Senior year and junior year A: the imaginary enemy of soul mate

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What is a soul mate? Does it really exist? Can it provide evidence?

I can't. Soul mates may happen in nothingness, invisible/impossible/nonexistent. But it started with a boring encounter and a stereotyped conversation.

-Hello, senior!

-Hello!

My name is Xiao. You look like someone I've known for a long time.

Ha, really? ! It seems that many people have said the same thing to me ~

No, no,no. Senior. You used to have a crush on me. I swear to God, it should be you.

-Huh? ! Why don't I know you now? Sorry, sorry. ...

The senior smiled in his heart and met with too many similar praises, the same cliche beginning and the same silent ending. Know what you know, don't take it seriously. Senior three students know that all honors are a stone thrown on the journey of life. At first, it seems that the ripples are quite big, but eventually they will ripple in circles and then gradually disappear.

This senior was about to forget the existence of Xiao A until he was ready to go to bed at one o'clock that night, and accidentally brushed a song released by Xiao A 1 minute ago in his circle of friends:

I gave you so many years of youth/

In exchange for a thank you for your fulfillment/

Complete your chic and adventure/

Completed my blue sea and blue sky

? -Rene Liu's "Perfect"

The senior decided to give this friend a compliment. He likes Rene Liu's songs very much. Sometimes the story happens like this, and a wonderful "butterfly effect" is causing a storm.

Small angle of view

one

The senior clicked a praise in my circle of friends. This song was released at 1 am.

Not long ago, I met my senior. That day, at the gate of Starbucks in People's Square, I was holding a cup of Mianyun cold iced coffee. I like the light and strong taste of cold milk foam floating in cold extracted coffee. I took a bite and met a familiar face. I know it's him, but I'm not sure. Is he the man who accosted me earlier? I feel that I have seen him somewhere, and I have a very familiar feeling, but he didn't look at me, not at all. Yes, he must be someone I know, so I decided to get to know him again.

After adding WeChat, I knew he was a senior, but I forgot why I knew him. It's just a feeling that I can't tell. I know he took the initiative to know me, but I'm not sure about the specific time, mainly because I can't remember clearly. But I know he likes listening to Rene Liu's songs, especially in the middle of the night. So I decided to send a song "Perfect" by Rene Liu in the middle of the night. Seeing this praise, I decided to have a private talk with him in Xiaoxiao.

-senior, didn't sleep so late?

Haha, no, I'm not sleepy yet.

Do you also like the songs of milk tea? I especially like listening to her songs in the evening. Transparent and open-minded, easy to peace of mind.

Yes, I like listening to the songs of milk tea and singing her songs. I think she painted a beautiful picture of love.

I agree. I have sorted out the songs of milk tea before, and I have strung together all the songs I like her. Senior, do you want to see it?

Ok, send it to me. ...

The middle of the night is a time of emotional emptiness, and my brain will produce emotions in an instant. It was at this time that my senior and I had a long talk all night for the first time.

I remember chatting with my seniors that night. There were stories about Rene Liu and Rene Liu, but more songs. I strung my favorite milk tea song list into a short story. This is my recent situation, and the plot is like this:

When you know it, hear it, and when love approaches, we will all be crazy about love. When we meet each other, we always like to express our inner love with songs. Do not believe, you "listen! Who is singing? It's a pity that there are always times when nature plays tricks on people, although "I love you very much" and "we are not together". I thought that if I met the right person, I would sigh "there you are" and finally get rid of "loneliness all my life", but in Later, I didn't say "I'm waiting for you" but decided to "finish". You go, bye!

The senior thinks he is interested in all the songs I provide, and he talks to me a lot like a chatterbox. He said that besides Rene Liu, he liked it, and he even made up a little emotional story that strung together golden songs like me. I admit, the senior is really smart and learned it at once. The story he made up is like this:

Once in the frivolous years, he became the "king of K songs" by singing "Exaggeration". However, in the past ten years, there has been no stable happiness under the transfer of love, and I have also learned not to talk in ordinary days. Recently, I just want to carry your backpack to the foot of Mount Fuji and say "long time no see" to Red Rose and my "distant girl".

-Hey, senior, I didn't expect you to be interesting. You said you liked so many songs. Can you sing them all?

-Hurt! Just hum a few words.

-So when are you free to come out and discuss and have dinner together?

Okay, but I don't really remember your face. Then you should shout for me, haha ...

two

Whenever love approaches/

I feel that he is hugging you tightly/

He touches your heart/

Cover your eyes/

Without letting you know where to go.

