She was drunk that night.

The city is still neon at night. Although there are relatively few pedestrians coming and going, the night is still noisy. Suddenly the wind blew, Xiaoyan shivered, so cold! She is close to his body, but what's the use? Alcohol rushes to the brain to a greater extent, and the autumn wind blows harder. Xiaoyan feels colder. She kept trying to get into his arms, but she knew that his arms were only once.

"So cold? Let's go back to the hotel, "he said with concern. Xiaoyan is a little drunk. She secretly despises herself. "What kind of body? This wine used to be fine when it was not conditioned. How can I drink myself a little at a time now? " But then I thought, "well, I can stop dealing with alcohol at all." At the moment, for Xiaoyan, what she despises more is not the body's resistance to wine, but what she knows she can't do. At that moment, she did not have any psychological burden and devoted herself wholeheartedly. When did she allow herself to have no principles and no bottom line? "Let's go back from here in case you catch a cold." The man around him said with concern, but Xiaoyan just wanted to walk by him and pull him further to deceive herself. She likes, holding the hand of the person she likes, walking in the street scene in the night.

The wind blows from the river to the beach, and the neon lights of the hotel reflect the river in the distance. The Leigong Tower on the mountain is more obvious and bright against the dark night sky, and the local citizens' songs are heard by the river. Xiaoyan walked quietly beside the man holding his arm, listening to him tell his story, his experience, and occasionally interrupting a few words, which was a peaceful picture. The swallow has a moment's fragment. She is a little extravagant and wants to stay like this forever. She even thought that if this man really belonged to herself, she would cherish and love this man with strong appearance and fragile heart. But Xiaoyan knows as clearly as a mirror that she will never be the important person in this man's life. After tonight, it will all be over.

The night is still this night, but Xiaoyan is different from Xiaoyan in previous years. "I have no choice but to spend it, and it seems that I have met Yan." The swallow was drunk and walked slowly with him. She listened to his story and pondered her thoughts. "After tonight, everything will be over," Stefanie thought. She dare not pester him for too long, for fear that she will fall in love with him hysterically one day. How painful it will be! Today, she made such a decision against her own principles, followed him to this strange city, and let herself live a life of intoxication in his arms, which was also the stimulus that her Mao Mao brother gave her last night. Yes, last night. ...

After midnight snack, other friends sent them home respectively. Stefanie didn't drive. She was responsible for taking him home. The man who failed in everything sat behind Xiaoyan. Xiaoyan obviously felt his helplessness and thought that his heart was painful. Over the years, I have lost everything I have done. My wife had such a thing with someone else. She couldn't let go of that feeling and convinced herself to understand and accept it. But as a man, it is impossible to cross that hurdle so easily. The classmate leaned wearily on Xiaoyan's shoulder, and Xiaoyan understood and advised him. Since she chose to accept it, let's live a good life. After all, luck will come back and everything will be fine. The classmate said wearily that he didn't want to go home first, so he sat by the roadside. Xiaoyan listened to what he said, half drunk and half awake, and was very uneasy. She dragged him to find a spacious and bright place to sit down and talk to him (she has always been a platform for men to talk), but she didn't see where to sit for a long time. "Go to your house and make me a pot of tea and let me have a rest." The classmate suggested that Xiaoyan didn't think much. Decades of classmates have long been familiar with each other, and Stefanie is sincere to everyone around her. So Xiaoyan took him home and made him a cup of hot honey water to sober up. Xiaoyan's mobile phone is dead. Go back to her room and get the charger. Unexpectedly, when she turned around, she found that her classmates followed her into the room. This is unprecedented. Yanzi feels bad. She tried to avoid him and escape from the room as soon as possible, but she was stopped by her classmates. Xiaoyan pushed her classmate back to the living room with all her strength and asked her classmate, "Do you still want us to be a pawn?" Sit here and drink water if you like, and then go home. If you don't want to, we'll leave here. ""Why can't we? Why not let go of yourself? Who is in your heart? " The classmate asked in annoyance. I don't love you. I understand your sufferings over the years, because I regard you as my brother and good friend. When everyone is in trouble, there is always one person who needs to listen. I've always been your listener, that's all! Xiaoyan told him seriously that she had a strange pain in her heart and why she always met such friendship. The classmate left in frustration, and Stefanie found herself trembling with fear. She lay helpless on the sofa, motionless. She couldn't figure out whether it was a misunderstanding or whether she was too disrespectful in their minds. Xiaoyan thought of that person in this extremely bleak situation. She wanted to get the answer from the man, so in the middle of the night, Xiaoyan dialed the man's phone. They talked for a long time, but Yanzi's fear was gone. She didn't get the answer she wanted, but she knew that she was just a harbor where he wanted to rest for a while, not a woman who wanted to protect and care for her whole life. She painfully recalled the similar decline over the years. A man with a family was turned away by her. She doesn't allow any man with a family to get close to her. She kept this heart, not only for the principle of being herself, but also because she couldn't let go of Mao Mao's share for five years. Xiaoyan's eyes always reveal the thoughtful and warm eyes of Mao Mao's brother at dinner that day. She doesn't want to call Mao Mao's brother in the middle of the night.

