"Life, just come here, I'm not afraid of you!"

From Beijing after graduation in June 2017, to Hangzhou in June 2019, and now to Shanghai.

I am alone along the way.

I just graduated from school and submitted my resume with my suitcase and schoolbag on my back. Then I ran for interviews from house to house under the scorching sun. It took me three days to get a salary with a monthly salary of 4K. I was renting an apartment by myself. I lived in an illegally built apartment in the outer suburbs with a monthly rent of 850 RMB. Later, it was seized, evicted, and the rent was cheated by a rogue agent. To get to work, I have to take the bus for an hour and ride a bicycle for 20 minutes. After deducting 80% of the monthly salary for five social insurances, one housing fund, personal tax and the internship period, I actually got 2,600 yuan. I bought a box of instant noodles that would last me a month. Later I found dried noodles that were cheaper than instant noodles. The boiled noodles were the most unpleasant meal I have ever eaten. Cry and eat at the same time.

It was during that time that I worked very hard on writing and wanted to change. But do you know? It is not easy for a fresh graduate from a second school with no work experience to stay in Beijing.

But what people with nothing lack most is the courage to fight.

At that time, I had only one belief: I must stay in Beijing. So many people can do it, and so can I.

I worked overtime to revise the manuscript over and over until 12 o'clock in the evening, or even stayed up all night.

I will always pay attention to industry recruitment, and I want to seize opportunities. On weekends, I would run 6 kilometers to listen to lectures by industry leaders.

The inability to let go of face is an obstacle on the way forward for many people. That is just because you have not been forced into a desperate situation. Face is nothing at that time. Seizing the opportunity is everything.

I want to change, I want to go to a company with better treatment.

In one and a half years in Beijing, I changed to four companies. From a monthly salary of 4k to 9k, from a new media novice to being responsible for a large account.

From enthusiasm to anxiety and depression. From obeying others to thinking independently.

Pain is inevitable in human growth. It can make you live more clearly and clearly.

Know what you want. Understand what you can do. Understand how you can live happier.

Understand how individuals deal with themselves in the social environment.

A mature adult should be able to take good care of himself. It is himself who makes himself fall into the abyss, and only he can pull himself out.

The important thing is to act and try.

When you don’t know what to do, as long as you move, you are moving forward.

From January to June 2019, I took myself half a year off.

I traveled alone to more than ten cities, took a lot of photos, and met many interesting people who love life. I discovered photography and traveling as two hobbies.

I missed my college life, so I took the car back and rented a house next to my alma mater for two months. The house next to the school is really cost-effective for people who have rented a house in Beijing. A room with a monthly rent of 700 is much better than a room with a monthly rent of 2,600 in Beijing. A satisfactory house brings a really strong sense of happiness to people.

I have moved four times in Beijing. I have never been willing to call the rental house a "home", and I would never buy unnecessary things to decorate it. In my mind, it is just a place to go back to get some sleep after get off work. I don't want to "waste" too much money on it. The requirement for renting a house is that it is close to the company and the rent is cheap.

Do you think this request is a bit ridiculous? How can a house close to the company be cheap? Of course it is possible. Between the partition room and the kitchen, there is a bed as soon as you open the door. There is no room for anything except the bed and wardrobe. The windows are as big as two A4 sheets of paper. There is no air conditioning and it can be extremely hot in summer. I bought a small electric fan for 30 yuan.

So when I rented a satisfactory room next to my alma mater, I couldn't help laughing while lying on the bed, sitting in front of the desk, and standing in front of the big bright window. For the first time, I wanted to live a good life seriously. I bought a bouquet of flowers online, changed new sheets, and put up wallpaper. I would get up early, exercise, clean the room, eat in the school cafeteria, and learn jazz dance in the dance club. I can read and write articles and take photos when I go out.

Of course, a comfortable life cannot last long without the guarantee of deposits, but during this comfortable time, I can temporarily put aside stress and anxiety and think about what I really like to do. I can persist in my work because I love it. A long time.

During this period, I saw companies I really liked and submitted resumes. Although I failed in the interview because I couldn’t express myself well, a few interviews with industry leaders revealed where I was lacking in thinking. , it’s worth it.

After two months, I still haven’t figured out what I want to do, so I can only find an acceptable job first. After all, I have no money.

As for my strengths, I think my learning ability is pretty good. The one and a half year experience in Beidiao has given me enough confidence not to worry about finding a job below 8k. Later, I received an offer from a large film-related new media editor in Guangzhou, with a monthly salary of 7K. It was said that the price in Guangzhou was not as high as in Beijing.

Later I felt that there was really no need to travel so far to earn a salary that was not as high as before to do work that I didn’t really like.

Work, either to make money or to be happy.

When I think about my past jobs, the happiest time was when I worked at the front desk at a Beijing youth hostel in the first semester of my senior year.

Although it’s hard work, I’m really happy.

The restlessness of Gemini makes me want to see different people, listen to different stories every day, and have carefree time after get off work.

So I contacted the front desk of a private villa by the beautiful West Lake in Hangzhou. In addition to accommodation, the villa also has a tea bar, where you can learn about tea art and tea ceremony. The basic salary is three to four thousand, including food and accommodation. I don’t care much about the specific amount. After all, what I like is the eight hours of working time every day and the quiet and elegant environment.

No job is easy, it is either hard work or hard work.

People are just weird, and laziness is a weakness of people. Although I am dissatisfied with the current environment, I am often content with the status quo and do not have the courage to jump out of my comfort zone. Rather than starting over in a new environment, it is better to endure it and continue to stay in this familiar environment where I can work with ease.

"Love to dream" is my second strength. After seeing prosperity, how can one be willing to endure poverty? After fighting through storms, how can one be willing to be a salted fish?

I have been telling myself in my heart that I stopped this year in order to make a better start. I will only give myself this half a year, and I will leave after half a year to do what I have already thought of and love or return to my old profession. Be an emotional editor without emotions.

(To be continued)