-Rene Liu's "When Love is Close at Hand"

I lost my temper at dinner. Not only did I forget what I ate, but more importantly, when the waiter waited for my reply, I never answered. Because I have been staring at my senior's eyes, he has a pair of eyes that love to laugh. That night, I often have a feeling of unresponsiveness, and the whole person is in a daze. That person is not me, I usually react quickly, hey! I didn't expect to make a big joke when we first met. My seniors must think I am stupid. I'm not in good shape. It's really bad.

-Senior, I'm sorry tonight. I'm a little slow. You laughed.

I think it's good. You know a lot and have a lot of knowledge.

The main reason is that you are so kind, and I am a little scared, so I am amazed.

-Huh? ! I'm so good, and you're still scared. You are not afraid of bad people or good people!

No, I'm scared! I'm afraid I will fall in love with you.

-Huh? ! You are joking about tofu, hahahahahahahahahaha. ...

Unconsciously, chatting at one o'clock in the morning has gradually become an established habit between me and the principal. We talk about everything, food, movies, music, travel, photography, making money ... yes, of course we talk about making money. When we have money, we can have a lot. The only worry is that we are afraid of having no money to return to the present. The lifestyle of the rich has always existed in the fantasy of the poor, but the rich can't dream of the lifestyle of the poor even in nightmares, because poverty is unimaginable in the world of the rich.

My senior and I have always liked Thai food. When we go out, he will order green papaya salad and say that he likes the feeling of youth, much like the feeling of students, young but innocent; And I prefer the strong taste of Dongyin tribute sugar, because I like the fierce collision of taste buds, which is very similar to that sentence: I don't know the strength of wine until I get drunk, I don't know the weight of love, I don't know the truth without being stimulated.

The night view of the Bund is really beautiful, but it is also windy. The turbulence of the Huangpu River took away a lot of heat, and my seniors and I started talking about the river again:

-Senior, you know what? The river looks beautiful, but it is actually poisonous.

-Huh? ! What can I say?

You see, the rivers flowing through the city center are all mild and have become scenic spots. For example, in the Pearl River, the river is very slow, even if it falls, it will be fine. But the Huangpu River is different. If you fall, you can't catch it. The current is too fast.

-I don't agree. On the contrary, I think this river is very wise, and even has a philosophical flavor.

-Huh? Senior, tell me about it.

-Heraclitus, an ancient Greek philosopher, said, "One cannot step into the same river twice." If a river is too calm, people can still fish it out in the same place after falling. Isn't it suspected of "carving a boat for a sword"? Now this river is good, with a philosophical flavor, and it is a man of practice.

-high, really high, haha ...

It was a little cold that night, and the tourists dispersed one after another until about one o'clock, while the two of us were still looking at the jumping neon lights, and the seniors held me and hummed. I still clearly remember:

I want to ask you if you dare/

Love me like you said/

I want to ask you if you dare/

Crazy about love like me.

-Rene Liu "Crazy for Love"

I remember saying something that night: "Who dares to be a puppy?" . In the future, he will only play with barking dogs and will be punished! "

three

-Senior, come and sculpt!

That's not good. It costs so much money, which is not in line with my cold state.

-If you don't come, you won't shoot. With your big head, you have to be picky.

-Come on, come here. Don't pinch my ear, hey! Pain. pain.

Believe it or not, you will thank me one day, and I am the only one who helped you shoot so beautifully.

-Isn't this false packaging? It's like building a star

-Get out ...

The senior said let's go home and cook. I haven't cooked well together for a long time. I silently gave him a dirty look and said that my cooking only allowed me to cook two kinds, pancake fruit and scallion cake. Pick one! He had the cheek to choose scallion cake, but I did a good job. It's hard to say what it looks like, but it tastes good.

Senior is really a good cook. By himself, he made avocado fried chicken salad, crispy ribs, butterfly shrimp and well-done fried steak. Except that the steak is too hard, everything seems to be good and worth eating. Of course, I didn't always help him, mainly because I didn't know how to start and my cooking was not good.

I don't know if that bottle of bordeaux is really top-notch, or if the seniors are too bad at drinking. I want to laugh when I see his little face is red but his mouth is full of tiger's words. We snuggled together on the little sofa we bought at IKEA last month. Sofa soft, soft, falling like there is no support, we also fall like there is no bone, until each other deeper and deeper. I remember the movie I saw that night very clearly. It was a love story of a pair of super pure young people. No, it should be said that it is the innocent first love of a pair of children. It's called heartbeat. Yes, we watch children's romance films, but we do things that are not suitable for children.

If it weren't for your eager eyes/

If I don't save my mood/

Meet Qianshan/

Oh, so you are here, too.

