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I love you, but I have ten thousand ways to say I don't love you, because I say I'm afraid of losing you.

So, since then, time has passed. ...

( 1)

Chen has liked it since primary school. She learned Wu Qingshan's name from others and how beautiful and excellent he was. Wu Qingshan occupied a place in her heart.

Chen's happiest time every day is during the break, when he sees the next class finish. He is so tall that Chen can recognize him at a glance. Every twist, Chen Dou did very standard, the purpose is to turn your head and see more.

The day when the primary school holds the sports meeting every year is Chen's happiest day. She can always stare at Wu Qingshan and run 800 meters, enjoying his every running action. "Wu Qingshan is amazing! Won the first place again. " "Yes, he can take part in the city competition with such a result." Every time I hear such a compliment, Chen is also very happy, but she sometimes loses. "If only I could run 800 meters and become the first place. If I run fast, I might catch up with Wu Qingshan."

As a result, a running figure appeared on the playground. Every step, Chen Dou felt that his chest would explode, and he could only run a few steps. "Hey, the fat girl has come to run, has she learned to lose weight?" "Ha ha ha ....." Several male students in the same class came to laugh at Chen again. "Look how strange she runs, like a duck. That's funny. " Several girls spoke quietly, but Chen still heard them. Chen Mei, keep your head down and keep running. Growing up, she has been used to these taunts. After running for a long time, there are not many people on the playground. Chen picked up his schoolbag and left silently.

The school has organized a walking team, and one girl is missing. When the head teacher said the news, all the girls in the class were silent, afraid of being caught as able-bodied men. The boys chattered on about who was leaving. The head teacher saw that no one signed up for a long time, so he had to decide to give up the quota to the next class. Chen's heart is very tangled. She actually wanted to go because Wu Qingshan from the next class attended, but she was afraid. ...

The head teacher was about to leave the classroom when Chen suddenly stood up. "Teacher, I ... I will attend." When Chen finished speaking, his face turned red and he was at a loss with his head down. The atmosphere in the class was quiet for a while, and then laughter filled the whole classroom. The head teacher also paused, but Chen immediately filled in the name on the form.

Chen became a member of the football team. Of course, every time I go to training, I will inevitably be laughed at by my classmates. As the competition time gets closer, the training becomes more intense. Several times, Chen couldn't keep up with the pace of the team, implicated the students next to him, and caused the team to fall. "Chen, it is you every time. Stay right in the middle. Can't go up any more! " The coach is angry, too. How can he take part in the competition like this? "I'm sorry." Chen can only whisper. Everyone fell and the team was full of complaints. Wu Qingshan was in the middle of the line and fell even harder. Chen felt even sadder when he saw that his hand was skinned.

"Chen, in this way, if you come as a substitute, run behind the team." "ok." Chen breathed a sigh of relief. Luckily, the coach didn't kick her out of the team, so she could follow the team and watch Wu Qingshan run away.

The football team achieved good results and was dissolved after the game. How many times, looking at the running back of Qing, Chen wants to chase it forever. ...

Chen didn't say a word, so the primary school time passed. Chen regrets why she didn't join the class at the beginning, so that she can also take photos with her, and there will always be nostalgia in the future.

(2)

Chen never thought that he would sit at the same table with him. Apart from Chen's accident, I was actually very happy. "Maybe I have a fate with him!" Chen Chang thought like this, and his heart added a few minutes of goodwill.

Chen felt inferior since childhood, which may have a lot to do with her family. Parents often quarrel, dad always beats her and mom, and mom goes to work far away. Chen's father paid little attention to her. Chen wears dirty clothes, and her classmates don't like her very much, because she has caught up with her development and gained a lot of weight. Chen doesn't talk much. He will only quietly watch others talking and laughing in the crowd.

The position has finally changed, and Chen Hezheng is sitting on this side of the wall. Wu Qingshan went to clean, but he hasn't sat down yet. Looking at the neat books next to him, Chen hung his head. "How can I greet him in the future?" "Does he know me?" Chen was lost in thought ... "Hi! Hello, my name is Chen. Hello, I know you. Our primary school is in a school. " "No, you can't say that. Simply put. " "Hello, my name is Chen. I am very happy to be your deskmate. " Chen thought about it for a long time, and his thoughts drifted to the food in the canteen at noon today.

"Hi, I'm Wu Qingshan." "hey!" The boy raised his hand and waved it back and forth in front of Chen. Chen just woke up. "My name is Sichuan pork ... no, it isn't. My name is Chen. "Poof bursts into a loud laugh, which goes through Chen's ears, eyes and brain. "He smiled happily." Chen's face turned red.

"I know you. You are in the class next door to my primary school. " "By the way, the foot running team, you are our foot running team." "yes." Chen said weakly, but he didn't know what to say next, because it was so embarrassing just now. Wu Qingshan always smiles and has a good relationship with his classmates before and after. In the new class, all the freshmen are fresh and the classroom is full of laughter. Only Chen looked out of the window quietly to calm his complicated mood.

