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Yongming Zhai

There are too many places I can't reach. My feet hurt. Mom, don't.

Teach me to catch the old sadness in the greedy sunrise. My heart is the same as yours.

You are my mother. I even shed your blood at dawn.

You were surprised to see yourself in a pool of blood. You woke me up.

Hearing the voice of the world, you gave birth to me, and you made me suffer misfortune.

Terrible twins in this world. For years, I don't remember crying tonight.

The light that makes you pregnant, how far it is, how suspicious it is, stands on the line of life and death.

Suddenly, there is darkness in front of your eyes, and how heavy the shadow enters the soles of your feet.

In your arms, I had a mysterious smile. Who knows?

You made me understand everything in a virgin way, but I was indifferent.

I regard this world as a virgin. Did I send it to you?

Haven't the hearty laughter burned enough in summer? No?

I was abandoned in this world, alone and sad with the light of the sun.

Hanging over me, do you know what is left when you bend over the world?

Years sent me to the mill and let me see myself crushed.

Oh, mom, were you happy when I finally became silent?

No one knows how irrelevant I love you, this secret.

From a part of you, my eyes look at you like two wounds.

In order to live, I killed myself to fight against eternal love.

A stone is abandoned until it dries up like bone marrow, and the world

Some orphans exposed all the blessings, but who knows best?

Anyone who stands on the mother's hand will eventually die because of birth.

1984

Role overview

Yongming Zhai, female, born in Chengdu, Sichuan, 1955. 1974 graduated from high school and went to the countryside to jump the queue as an educated youth. 1976 returned to the city. 1980 graduated from Chengdu Institute of Telecommunications Engineering (now University of Electronic Science and Technology of China). Working in a physics research institute. The poem was published in 198 1. I have lived abroad.

1984, the large-scale group poem "Women", including 20 lyric poems, shocked the literary world with its unique and bizarre language and shocking female position; From 65438 to 0986, this group of poems caused a great sensation after they were published in Poetry Magazine and Youth Poetry Society. 1996 became a freelance writer after publishing the prose collection "Building on Paper". In the decades of poetry creation, Yongming Zhai has always maintained abundant creative and thinking vitality, and important works have been published in each period, which is of great significance in China poetry circles.

There is no doubt about its importance. She is recognized as the best contemporary poetess in China. The most beautiful woman in the east. Yongming Zhai opened the "White Night" Bar Culture Salon in Chengdu from 65438 to 0998, and planned and held a series of literary and folk video activities.

Yongming Zhai's works have been translated into English, German, Japanese, Dutch and other languages. More than 65,438+00 collections of poems and essays have been published, such as Woman, the Rose Above All, and New York, West of new york. Yongming Zhai was selected as one of the "Top 50 Charms of China" in 2005 and "Top 10 Female Poets in China" in 20 10. In 2007, he won the "A Prize of Zhongkun International Poetry Award"; 20 1 1 won the Italian Ceppo Pistoia International Literature Award [1], and the chairman of the jury called Yongming Zhai "one of the greatest poets in the world today".

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Yongming Zhai has two sisters, an elder brother and a younger brother. Sister Mo Ran is now a famous writer and screenwriter. When Yongming Zhai was a child, she saw her sister Mo Ran writing and began to write by herself. I wrote many ancient poems when I was in middle school, and I wrote dozens more when I went to the countryside for two years, including my own paintings. Unfortunately, they are all lost. After graduating from college, Yongming Zhai began to get in touch with modern western literature.

After graduating from high school, he signed up to go to the countryside. 1In the summer of 976, 18 years old, he went to the rural area of Jing 'an Brigade in the suburbs of Chengdu. The people in the production team found that she loved reading, so they took her home and found a book, Pen gives birth to flowers. Her father collected a lot of classical dramas, and she also took some Peach Blossom Fan and The West Chamber to the countryside to read.

1977 Yongming Zhai entered the southwest institute of technical physics. Because the unit has good audio-visual equipment, she watched many western movies, cultivated her own aesthetics, and gradually became sensitive to visual elements such as color, shape and scope. Besides literature, she also fell in love with movies, photography and plastic arts.

As the last batch of workers, peasants and soldiers, she went to Chengdu Institute of Telecommunications Engineering, which had nothing to do with literature and art-she didn't like it; After graduation, she was assigned to the Institute of Physics. She didn't like the job.

Yongming Zhai, who is in her early twenties, is the first person in her unit to wear jeans because she writes poetry, devotes herself to art and demands a free life. She is considered a bit "bad" and unfilial. She was paid for publishing poems in literary magazines and was considered to do nothing outside except earn money.

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A woman's monologue

1983, she wrote the poem "Woman", a total of 20 lyric poems, beginning with "Monologue", "I, a wild dream, am full of abyss charm.

Force/machine is born of you. Heaven and earth/one, you call me a woman/and strengthen my body. There are many widely circulated sentences in the poem, such as "I want to hold your hand with my heart as the boundary/but my posture in front of you is a fiasco", "My eyes look at you like two wounds" and "anyone standing on my mother's hand will eventually die because of birth". Like a witch, she said these words like a curse. A firm tone, fierce struggle, secret and pain, sadness and complete emotionalization are Yongming Zhai's understanding of herself as a woman.

