Deep writing scares me.

If you read my article according to the timeline, you will find that my writing is getting worse and worse. I did it on purpose. I dare not explore further. Most of the time, I just dabble in it. I feel that what I do is far behind what I think, and my actions can't keep up with my soul. People will live a very floating life, which is very dangerous. I need a period of repair to keep up with the real me.

So I seldom write anything recently, and writing is also a very shallow discussion. But if I don't write, I will feel that my expression ability is declining, so I will write a messy ramble.

An article in the newspaper was praised by a stranger, which made me happier. For me, what I wrote was thoughtful observation and deduction, but to outsiders, I knew it was even alarmist, so my groan was seen by someone who happened to meet me and I enjoyed it for a second or two, which was enough for me.

I have no plans for my future life. So far, everything is one step at a time. In fact, many times I feel that I am going to a dead end. I didn't think much, so I kept going and waited for a miracle. A person who wants nothing seems to be free and easy. In fact, only she understands that she wants something to bind her deeply more than anyone else. Don't let her feel like a kite, and her connection with the world is so weak. This unbearable lightness of life will really make people very dangerous. I used to read Milan Kundera's book, but I thought it was beside the point. This man is just a sex man. Why do you think life is important? Now it looks clear, so floating, if it doesn't sink, it will fly and disappear from the world. Mud also has the advantages of mud. Although it is dirty, it is very wrapped and can be plunged into it.

I haven't read for a long time. The last time I read a book was in the early summer of last year, and I was listening to the Golden Powder Family of the Himalayas. To tell the truth, TV plays are much better than novels. The novel is too real, it is all an exchange of interests, mixed with a little truth and hypocrisy that is better than nothing; The TV series is much more romantic, specifically for meeting the wall and reading poetry through the window in the moonlight. I really like this scene. If one day I get married, I will wake up every morning to write a love letter for him and put it on his pillow, and read a poem by Cangyang Jiacuo for him in the gentle moonlight. "You see me, or you can't see me, I will be there, not sad or happy; If you miss me, or don't miss me, love is there, and you won't go if you don't come. " At the end of the TV series, Jin Yanxi's passion waned when she got Clear Autumn. Those poems and broken walls were completely destroyed by a fire, and vanished with the memories of the past. I feel sorry for Yan Xi in the TV series. At least he has no salt in the soil and lives crazy by instinct. Yan Xi in the novel is really awkward. Yan Xi and I are very similar. We all yearn for warm, frank and brave love, but we are different. He used it as a condiment to embellish the plain life. I regard it as a part of my life. My heart is in me, and people are in my heart. So one day at the wedding scene, the master of ceremonies asked me, "What were you thinking about decades before you married him?" I replied, "I'm thinking about how to get him." The emcee asked, "What happened after you got it?" Me: "I think about how to make him happier every day." I hope that one day, I can pour all the romance I have cultivated over the years into him alone; If this life is destined to look up to him from a distance, I will accept it frankly. Life is not only complete, but also the end.

Recently, a sentence by Li Qingzhao has been echoing in my heart: "Looking for it, it's cold and desolate, and it's sad." When it's warm and cold, it's the hardest to rest. "There is no special additional emotion, but I think this word rhymes. When it is used to sing rap, it is really a yuppie. That's how China rap should be played. I love EHHH of Li Bangbang! " Probably because his songs quoted the words "like the river flowing in the east" in the Song Dynasty. Shit, there are more handsome combinations in this world than poetry and rap. Through the daily recommendation of Netease Cloud, I began to contact martial arts rap. The style of the second round is absolutely perfect. Broken Bridge and Nightcrawler were both amazing when they first heard it. Being a man is cool. Ge Dongqi's cinerary casket also surprised me. The phrase "dust or running water" fits the song perfectly. RedXxxxxx is my most surprising singer in 202 1. I have used his songs in two consecutive videos, which are changeable in style, free and unrestrained, romantic and soft, but decadent, and each song is a different surprise. I must go to his site to listen to it in the future, or have the opportunity to collect his albums. It can be said that he is my favorite rapper besides Li Bangbang.

Because street dance is sensitive to the rhythm of music, making videos always likes to get some wonderful rhythm points, which is a bit fun. Speaking of which, I haven't taken pictures for a long time, perhaps because I have become deeply nearsighted, I can't see clearly in the lens, and I dare not wear contact lenses. Let's buy a Fuji to play after work. There is only one orientation for me to take pictures, that is, to shoot the feeling I want in my heart. If it is realized, it will be perfect. If you can't reach it, it's useless for many people to like it. Portrait photography has become my great hobby, because I can find the unique beauty of my friends in the lens and express their uniqueness through my hands and skills, so I feel super awesome.

Stop writing. I'm starving. I'm going to eat.