What is the next sentence of Qian 'an time?

The next sentence is that time is very shallow.

Shallow peaceful time means less and less liking the sunshine, indulging in the dim light in the dark every day, being catalyzed by alcohol, and unable to find myself.

I like this feeling. When the pain and sadness I once imagined really followed in reality, there was nothing I could do. Reality doesn't need me. I hate reality.

So let me escape. Please forgive my cowardice. I just want to paralyze myself and blend in with the crowd. I don't even know myself, and everything feels like a thing of the past.