The poem was not published immediately after it was written, but circulated among a small group of friends. 1984 She printed 20 brochures in the company's printing room. "It's hard. A girl in the printing room of our company has a good relationship with me. The mimeograph was printed by both of us. It's primitive. My hands are covered with oil. After printing, I will bind it. "

Youth poetry talk

From 65438 to 0986, Poetry Magazine held a "Youth Poetry Society" and invited Yongming Zhai, Yu Jian and Han Dong. Starting from 1980, the poetry magazine "Youth Poetry Society" made Beidao, Shuting, Gu Cheng and others popular overnight in the form of the first special issue of the Youth Poetry Society. "Youth Poetry Society" has always been regarded as the "Whampoa Military Academy" in the field of poetry, and it has great influence in the field of poetry in China. Yongming Zhai took the invitation letter to ask for leave from the company, and finally the leader agreed, but he was also very dissatisfied with her.

In that "Youth Poetry Club", Yongming Zhai published a set of poems "Women". She wrote in Poems of Youth, "I will never be as profound as a man, and my advantage can only come from life itself." Poetry Newspaper and Poetry Magazine published Women's Poetry, and Lijiang Publishing House also published it as a collection of poems of the same name. This group of poems shocked1the poetry circle in the mid-1980s and brought her great fame. In the preface to The Consciousness of the Night, Yongming Zhai said: "I am more keen to expand the simplest and most subtle feeling in my mind, that is, what I think is' femininity'. Some paranoia makes me pay too much attention to my heart. "

Editing this turning point in life

go crazy/mad

Yongming Zhai resigned at the end of 1986, when everyone around her thought she was crazy. Her unit is Southwest Institute of Physics, which is a ministerial-level unit with good benefits. If she hadn't come out of the unit at that time, she would be a senior engineer at least now. But this rigorous scientific research unit is not suitable for Yongming Zhai, and she feels very depressed.

Yongming Zhai

Yongming Zhai went to America. After a year and a half in the United States, I was in a state of confusion, not knowing what to do or whether to stay. During this time, Yongming Zhai basically didn't write, and he wanted to return to China more and more. Because if she wants to stay, she will have to give up writing, study English hard, get a degree and find a job. If it is good, it is to live a middle-class life; If not, you have to continue to work hard for your life. This kind of life has no attraction for her.

After returning from the United States, Yongming Zhai began to consider writing something other than poetry. So, from 65438 to 0996, she published the first collection of essays, which was built on paper.

Bar salon

White Night Bar is a cultural salon in Chengdu. 1998 settled at No.85, Yulin West Road, Chengdu on May 8th. This is an old home that preserved the period of the Republic of China.

Taste "White Night"

Four pillars and three mountains west gate. In the courtyard, there is an old wall made of rammed piles of slag from the Qing Dynasty, mixed with residual tiles from the Han Dynasty. The east and west wing rooms retain the original doors and windows. There are two loquat trees and a dead tree in the yard. Two old eucalyptus trees cover the sun, cover the sun and cover the white night under the shade.

White Night Bar is a big family of writers, artists, media practitioners and lovers of literature and art ... with like-minded friends, lively festivals and cultural activities. "White Night" uses alcohol and literature and art to completely release the most natural and authentic side of people.

Art "White Night"

Yongming Zhai said, "White Night has greatly opened my writing horizon and my understanding of reality, which has made a fundamental change in my writing. From 1998 to now, my writing can be said to be very free and changeable, which is often related to the changes of things I care about. I think a writer should follow his heart in writing. When his inner thoughts and ideas change, his writing style will definitely change. Over the years, I have published two poems and three essays. Among them, White Night Tan is completely an art group that records' White Night' and' White Night'. "

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My writing, especially after 1990, is related to the times. Do you think poets don't care about society? This is a big misunderstanding. But I have never really paid attention to politics. I think politics is particularly complicated, dirty and utilitarian, and I'm not very interested. I know very well that what really deserves political attention is something I will never know. What I really care about is its authenticity. But we may never know the truth behind political events. I think our understanding of politics may be superficial. But we live under political control. If we care, I care how much it will control us.

For myself, what brings me the most happiness is poetry. There are all kinds of changes in life, which individuals can't control.

What you can control yourself is writing. By writing, you can express your thoughts and feel your existence. I am sometimes empty and need something to support myself so that I won't feel like a walking corpse. Poetry plays such a religious role. So I said that poetry has never let me down.

Poets must find a way to live for themselves, so as to be conducive to writing. In Sichuan, many poets who were active in the mid-1980s have been involved in the economic trend since the 1990s. Some are still wandering around, rushing for survival; Some people go back to their desks to concentrate on writing after finishing their work. Some of them can't get a sense of reality in this era, and they can only grab energy in writing; Others may gain energy in reality, but they need to turn it into a desire for poetry anyway. I don't think the change of situation and identity can explain everything the poet has in reality. For a poet, his occupation and identity are uncertain factors, and the only certainty is the meaning of poetry to him.

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