First love Coke

A

Many times I no longer believe in memory.

For example, I remember very clearly that it was raining silently that morning, and I took a long bus ride to find Leyan. I still remember the many car windows that were constantly washed by the rain, like a face with tears. Through it, I saw large masses of hazy gray and green passing by, the whole city abstracted, and the air cold.

My memory of the cold that day was so profound that when I recalled it, I almost felt as slightly stuffy as before. I still remember stepping on my canvas shoes in the rain, and the wet soles of my feet were cold.

So I think that it should have happened in the autumn, there is no doubt about it.

But the fact is that when I accidentally found a photo in an old English-Chinese dictionary, I was wearing a floral sundress with spaghetti straps that day, and I was surrounded by some people far and near wearing summer clothes. passers-by. Maybe it's because it's still raining, or maybe the nail's photography technique is too sparse, and the photo effect is very bad, but even so, the girl's hard-working smile in the photo is still recognizable.

In fact, it is still a little sweet. In that smile, at least there are not too many traces of crying.

Behind the photo is a strange inscription on the nail skeleton:

Here is the photo of Ji Fanfan who has just stopped from the rain, July 26, 2003.

You see, how unreliable memory is. It was obviously a July summer with the continuous sound of cicadas, but I only remember the illogical coldness. But I know that it’s unreasonable to just attribute the coldness to the heavy rain that day. The sensory impression is usually inseparable from the mood of the person involved at the time, just like it was written in a book that I can’t remember, when you walk through a familiar place with a pistol in your arms On the streets, all the scenery will be completely different even if it has been seen thousands of times.

That’s the truth.

On July 26, 2003, I found Leyan and watched him say to me in front of me: "Fanfan, no, Ji Fanfan, you have to know that everything I said on the phone was serious. Yes, we are not suitable, it is better to break up." Gray rain spread everywhere, and there was a little impatience on Le Yan's face.

So, I was pregnant with the idea that he was obviously frightened before I had time. This is what I hope for. I hope that he can retreat without a fight and take the initiative to tell my mother that it is not appropriate. My blind date trip can be regarded as a business trip. My patched heart looks at the summer I like, and the temperature is lost little by little.

B

Dingzhi advised me at that time: "Ji Fanfan, what do you like about that person? Don't cry and make it look like it's real." The heavy rain was falling, and I was In the park near Leyan School, a blue wristband of Nail was filled with tears and snot from crying, and finally had to be thrown away. The nail initially tried to persuade me to pay the "price", but Guo Min couldn't move for a long time. "My throat is really dry, please find some water!" She straightened her clothes before Dewey woke up from his desire. Dewey also worked until his throat was smoking, so he thought that maybe there was a well in the Taoist temple, so he trotted off to get water, taking the wrench with him when he left. "I threw it away to show my sincerity," he said. Taking advantage of the time when he was alone, Guo Min quickly found another wrench from the tool box next to the front seat, and quickly hid it between the backrest and the seat cushion. , then gradually became silent, just holding an umbrella for me, and then I finally got tired of crying.

Yes, what do I like about Leyan?

Before I met Leyan, I had always lived a happy life, but of course there were also worries: the food in the school cafeteria was terrible, pimples appeared one after another on my forehead, and I felt threatened three times a week. advanced mathematics class. At that time, my heart was always looking forward to the arrival of a shocking love, just like in "Roman Holiday" when Pike picked up the sleeping Hepburn on the street, and the fairy tale of the prince and princess unfolded immediately, but it was just the end, don't say goodbye or see each other again.

I always look forward to this, so one day, I was wearing slippers and buying yogurt at the school service department. A boy who was sweating profusely came over and said, "Hey, if you buy me a can of Coke now, I'll treat you to dinner later." I looked at him blankly, and he generously took out the empty pocket of his sweatpants and said, "Look, I really don't have any money, but I'm very thirsty. ." His eyes were deep, but he stared straight at me. I opened my eyes at a loss and said, "Oh." Then the person pulled the tab of the soda as a matter of course, drank it all in one gulp, and finally said to the aunt at the service department: "She paid for me, the little guy in slippers. ." Then he ran and jumped away. He didn't even look back at me, and I stood there in a daze, trying to figure out what was going on.

