Postpartum depression almost killed her daughter, but she was reborn.

Sister Ning held her clever three-year-old daughter in her arms, and at first she couldn't help wanting to die.

Sister Ning graduated from college five years ago and returned to her hometown according to her parents' arrangement to work as an English teacher in a primary school. She is introverted. Since she was a child, she has followed her parents' arrangement step by step and has no opinion. Being a teacher at school is also a good choice.

When she got a job, her parents began to look for her husband's family. She has been listening to her parents since she was a child, so when she was at school, she never fell in love, despite being pursued. Now that she has graduated from work and her parents are eager to marry her off, she can only embark on the road of blind date.

She can't decide the boys she meets on blind dates. She always listens to her parents. Sometimes she thinks it's not bad, but her parents can always pick out the thorns. Too smart, they are afraid that she will be bullied; Too honest, they think it's stupid.

So no less than ten blind date failures. Later, my mother's friend Liu Yi introduced her relative's child named He Feng. When my mother saw He Feng, a good man, she took one look at Jeannin's association with him.

He Feng is very kind to Ning Jie. He works freely. He picks up Ning Jie from work every day, and he is also good at cooking. As soon as he arrived at Ningjie's house, he was very diligent and cooked automatically. Ning Jie's parents are very satisfied with him.

After dating for a year, they got married and had a good life after marriage. My mother-in-law is an honest and kind person, and my father-in-law talks a lot, but it's nothing.

Until one day when Sister Tianning was making the bed, she turned over a pregnancy test paper. My parents-in-law and I have never bought a pregnancy test at home. We have only been married for two months and are only 24 years old. Although He Feng is two years older than himself, he is only 26 years old, and they are not in a hurry to have children.

But seeing this pregnancy test paper, Ning Jie's heart became uneasy.

She felt that her private territory had been violated, which was disrespectful. She's only been married for two months, and she has to have children by herself. Is she a fertility tool? Although she does not exclude having children, it is too much to force her so obviously.

She told He Feng her dissatisfaction. He Feng just told her to throw it away and told her to lock the room door next time.

Sister Ning thought it was not good to quarrel, so she listened to He Feng and threw away the pregnancy test.

Unexpectedly, a month later, Sister Ning found out that she was pregnant, and the whole family was very happy, especially the four old people. Sister Ning herself forgot that unpleasant thing.

Mother-in-law cooks many delicious and nutritious dishes for her every day, saying that she will have a big grandson and become a grandmother every day.

However, the reaction during pregnancy soon came. I can't eat, I vomit badly and I can't walk. I have to apply for unpaid leave.

Both husband and father-in-law have to go to work, and Ning Jie and her mother-in-law are at home at ordinary times.

Sister Ning doesn't do housework at home. Her parents only pay attention to her study. After she got married, she couldn't even cook, so her mother-in-law cooked for her every day.

However, her reaction during pregnancy was so intense that she could hardly eat anything, and sometimes even vomited when she smelled a little oil. Whenever she doesn't eat, her mother-in-law puts the bowl in front of her and says, how can you do without eating? You see, you are so thin, how can the baby in your stomach stand it? Eat quickly and give me a big fat grandson.

Sister Ning put up with it once or twice, and when it was too many times, she began to feel bored. When my mother-in-law said this again, she couldn't help saying, Mom, why are you always thinking about your grandson? Maybe it's a granddaughter!

My mother-in-law is not happy when she listens. She said that it must be a grandson. You can't be a girl who reacts so much.

Sister Ning didn't answer her when she heard her mother-in-law say this, but she was particularly unhappy.

She told her husband about it when he came home in the evening. He just made a perfunctory remark. Mom just said casually that she would like her grandson.

It often happens later. Every time she complains to her husband, he will say that she is too suspicious and sensitive. Her mother-in-law takes care of her every day and only complains. Sister Ning is very depressed. She feels that everyone cares about the baby in her belly, but no one cares about her feelings.

Finally, on the day of delivery, I experienced a day and a night of pain and gave birth to a daughter. The nurse held it up for her to see. She was in a daze with pain. She only saw a wrinkled face with pink powder, mumbling, why is it so ugly?

The nurse walked over and said, it's so ugly and cute, let mom kiss it, and then her lips touched her daughter's soft forehead. She suddenly felt very strange, a feeling she had never felt before, and especially wanted to hold the little guy in her arms.

