"Brother" Leslie Cheung has never done anything bad in his life. Why does he suffer from depression?

Many years ago today, Leslie Cheung jumped off the 24th floor of the Mandarin Hotel, ending his 46-year-old life.

Over the years, the word "Leslie Cheung" has not only not been forgotten, but has become more and more dazzling, and his fan base is also growing.

Such an excellent and charming person should be blessed by God to live a long life. Unexpectedly, he suffered from depression for 20 years and finally had to choose such an extreme way to end his life. Leslie Cheung has never done anything bad in his life. Why?

0 1 The dispute between Leslie Cheung and Alan Tam In Leslie Cheung's career of more than 20 years, the dispute between him and Alan Tam has always been an unavoidable topic.

1983, Leslie Cheung released the album "The Wind Is Blowing". He was depressed at that time. He didn't expect the song of the same name to set off the music scene, which washed away the decline of the first two records and became the first gold record after Leslie Cheung entered the business.

1 year later, Leslie Cheung released the single "Monica", which became his first top ten Chinese songs, and this song officially kicked off the "hegemony of Zhang Tan". This year, Leslie Cheung swept the major music awards ceremony and snatched the top ten gold medals from Alan Tam.

Two years later, that is, 1986, and Who * * * Ming made another strong attack and won the golden melody award in one fell swoop. President Tan's previous dominance of the music scene was broken. Since then, Leslie Cheung, a junior, has stood on the music scene, tied with his predecessor, Alan Tam.

Unexpectedly, the rise of Leslie Cheung caused some fans in Alan Tam to resist. In order to express their dissatisfaction, these fans deliberately booed under the stage of Leslie Cheung's performance, and all kinds of foul language were endless. Some extreme fans even shouted "Gay Glory" on the stage and directly attacked Leslie Cheung.

In order to settle the dispute between two fans, Alan Tam announced his withdrawal from all music awards ceremonies on 1987. Two years later, Leslie Cheung announced his direct withdrawal from the music scene and devoted all his energy to film creation.

As a singer who loves music so much, 1989 was the golden age of Leslie Cheung's music scene, but he quit so decisively, which shows how much this controversy has hurt him.

Leslie Cheung is an addict. He can't tolerate any misunderstanding and slander from others. He always wants to appear in public in the perfect state, so when he is booed by Alan Tam fans, he pretends to be generous on the stage. In fact, as mentioned in later memories, he felt very uncomfortable.

After being unfairly treated by the film industry and retiring from the music scene, Leslie Cheung began to exert himself in the film. After 1989, Leslie Cheung appeared in many classic works, such as Around the World, Farewell My Concubine, Ashes of Time and so on. His box office performance is well known.

However, on the one hand, it is applauded and popular, on the other hand, it is the neglect of Leslie Cheung by major mainstream awards. For more than 20 years, Leslie Cheung nominated 13 best actor in the Academy Awards and the Golden Horse Awards, and won the best actor only once for "The True Story of Teddy Boy". Other works didn't even win a consolation prize, which somewhat disappointed Leslie Cheung, who worked hard to create the role.

Although acting is not to win prizes, it is very unpleasant to watch friends around you win prizes and their acting skills are affirmed, but they are often left out in the cold.

What disappointed Leslie Cheung most was the 34th Golden Horse Award. At that time, the role of He Baorong was nominated, and the opponents who participated in the competition that night were not strong. Leslie Cheung thinks that even if he doesn't get the winner, the number of votes won't be much worse. As a result, the final award was announced, and Leslie Cheung didn't win the best actor. Worst of all, his votes were zero that night, and no judges voted for him.

What's more, the performance of the program that night publicly mocked Leslie Cheung's orientation. The actors performed sketches on the stage, alluding to Leslie Cheung from his lines and actions, and the camera also featured him many times. Leslie Cheung, who was originally generous, once smiled, but then she was completely silent.