I didn’t wait for the promised dinner that night. I didn’t want to admit who I was waiting for, but I was always hungry. I put on clean light yellow sneakers and ran downstairs to the dormitory from time to time. Stop and go near the service department.

Like a fool. This is what Nail said to me. I took him to eat wontons at the school gate. It seemed that Yang Mi and Liu Kaiwei just smiled calmly. They just wanted to fulfill their promises and let their feelings grow in the sun.

They believe that love can get rid of all worldly shackles. Even if there are ups and downs in the future, there will be one more person by their side... The trivial thing told him that it was already nine o'clock.

Nailie has always been very harsh with me, but we are very close. He always likes to write my name as "Fanfan". We were deskmates in elementary school and classmates in junior high school. We were separated for three years in high school. Finally we reunited at a foreign university.

"Forget about this. This person doesn't sound like a good person. Don't pay attention to him again if you meet him again, do you hear me?" Nailizhi warned me.

But I finally didn’t listen to Nail.

One evening a few days later, I was walking back to the dormitory carrying boiled water. When passing by the service department, a tall and thin boy suddenly came over and snatched the thermos bottle from my hand. I looked up in panic. I saw a pair of deep eyes: "I promised to treat you to dinner that day, but later I found out that I didn't bring any money. Let me treat you to dinner today." I noticed that his eyelashes were very thick and long, and his face was very clear.

I hesitated, but I still went to eat the meal.

He is Leyan, a junior student from the University of Architecture in the easternmost part of the city. The last time he came to our school to play ball with his old classmates, this time he came to me to return the favor of a can of Coke.

Later, we fell in love.

At this time, Leyan and I patted my shoulder with one hand. I turned my head and saw Qiao Yinna looking at me curiously: "Who are you?" Love in itself is very ordinary, eating, walking and laughing The student couple who laughed and complained, had ordinary sweetness, ordinary quarrels, and finally broke up in an ordinary way. Even the reason was so ordinary: Leyan's last girlfriend came back to see him, and he found that he still loved that girl more.

Sorry, she is my first love. Leyan told me this, and the whole incident ended naturally.

On a sunny afternoon, the sky is high and the clouds are clear, and the camphor trees are green. Next to the basketball court, Ya is holding a book. Everything was surprisingly consistent with the plot in the idol drama: a three-pointer was missed, and the basketball acting as a love angel hit the girl's long black hair. Then there was the little girl's cheeks that were slightly red from anger, and the sunny and handsome school boy's panicked and shy eyes - like a premeditated movie, perfect and impeccable. I had no choice but to turn around and leave without saying anything else.

C

For a long time after July 26, 2003, the season was fixed in autumn. In my memory, the leaves were falling and the sky was clear, but the sunshine was very thin. I've been depressed.

I will always think of Leyan, when I walk through the campus walking with him, looking at the turquoise pendant he bought for me on my phone, or even, when I hold a jar of sweet and sad Coke, I will always think of him, involuntarily and helplessly.

Ding Ding was busy taking the G and TOTO exams in the dark. He suddenly became very motivated, but he would still try his best to eat with me. He quickly stuffed food into his stomach amidst the bustle of people in the cafeteria and listened. I am sentimental without doing my job. I know I am somewhat discouraging, especially for a motivated young man who is preparing to study abroad. My listlessness is really annoying. However, besides Nail, who else would accompany me, who is lovelorn and in low spirits?