At this time, the nurse walked out of the delivery room with her child in her arms. She heard her mother-in-law ask loudly, is it a son?

The nurse smiled and said that it was a little girl. Grandma, give me a hug.

Then I heard my mother-in-law say, come to grandma for a hug, and let mom give you a younger brother in the future.

When I heard that, Sister Ning was speechless. She hasn't given birth yet.

Back to the ward, the child fell asleep and the husband held it for warmth.

But the child was a little devil when he was a child. He cried at night, or cried without sleep, which made the whole family unbearable. Stay with her all night, hold her and coax her.

For a whole month, Sister Ning didn't have a good rest, and the child cried badly at night. It's easy to sleep during the day, and relatives at home always come to visit, and there are many people. Watching TV is loud. For a while, I want to get up for dinner, then I want to get up for soup, and then I want to eat eggs. Ning Jie felt that he was about to collapse.

On this day, my husband's cousin came to see her with her son. She didn't sleep for a while and was woken up again. She was dizzy and heard her mother-in-law teasing the little boy. Oh, what a good grandson! She also told her cousin that we would have a son in Ningning in the future.

Son, son, son, from her pregnancy to the birth of her daughter, her mother-in-law has been talking about letting her have a son. During the 20 days of confinement, every day, I will say that she will have a son in the future. When every relative comes, I will tell others that she will have a son. She came to a bowl of soup and insisted on eating more, staying healthy and having a son. She came to a bowl of custard, insisting that she would have a son when she gained weight.

Ning Jie's nerves were directly interrupted, and she shouted like crazy. Do you want to drive your grandson crazy? Is my daughter so unpopular with you? Forget it if you don't like it. You keep telling me to have a son every day, and I won't have one.

Mother-in-law didn't expect her to be angry, so she just froze. The father-in-law in the living room came into the room and asked sternly, what's the matter, shouting.

My mother-in-law suddenly ran out and cried, crying that she was so miserable that she couldn't get a good word for serving her every day. What woman has no son?

Sister Ning is so bored that her brain will explode. At night, my husband came back to see her mother-in-law's eyes red and swollen. When he heard what happened, he came into the room and scolded Ning Jie, saying that his mother took care of you so hard, and you were still angry and yelled at her. Do you have a conscience?

Sister Ning said gloomily, she always lets me have a son, and I won't have another one.

So what if you say it? The husband said angrily.

Sister Ning suddenly felt very helpless. After the marriage, she moved to her husband's city, and the family had to take a bus for three hours. After giving birth to the baby, my brother drove his parents to see her and sent her some money and nutrition. Because everyone had to work, he only stayed for one night and went back.

Sister Ning can't sleep in bed at night. She was tired, but she couldn't sleep. She thought she had been following her parents' wishes step by step all her life. She thought that no one really cared about her during pregnancy, only the children. She thinks she has a daughter, but her mother-in-law likes her son.

The crying of a baby interrupted her train of thought. She got up and took the baby to nurse. The whole waist and back hurt so much that she couldn't keep back. She endured it.

However, the child in her arms eats or cries, her husband sleeps motionless, and her parents-in-law have no reaction. She put on her shoes and got up, holding the child on the ground to coax her.

The child fell asleep. She carefully put the child on the bed and was about to lie down when the child began to cry again.

After such a night of repetition, she didn't sleep well.

For several days in a row, the family ignored her, and no one helped her when the child cried at night. Her spirit almost collapsed.

That night, the child began to cry again. She coaxed and coaxed, feeling that she was going to fall. My mind is full of noise. The child is unpopular because she is a daughter, and I am unpopular because I have no son. I'm really useless. What am I living for? But nobody likes my daughter. Let's die together ...

She threw the child on the bed. It was winter and the child was wrapped in a bag, but she threw it like this and screamed and cried. Her husband rolled over and shouted at her, What are you doing? Are you out of your mind?

Without saying a word, she turned and walked to the living room, picked up the fruit knife on the tea table and struck it hard on her wrist. Blood gushed out at once and stained the floor.

Then she took a fruit knife and let the blood run down her wrist and went to the bedroom. Her husband yelled at her parents-in-law. She ignored everything, poked into the quilt, said "give me your daughter" and fainted on the edge of the bed.

When she woke up, she saw her long-lost mother with a haggard face. Mom saw her awake, held her hand and rubbed her face and said, daughter, what's wrong with you? Tell your mother when you are wronged, how can you do stupid things?

Sister Ning called her mother, and tears could not stop flowing down.

