I am a lonely person, living alone in this city and living a quiet and wave-free life.

When I am lonely, I like to linger on the Internet, reading posts and stories one by one.

Yang is a friend I met when I browsed the post. In his post, I saw the feeling of vicissitudes, pain and decadence, just like a glass of hard liquor. When I read his words, I always imagine a man wearing a black shirt, looking sad, sitting in front of the computer with a burning cigarette between his fingers and tapping on the keyboard.

I said, Yang, you are a sad person.

Yang said: Rain, the world is sad.

I smiled, noncommittally.

I am a mountain village girl, content with the status quo, without too many demands, only those who are insatiable will feel sad.

I will cook myself a delicious meal after work, then make a cup of tea, close my eyes and enjoy the peace.

Or climb on the window and stare at passers-by and watch them pass by in a hurry. Occasionally, couples pass by hand, and I will silently send my blessings with a smile.

Yang said: Rain, you are a lonely child.

Yes, I am a lonely child. I want to get away from the noise of the world, but I live in this city ambivalent.

Yang said: Maybe you need a love.

I smiled. I once loved him. He kissed me that evening. Although he married someone else in the end.

Yang said: Did you regret it after the rain?

I just let him listen to a song "The Lost Lover", then put on that long purple dress and squatted by a nearby lake, staring blankly at the clear waves of the lake.

two

I got a call from Qin and hurried to her residence.

Qin said, Yang, I'm going to die.

She always likes to declare her sovereignty and hegemony in this exaggerated way.

I saw her when I passed a small artificial lake.

Purple long skirt mopped the floor, with long black hair hanging down on her back, staring at the lake.

I suddenly remembered someone, Yu, a woman I met on the Internet the other day.

She said that she likes to wear long skirts and stare at the blue waves before dusk.

The cell phone in my pocket made a harsh sound, so I frowned and hung up the phone.

Just came to Qin's door, and when I opened the door, a washbasin came face to face.

What do you care about me? You'll hang up on me. Qin shouted.

Without explaining, I approached her and let her nails scratch my face and body. Pick her up and put her on the bed.

Get out, you get out. I don't want to see you. Her voice is a little hoarse.

I turned and walked towards the door, and she suddenly jumped on me and hugged me, her voice was as gentle as a kitten. No, don't go. I won't lose my temper.

Holding my arm, bloody and shocking, I took her to bed with pity, wrapped her in gauze and began to tidy up her messy room. Cook for her.

She was very quiet at this time, lying on the bed with her legs in her arms and looking at me quietly. This is heartbreaking.

I cooked the meal, filled her with a bowl, carried some dishes to the bed and handed them to her. Say to her, you eat slowly, I'm leaving.

She suddenly screamed and took my hand. I'm a little helpless, Qin. I have to go to work.

Her eyes turned red in an instant.

All right! I'll make a phone call and switch shifts with my colleagues. I will go with you. I pulled her hand.

Rain, do you still love me? She suddenly asked lightly.

Without speaking, I gently held her in my arms, picked up the rice with chopsticks and carefully delivered it to her mouth.

I love it! At least when I first met her, my heart was throbbing for her inexplicably.

I don't remember when there were criss-crossing knife marks on her white arm, which was terrible.

I tried so hard, but I never let her feel at ease with me. As long as I brush her once in a while, she will pick up a sharp blade and scratch her arm hard.

Looking at more and more knife marks on her arm, I will have a sense of fear. I'm afraid, I'm afraid that one day I will suddenly wake up and look pale. But I dare not leave her. I'm even more afraid that because I leave, she will wreak havoc on herself even more violently. ?

After calming her down, I gently closed the door and came out. I don't know when it began to rain, and it was a little cold on my face. Suddenly I remembered the rain, the woman in a long purple dress.

three

Yang Xiaozhen is still online. At this time, because tomorrow is the weekend, I will indulge myself in reading online until late at night.

Yang: Rain, why are you still up?

Rain: I will rest tomorrow, and I will play luxuriously for a while.

Yang: Rain, I suddenly missed you just now.

Rain: Really? Aren't you afraid that your queen will scare you again?

Queen is my nickname for Yang's girlfriend. From Yang's words, she is an overbearing and paranoid girl with a little self-abuse.

Such a woman makes people feel distressed and dare not leave easily. I even doubt that the man who kissed me like this will give up choosing me.

Yang: Rain, I saw a beautiful girl today, much like you.

Rain: I'm not beautiful at all. What you saw was definitely not me. I am sleepy. Good night

My work is relatively idle, so sometimes, I will walk leisurely and stroll slowly in the street.

I stopped my sight when I passed a street.

I saw a man, deja vu, and I remember once he hurried past me by the lake.

He stood quietly next to a good girl, and the girl suddenly turned around, waving her hands and hitting him with her fist like rain.

