. I am looking for scattered memories in words, releasing my inner entanglements, waiting for the eternity I hope for, and longing for a better future. Words bring me so much courage and also add positive confidence to me.

I like to be happy, but I often add heavy and depressed emotions to myself. In my opinion, happiness and sadness are the main subjects of life and appear every day. Whether it is happiness or sadness is entirely up to you. There is always more sadness than happiness in life. In fact, it is not that I am unhappy, but that I like sadness and the feeling of being immersed in sadness. Sadness is a feeling and does not fully represent a person's emotions. That feeling can calm my mind and give me more inspiration. Sadness can reveal the pain of human nature, and using silent tears to wash away the filth of the world can be regarded as a kind of spiritual comfort.

I like the sea, its vastness as far as the eye can see, its broad and deep mind, and its turbulent momentum. So far, I have only seen the sea once. It was the year before last in Yantai, Shandong. When I saw such a vast and boundless sea for the first time, I was so excited and excited. I have imagined its vastness and depth thousands of times. When I actually faced the sea, I felt so emotional. Swimming in the sea, playing and joking with colleagues.

The bitter sea water poured into my mouth. I spit it out and then poured it into my mouth again. It felt so joyful and the joy was so unrestrained. I like walking on the soft beach with bare feet, listening to the sound of the waves, letting the moist sea breeze blow by my ears, and experiencing a different kind of romance. Sometimes I think about it, life is like the sea, with rising tides and ebbing tides. When the tide rises, helplessness is like the rolling tide, rushing into the sea of ????heart again and again; when the tide ebbs, the helplessness gradually fades with the tide, and everything becomes calm again.

(3)

I am a person who is extremely nostalgic and a person who attaches great importance to love and justice. I always miss the people and things in the past. As long as I identify people and things, I will work hard and persist firmly. The persistence is a bit stubborn and stubborn, so stubborn that I can't extricate myself. I often feel that there is an invisible pressure suffocating me. In fact, I know that this is all the pressure I put on myself. Life does not require such meaningless persistence and pursuit. I know that this stubborn personality will hinder my enjoyment of happiness, but I still give it without regrets. Hold on, hold on

When you are bored, you log into the space to steal food, and entertain yourself with this kind of game. Regarding the game of stealing food, many people have become indifferent. But I have been persisting and unwilling to give up. My colleagues laughed at me for looking like a child, playing such a childish game and having so much fun. But I just smiled lightly. In my opinion, although stealing food is a game, it can also enrich myself and kill some boring time. Moreover, stealing vegetables can eliminate my inner irritability, calm my mental pressure, cultivate my patience, and calm my mentality. Since opening the QQ space game, I have been carefully taking care of my vegetable plot. I never thought that one day I would get tired of it or give up. In my opinion, as long as you like it, you don't have to care about other people's opinions. If you like it, stick to it; if you don't like it, give up. It's that simple.

There are too many things in life that need to be persevered, and there are also some things that must be given up. Persistence requires determination and courage, but giving up does not require determination and courage? How great would it be if I could really stick to what I should stick to and give up what should be given up. However, many times, persistence is so difficult. But in fact, more often than not, it is so difficult to give up. Therefore, many times, giving up may be just a momentary thought or an impulse. Instead of hesitating between persistence and giving up, why not just keep persisting. Persistence and giving up, in fact, more of life still requires persistence.

(4)

Looking at some friends on QQ, most of their avatars are hidden, and some are always hidden. In fact, I know they are always there. It's just that after getting along for a long time, we became familiar with each other and gradually became indifferent. The friendship between gentlemen is as light as water. No contact does not mean no concern. This is a friend. Although it is plain, I often think of it. People are far away from the heart but they are not far away. As long as each other's care and blessings always exist, you are good and I am good, that is enough. The rest can only be allowed to accumulate, close and become silent. Everything does not require too many words or too many plots. Sometimes silence is also a kind of concern, and waiting is also a blessing.

Some people just meet each other and look at each other during a hurried trip. The moment they meet, there is not much joy. There is no need to have too many regrets when we say goodbye; some people will stay in our hearts for a while, giving each other some warmth and comfort. Even though we leave one day and don’t see each other again, our memories are still clear and will never change from mine. Disappear in the world. If you leave, leave, don't let it go for a long time; if you are indifferent, just leave, don't ask why. 1/212Next pageLast page