What does the third year of your life mean to you?

Personal profile: Rural boy, male, born in Dingbian County, Yulin City in 1982. He likes to write and record every detail of life. He is casual, emotional and intellectual. He likes to capture the beauty of life, photography and music. , tea ceremony. Now lives in Dashawan.

According to the traditional saying in northern Shaanxi, the year of animal year is a difficult time. People in the year of animal year also find some red ones to wear on their bodies. I consider myself a person who has never been superstitious. However, in this place full of traditional cultural beliefs, I can only buy some things related to animal year and wear them according to the tradition of my hometown. Point to it to "ward off evil" for me. However, facts have proven that what should go will still go, and what should come will come as scheduled. Perhaps, this has no necessary connection with animal year.

Time is a thief. No matter how you reverse growth or maintain a unique childlike innocence, it can still easily take away one piece from you (your childhood, youth, memories, Even partners and relatives). And all we can do is accept it.

The annual rings are refreshed again and again, and I can truly feel the sound of time passing by. Standing at the intersection of my birth year and forty without confusion, I look back at a confused look: young dreams, years of hard work, and continuous The frustration outlines a mental journey that is unwilling to look back. This is the third year of my life, which means that I will become the de facto "uncle" from now on - although this word was once so far away from me.

36 years ago, I was born in Wazhuangzhuangtan, a rural village in the mountains. I always remember that there are gullies and bays in the village, Naopan, mountains, gullies, and scenes such as pulling weeds, herding donkeys, doing farm work, playing in the water, digging, and old monkeys after school. These scenes are almost impossible to find now. Nowadays, the countryside has undergone tremendous changes. The place where I was born and raised has become a verifiable link for me to recall my childhood. I have walked many times through the ditches, ridges, and mountains that I visited as a child, looking for the places where I left my mark as a child.

At that time, my dream was to get out of this mountain, study hard, bring glory to my family, and add color to the village. There were too many firsts in the first two animal years, and there were countless best and most beautiful moments. The craziest memory, it seems that more than 80% of the scenes in my dreams now are related to the time period of the first two rounds of zodiac year.

Listening to the familiar melody swirling in my heart, the warm candlelight flickers in front of my eyes. Today, the fourteenth day of the twelfth lunar month, bid farewell to my third year of life. I would like to thank my parents for giving me life and enduring all the hardships. I am grateful to my friends who brought me laughter when I was at my weakest. I am grateful to everyone who meets and knows each other and enters my world. At this moment I want to say something: It’s great to have you. Just ask yourself, life only has five or six such days. Looking at your own time axis, two rounds have been carved, the marks are eye-catching, and they have concluded on the annual rings. There is no way of knowing where the rest of my life will go. I just know to live a good life now, live a happy life, work hard to fulfill my wishes, do what I want to do, and get better. Someone once asked me, what kind of life can be considered wonderful? I said, people, just live happily. Status and reputation are just the outward manifestation of material things. In essence, inner peace and stability are the unrestrained pursuit of life. In this world, everyone has their own way of living, and the way I want most in my heart is to live in an ordinary way, to look at the world with gratitude, and to live life with joy. This is how it is now, and it will be like this in the future.

Objectively speaking, the first round of birth year has the greatest changes in physical development, while the second round has the greatest changes in thought and psychology. At the beginning of the third round, I had already said big or small, and both my body and mind seemed to have been finalized.

As the third zodiac year is about to pass, I find that I have a lot of regrets about my past life. But I still retain infinite longing for the future. I hope that at the end of the fourth cycle of my life year, I can change my way of living. I don't know what that is, maybe I need to find the answer myself. Life is a one-way ticket, we can't go back, but we can still choose the destination and our mood during the journey. Maybe all my efforts in the past 36 years were just to gain the right and ability to choose, but what I hope even more is that when one day I really have a lot of choice, I won't not know what I want. As I type this article, time is still flowing forward slowly but unstoppably. The fourth round has begun, I have no youth left to waste, my energy is declining, I have become more mature and worldly, and I don’t look like the person I once imagined my future to be. But I also have more ability to choose freely, I have a happy family, my mind can start to think about slightly more complex problems, and I still have some dreams and hopes.

2019, a new year, new goals, new directions!

First sentence

Your responsibility is your direction, your experience is your capital, and your character is your destiny.

The second sentence

If you do complex things simply, you will be an expert; if you do simple things repeatedly, you will be an expert; if you do repeated things with heart, you will be a winner.

The third sentence

Sand is waste, cement is also waste, but when mixed together, it becomes concrete, which is high-quality goods; rice is high-quality goods, and gasoline is also high-quality goods, but when mixed together, they become waste. . It doesn’t matter whether it’s a high-quality product or a waste, but who you hang out with is important!

I will continue to write my own fourth-round stories.