What makes me tired of portrait photography?

The moment I just got the SLR, I was very confused. Not knowing how to use it is like not knowing how to face the unknown college life.

I am lucky to have a pair of parents who are willing to give me everything, love me and let me run freely in the pursuit of gardening interests. Although I have been loved, I still have a deep sense of loss and inferiority in the face of this black machine-I don't know how to use it, I don't know anything, I'm too ignorant.

Under the guidance of the SLR seller, I took the first photo, which was a close-up of my mother. When my mother and I looked at this photo together, we were all surprised by the authenticity of the SLR. I saw the real traces of time in the photo and lamented that wrinkles gave my mother a different temperament; Of course, my mother also saw the spots on her face and the wrinkles around her eyes. At that moment, she only said three words-"How ugly!" .

At that time, I didn't know that the shooting process of this photo revealed the following n shooting modes. At that time, I was still looking forward to it, thinking that I could shoot many good-looking people and things in the future.

Later, I found that my photos were not fresh enough in the four common photography in Japan; In an emotional film full of darkness, my photos are not atmospheric enough. Every time I take a photo, my portrait photography will unconsciously follow the feelings of the model, but everyone is different. So I can't form my own style. Moreover, I always hope that the models who are photographed can be happy. In their style, they will try a lot, but they are more and more decadent and numb to themselves who do this kind of photography.

There are also many models who feel as real and ugly as my mother, so taking portraits has become a terrible thing, and the inner expectations of models must be taken into account.

? After shooting for two years, I didn't know anything at first, but now I can complete the scene selection and post-shooting by myself. Although it is not perfect, it is still unsatisfactory. I made progress, but I didn't like portraits at first.

? So I began to shoot the scenery, and I found a kind of heartfelt happiness and peace after shooting the scenery. I don't want to shoot people after shooting the scenery. Maybe I can feel beautiful people simply from the outside, but not so many. And taking pictures can always remind me that there is beauty around me, and it is very real.

? If only people were as quiet and open-minded as the scenery. Unfortunately, most people are not. We are constantly liquefying and sharpening our skin and becoming our ideal self. I really hope to improve myself and accept myself more sincerely from the perspective of radical cure.

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