-Rene Liu "So you are here"

After a long struggle, I finally applied to my senior for a puppet cat in my residence. Muppets are really God's pets. It is cute, with big eyes dripping with water and licking its long hair from time to time, but if the senior is not allergic to cat hair, everything will be easy.

Senior students like the puppet cat very much, bought the best cat food for it, and even decorated a super warm hut with plush toys in the shape of dried fish. But the puppet cat doesn't seem to like this nest very much. It likes my knees and sofa best. The cat's nest seems useless except scratching its paws occasionally.

Senior, let's send Tata to our friends!

Why? You know I like Tata best. Have you ever seen a cuter kitten?

You are allergic. It is not a good idea to have a red nose every day. Let's send it away.

No, I'll try not to be allergic. Of course our puppet will stay in our house. How can a precious son give it away?

Haha, only you can talk. ...

But I admit, our relationship still has ups and downs, and everything started with that wedding. Attending his best friend's wedding with my senior, I decided to release a little more of his handsomeness, adjusted the buttons of my suit, ironed my trousers carefully along the trousers line, and pinned a fresh red rose on the neckline of my shirt. Senior three students may not know that there is still the most sincere kiss I left on the rose. That night, the senior received a lot of admiring eyes, but those eyes were bayonets and stabbed me.

That night's senior was a member of the best man group. He was charming and soon became the object of attention, including the bridesmaid as his partner. The girl is tall, but not thin. Her rugged figure is a man's favorite. More importantly, she has a pair of big eyes, which makes her nose and mouth more compact and beautiful. Her eyelashes are wrinkled, and earth tone's eye shadow is scattered like a little glittering gold powder, which reminds people of the glitz of those who are addicted to money. The senior and she decisively became exquisite lovers in the bridesmaid group, and attracted much attention except the bride and groom. Everyone says they are perfect.

I am very happy and unhappy at the same time. There is a song on the scene that is very suitable for the scene. "It must be a special fate that makes us a family." But I think ironically, the senior and she are really more suitable. Everyone feels that they are so suitable for each other, and more than one person feels the same way.

On my way home, my senior asked me why I was unhappy. I didn't speak, just took an earplug that I was listening to. We quietly repeated the song:

I think she is/

A woman more suitable for you/

I am too gentle, too elegant, too mature, too sensible/

If I go back to/

The position of a good friend/

You just, you don't need to be so embarrassed anymore/

Love you very much/

So I am willing to let you/

Fly to more happy places.

-Rene Liu "Love You Very Much"

four

I actually know why I snubbed such a good senior. People will think that the pet object is too good, and the excellent person becomes a god. God can only look up from a distance. When he comes to you, the light is too bright and burning, which will make you look up and open your eyes.

You haven't paid much attention to me recently. Did I do something wrong?

-senior, you didn't do anything wrong, I did it wrong. I think you belong to everyone, not just me.

-Why do you say that?

Because everyone says you are better with her, right?

You believe what others say. You don't understand what I'm thinking.

Everyone says you are more suitable for her. Why don't you go to her? You are a perfect couple ~

-You shouldn't. Let me tell you the story of my loneliness. ...

I have no answer/

The sky is blue/

I'll look up/

The more complete the movie, the more I cherish sadness/

The more time you have, the more you get used to being upset/

Because I'm always lonely/

Live a lonely life

-Rene Liu's Lonely Life

I accepted my senior's reason. Of course, the ultimate reason is to forgive myself, but my senior is honest and won't be tempted by others, but there is no way to stop others from being tempted by him. That girl, sure enough, became a fierce suitor of the senior. Senior and she have no other shortcomings except because there is one more me. Under this choice, it seems that only I am redundant.

I admit, sometimes I care too much about what others say, but I feel that I can't grasp the love of others for my senior, and more and more people throw love arrows at him. I think I will lose him sooner or later, but it is this fear that makes the seniors feel that I have moved on. He suggested that if I had any ideas, I could share them with him at any time. I know, my senior began to doubt my mood now, and I offered to go to Tokyo.

Love is a matter of two people/

I don't like your doubt/

Doubting that love is a terrible weapon will kill love/

For me, it's sunny here.

Black heart, send you my heart/

The plan is to travel separately, why is it like the ending/

I know. Stop in your arms.

But not necessarily in your heart/

It rains all day in Paris.

-Rene Liu's "Traveling Alone"

There are many people on the countdown in Shibuya, Tokyo. The senior wore the big scarf I bought him, and his eyes smiled like a curved moon. I suddenly feel that he is stupid. He is a man full of stupidity. I deliberately made him giggle, took one photo after another and joined the bustling crowd.

