Xia Qixi's love letter to himself.

You are sitting in a lovely car.

Look at the camera with big inexperienced eyes.

Parents are teasing you with toys.

You are ignorant and cheerful.

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Two years old

Father left home to study, and relatives held you on the roof.

Point to the distance and tell you where he is.

You look at the distance with a toy in your hand.

The relatives around you tease you like holding the stars of the moon.

three years old

You can recite a whole Tang poem and sing a dozen children's songs.

At that time, tape recorders were very fashionable and advanced. Father and friends recorded songs and poems for you.

You like a tape recorder that can record your voice and play it repeatedly.

At that time, my mother was young and beautiful, and often ironed all the clothes in the house neatly.

In winter, I will bake sweet potatoes for you on the fat and round induction cooker.

You have been greedy since you were a child, and you secretly baked it while your mother was away.

In the same year, you entered the big class of preschool class.

When your father took you, the teacher said you were too young, so let's start with a small class.

You sing to the teacher with a flagpole. The teacher likes you to make an exception and accept your big class.

At that time, the little sister next door also studied with you, but she went to a small class.

You often bully her, put a stool on her head and make her cry like a bad boy.

But as soon as you saw someone bullying her, you rushed up and hit someone.

Four years old

Father takes you on a trip. Parrots, monkeys, tigers, lions and leopards in the zoo.

Yacht by the lake

Make you jump for joy.

But what you like best is the elephant slide that climbs up from the elephant tail.

Then slide down the elephant's long nose.

When you slide down, the wind will lift your hair and you will laugh.

You see, you like exciting things since you were a child.

Father was addicted to watching you slide until your pants finally broke a hole.

So father bought you a little pink shirt.

My brother was born in the same year.

You ran to the bed to see your white and tender brother's excited lesbian, and he touched his face with his hand.

Neighbor aunt asked if you were afraid that your parents would not love you in the future.

You don't care about turning your head, but you believe that you and your brother are both parents' treasures.

be five (years old)

Uncle came back from other places and brought you a furry poodle doll and colorful chocolate beans.

You generously distributed chocolate beans to the children around you, so you became the most popular person among the children.

You accidentally knocked over the chocolate, and the chocolate beans fell into the soil. The other children went to pick them up.

But you stopped everyone. If you say it's dirty, don't take it.

Maybe this is the beginning of your character, not crying for spilled milk.

In the same year, you were in the second grade of primary school.

You are the teacher's baby, and you occupy the top three positions with two boys in the class.

You often compete together to do homework, read books, attend classes and answer questions.

Even take part in extracurricular activities.

One of the little boys has a poisonous mouth and often insults you. You will always dare to fight him back.

You'll never imagine that after fifteen years apart, the little boy still remembers your name when he sees you.

six

You dropped out of the top ten because it was fun.

Your father, who is very demanding of you, thinks you are younger than you, so you bid farewell to two little boys.

But my father didn't expect to repeat it. Although it is to consolidate knowledge, you have listened to every class.

So you started having fun.

The monitor of the new class teacher is a greedy girl.

Older than you and your classmates.

So she often instructs her classmates to bring her food. She likes eating your hawthorn very much.

And often rob you of good books.

So at that time, dad often said that you forgot to give you a new book when you were at school.

I don't know where I lost it after school.

You didn't tell dad it was really taken.

Seven years old

You take part in theatrical performances, dance, sing and wear beautiful braids.

When the teacher put on your makeup, she praised your bright eyes.

The girls in the class are divided into gangs, and you are not involved in any faction.

So you are often alone.

But you are not alone. You often go to see the teachers in the second grade of primary school.

Because in the year you competed with the little boy,

She thinks of you as her own child.

But she was thirty years old by then.

But unmarried, behind someone else's back, she is a lone ranger.

Although you didn't understand loneliness at that time, you thought she was very kind.

Would you like to be close to her?

At the age of eight

You are the monitor, holding a pointer every day, which is awesome. Whoever doesn't listen will be slapped.

Two boys often make mistakes.

Then you will go to their seats and knock on their desks as if nothing had happened.

Like seemed to be a shameful and inexplicable word at that time.

A boy wrote you a love letter, and you tore it up angrily.

He is a hooligan. He asked a senior female gangster to tell you that he likes you and wants to fall in love with you.