He didn't say a word, just looked at the girl quietly until the girl finished venting. He held the girl in his arms and whispered something.

When the girl raised her arm again, I saw the knife marks criss-crossing on her arm, which was shocking.

four

North came back with a triumphant smile on his face. His wife is the boss's daughter. Bay and I are colleagues. I loved him deeply, but in the end he chose the boss's daughter.

Hello! It is raining! North greeted me with a smile.

I smiled at him.

How was the company while I was away? North asked.

Colleagues are all working hard. I replied and walked to the office with the folder.

It's just that I can't escape something. Every time you pass by my office, you always touch me with gentle eyes. I'm the only one who knows that look.

Sometimes he would sneak up to my ear when no one was looking and whisper, "Rain, why didn't you stay?" .

I said to Yang: Yang, why do you pester someone endlessly and he doesn't like you? When you leave decisively, he will complain about your ruthlessness.

Yang said: people's hearts are full of selfishness and possession. Everyone wants others not to be betrayed by themselves.

I said, Yang, are you selfish?

Yang said: I am so selfish that I can't believe it.

I gave him a goodbye look and put on my purple coat. I wanted to go to the lake to see catkins, but I didn't make it.

When I passed the street, I saw the girl crying in the coffee shop. He stepped down from a luxury car, and the middle-aged man in the car left without mercy. She squatted in the corner with her arms in her arms, her face helpless, and the knife marks on the bare back of her hand were shocking. Somehow I felt a little distressed, so I took off my coat and put it on her. She looked up at me, hugged me and began to cry.

We are all lonely children, and we need warmth, even from strangers.

She said she was tired and wanted to run away, but she was always tied up. What should we do? What if he knows?

I said, shall I take you to see him?

She shook her head: I don't want him to see me in a mess, but I don't want to go home either.

I had to take her back to my cabin. She slept soundly and her tired body was a little cold.

When I woke up, she had already left. There is a note on the table-thank you!

I didn't ask her story. We all have our privacy. There's no need to pry.

five

Qin hasn't come to me for a long time. She dragged me to a snack bar when I came again. She was wearing a long white dress that day and her eyes were a little soft.

After entering the store, I suddenly found that the girl with a long purple dress who often works by the lake was also there. Plain and picturesque, with a sweet smile on her face. "What to eat?"

She nodded her head.

I suddenly found Qin's face a little uneasy. The girl didn't return to normal until she left.

Qin said: Let's go!

I'm a little surprised: what's the matter? Didn't you say you were coming?

Her face sank: when I say go, I mean go. Did you hear that?

I didn't speak, just bowed my head and took a sip of water. Stand up and come on! I don't want to argue anymore. I'm tired, really tired.

I looked back at the girl when I left. She didn't notice me.

The next day, I suddenly received an order from the company to work in a branch in another city. I'm a little disappointed. I went to that small shop alone. I learned from a girl that she doesn't work there, but she just took a day off to cover for a friend. I found her address and suddenly went to find her.

It was windy that day. I saw her standing on the roof, exhausted and with long hair fluttering. I suddenly have a panic at a loss. My words got stuck in my throat, and I couldn't make a sound, so I just smiled.

She saw me, too. First she was surprised, then she smiled. I suddenly settled down, and I saw a little warmth in her smile. I didn't bother her again and turned away. Actually, I just want to remember her, the girl in purple.

Walking on the road, I hesitated to tell Qin that I was leaving. I feel inexplicable pain in my heart, yes. I can't let her go after all.

I suddenly want a drink. When I crossed a street, a man and a woman were parking by the side of the road. The man forcibly hugged the woman and kissed her hard. The woman struggled desperately and her bare arm was scarred.

I rushed up, pulled the boy away and punched him in the face.

Get out of here Qin shouted.

Qin, I just want to save you. You can't go on like this. The boy wiped the blood from his face.

Shut up. None of you can save me. Qin held my hand tightly.

What the hell happened? I shook Qin's shoulder.

At this time, an expensive sports car stopped not far away. A middle-aged man waved in our direction: Qin, come here.

I looked at Qin, and she slowly released my hand and walked towards the middle-aged man.

Qin, I call her.

She looked back at me, her face full of despair. Then suddenly turned around, opened the door and sat up. The middle-aged man took a look at us and drove away.

In the bar, the boy told me about Qin with a cry and a smile. He told me that the man was Qin's lover, which means mistress. The boy cried and said that Qin was right. None of us can save her. We can't give her what she wants. It's just that every time I see her being beaten black and blue by that man, my heart hurts feebly.

I suddenly remembered what Qin told me: she said that her parents were abroad and would remit money to her every month. My heart suddenly twitched at the thought of the scar and despair on her arm, and I stumbled out of the bar!

