"Fake Niang" ∣ Men disguised as women

I was caught by a little girl at the exhibition in Hangzhou.

"Sister, can you take a photo with me?"

I said yes. The voice is a rich male voice.

"Call your brother." The girl's mother corrected it.

I'm a boy, and I played the female character in comic book, Athina in Excalibur. People like to call us false mothers.

I was forced to be a false mother.

After graduating from junior college, because I like games and don't want to go to work, I have to stay in my hometown in the countryside. I bought equipment, became a game anchor, and played whatever game was on fire.

Hong Xiao told me that wearing women's clothes is more attractive to fans. My index is average, so I choose to wear women's clothes, because I know nothing about everyone on the website.

The hardest part is actually in the beginning The first time I wore women's clothes was in an afternoon, and there was no one around. I sneaked into my sister's closet and found a student costume from it.

This dress is similar to the school uniform in Riman. The skirt only reaches the thigh, with white stockings and small leather shoes. I seldom see my sister go out in it. I wonder if this skirt is too short.

The clothes are too small, and I look funny in the mirror.

I turned on the camera with trepidation, and the gifts brushed in the live room made me smile. Under the temptation of money, self-esteem is not important at all.

I kept an eye on the door on the way, fearing that my family would come back. Even the footsteps in the corridor make me sweat.

After the live broadcast, some fans wrote to me privately.

"You this jk is a mountain, will cause controversy. Many people spray when they see people crossing the mountain. "

I just know that this is not my sister's school uniform, but a jk uniform made by imitating Japanese students' uniforms. Wearing a mountain means buying pirated clothes, which will be cheaper.

Since then, in order not to recruit myself, I seldom wear jk Lolita fashion clothes. Even if there is, I will invite professionals to identify the single sign.

For my live broadcast career, I taught myself to make up and know the color of lipstick. Talking with friends about major cosmetics brands, everyone was surprised. After all, when I was in college, I was a straight man who only knew how to choose Barbie powder.

As a false mother, I am not very competent. Men are easily recognized as women. Hong Xiao is different. When I have dinner with him, we are always considered as a couple.

Hong Xiao is a senior in my circle. When I first met him, I couldn't recognize his real gender for a while.

A man's face is angular and his body has no curve. There is a sense of disobedience when you put on women's clothes. I can't see this in Hong Xiao.

My parents kicked me out of the house when they found out about my live broadcast. I came to the city where Hong Xiao lived and rented a private house. Hong Xiao invited me to dinner. After dinner, Hong Xiao went to check out. When Hong Xiao came back, he told me that he had no money and no place to go. He wanted to borrow money from me to stay in a hotel.

Hong Xiao started his career early and has beautiful people, so his income in this industry is very high. I can't imagine that he has no money.

I still lent him money, and when I left, I asked, "Do you want to come to my house?"

"I am a monster who is neither male nor female, and no one will be willing to recruit me." Hong Xiao said, his voice is very slender, similar to the ancient eunuch.

He was very dissatisfied with his voice. He once learned falsetto from a teacher, but it had little effect.

Don't exaggerate, I feel very puzzled.

Later, when chatting with insiders, I talked about Hong Xiao, only to know that he ate diethylstilbestrol.

Diethylstilbestrol, also known as estrogen, can make men feminine. After taking estrogen for one year, men will grow breasts, soften leg curves and become like girls, losing fertility. At the same time, it is accompanied by hormonal imbalance, hypertension and self-disease.

Thai shemale grew up with snacks and estrogen, and generally does not live beyond forty years old.

Hong Xiao has been eating for two years, so his girlfriend broke up with him, and his family broke up with him, which is considered a shame. Later, his family went bankrupt, and he began to help his family, living in distress.

Hong Xiao lives in a homestay family in the suburbs. When the owner of the hotel sees me, he always winks at me: "Hey, there you go again. Are you still looking for Miss Xiao? "

Hong Xiao claims to be a woman, and few people will doubt him.

When we went out to eat, Hong Xiao saw a beautiful girl passing by and said, "She had a rhinoplasty. The roots of the mountain are too high."

"How do you know?"

Hong Xiao irrelevant answer: "Are you often called uncle?"

I am surprised that the post-90s generation is often recognized as a 40-year-old uncle. Few people call me brother except my own sister.

"Your heart is very long and your jawbone is too high, so you look very old," he said.

I joked with him and said, "You are so knowledgeable. Have you ever been a plastic surgeon?"

"I was fired a few years ago."