Finally one day, Nailidai said with some hesitation: "Fanfan, how about you prepare for the G test with me?" I turned the plate listlessly: "What are you doing?" In fact, you can think about it. Take the exam first and then apply for school. Your grades have always been good and you will definitely get a scholarship. Now in a hurry, Huang Li suddenly thought of the table. Her eyes were closed and her head was drooping. ". Jiang Yong suddenly stopped when he saw this. He was stunned for a moment, turned around and ran quickly towards the left road down the mountain. If you work hard, you might be able to be in the same school..." Ding Dazhi said, and the days were moving forward quickly

Their lives were getting more and more difficult. As a last resort

She did Nanny. I was so excited that I interrupted him impatiently: "Are you still a classmate? We have been classmates for more than ten years, are you still not bored? I don’t want to go abroad. What’s good about foreign countries? Nail Ding dug his rice in a dull manner and remained silent for a long time: "It's better than just hanging around like this all day." It's been a few months, what did you say you've been doing? "I suddenly became angry. I slammed my chopsticks on the dinner plate: "Don't worry about it! Just take your test and do whatever you want with me! "

I rushed out of the cafeteria, and regret immediately welled up in my heart. It was faint at first, and then became stronger and stronger.

Nail is for my own good, he has always been like this, I I shouldn't treat him like this.

It's just that my frustration and the constant flow of people on the street came to her and passed her by in a hurry. What should I do?

Do you know? Leyan, you are also my first love.

No matter what, time has passed. You were happy, sad, crying, laughing, but it still kept going without stopping. I finally returned to my normal life, running around changing classrooms with my textbooks in hand, swallowing the food in the cafeteria with complaints. In addition, start looking around to find a job.

He is already a senior and has many contacts with American schools. Naturally, he is not angry with me. He will never seriously care about me. Facts have proved that my first love was not a big deal. Time smoothed it over without much effort. It was not as heroic as this life, not at all.

Just when I almost thought I had completely forgotten Leyan, one day I met him at Carrefour supermarket. And his girlfriend. The girl was very slender and her skin was very white, just like what he had described before. She carefully selected in front of the preserves shelf, while Leyan stood aside with a familiar look of impatience on his face. The moment our eyes met, Le Yan showed a very complicated expression, a little surprised and something else. I didn't stop, and went directly to interact with them. I didn't tell anyone about the pain in my heart, but suddenly it still felt sour.

I found Ding Ding and said, "I saw Leyan. I'm still a little sad." Ding Ding was silent for a moment and said, "I will go to Shanghai to apply for a visa tomorrow and treat you to dinner in the evening." After a pause, he said: " "Bring me a drink." I said, "Okay, okay, you never bring me a drink."

The result was still the same, I kept talking happy words and Nailida listened quietly. We drank a lot of beers and were both relatively teary-eyed by the end. I couldn't control it a little bit: "Nail, you think I'm hopeless, but Leyan, he is really my first love."

"So what? Wang Sini, Xi'an Fengxuan Fruit and Vegetable Professional Cooperative Chairman. 21 years ago

She was already working outside, working as a waitress, opening a hot pot restaurant, etc. Only she understands the ups and downs. Now her life is getting better day by day in the city. She also bought a house and owned her own home. But Wang Sini has always had a dream to get rich together with her fellow villagers, especially the women and sisters who stayed at home. "Nail suddenly stood up. He frowned and stared at me strangely, "Ji Fanfan, you are also my first love!"

E

When the nail left, I went to see him off. When the big white bird rumbled into flight, I suddenly realized how much inexplicable loss there would be in this large blank space without nails.

Nailie always calls me, his voice still sounds the same, and we always talk fiercely and unceremoniously to each other.

I and Nail are not together. Leyan's first love, my first love, and Dingzhi's first love, it always takes a lot of time to understand how these are mixed together. Fortunately, Nail and I still have a lot of time. Because of this love, we all hope that there will be no separation. Let’s not forget that 10 days later, Zou Fei could no longer borrow money to pay for her treatment. He wrote an IOU on behalf of his girlfriend for the treatment fee of 3,800 yuan and handed it to The hospital took Liu Qin out of the hospital and rented a small house in Tiefo Temple not far from the hospital. He also moved here from the school. From then on, this dark, damp, musty hut became the place where Zou Fei and Liu Qin lived. See.

Now is the last autumn day of 2005. I looked at the photo of myself in the rain in the midsummer of 2003, took a sip of ice-cold Coke, and began to write a long letter to Nail...

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First love