On the edge of a street, I leaned against the wall feebly, and my heart twitched. I threw up on the wall, sat down on the ground and grabbed my hair with my hands.

Suddenly, I remembered someone, took out my mobile phone and dialed the number that had been saved for a long time but never called.

A soft female voice came from the other end of the phone: hello …

I was silent for a while and hung up the phone. I just want to hear that voice.

six

At noon that day, Bei came over: Yu, stay for a while and help me clean up my office.

I said to a female colleague who admired Bay: The manager needs help to clean up the office. I just have something to do. Can you help me?

Looking at her, she nodded excitedly and ran towards Beifu. I packed my things and sneaked into the restaurant.

When I went to work in the afternoon, Bei angrily came up to me with a dozen materials, slammed them in front of me and growled: Ai Xiaoyu, your head is full of paste. Such a simple report will be wrong.

I looked at the report that wasn't my handwriting at all on the desk, gave him a sarcastic look and then put it away.

Come to my office later. North left a message and turned to walk away.

I pushed open the office door, and Bay jokingly said, Rain, you finally came.

I'm here to ask you why you put the report made by others on my head. My voice has no emotion.

Bay looked at me contemptuously and said, I just want you to know that I can destroy you easily!

He closed the office, gently stroked my face, closed his lips and put his arm around my waist.

I woke up, pushed him away, opened the office door and ran out. I met two female colleagues who happened to pass by on the road.

It was widely circulated, but unexpectedly, all the spearheads were pointed at me. According to two female colleagues, they saw me running out of the manager's office in rags. North of the office looked sorry and said I shouldn't go to his office alone.

I became the third party to seduce the boss and others. Shame and ridicule are everywhere. This is the first time I have encountered such a change in 22 years, and I was caught off guard.

As long as you promise me, the rain will stop. News from the north.

I go back to the past: stop dreaming, I just think you are disgusting now.

On that day, my pro-North photo and dismissal notice were posted on the company bulletin board. I broke the glass with tears and tore up the photo in the ridicule of others. The glass cut my palm and a drop of blood fell to the ground. Nobody helped me.

I began to despair and walked in a daze. If the world is so dirty, what's the point of life? When I woke up, I found myself standing on the roof. By the light, I saw him, the man in black with a faint smell of tobacco. He stood not far away and smiled at me. I felt inexplicably warm in my heart, smiled and hugged him, and then watched his figure disappear.

I don't think he will know that his warm smile has kept my desperate heart.

That night, I received a phone call and I said hello. The phone suddenly hung up.

I suddenly remembered the man with a faint smell of tobacco.

My intuition tells me that something must have happened to Yang. I ran into the street and dialed his number back. As soon as the phone was connected, I heard Yang's voice choking: Rain, I'm so sad and tired.

My heart ached: Yang, I'm sad, too. I want to see you.

Yang said, there you are.

I am on Huancheng North Road.

I was on Huancheng South Road, and I heard his breathing and running on the phone.

I came to see you. As soon as I finished, my mobile phone suddenly turned off. I pressed the power button desperately, and the screen lit up and turned off automatically.

I ran to Huancheng South Road, and the cold wind penetrated into my collar and searched the street again and again. Finally, I squatted on the ground, leaning against the wall of the bar, and my tears flowed unscrupulously.

On this winter night, I am on the street of this city, looking for a strange and familiar man I have never met.

seven

That night, Yu's call back was unexpected. Her voice was sad and desperate. She said, Yang, I'm tired, too. I want to see you.

My heart tightened and I couldn't help running towards the North Ring Road where she was. Just as I was about to tell her that I was looking for her, the phone was suddenly disconnected. I stood there and dialed her number again and again. The mobile phone just reminds me to turn it off.

I didn't give up. I ran to Huancheng South Road and searched the whole street until I was desperate. When the sky turned white, I couldn't help calling her again. Fortunately, I survived this time.

Are you there? My heart is full of joy.

I went home. Sorry, my cell phone just died. The rain is still soft.

Well, I feel much better after hanging up the phone.

I never went to see Qin again. I don't know what to say or do to her. On the day I calmed down, I settled down, handed over my work and prepared to go to another city.

Colleagues pointed out the window and said, look, who is that girl?

Qin stood in the rain with a helpless face. She stared at my window in despair and shook her cell phone when she saw me.

I turned on my cell phone and got a message from her: If you don't come, please take my body.

I looked up and found that Qin had disappeared.

I rushed into her apartment. She sat on the bed and smiled and said to me, there you are.

Then I came over, just like when I first met her, I kissed her and I gently pushed her away.

She asked loudly, don't you love me? You don't love it anymore, do you?

Seeing that I didn't speak, her eyes were a little crazy. She raised the knife hidden behind her back and cut it hard at her wrist. I subconsciously grabbed it, the blade cut my palm, and blood dripped down.