It never occurred to me that Hong Xiao turned out to be a plastic surgeon. Hong Xiao seldom tells people about his past. He only likes to talk about popular things. When asked, he denied it. The only information I know is when he is drunk.

Hong Xiao took me, picked up the chopsticks on the table and cut my double eyelids. I know, he's drunk.

After we met, Hong Xiao told me about his plastic surgery history. His fat filling is made in Beijing, and his fan-shaped double eyelids are cut in Japan, which looks as natural as when he was born.

He showed me some old photos, in which Hong Xiao may be a teenager, handsome and manly, wearing shorts and holding a football in his hand. Now he has a Korean net red face, a small upturned nose and smiling lips.

I don't know how many knives I have to get in my face if I want to become like this completely.

I feel so sad that I can't help asking, "Why do I have to be a woman?"

"I think I should be a woman." Xiaohong smiled: He smiled, and his eyes were bent into a crescent shape, which was a bit like Jin Ghosn.

If you don't really love, who wants to? Even Xiao Bin, who loves her boyfriend deeply, can't do it.

Xiao Bin, the half master of Hong Xiao, is good at falsetto, and Hong Xiao learns from him.

Under the recommendation of Hong Xiao, I opened the studio, and a young man stood under the acacia tree, wearing a gown and singing Peking Opera. He sang the concubine in Farewell My Concubine, and her voice sounded like a 28-year-old girl.

"He is underage!" I am typing.

"He is thirty years old, and he is singing in the Peking Opera Theatre." Hong Xiao, come back to me.

"Is he from a drama family?"

"No, he just became a monk halfway and learned falsetto for his boyfriend."

It is no secret among Xiao Bin fans that Xiao Bin is gay. Xiao Bin's boyfriend was born in the countryside, and his parents couldn't understand him, so he had to force him to have a blind date. In order to prevent her boyfriend from being harassed by her parents, Xiao Bin had a whim, holding her voice and calling her boyfriend's mother, making up a girlfriend out of thin air, being caring and attentive, and becoming a caring little cotton-padded jacket.

Hong Xiao often joked that he and Xiao Bin were coaching each other.

With the growth of love age, Xiao Bin's boyfriend's parents began to urge marriage and see his daughter-in-law. Xiao Bin had to go straight to dark and continue to play the woman. Xiao Hong, who is more beautiful than a woman, became a master.

Because he is young, I care about him very much: "you can't go on like this." What are you going to do in the future? "

"What else can I do? Come day by day. " Xiao Bin is also worried. In his case, the possibility of continuing with his boyfriend is almost zero.

Nevertheless, Xiao Bin believes that her boyfriend loves him.

/kloc-On Valentine's Day in 0/7, a gift storm broke out in the live broadcast room of Xiao Bin, and water friends shouted "666" in succession.

After half an hour, the studio finally quieted down, and a person named 6. 17 was added to the gift list. He gave Xiao Bin a gift worth 5200 yuan.

Xiao Bin looked at the happy atmosphere in the studio and suddenly cried, and her foundation fainted.

"What are you doing? Just give it to me. Why let the platform go halfway? "

At this time, everyone knew that this man was Xiao Bin's boyfriend. I opened QQ and found that Xiao Bin's birthday was June 17.

Privately, Xiao Bin told us about his boyfriend. He is an office worker, earning 3,000 yuan a month and paying a mortgage of more than 1000 yuan. He doesn't like shopping on weekdays, but he is generous to Xiao Bin.

Hong Xiao envied Xiao Bin for having such a good boyfriend, and his suitors and spare tires could travel around the city. Hong Xiao said they didn't know his real gender.

"You said, I wish I were a girl, but I am a monster who is neither male nor female." These days, Hong Xiao always said these words to me.

I guess he may be in trouble.

The sun shone through the curtains, and Hong Xiao and I collapsed on the sofa, playing mobile games and chewing melon seeds in our mouths.

I think he has stayed in the hotel for a month. Hong Xiao went to answer the phone. When I came back, my face was red and white.

"Dad passed away, and mom said that the biggest regret in his life was that he didn't have a grandson."

I was surprised and asked what happened.

It turned out that Hong Xiao received a phone call the day he came to see me. His father had a car accident and was in the hospital.

Hong Xiao sold his house at once and gave all his money to his family. He has nowhere to go but to stay in a hotel. Hong Xiao is an only child. His family had been expecting him to get married and have children, but he chose to give up.

This became the biggest regret of Hong Xiao's parents.