Mother asked for leave to take care of her. When she came home from the hospital, her husband drove to pick her up and told her that her parents-in-law didn't come because they had to take Bao Xiaohe to cook. Mother snorted and ignored him. Sister Ning said, "I know. What she wants to see most now is her daughter. She scared her. She is really not a good mother, "she thought.

When I got home, my mother had a serious talk with my parents-in-law and husband, and went home with my father and brother.

After my mother left, my parents-in-law seldom talked to her like a different person. My husband seldom pays attention to her, but only comes back from work and occasionally has children in Doby. At night, the child is still noisy, or she is basically alone.

She takes care of her children patiently because she feels guilty about them.

One day, she went downstairs to the garden to bask in the sun with her baby for almost two months. After walking for a while, she felt a little tired and sat down on the wooden stool beside the flower bed.

At this time, I heard my mother-in-law and an aunt who just added a pair of twin grandchildren in the community say that your daughter-in-law is so kind that she gave you two grandchildren at once.

Aunt said, your daughter-in-law is also very good, gentle and honest.

Mother-in-law disdainfully said, where? I can't even have a son. What I said to her, she committed suicide and killed my granddaughter and son. It's cruel.

Aunt said in surprise, oh, how did this happen? Is there something wrong with her brain?

My mother-in-law patted her thigh. Yeah, it's terrible. I don't know what I did. I married such a daughter-in-law Maybe there was a mental illness at home before. It's my fault that I was so kind to her when I married my family and ate ready-made food every day. How did this fall?

Sister Ning was so angry that she almost jumped up, but she went home with her child in her arms.

After a while, my mother-in-law came back and asked her with a smile, didn't you win Bao Xiao? I reached out and hugged Bao Xiao's grandmother. Grandma misses my grandson so much!

Ning Jie looked at her mother-in-law's ever-changing face and was dumbfounded.

Sister Ning is so scared when she finds something wrong again. She doesn't even dare to hug her daughter. She always says she doesn't want to. Husband and parents-in-law are very dissatisfied with her, saying that she has nothing to do at home, and now she doesn't even want to take the children.

My mother called, and Sister Ning asked her softly, Mom, have I ever had any diseases before?

My mother said in surprise that you seldom caught a cold before. Where do you have any diseases? She asked her with concern, Ningning, are you uncomfortable? Ask He Feng and others to take you to the hospital. Last time, he promised to take good care of you. Did he break his word?

Sister Ning didn't dare to let her mother know her situation, so she lied. It's okay. He's okay.

She was afraid to tell her mother that she couldn't sleep well all night. She walked on the road, feeling that others were talking about her. When she saw her mother-in-law talking to others, she felt that she was speaking ill of her. She was very scared.

During the Dragon Boat Festival, she wants to take Bao Xiao back to her mother's house. Her husband promised her, but her mother-in-law was particularly dissatisfied. She said that Bao Xiao was so young, how could she go out of the city? Hold this for me and go home by yourself.

Sister Ning felt particularly relieved when she picked up the scissors in her hand and stabbed herself.

I once again let my mother see herself in the hospital. She threw herself into her arms and cried. Mom, I'm scared. I'm really scared ... I can't help myself. I don't want this ...

The diagnosis was depression and phobia, and the mother took her back to her parents' home for treatment, because she was easy to hurt the child, and the child stayed at her husband's house.

After two years of treatment at her parents' home, her parents broke her heart. My mother was afraid that she would hurt herself again, so she simply resigned and stayed at home with her, and shared a room with her at night.

That day, she heard her always strong mother and father discussing to accompany her. She is afraid of losing her daughter.

When I was a child, I held my baby in my hand, but I got such a disease. My mother must be in great pain. She hugged herself in tears.

Mother took her to travel everywhere, and her brother and sister-in-law often encouraged her. My five-year-old niece is her delight every day. Her husband He Feng often takes Bao Xiao to see her, and her parents-in-law also calls to encourage her. She listened carefully to the doctor's advice and learned interesting photography skills under the care of her family. She becomes happier and more confident every day.

Now Sister Ning is an excellent photographer and often travels around with her three-year-old daughter. Her favorite thing is to photograph the beautiful scenery along the way, her lovely daughter, and all the people with stories she meets.

Sister Ning, who I saw today, is like a new student. She is full of energy.

The past is the past. We should welcome every day in the future with a sunny heart, and the days will always get better. ?