Being publicly targeted is undoubtedly a public execution for Leslie Cheung, who is such a person who cares about other people's opinions. This time, the organizer's malicious hype about Bo eyeball completely broke his heart.

03 Emotional Controversy with Tang Hede The relationship between Leslie Cheung and Tang Hede was made public at the 1997 New Year's Concert. At that time, although they had been together for many years, the gossip media used to making waves still lashed out at Leslie Cheung, causing a storm in the city.

The Golden Horse Award mentioned above was attended shortly after he made this relationship public, and the targeted party was just a microcosm of Leslie Cheung's falling into the whirlpool of public opinion, and his pressure and targeted object were far more than these.

After breaking the news about the relationship with Mr. Tang, the paparazzi who broke the news not only failed to converge, but became even more unscrupulous. There are three cameras in front of Leslie Cheung's house 360 days a year. Any noise he and Mr. Tang make in the house will be over-interpreted by the gossip media.

In the later period, Leslie Cheung's depression was very serious. He often broke things and even hurt himself. These paparazzi took the opportunity to make a big fuss about the breakup between Leslie Cheung and Tang Hede, and went to the blog. Even Leslie Cheung's rubbish and notes, these paparazzi have to dig them out to see what happened.

This is the situation of living with Mr. Tang at that time. Although Leslie Cheung is always smiling or even dismissive of paparazzi's candid photos, everyone who knows him knows that he can't be indifferent to this matter. Leslie Cheung, who was already depressed, was exhausted physically and mentally, and his body was on the verge of collapse.

Perfectionists demand too much of themselves. Leslie Cheung is a complete perfectionist, so he won't allow himself to be weak and fail, and he doesn't want to give up.

Being sung by fans, Leslie Cheung did not choose to compromise, but directly withdrew from the music scene, leaving others unprepared; Later, his acting skills in the film were neglected, and Leslie Cheung was neither humble nor supercilious, facing all doubts calmly; Emotionally, Leslie Cheung was discriminated against because of his identity, and he was not afraid of gossip, so he chose to make his relationship with Mr. Tang public.

Leslie Cheung thought he could control his illness with willpower and face life with a smile. During his illness, Leslie Cheung insisted on recording an album for charity to attend the award ceremony. He tried his best to look refreshed and appear in front of fans in the most decent way. But he still despises his illness, and all kinds of bad experiences in recent years have already ruined his health.

At first, in order to present the best image in public, Leslie Cheung insisted on not seeing a doctor or taking medicine. He is worried that these drugs will affect his state. As a result, after his illness became more and more serious, he could not even hold his food steadily, and his hands kept shaking like Parkinson's patients, completely out of control of willpower. At this time, Leslie Cheung realized that he might really be unable to control the disease.

In 200 1 year, Leslie Cheung plans to shoot the director's first film "Stealing the Heart". In this work, he devoted his whole life to filming in the mainland with his sick body several times and signed an investment in actors. Originally, all the preparations for this film went smoothly. As a result, just before the shooting, the investor stopped funding for personal reasons, and the "Stealing the Heart" project was put on hold.

The failure of this project is a great blow to Leslie Cheung. In the eyes of Special Agent Chen Shufen, this is the last straw to crush his brother.

In 2002, Leslie Cheung secretly took an overdose and ended his life. Fortunately, Mr. Tang found out at that time and sent him to the hospital for rescue. From then on, I tried to fight the disease with Mr. Tang, but his disease threatened him and he could do nothing.

In the late stage of illness, Leslie Cheung once cried to her sister Look Ping Cheung: "I am rich, so many people love me, and I am so happy, but it (depression) denies this."

My brother's last leap may be helpless, but it is by no means cowardice, not giving up, nor because he can't make a movie, as some people say. Leslie Cheung insisted on fighting. He tried his best to fight the disease. Although he ended in failure, he is still a great soldier in the hearts of all fans.

The wind keeps blowing, and I can't bear to stay away. Still miss your brother.