Hong Xiao left, checked out of the room and said he would go home for the funeral. Before leaving, he asked me, "In what capacity did I go to see my father? Is it a daughter or a son? "

I can't bear to see him carrying a big suitcase. I quickly helped him carry it. Taking diethylstilbestrol for a long time made his muscles degenerate and he could not carry heavy objects.

Standing on the train, Hong Xiao waved to me.

I am very worried about his situation and often go for a walk in his studio. However, he never turned on the radio again, but sent a dynamic message on WeChat: "I owe too much, and I can't be willful anymore."

It suddenly occurred to me that he has been drinking with me these days, and he will talk nonsense when he is drunk. Once, I heard him say, "I haven't been home for two or three years." What do they look like? " Huanhuan, don't forget to tell me then. "

Huanhuan is his girlfriend's name. They broke up for two years.

A month later, I received a transfer from Hong Xiao, RMB 3,200, with the remark of hotel expenses. I opened the chat software and sent him a message, but he didn't reply, and the unread message hung quietly in the chat box.

But I can't take care of Hong Xiao anymore. I am busy dating these days. In order to get married as soon as possible, my parents mobilized relatives and friends to give me a plan, and almost every household gave me one.

I dare not tell them that I am a live broadcast of women's wear, only that I am the game anchor. Most of them look down on me and don't like my low salary and black and white work.

Because of professional reasons, it is difficult for me to find the right person, and I feel very depressed. I desperately want to talk to someone.

I couldn't get in touch with Hong Xiao, so Xiao Bin became my confidante.

Xiao Bin is in the same trouble as me. His parents don't know about him yet. Compared with me, he is an older young man and is taken more care of by his elders.

When the two of us are complaining, we occasionally talk about Hong Xiao and his taking estrogen.

Still no news from Hong Xiao.

Because of a blind date, I came home, and my parents seemed to accept my career. Avoid family members when wearing women's clothes and curl up in the room alone. Even the wardrobe where women's clothes are kept is locked, and the family lives together every day. Even though I tried to hide it, my family found out my secret.

/kloc-at the end of 0/7, my sister went home on holiday. Comic-con invited me to go far away. As for my family, I just said I was going on a business trip. My family only knows that I am broadcasting the game live, but I don't know my job. I often buy women's clothes online, and I call them live props for my family when they are delivered by express delivery.

After packing, I went out to watch TV. Half an hour later, I heard a voice in the room, followed by my sister's screams.

I panicked and rushed over. My suitcase fell to the ground and cracked. My sister is sitting on my bed with a maid skirt in her hand. There are odds and ends of cosmetics scattered by the bed, liquid foundation and lip gloss mixed together, and perfume spilled all over the floor.

"Brother, I didn't mean to. I happened to pass by and saw the box fall down. " Sister whispered an apology.

After hearing the news, parents were choked by perfume and coughed repeatedly. My heart was in my throat, and my trembling voice explained that it was for my friends.

Mom pointed to the invitation to the comic exhibition and said, "Is this the name of your live broadcast?"

I read her expression and nodded nervously.

"Before your aunt showed it to me, I still don't believe it. I just think that female doll is similar to you, but her voice is a little hoarse. "

I'm unknown so, and my parents' expressions tell me that I'm finished.

My smartphone and computer were confiscated, and I got a new Nokia. I am forced to rush to the interview every day.

Later, my sister told me that my aunt's son went home during the winter vacation, doing nothing every day, just lying in bed playing mobile phones and watching an anchor play games.

Aunt took advantage of him to go to the toilet and secretly glanced at the mobile phone. She found that the anchor was a bit like me, with a more similar voice and awkward eyes, unlike a woman.

On the mahjong table, my aunt shared this with my mother. My mother went to see it and felt hung up.

A few months later, I successfully entered a private enterprise to do sales. After I got my smartphone, I said goodbye to my fans as soon as possible.

/kloc-In the spring of 0/8, Xiao Bin sent me an invitation to his wedding. He married his boyfriend abroad and then got married at home.

I went to his wedding. Xiao Bin wore a men's suit and exchanged rings with her boyfriend. He doesn't have to play the role of a woman anymore, and he doesn't have to hold his voice.

Xiao Bin doesn't really like pretending to be a woman. He complained to me more than once. He said it was a sacrifice for love.

Sales work requires frequent business trips and overtime. I lay exhausted in the hotel bed, fighting with clients.

In a strange city, I saw the back like Hong Xiao. When I caught up with him, I found that I had made a mistake.

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