She let go with a scream.

I raised my hand and waved at her: satisfied, now?

She put her hand on my wound and kept crying: I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you. I love you so much! I can't lose you.

I held her in my arms: Qin, I'm leaving. The company ordered me to go to another city.

Confused, she suddenly screamed: You are finally giving up on me, aren't you? Don't you want me?

Qin, will you come with me? Leave the city and start over. I gave her a gentle hug.

Well, Qin's voice was a little happy: I know you won't leave me. You still love me. Yang ... I'll go with you. I've followed you all my life.

After pacifying Qin, I came out of Qin. I'm a little disappointed. I don't know why I couldn't bear to refuse when I saw her helpless.

eight

I called Bei: Bei, I gave up.

North made a very brisk voice: Rain, you are a smart girl.

I put on my makeup and sat in the hotel room waiting for him. It began to rain when he came in.

He hugged me and said softly, Rain, you are so beautiful. You are the dream of all men, clean and simple.

I laughed: so you have to use this means to frame me. I don't understand. You chose your wife at once, and you want to betray her.

Rain, you are too simple. The world needs the means to survive. My wife is just a stepping stone to my career. When I am full-fledged, I will leave without hesitation. I only use her. North's voice is full of pride.

It's mean of you to raise your hands and hurt two people at the same time. I feel a little nauseous.

Just as he was about to push me to bed, an arm pulled him away from me. Bay opened his eyes in surprise and looked at the boss and his wife coming out of the bathroom, as well as two company security guards.

I smiled and said to him, Bay, you said you could destroy me, so can I.

After the storm subsided, my boss sincerely apologized to me and urged me to work in another city. That company is a joint venture between him and another company in this city.

I was stunned. I can't refuse the sincerity of the old man. I just asked. I don't want a promotion. I'm still willing to be an ordinary clerk.

Yang said, I'm leaving. A city!

I'm very touched: what a coincidence, I'm going to city A, too.

Yang sent a smiling face: Oh, what a coincidence, I will fly the day after tomorrow.

I secretly smiled, really, I am also on the plane the day after tomorrow, and we are on the same flight.

The next night, the girl suddenly came to my cabin and saw my packed salute. She was a little surprised: are you leaving, too?

I smiled and nodded: well, I have to go. There seems to be no reason for me to stay here.

I poured her a cup of tea and she smiled. She said that she never knew that tea was sweeter than wine.

She told me that she was leaving, too, to go to another place with her. She figured it out. In fact, money can't buy anything Now she has nothing, but she is happier than before.

I smiled and gave her my blessing, but I didn't ask her where she was going. We are all passers-by in this city. There is no need to care about each other's whereabouts.

Outside the airport, I saw him as soon as I got off the taxi, the man with a faint smell of tobacco.

nine

I didn't expect to see her here. We will take the same flight. Qin hasn't arrived yet, so I'll wait for her outside the airport.

Rain smiled at me, and I smiled and walked over: Hello, I guess, you are Rain, a girl who likes purple.

Hello, Yang! I guessed, too. A man with a faint smell of tobacco. The rain is still soft.

Can you give me a hug? This is to celebrate our coincidence. The rain smiled at me.

My heart was shaking. I walked over and gently held her in my arms.

Suddenly, Qin's voice sounded behind me. Before I could return to my absolute being, I saw Qin frantically holding the rain's hair and pushing it hard into the middle of the road. The rain fell in the middle of the road and a Mercedes-Benz car ran over her heavily. Then, with a loud cry, Qin rushed to the middle of the road and ran head-on towards a car.

I don't know how I woke up. When I saw Xiao Yu and Qin lying in the middle of the road at the same time, my brain went blank, my heart twitched violently, I stumbled for a few steps, and then fainted.

Later, I learned from the police that Qin died on the spot and Xiaoyu was still being rescued.

After taking care of Qin, I went to the ward to watch the rain. Fortunately, the car only ran over her legs, but unfortunately, she lost them forever. I bought a bunch of flowers and put them on her bedside. I secretly said to myself, "I will take care of her all my life." Think of it as atonement for Qin! A month later in the morning, when I arrived at the hospital again, the rain had already gone. From then on, it was like disappearing out of thin air. I never found her again.

ten

I think I'm in love with that man named Yang. I have been taken good care of by him for more than a month. His delicacy and gentleness make people feel comfortable.

To tell the truth, I don't hate that girl, but I feel sorry for her. Anyone who meets a man like Yang will go crazy with love. He is so warm and reassuring.

I still chose to leave. When my boss came to see me, I asked them to help me out of the hospital. I know Yang will take care of me all my life, but I don't need such pity. I am a strong girl, and I don't want to drag anyone down.