The first class in school is self-study, and the classroom is finally quiet. "What's out of the window? Except trees. " "Why don't you like to talk?" Qing-looking out the window, quietly asked Chen. "No, I ... I just don't know what to say. I have been like this since I was a child. " Chen Kong Yuan shan shan smiled. "In fact, you look good when you smile. Don't always be bored. " Wu Qingshan smiled, his eyes curved. "Oh ..." Chen nodded, and immediately fell down, and his face was red again.

I spent my first day of school in Chen. "You look good when you smile." This sentence of Chen has always been relished. As soon as he got home, Chen couldn't wait to look in the mirror and smiled unnaturally. The girl in the mirror has clear eyes, as if washing away all the misfortunes in the world. "How silly!" Chen Yi blushed at the thought of those stupid words today, which made him feel ashamed and sad. "Ah ..." Chen put down the mirror and went to Taomi to cook.

(3)

"Good morning!" The young man smiled. Chen Yilu ran to school, flushed. "Good morning ..." Chen gasped and sat down with his head down. "You're late. Did the class teacher just say you? " "I said a few words." Wu Qingshanben wants to talk more. Seeing that Chen was not in the mood, he didn't ask again.

"Hey, Chen, wake up and eat Sichuan style pork!" At the end of the sentence, the boy raised his voice. Chen Kong Yuan moved his head, and his little face finally lifted from the book. "You really can sleep. You fell asleep after two math classes like this. Fortunately, I used the book as a cover for you, and the teacher didn't see you. " Chen to a wink, awake a lot. "Thank you." "It seems that you really want to eat Sichuan pork." Wu Qingshan smiled mysteriously. Chen was at a loss. When he turned to get the English book, he found the wet mark on the math book ... "shameless!" " Chen had to pretend not to see it, immediately closed the book and left it in the desk. I don't know if I just woke up or something. Chen's face is very hot

Chen has been late for three days in a row, so the class teacher didn't give Chen a bad look. Chen Ye is very sad. She gets up every morning and listens to the sound of her father closing the door. No one woke her up and made her breakfast. Every time, she hurried to the side of the road to buy breakfast, and then gulped down as she ran.

"Chen, please bring me breakfast. The breakfast in the canteen is terrible, so we can't let it out. If I eat again, I will be malnourished. " Every time I talk to Chen, I smile. This time, it's a bit like coquetry. "I, I am often late, which will delay your dinner." "Never mind, I will eat whenever you come." "Ok, what do you eat?" Chen doesn't want to refuse. "You recommend it to me. Buy anything delicious on the street! " "There are steamed buns in the middle street, fried dumplings and spring rolls in the west street ... Oh, the preserved egg lean porridge on Xiaobei Road is particularly delicious." This is the first time that Chen has talked so much about her favorite food. Chen is a little excited. "In this way, you can buy these without having to repeat them every day." "hmm." Chen nodded, but his heart was still quite tangled. No, I promised Wu Qingshan that I must get up early to buy breakfast.

As soon as she got home, Chen went to find her piggy bank, which contained the money she had saved. Chen folded a 50-cent Zhang Yiyuan and dragged it out. Chen bought a small alarm clock, which is the cheapest in the shop. The boss was kind enough to give Chen two batteries. Chen was in a good mood and ate two bowls of rice in the evening.

Although there is an alarm clock, Chen can't sleep He is always afraid that the alarm clock will go wrong, and he looks at the alarm clock beside the bed over and over again. It was not until after midnight that Chen Cai fell asleep. When the alarm clock arrived as scheduled, Chen made a smart move, jumped out of bed, dressed quickly and went to wash. Father didn't say a word, just got up and glanced at Chen.

It is the first time for Chen to go to school so early. He is not used to running in the street. When we arrived at the steamed stuffed bun shop in Zhongjie, Chen remembered that he had forgotten to ask how much to eat. Eight buns are in a cage. You must eat half of them, so buy a cage for Wu Qingshan. Chen is eating half a cage of steamed buns, and his schoolbag contains a cage of steamed buns. I don't know why Chen thinks this steamed stuffed bun is so delicious today that he still wants to eat it, but thinking of waiting for her to have breakfast in the classroom, he quickened his pace.

When watching his breakfast, he just smiled and said to Chen, "I can't finish so much." Chen was very surprised. "You can't even finish a cage?" Wu Qingshan ate steamed bread and said, "Help me eat." Although Chen wanted to eat, he shook his head and refused.

The last two math classes in the morning are the most difficult time for Chen. He doesn't understand. He's too hungry to sleep. Chen had to be distracted, imagining what the canteen was cooking today. Chen, are you hungry? "hmm." "I am hungry, too. Why don't we eat steamed bread in the morning? " "Ah?" Chen Mei thought that she would eat in class seriously, but she didn't expect to share buns with herself.

