Character experience, kurt cobain.

Kurt Cobain (1967) was born in Aberdeen, Washington, USA on February 20th. Aberdeen is not a bustling town, less than 100 miles from Seattle, but the suicide rate in Aberdeen is the highest in the United States. Although kurt cobain was not very healthy as a child, he had a happy childhood. He often plays a set of drums with Mickey Mouse patterns, which his mother gave him. He often steps on the bike his father gave him.

Kurt's family is fairly well-off in the local area: his father DonaldCobain and his mother WendyCobain, plus Kurt and his sister, a family of four, and a large number of relatives such as aunts and uncles, so Kurt once recalled that he was "an extremely happy child".

1975 When Kurt was just 8 years old, his parents divorced because of a rift in their feelings. They were busy arguing about property, leaving young Kurt to watch in confusion. This is the first great event in Kurt's life. Since then, Kurt, who was originally lively and fond of performing, has changed. He is introverted and keeps everything in his heart. Most of the musicians who stayed in Nirvana came from divorced families. Then Kurt began to like to play with the poor children in the street because "they are cool". Before that, her mother Wendy had always opposed Kurt's "self-deprecating" association with the lower classes. Kurt began to disobey his parents, wandering around, playing truant ... in the eyes of others, he became a problem child. In elementary school, Kurt was determined to be a star, just like JohnLennon. He began to practice playing drums and even joined a band in primary school, but he never learned to read music. After his parents divorced, he learned to use music as an escape and weapon. 1981February 20th, Kurt14th birthday. He got a second-hand electric guitar as a birthday present. From then on, Kurt put down the drum set and picked up the guitar. Well, Kurt couldn't find a real punk music tape in his town at that time. His idea of punk was nothing more than turning the volume of the electric guitar to the top three of the three major chords and screaming at the top of his lungs. Maybe Kurt was not a punk at that time, but he was a freak since he was a child. He doesn't adapt to the future arranged by his parents, and he doesn't adapt to the depressed town. He loves music, painting and singing. His aura and sensitivity liberated his soul, and his soul finally found refuge, warmer than his fragmented family. He is looking forward to one day to leave all this and devote himself to the end of confusion.

Kurt began to pursue his music hobby in high school. His first real rock concert was at Melvin Theatre. Although they are limited to cover the songs of celebrities, the most important thing is that they give Kurt the opportunity to enter the punk movement in the Pacific Northwest and let him get in touch with the original rhythm that has a great influence on him. 1985 In the summer, Kurt, who was about to graduate from high school, dropped out of school and went home because of lack of credits. His mother and teacher were disappointed. Kurt's art teacher in high school was deeply impressed by the "anger" in his paintings. But when Kurt's mother Wendy asked him what he was going to do, Kurt said he would make a living by music. Wendy scoffed at this. She asked Kurt to find a job to make a living, otherwise she was not going to raise a "musician". One day, when he came home, he found all his things in the box. So Kurt lives with a friend. Persuaded by his stepmother and father, he took the naval recruitment examination. He was admitted, but before signing, he packed his things and left his father's house. Finally, he was homeless and wandering in the suffocating streets of Aberdeen. When you are sleepy, you curl up in the bridge opening of Aberdeen North Bridge and sleep. Here, he accompanied Yu Yang to read the works of arthur rimbaud, William Burroughs and S·e· Hinton. On a stormy night, he lay in the pit, expecting the warmth of sunrise. Hungry, he fished out some small fish from the dark green river of the Vicia River to satisfy his hunger: many years later, the graffiti and words left by Kurt on the pier of the North Bridge will be composed into a beautiful song called "Things on the Road". 1986, Kurt moved to an apartment and paid the rent with the money he earned from his part-time job. He often goes to Olympia to watch rock concerts. In those days, Kurt had a girlfriend named Tracy Mahlander. They soon became close friends, but they often experienced financial difficulties. Later, when Kurt became famous, they didn't see each other for a long time. Kurt's girlfriend is Yuan Weir, a famous DIY punk magazine writer and the drummer of Riot Grrrl's bikini killer. Kurt was completely overwhelmed by anxiety because of his obsession with kites. He threw up after the first meeting. This incident inspired the lyrics: loving you so much makes me sick. This song is called Aneurysm. 1981February 20th,14th birthday, he got a second-hand electric guitar as a birthday present. From then on, Kurt put down the drum set and began to play the guitar.

At the end of 1985, Kurt, Dale Crawford and Greg Hawkson began to rehearse their own works and named their first band dung. Later, the band recorded a demo-Kurt's first official demo. At that time, Kurt had not yet formed, and the noise+heavy metal rhythm was actually not Kurt's autistic heart.

It will be difficult to succeed in Fecak soon. It's natural, but Kurt has grown up these days, and more importantly, he met his best friend Chris Novaselic, the future nirvana bass player.

Kurt's first band had many different names: the original slum; ; Then throat oyster, pen cap chewing, window glass, Ted Alfred ..............................................................................................................................................................

