Daily Talk 14: I thought the course was slow, but in the end I educated myself

When I was watching the preparatory lessons of teacher Yimi’s watercolor class on the subway at work this morning, I had to listen to it at 1.5 times or even 2 times the playback speed. Because for me, Teacher Yimi’s speaking speed is too slow. Compared to Teacher Xinpin’s machine gun-like speaking speed, I prefer Teacher Xinpin. I even had the urge to suggest to Teacher Yimi that I should increase my speaking speed in future classes.

However, I immediately changed my mind: Why do I think Teacher Yimi speaks slowly?

Because I am used to getting information quickly. When I read a tweet, I swipe up with my finger. When I watch a TV series, I fast forward without even watching the plot. Even when I travel, I start from one. Rushing from one place to the next, making a full schedule, and finally returning home exhausted from lack of sleep. The fast pace of work and life has gradually made me lose the ability to enjoy slow speed.

But in my opinion, life is a moving spring that can be fast or slow, stretched or stretched. Because we are always affected by the environment, and the environment cannot always be in a state of rapid driving or slow progress. It is inevitable to speed up to overtake and slow down to give way. So I chose to have the ability to adapt to the fast pace, but also have the mentality to enjoy the slow pace.

So, why don’t I take advantage of this great opportunity to learn watercolor and regain the mentality of enjoying slow speed? And art itself is not something that can be achieved quickly. When Teacher Yimi speaks slowly, I can focus on practicing following the teacher's explanations, and even during the breaks of practice, I can reflect on the inner fluctuations and feelings when painting, the colors smeared by the paint on the paper, the pen tip and the paper the touch between. No need to worry about not being able to keep up.

Let’s analyze this matter from another angle: Byron Katie’s “change of mind” power.

Convert my thoughts from "I think Teacher Yimi's courses degrade very slowly." into "I think I listen to the lectures very slowly and absorb very slowly." Learn slowly It made me feel uneasy and anxious.

Digging a little deeper, I actually think in my heart that I don’t have enough time. I don’t know what will happen in three or five years. So whatever I want to learn and do, as long as I can think of it, I like to arrange it in a plan within a year, or more exaggeratedly, within a month.

However, we all know that time is limited. In just a few 24 hours, it is almost impossible to complete many time-consuming and energy-consuming things. The gap between reality and reality makes me anxious and afraid, and worried about the scarcity of time.

So, how to change this attitude towards time?

Put all your thoughts and actions into what you are doing at the moment, without worrying about the future, regretting the past, or thinking about other things that happened at the same time. Inject every minute and second of the present moment into the flow of your heart, forget about the length of time in the narrow sense, live one second into a day, and live a day into a second. It's like the spatial contrast between "one flower, one world" and "when you are at the top of the mountain, you can see all the small mountains."

If I were to look at myself 10 years later and look at myself now, I would definitely not complain about why I didn’t learn something in a month or two. Instead, I would probably regret it. Gang said: Why didn't you insist on doing this?

Not to mention complaining that I didn’t learn a lot about watercolor in just one and a half hours. In the future, I will more likely poke my current self in the spine, cursing why I don’t practice watercolor painting from time to time now, why I can’t calm down and practice my observation skills.

A small idea, after the above analysis, I suddenly found that I still have a big world to explore and discover.

In the past, when I saw others talking about a small thing and making a long speech, I would sneer in my heart: It’s just a small thing, is it necessary to analyze it so clearly? Recently, under the influence of teacher Xinpin, when she watches a movie, she can analyze it from the five roles of protagonist, villain, director, photographer, and screenwriter. In just about 2 hours of film, she explored it so deeply that she could even write a book.

To see movies carefully and deeply, to see small things big and clearly, is actually the process of broadening and lengthening life, and transforming limited people's lives into an infinite realm.