Did Leslie Cheung commit suicide because he was trapped by desire?

Although no one can explain Leslie Cheung's death, it is an indisputable fact that he suffered from depression in the last stage of his life. In the previous six months, he made a horror film called Inner Senses. This film, starring him and Lin Jiaxin, tells the story of a psychiatrist who is deeply troubled by the suicide of his first girlfriend, and in the process of treating a female patient, he also causes illness and eventually leads to schizophrenia. It is said that Leslie Cheung was so involved in the role that he couldn't leave after filming that he was in a trance all day and even lost sleep for a long time. In his last album before his death, there was a "Nightdream", which truly explained his uncontrollable insomnia pain. After insomnia was cured for a long time, Leslie Cheung gradually accepted the concept of "hitting evil spirits" after shooting ghost films, and then adopted a series of practices such as western medicine, Chinese medicine and even watching geomantic omen to drive away the disease. It is said that his illness improved for a time, and he also took the film Stealing the Heart as a director. But soon, the pressure of work knocked him down again, and he fell into inescapable depression again. Leslie Cheung himself is an idealist, and China audiences are most familiar with his role as Cheng Dieyi in Farewell My Concubine. So, this strange and terrible inner feeling finally took away Leslie Cheung's fragile life? Love change, a fatal excuse? Leslie Cheung is bisexual, which has long been known both inside and outside the circle. The last thing he did before jumping off the building in the Mandarin Hotel was to leave a suicide note, which explained his extremely painful and contradictory emotional world. Then, the two gay boyfriends who have the most say in his death are two generations of gay boyfriends: Tang Hede (also known as Tang Tang) who is similar to his age and Kenneth who may be his son. Leslie Cheung knew Tang Tang more than 30 years ago, and their childhood friendship gave them a deep emotional foundation. 1986, the two officially announced the relationship from friends to lovers. This was an absolutely inscrutable emotional way of society at that time, so their feelings were underground for a long time. In recent years, Leslie Cheung has become more relaxed, making public appearances with Tang Tang and no longer avoiding anything. Leslie Cheung once publicly showed his love to Tang Tang at a solo concert. He once said: "I think it is disgusting to say' I love you' in Chinese, so I can only say' iloveyou' in English. If I sing a love song to a person, I can sing it to him before going to bed and then sing it to him after waking up. " As for the story of this Kenneth, it is even more mysterious. Some people say he is 26, others say he is 22. Some people say that he is from Shanghai and studied in the United States, while others say that he is a native of Hong Kong. But regarding his appearance, everyone agrees that he is gentle and has the shadow of Tang Tang when he was young, which may be an important reason why he attracted Leslie Cheung.