You disdained to say anything, but the gangster left. You climbed the high pole and hung upside down for a long time.

nine years old

You didn't know that they both liked you until there was a rumor in the class.

When you were in fifth grade, it was too hot in summer and your father had a drink. You tasted one.

So all afternoon, you blushed like a fever and your arm hurt.

Little punk boy cares about telling you the solution to the hangover.

But you did your best, and your arm still hurts at night.

Only then do you know that you are not drunk, but allergic to alcohol.

ten

You will never think that you are in the same class as that female gangster who came to see you on the first day of two years ago.

There are many hot-blooded boys and girls in your class, and you will soon become a female gangster and be your boss.

You girls often walk together at school, which is also spectacular.

At that time, you were the monitor of the Youth League Committee, which meant that you got excellent grades, but you were very close to the older gangsters.

So all the auras were piled on you that year, and you became a celebrity in the whole class or even the whole school.

Your seat in the class is the first on the left and the second on the right.

They all help you with your homework, you play games, and they help you watch the teacher.

Your short film Please Accept the Fourth Shadow of O 'Filja is based on them.

1 1 year

The next day, you are still beautiful.

It's just that every class has more than a dozen girls who accompany the first grade.

But you still go hand in hand to dominate the whole grade. If you don't like it, you can arrest people to fix it.

The boy who liked you in the fourth grade dropped out of school. He wants to talk to you after school.

Who knows that when I was waiting for you, I fell from a height and accidentally fell into a fracture.

In the same year, because of your chaotic life, your father ordered you to repeat the grade.

Watching classmates and friends move upstairs, you sit in an empty teacher and cry.

Twelve years old

Father failed you because he wanted you to settle down and study.

You bid farewell to your friends and are sad to prepare for quiet reading.

But your father underestimated your skills, and you are not alone.

On the contrary, I made a large group of friends.

There is not a classmate in grade three who is not your acquaintance.

People of the same level in the second grade come to play with your first-grade child.

At that time, you met a gangster, Zhou Xiaodao, and got along well with him.

A classmate in the class scolded you, and he called a truckload of people to avenge you.

Surround the boy and kick him from one end of the strip to the other.

Later, when you wrote "Fairy Tales Hurt the Cool City", you especially missed him.

thirteen years old

There is a boy in the class who is cool and quiet. He is a good friend of Zhou Xiaodao.

Unlike Zhou Xiaodao, he is very silent.

Often a person listens to music and reads books, and all the girls around him like him.

He likes you, although you still don't understand what he likes about you.

Or did you start with him out of a girl's vanity or because you really liked him?

So even when I wrote him "I am waiting for you in the ashes" later.

You didn't write Chihiro's feelings for Sucher.

You listened to many songs that year.

He bought you a whole shelf of tapes. He has heard about it.

Every song will be recommended to you.

I think the reason why you wrote later is actually that he created this talent.

Kay listened to too many romantic songs at that time.

So it was easy to write an affair story later.

Fourteen years old

When you went to high school in the city, you simply broke up with Su Che, perhaps because you were young and didn't miss it at all.

When you were in high school, private schools were either rich or expensive except those with really excellent grades.

You are dressed in a distinctive personality, overbearing and violent, and you provoked celebrities of the same grade at the beginning of school.

Now all the people who are worried about you or waiting to see your play have never thought that you will fight side by side with them without fear.

You became famous in World War I, and your whole school was famous, but you paid the price. Many people are afraid of gangsters.

So then you were rejected and left alone.

It was this year that you met the brand of life.

Anyone who has read your calligraphy will remember his name-Lu.

He is a lamp on campus, but he lives next to you.

He said that you are a rough jade, but you are uncut. He said that the blood and courage in your character frightened him.

He said he liked you. He said he was willing to protect you.

The whole school was surprised that you were with him, and even many of his friends advised him to play.

But he just smiled, held your hand and led you through the corridor and the four seasons.

Fifteen years old

He tapped your beauty because everyone found it that year.

You used to be so generous, loyal and strong.

I don't know if it was to prove that I suddenly lost a lot of weight that year.

The reborn eyebrows began to clear up.

Or the power of love at that time

You changed the situation. All his friends like you.

The gangsters who fought with you at first began to be nice to you.

You and he know many important people in the school.

