Qingshan - acquaintance, connection and understanding with the author

The acquaintance, connection, and understanding between a reader and an author depend on some kind of fate. If there is no connection point, that is, the reader has not had any emotional stimulation for an author, then he will not be able to get to know the author. , connect, know each other. For Qingshan (Baby Annie), writing is a kind of personal expression and his own spiritual journey. It is usually based on one's own growth and character. After reading her works for so many years, I have seen Qingshan’s growth and felt her spiritual connotation. In the process, I myself have also grown along the way, slowly feeling and comprehending the ideological connotation contained in her works. .

When I was in junior high school, I began to read the works of Annie Baby and became acquainted with the author. I remember that every time I read one of her novels, I would feel that the world was decadent and bleak. The heroines in the stories either ran away or were wandering. It was because their love was not going well, and they were nostalgic and lost. They didn’t know what they were attracted to in the novel. Anyway, I just like to read Anne's words. I feel that her words, even while reading, have a sense of flow, a feeling of inner wandering and wandering, adapting to the inner heart of my youth. I remember reading "Farewell to Vivian", "August Is Young", "Flower of the Other Side", "Rose Island" and "Two or Three Things" written by Annie Baby.

When I was in high school, the most impressive thing was reading her novel "Lotus" and learning that there is a county in Tibet that has no roads yet - Medog. From then on, the name Medog has been imprinted in my mind. Inside. I still remember that when I read the novel "Lotus", I was attracted by the state of the protagonist in the story. The novel mainly describes three characters: Qing Zhao, Shan Sheng and Nei He. Qing Zhao is a young woman suffering from illness, stranded on the plateau, waiting for death; Shan Sheng, a middle-aged man, has just finished his pursuit of fame and fortune, and the long-suppressed darkness in his heart has awakened, and he is preparing to go to the isolated Medog , looking for old friend Nei He; Nei He is a free-spirited and rebellious woman who unfortunately has been forgotten by the world and has always had a bad fate. Along the way, Shangsheng told Qingzhao about his past with Neihe, and the strange and dangerous dangers in the Brahmaputra River Valley, just like the painful and wandering transformation process of a generation unfolding in the narrative.

When I was an undergraduate, during the summer vacation of my senior year, I read "The Beautiful Times", and I clearly felt that the words in it tended to be warmer, and I felt that there was a kind of happiness in daily life hidden between the lines. Anne was good at interpreting it from Through the feelings and observations in the trivial daily life, I also saw the change in Anne's heart. At that time, I was in a period of falling out of love, and Anne's words could just soothe me. I remember that I also watched "Spring Banquet" and "Sleep in the Sky" at that time. I slowly felt the changes in the author's thoughts, and I was also growing.

When he was a graduate student, Qingshan’s new book "Have Never Been" was published. This is Baby Annie’s first work after he changed his name to Qingshan. He bought the e-book version on Dangdang.com and read it tirelessly again. The book records During her long journey, she met four strangers: a cook who loved painting and was good at cooking, advocating his way of eating; a photographer who returned to the countryside, living in the mountains with his wife and children, paying homage to his hometown and nature. ; A young monk who uses poetry and thangka to practice in order to understand and worship his faith; an old qin player who plays the piano in the ancient way, who is over eighty years old and has one thing in mind. When reading this work, I once again felt the change in the author's writing style. He began to pay attention to the relationship between people and the outside world and himself, and focused on inner care. When "The Moon Boy Crosses the River" was published, I bought it again without hesitation. "The Moon Boy Crossing the River" is a collection of prose novels, which uses clear and simple words to record many of Qingshan's observations and reflections on life. Reading, writing, traveling, self-study, understanding of emotions, moments of intimacy with relatives and friends, and the trivial details of life. These words accumulated over time truly show Qingshan’s state of mind as he moves forward step by step through thinking. They are a sorting out of the past, as well as exploration and growth along the way. When reading "The Moon Boy Crossing the River", I felt the trivial beauty of daily life, which needs to be observed and felt with heart. In the process of reading, my heart becomes more and more delicate and sensitive subtly.

After working, she once again published the novel "Xiamo Valley". Based on her trust in the author's work, she does not need to read any introduction. She only needs to know that this novel was written by Qingshan and the book is still there. During the pre-sale period, I happily placed an order to purchase it. I waited with great anticipation for the arrival of the new book, and couldn't wait to read it once it arrived.

"Shamo Valley" is a novel about the love of "observation" and "awareness". Three women met in the Xiamo Valley at the intersection of time and space. Each of them has their own story: Ruzhen once pursued true love wholeheartedly, but always ended up with heartbreak. Fortunately, they met and solved the problem in their own small teahouse. A person with a knotted heart went to the Xiamo Valley and met true love; Yuanyin is a stage actor and director who has witnessed all the glamorous occasions. He once got married and had children away from the hustle and bustle, but in the end was unwilling to spend his life in trivial daily life; Queti always lives In the Xiamo Valley, one lives a down-to-earth life, is diligent and tolerant, and does not seek love, but meets his lover. They accept everything that happens calmly, and allow for reflection and transformation. Whether Chetti accepts the immeasurable decision, or truly accepts the changes that happened to her, or Yuanyin accepts her emotional situation, they adopt the same attitude: accept, accommodate, and at the same time use their own strength to restrain.

"Xiamo Valley" gives people the feeling that the field of vision is wider. It allows people to see that Qingshan is determined to hit the road after passing "Lotus" and "Spring Banquet", and in the echo of the valley Respond to the traces of your own heart. It can be seen that the author has not wasted these few years. He has been practicing his own soul and thinking, and found that the author has greater freedom in writing. To a certain extent, this work feels to me more than just a novel, but more like a metaphysical philosophy book, a Buddhist classic, and a transparent Zen koan that directly points to the human heart. It also seems to summarize everyone in the world. The life experience is repeated, splendid, trying, loving and hating, breaking through, letting go, and finally leads to return, to the inner, to tranquility, to the peace that comes from the soul, and there is no trace of emotional peace in the eyes. Like the eyes of old Chetti.

Since this book is more like a metaphysical philosophy book and a Buddhist classic, many words in it reveal thoughts that are in line with my current or recent thought changes, for example: "Carefully maintain Mindfulness and awareness, observing the experiences that arise from time to time.” The first important thing about having a human body is practice. Although this includes loneliness, asceticism, renunciation or perseverance, it also includes freedom and coolness."

Looking at these words, I feel the philosophy and thoughts conveyed in them, such as always being aware of my heart, emotions, thoughts, etc. This is the training I have been trying to ask myself to practice in the past two years. I deeply feel the connection between a reader and the author because the author helps the reader express what she is thinking, and precisely because the author helps the reader express what she is thinking, at that moment the reader and the author have a connection. Ming, so we got to know each other. This feeling is what I get every time I read Qingshan's works. It's like getting together with old friends and telling each other about their recent experiences and growth.

Qingshan once said: "Everyone has a different view of the same author, which is usually determined by their own ability to feel and depth of understanding. Even if a book itself is neutral, It will also be interpreted into different aspects and properties, which are related to the state of the reader's own mind." After reading Qingshan's works, I feel that she helped me express what I was thinking in my heart, or that she put forward a kind of philosophical thought, system, viewpoint, etc. that I agree with and is more in line with modern life. This has been my own experience over the years. It is related to the growth experience, which is what Qingshan said is related to the state of one's own mind. Therefore, all these reading feelings are based on the cognition generated by oneself. I happily feel that there is a good friend in this world who understands what I am thinking in my heart. This old friend can even lead me to grow and move towards a broader and freer spiritual world together.