In the street before, I asked him a question, is the cherry blossoms in Japan nice? He replied that it was the most beautiful painting in the world. I smiled, and sure enough, my senior had never seen the world. I also asked if it would be more beautiful if there were girls wearing kimonos under the cherry blossoms in spring. He nodded stupidly. This is the most beautiful picture. I smiled again. If the cherry blossoms blow down at this time, there are still girls wearing kimonos underneath, but if you see this picture in the hot spring next door, wouldn't it be more beautiful? It's the senior's turn to laugh. He knew I was teasing him on purpose.

Countdown, countdown. Make a wish ~

-Senior! Senior, am I in your wish? ! !

Don't!

-That's great. There is no senior in my wish.

Huh? I just lied to you!

-Me too. ...

five

I didn't care about the countdown wish for the New Year that night.

Because I was thinking about the decision, I decided to separate from my senior.

We still love each other on the surface, but we are troubled by that kind of doubt and fear inside. I hope he can take a better life path. There must be no me on that road. I should leave.

Bye, senior! We'll probably never meet again ~

How do you remember me/

Smile or silence/

Over the years, is there anyone who can make you not lonely/

Then I finally learned how to love/

It's a pity that you have already disappeared into the sea of people/

Then I finally understood in tears/

Some people stop once they miss it.

-Rene Liu "Later"

Advanced perspective

one

Little A is an eccentric child. Not his age, but his personality.

He left again this time, but this time it was special. I can't seem to find him anymore.

I forget how I met Xiao A. I only know that we spent many, many days and nights together. Every night, midnight is the time for us to chat together, rain or shine. But why did he leave? Without him at night, I feel insomnia will get worse.

After knowing him, I feel that I have learned to start to look at what I have done. Little boy, some strange things mentioned from time to time always make me deep in thought. I feel familiar with him, but I have a strange feeling. This feeling is really strange, but his mystery has always made it difficult for me to give up.

A small job is a mystery to me. He doesn't seem to have fixed working hours or even fixed working behavior. But his food and clothing seem to be extremely particular. Where does his income come from? Why did he stay up so late? He keeps talking to me. Is he trying to tell me something?

two

I remember having dinner with Xiao for the first time that night, and I made an amazing discovery.

I seem to have seen him on the live broadcast platform, but I don't seem sure. But this person who appeared on the live broadcast platform and shouted, Baby, give me a ticket quickly, is it really small? I'm not sure.

The one in the live broadcast is full of passion for many buzzwords. The man in Jimei's gorgeous bombing, a smoked brother, is completely different from the little A I remember. I have a vague feeling that the person in the live broadcast may be young, but the little one who talks to me is completely different, so he is real now. Is he chatting with me late at night just to cater to my disguise? I don't think so. Why can't I need his painstaking disguise? I'm just an ordinary person, an ordinary person.

I decided to find the answer about him myself. Who is he?

three

I finally live with Xiao, but even so, he occasionally disappears from my life for hours or days. I feel that he has been doing some amazing things behind my back. Yes, with his logical thinking, he will definitely do something he thinks is fun. But when I repeatedly confirmed with him whether he was doing live broadcast, he refused to respond positively to me.

I don't reject it, I don't understand it, but why doesn't he want to tell me frankly? I can totally participate with him, unless, unless he has always refused to trust me and has always had his own mysterious field. Hehe, after all, he still doesn't love me enough

four

I'm angry with little a.

Since attending the wedding, he has been encouraging me to be with Zhang. Zhang likes me, as long as anyone who is not blind can tell, but Zhang doesn't like me. Small. How can you not see it? He repeatedly urged me to stay with the maid of honor Zhang, which made me very angry.

Small secret. What's the strange plan? I have to write it down. I decided to buy a DV and record them all.

five

I didn't expect him to disappear after the countdown in Japan.

Under Mount Fuji, he disappeared with the cherry blossoms all over the sky.

I went back to China, but Xiao never came back. Ten years ago, I found an article written by myself in qq space, which actually mentioned the story of knowing little, but there was no following.

So I really know Xiao? I'm more and more suspicious that Xiao is a fictional story.

Until one day, I registered an account on the online celebrity platform and sent it out. I found that everyone really called themselves Senior Xiao A. Are Senior and Junior A real people who fit in with each other, or did a person find a lost part of himself?

What's your answer?

I don't know. Not knowing is not an escape, not an excuse, but the truth. I don't know, this is the normal state of human life, and so is emotion.

-End-

■? Edit typesetting |? Jay, I really want to love this world!

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