Your humiliation and frankness have also made you more friends.

You are the monitor, the only girl in the Student Union and the only female flag-raiser since the school was founded.

It can be said that he brought you a great part of the beauty of your high school.

That's why you were so miserable and cried so sad when you were separated later.

Because he gave you not only love, but also redemption and a most beautiful, precious and magnificent time.

In the winter vacation of the same year, you learned that the boy who liked you in primary school died except in a car accident.

You go home to worship him and look at his handsome face in the photo.

Crying silently is the first time you realize that death is so close to survival.

sixteen years old

You have dark circles and nervous breakdown because you skip class day and night to go clubbing.

You are as maverick as ever.

Friends say that you will be gentle only when you are around him.

But even he couldn't help you that year. You fought back.

You were criticized by the director of the student affairs office.

You even quit the student union.

The head teacher is worried that you will talk to you and ask about your future ideal. You look at the sky and tell him.

I want to be an editor.

At that time, the sky was blue and the clouds were white. You think the goal is far away, but you still want to say it.

Your good friend with you in the second year of high school transferred to another school and left.

That year, two private rooms were held for your birthday with great fanfare.

Why did you have a birthday party?

Because you said maybe my excitement would stop this year.

seventeen years old

You are seventeen years old, you left your hometown and didn't choose the same school with any friends.

I was admitted to Nanchang, thousands of kilometers away from home, and went to college.

You work at sunrise and sunset.

You sit in the Internet cafe late at night every day, reading and writing.

At that time, your mind was like lava, and you could write a lot of words every night.

Although most of them were not used in the end, they were all sent under various pen names.

Occasionally, I see strange faces in class. At the Spring Festival party, you were chosen to sing.

Did you sing "Do you know" with milk tea?

When you stepped down that day, a brand-new boy talked to you.

He was later left with nowhere to say goodbye by a wooden cupboard.

You send an email to Lu on a snowy night, and he sends you warm water.

You drive to the neighboring city to see Lu on holidays or weekends.

He went to every corner to find snacks and took you to eat when you came back.

You can't buy a ticket in winter vacation because there are too many people to go home, so he queued up all night to buy it for you.

It doesn't matter if he smiles when you say I don't love you.

Then you left the university without even saying goodbye to him.

He chased your alumni book and left four words wishing you happiness.

eighteen years old

You and I are anxious to go to Wuhan to find a job in the land.

I fell ill as soon as I arrived in Wuhan, because you asked your father for such freedom.

So you are afraid that he will learn about your illness and let you go back for treatment.

You gritted your teeth and endured a disease that could have been cured by surgery.

You just hung up the water, and then you went into a painful coma all night.

Not everyone has a wonderful life like you.

Not everyone is sick, and there is something beside the bed that takes care of your lover in every detail.

At that time, the relationship between you and him had been cracked, but the next morning you watched him stay up all night.

Suddenly want to marry him

This is the first person you want to marry and the first person you want to dress her in a wedding dress.

Someone you loved all your girlhood.

You sit on the bus and discuss whether to get married now. At least take a wedding photo first.

You didn't wear a wedding dress for the person you love.

He asked you to go with me. You cried, but you shook your head.

He's going home to take over the family business. You want to fight for your dream

At the same time, you abandoned the city and the years of sharing weal and woe.

nineteen years old

You drifted to Changsha and worked as a literary editor in the fireworks studio. How much do you want to give up writing these two years?

But at this time, an editor named Weiyang found you.

Invite you to write, encourage you to write and give you the freest platform.

As an editor, you contributed to her under the pseudonym "Xia Qixi" because you were depressed.

You wrote a lot of words, and she sent as many as you wrote.

After a long time, you and the editor became close friends.

Because the trust she gave you changed another part of your life.

She was right to let you know that you didn't collapse.

You followed an excellent superior lion, who taught you the most valuable editing experience.

You put all your time into your work.

You live on the seventh floor with a man and a woman from the company.

Later, they all left Changsha, but you continued to live on the seventh floor to work and get off work.

Twenty years old

Going back to Wuhan to visit the friends I made at that time during the holiday was a bit sour.

It hasn't arrived yet because there is a problem with the money to buy a notebook.

She gave you 5 thousand very readily

Later, you asked her, as a friend you met online, aren't you afraid that I won't pay you back?