198865438+1On October 23rd, Nirvana recorded the first demo. The location is the cheapest "United" studio in this city. Recorder Jack Endino. This man is one of the godfathers of underground music in Seattle. Kurt sent samples to all known independent record companies everywhere, sent about 20 samples, and received a lot of replies and various small gifts including dolls, candy and old condoms with fake ants, but there was no audition notice or invitation he had been longing for.

1June 988 1 1 Nirvana recorded the first release single "Love Buzzes", with big cheese on the B side. Although Kurt was very dissatisfied with the cover of his first single, the temptation of the recording studio finally overwhelmed everything.

1988165438+1October, Ebaz/Big Cheese went on sale.

Underground pop music companies have adopted a new way to promote distribution: they only printed 1000 single records, and reserved them in limited quantities with handwritten numbers. This move made the single a success. At the end of 1988, Kurt and Tracy went to Seattle to play. They were very excited when they heard the hum of love playing on the radio. They never thought that they would come this far: it was a success beyond their greatest ambition.

1988, 1988. On February 24th, Nirvana began to record his first album, which was completed in the following year 1 month. Endino showed them ***606. 17$ recording fee. Nirvana, everyone can't afford this "huge sum". It turned out that Chad's friend Jason evermann paid the bill.

In February of 1989, the band began a small tour on the west coast of the United States. It just so happens that Kurt is not used to singing by heart while playing guitar. So Nirvana has the second best player for the time being, Jason evermann. Jason has long hair, comes from a divorced family and even lives in Aberdeen.

After the European tour, Kurt began to notice that the underground pop music company was on the verge of bankruptcy, they could not continue to promote Nirvana, and fans could not buy the band's records anywhere. Finally, Nirvana began to look for a bigger company. Boneman and Pavette tried to keep them, but Kurt made up his mind. Despite the guilt, the golden scale is not something in the pool, and Nirvana needs a wider space to fly.

Kurt chose the drummer who had worked with him for a long time to say goodbye to his feelings. ChadChad drum is dull and soft, and Kurt and Krist have long been dissatisfied. Like Jason, the concept of music is different from Kurt's. Although everyone likes the same punk, Chad can only be regarded as a hippie at best, not a pessimistic disease of Nirvana itself. They are getting more and more estranged. Finally, Chad offered to leave, and Kurt said goodbye without saying a word. Later Kurt said, "I think I just killed someone."

Later, they changed a lot of drummers, but they were basically guest roles until david grohl appeared. Dave, 1969 65438+ 10/4, was born in Warren, Ohio. His parents divorced when he was 6 years old. He formed his first band in high school and became the guitarist of the band. When he found that the band drummer's skills were too rough, he sat in front of the drum stand and practiced his drum skills, frantically pulling up his belt. /kloc-at the age of 0/6, he joined the local screaming band as a drummer and dropped out of school.

Kurt and his friends first heard Dave's drum in the performance of Scream. At that time, they thought, God, what a great drummer. I wish we had him here.

1990 In September, when Dave's "Scream" was touring in Los Angeles, the bass player quit because of emotional problems, and the tour stopped. Dave is in a dilemma because he is short of money. His friend Melvin Osborne asked him to contact Nirvana. After a short talk, Dave flew to Seattle immediately.

1991May began to record the second album "Never mind". At the studio in Sound City, California.

After the recording, Nirvana began to tour the west coast of the United States as Dinasour Jr warm-up band. When they walked through one city after another, people began to find that Nirvana received far more applause than Dinasour Jr, the protagonist of the tour.

In August, Nirvana started their European tour with Sonic Youth. These days may be Kurt's happiest time, carefree and full of yearning for the future.

After returning to the United States, they started shooting MTV with a budget of $33,000. Kurt originally wanted to make some punk movies and similar things, but the director Sam Baer, a figure who knows the essence of fashion, compromised on both sides. As a result, as you can see, this film actually has all the trend elements besides its unique appearance.

1991September 13, the launch of Nevermind was held in Seattle. Since then, Kurt and others have started a long-term boring and old-fashioned publicity campaign. Everyone thinks Nevermind is a good album, but even the most optimistic people don't expect it to sell well. Some people in the company think that they can only sell 50,000 copies, and there is the most inspiring sentence: if the agent works really hard, if the company works really hard, if the band works really hard (it seems difficult), then it may only become a golden record (500,000 copies), and it will take a year.

19911kloc-0/On October 29th, Nevermind became a gold record. 165438+/kloc-0 recorded 40 popular songs on October 2nd, ranking 35th. With album sales soaring and royalty checks pouring in, Kurt began to feel uncomfortable during his tour in Europe. They were surrounded by people all the way to interview, but at this time Kurt was facing great pain, the attack of stomach disease became more and more fierce, and bronchitis also resurfaced. Trapped in Jiao Wai, they decided to give up their later tour and return to the United States. This has become the headline news of major entertainment media, but Nirvana can finally be liberated.