"Haven't you slept yet?"

"Well, I'm on duty."

"Oh, alone?"

"No, four people. Four people are moving bricks on duty. "

"Let me ask you something. Do you really feel nothing? "

"Be sure to show me the answer? ..... Well "

"Yes or no?"

"Do you want a more direct answer? You go to bed early. "

"I see, you move the bricks, and I won't bother you in the future."

The swallow who hung up the phone was heartbroken. A temporary illusion made her keep her heart for him for five years. For five years, she closed her heart and didn't allow anyone to open it. She kept the love she thought, watching silently in the distance behind him. She was willing to do anything for him, as long as he spoke and tried his best to do it for him, but in the end she failed to impress Mao Mao. Yanzi once again felt what a humble word love is! In love, men should always take the initiative, otherwise no matter how much women like it, they should give up. Women's active love will always be humble to the dust! The swallow felt lonely and tired as never before. At this point, her whole person collapsed from body to heart. She hoped that she could have a chest to lean on and a warm embrace to make her cry ... She remembered the song that the man sang for him that night, and she was moved by him at that moment. She wants to know how many promises this man can keep and how he will take care of her after she belongs to him. So the swallow made a crazy decision. She decided to follow him tomorrow.

The next day, Xiaoyan sent a message to the man waiting for him, but she regretted it after the message was sent. She knows that she is not the one to play this game, and she can't abuse herself like this. Xiaoyan was silent and didn't want to make any noise. She spent the morning quietly. At noon, students were found to have a broken clavicle. She was sitting in the hospital with the student, a little scared. She doesn't know how her parents will blame or understand it. It was a fall in her nursing class that had something to do with her. These children are growing up every day, and they can do many things behind her back that she doesn't know. She really doesn't want to do these things after class to make a living, but she has a good life and has to support her daughter ... she compromised again. She wants to anesthetize herself for a while ...

"Woman, how long do you want to be with me?" The man's slightly teasing question brought Xiaoyan's painful and confused thoughts back to the night. She held the man's hand tighter and held him tightly. She longed for a sense of security from him. His body temperature was transferred to her through his arm, and she was no longer so cold. She thought, how about enjoying a comfortable life like this? She feels relaxed in front of him. Let her get drunk tonight! With this in mind, Yanzi held back what she wanted to say. "Tomorrow, it's all over." She answered the man's question in silence.

Slowly penetrate into the bone marrow at night. This small town is not as noisy and prosperous as ours, and there are no familiar faces. Everything is strange. Even the man holding her arm is so unfathomable, but Stefanie let herself be willful tonight. She smiled again and rested her head on his shoulder. ...