She said without thinking, in fact, I am not a frequent borrower.

But I think you are credible, so I want to try my personality index.

You have different personalities, but you go shopping, eat together and catch the train together.

You will convince her when she is helpless, and she will comfort you when you are sad.

You said she was a friend worthy of making in your life.

You wrote "Blue Balloon and Su Xia", echoing the previous "Pain can't last for a hundred days".

Wrote "White Wedding Next Winter"

Finally, I wrote "Then we all cried"

You have never written these words without tears.

Although you are used to the impermanence of the workplace at this time, emotionally

You are still a nostalgic person.

Twenty-one years old

You care so much about your wound that you refuse to touch anyone.

You have protected your new heart very well, and no more trauma is allowed.

When someone approaches you, you are just cold and indifferent.

So later, he spent a lot of time to impress you and get your smile.

It's hard for him to say that he can get your love.

In the same year, your superior informed you.

Let you edit the magazine "Flying Magic" by yourself.

Twenty Two

The first book you wrote, We all cried later, was in full swing and nearly 200,000 copies were published.

This year, you got a lot of things, fame, wealth, love and promotion.

For others, the joy of going to heaven has turned into a hell of falling into Asura.

Your forbearance in the first two years suddenly made you cynical because of these flashy outbursts.

You don't love anyone, you don't hate anyone, you shop, smoke, get fat, degenerate and give up on yourself.

He is distressed, but he is not the land you met when you were fourteen.

Most importantly, you are no longer the naive person who opened his hands at the age of fourteen and thought he could take on the future.

He said that if you are not satisfied with me, then I am willing to leave.

After he left, you threw away the ring he gave you, the doll he gave you, everything he gave you.

You cried your eyes out, but you never caught up.

You started writing a new book and only cried at night. You named him Wei.

The night he left, it was raining cats and dogs, and all the stars sank.

In the same year, you edited "Flying Magic" and opened a B version because of good sales performance.

You had a big ups and downs in the workplace and forgot to go home.

Twenty three

You can't write "Uber only cries at night". You ended the serial in Huahuo magazine in tears.

You feel that you have lost not only the ability to love someone, but also the ability to tell stories.

You think that after you are nineteen, you will never bend down and cry for someone again.

But at the age of 23, you realized your sober love.

I think I can get rid of it soberly

In the face of time and memory, it is just an armchair strategist.

The short and romantic scene in the past has been fatal since then.

On your birthday the same year, you gave yourself a red car by swiping your card.

You joked with your friend that I betrayed my memory with Lu and showed my wound to others.

But I have a car. It's worth it.

A friend looks at your unhappy face anxiously.

You see, you raised the beautiful world to such a vulgar level and gave up yourself pessimistically.

Twenty-four

The previous 23 years were like a luxurious dream.

At the age of 24, you suddenly woke up.

You begin to arrange your life with passion as you dreamed when you were seventeen.

It was your birthday yesterday, and you were afraid of getting old, but you couldn't refuse to spend time touching your face.

You are actively preparing this new book, the forgetful book I have with you, and you are lazy.

I don't like to analyze myself or tell others about my life.

This time, I suddenly remembered to write these words.

You continue to live in this city.

You have fulfilled your childhood dream and raised a white cat and a white dog.

Live on the seventh floor, live with them.

Neither humble nor supercilious, neither resentful nor resentful, and the years are swaying, neither humiliating nor humiliating.

I bet you will have a new life next year.

Give yourself a love letter.

I finally finished talking about the years when you grew up, the short years I can remember.

Although you still have many shortcomings, you don't eat on time, lose your temper and be willful.

Wandering away from parents

But I am glad that you are so kind, brave and strong.

You can carry it through life and death.

I'm also glad that for so many years, although you are rebellious and arrogant, you haven't done anything bad and are aboveboard.

I think you should thank your parents, your friends and those who love you.

They gave you a wonderful childhood, and the rebellious teenagers were full of youth.

They make you love all the time, so you have no personality loss and you have not gone the wrong way.

You should be grateful for every haze that life has given you, so that you can live better in the storm.

You should thank everyone who passed you by and thank those rare and warm memories.

Love Xia Qixi very much,

An angel who lives on the edge of the world,

In her words,

Dancing there,

Please adopt it.