At the same time, the domestic nirvana fanaticism has also become a prairie fire: Nevermind jumped from 35 to 17 at an alarming rate, and then jumped into the top ten; A few days later, it has gone from the fourth place to the champion. This record became a platinum record in America (1000000). Everyone who listens to rock and even pop music seems to be flocking to record stores to buy Nevermind. The media is full of praise for nirvana music. Every pop music program plays "Youth Spirit". Seattle became the holy land of Grunge, the second largest company in Liverpool, scrambling to find the Grunge band and discovering the second nirvana. Every flight to Seattle is crowded with talent scouts. Pear sauce, crushed pumpkin, Shonen knife, Melvin, Eugenius, Alice in the chain and many other bands have ascended to heaven.

1992 65438+ 10/month1,Nevermind became the champion of the leaderboard, surpassing U2 and Gun &；; Ross even pushed Michael Jackson off the stage. At the same time, it also topped the list in France, Spain, Belgium, Canada, Sweden, Ireland and other countries, and all the major global markets entered the top 10. In two or three years, its global sales will exceed 10000000. Unprecedented success and fame obviously made Kurt feel at a loss. The first gift that the chaotic life brought to Kurt was the aggravation of stomach trouble. He rolled around in pain, kept vomiting and even wanted to die. His perseverance, which was troubled by stomach trouble, faded. Nervousness and inexplicable anger made him find a reason to be poisoned again. He became more and more addicted to Courtney and fainted several times because of overdose.

1994 65438+ 10 In October, Nirvana gave a wonderful performance at Seattle Central Theatre, but no one expected that this would be the last performance of this young band in the United States. Also this month, the company requested that the design of the intrauterine envelope be slightly modified so that it can be sold in some places. Kurt agreed and changed the name of raping me to wandering me. These two revised versions were sent to Singapore, which is the only country in the world that banned Innotro. 65438+ Nirvana was last recorded on1October 28th * * *. In the past few years, fame, money and different musical pursuits have gradually separated these former partners. They have expressed their intention to record their own works. Kurt wants to engage in Lo-Fi, and dreams of opening an "exploitation record company", "recruiting a group of street performers, mentally retarded, disabled and mentally ill people on the cover, and then labeling them with $20 to exploit the collectors who buy it".

But at this time, Kurt's stomach trouble became more serious.

On February 5th, 1994, they started another European tour. Kurt lost his voice during a trip to France. There was a scheduled performance in Munich, Germany on February 27th. It didn't look special, but in the middle of it, Kurt lost his voice again. At this time, only 15 games were completed, and 23 games were not completed.

This is also Kurt Nirvana's last performance in this world.

1On Friday, April 8, 994, employees of an electronics company in Seattle went to the Coulters' house to install the security system as scheduled. As the front door didn't answer, I went around and looked into the house and saw a human figure lying on the floor. At first I thought it was a plastic model, but then I saw a pool of blood near her ear and called the police immediately.

At 9: 40, KXRX Radio in Seattle announced the redundant number. The news of Kurt Cobain's suicide spread all over the world. 1993 has seen dozens of doctors, but no one can really help him. There are only two ways for him to relieve his pain: one is to take narcotic drugs, and the other is to stand on the stage and scream wildly, using the boiling enthusiasm of the audience to relieve his pain. He insisted that the root of his fanaticism was his pain. "There are many times when I was sitting and eating, suddenly a sharp pain hit me. Naturally, others won't realize it, and I have long been tired of complaining. The pain became more frequent during the tour, so I had no choice but to continue the performance. After every performance, I force myself to eat, swallow a little, drink some water, and then bend over to vomit ... I once said that if I do this again, I will commit suicide ... I don't want to live like this anymore, which makes me insane. I have already had a mental breakdown because of my stomachache every day. "

By 1994, he was exhausted. 1.74 meters, he is only 55Kg, and his face is terrible. To make matters worse, after following the rules for a period of time, perhaps because he relaxed his will after the court ruled in March 1993 that they had the right to raise Frances, he began to be contaminated with banned drugs again. Courtney insisted on not letting him destroy himself again this time. He finally found a legal and effective analgesic to relieve his stomach pain, and also let him get rid of the temptation of banned drugs.

Kurt left a suicide note, in which he wrote: "This is the voice of a fool who has gone through many vicissitudes. He actually prefers to be a cowardly and childish complainer. ..... Over the years, listening to music, writing music, reading and writing, I have never felt angry. I feel unspeakable guilt about these things ... In fact, I can't cheat you, I can't cheat any of you ... The biggest sin I can think of is to cheat and pretend ... I have to be a little numb to regain my enthusiasm as a child ... All of us have good intentions, but I just love others too much. Too much love makes me feel really fucking depressed, a slightly melancholy, sensitive, ungrateful, Pisces Jesus-like figure! Why not enjoy it with a clear conscience? I don't know. ..... I don't have any passion ... It's better to burn calmly than to linger. ……"