Wu Qingshan ate naturally in class and stared at the teacher. As soon as the teacher turned around, he put the steamed stuffed bun in his mouth, then blocked it with a book and began to chew. Chen Yuan Solra, by contrast, is not a professional. He has to bury his head under the table and raise his head bite by bite when eating. Chen's action of looking up and burying his head was very funny, which made him laugh. Chen finally finished eating the steamed stuffed bun and looked up and smiled. "The way you ate just now was so cute." "..." Chen smiled awkwardly. It takes a lot of time to eat steamed buns, and two math classes pass quickly. Chen had a full lunch this day.

(4)

Chen and he exchanged more opinions. Although he asked and answered questions, Chen soon learned some of his preferences. For example, he likes big red, but he never wears red clothes. He likes cats, but he has never had a cat. He likes math, but his English is better than math. He also likes to travel and has been to many places, but he has never traveled alone; Besides, he likes to laugh. He smiles at everyone. ...

"Chen Kong Yuan, do you want to hand in a blank sheet of paper?" "I, I won't do it." Chen tried to keep his voice down for fear of being heard by the invigilator. When the invigilator turned around, he moved the test paper to Chen's side. "You try to change some answers, which are different." Chen scratched like a straw.

"Thank you!" "Why don't you help me again? My English listening comprehension is very poor. I only look at listening. " Chen is not good at every subject. With such a good deskmate who studies well and is nice, Chen will definitely learn to use resources. But after saying this, Chen regretted it. In fact, she was afraid of Wu Qingshan's rejection and thought she was stupid. "Very good." I didn't expect to promise so readily, and Chen was so happy that he was about to fly.

"AABCC, BCCCA" Chen thoughtfully filled in the answer, "which one is BC, BC? No, is it A or C? " Chen forgot the answer and glanced at his paper quickly. " BCCDC，AACBB。" Finally, Chen breathed a sigh of relief. This exam can really improve. At least he has to win a progress prize. Chen Xi was overjoyed.

After getting the test results, Chen was surprised at first and finally fell into endless depression. Qing-Wu Shan also very consternation. After reading Chen's paper, she can only be speechless. Chen's answer on the math paper is just right, but he is half wrong if he doesn't correct it. English listening is simply terrible. Chen copied it in the wrong order, and the rest were all wrong. What is even more ridiculous is that there is no D option in listening, and Chen Ye chose a D.

Sure enough, in English class, Teacher Chen washed her clothes. The whole class burst into laughter, and Wu Qingshan couldn't help laughing. Really want to find a loophole in Chen!

However, Wu Qingshan is really nice. He will tell her anything about dictation, dictation, exercises and tests, as long as Chen can't. The level of copying homework has also been exercised, at least there will be no mistakes in choosing D in English listening.

(5)

When Chen Yi got up this morning, she felt something was wrong. What's the matter? It turns out that the left eye keeps jumping. "The left eye jumps for money." Chen comforted himself like this.

Chen brought preserved eggs and lean porridge today. Wu Qingshan suggested words while drinking porridge, and the white heat brushed the young man's face, which was quiet and beautiful. When his left eye jumped up, Chen quickly took his eyes off his face.

In the first English class, the English teacher went to the podium and began to ask the students, "Students, have you bought exercise books?" "I bought it." The students are ready to answer, then take out their exercise books and wait for the teacher to check.

Chen was puzzled at first, and then remembered that he had left his exercise book at home. If I say that I left my exercise book at home, the teacher will definitely say that I didn't buy it for an excuse. The English teacher is Chen's "teacher of extinction", and she certainly won't let Chen go easily.

"What should I do? What is the left eye jumping wealth, eyelid jumping is a curse. " Chen's hands are clutching the desk, and he is extremely nervous. "You didn't buy it?" Qing-saw Chen's nervousness. "I bought it and put it at home ..."

"Two tables, one table ..." Chen silently calculated the distance between this "extinct teacher" and himself. "It's over, it's over." As soon as Chen's eyes are closed, he will really go extinct today. At the moment when Chen closed his eyes, he pushed his exercise book to Chen. The next second, Teacher Extinction just turned to look at Wu Qingshan's desk and saw the blank on Wu Qingshan's desk.

"Wu Qingshan, didn't you buy it?" "Extinction teacher" has a serious face. "Teacher, I bought it and forgot to bring it. I really bought it. Be sure to bring it next time. " Wu Qingshan looks serious, not like lying. Teacher Extinction doesn't believe that a good student like Wu Qingshan won't buy it, but he still wants to establish his prestige in the class. "You didn't bring, how to attend this class? Go to the back of the classroom and stand for class. " Wu Qingshan said nothing and walked to the back of the classroom with an English book.

It all came so suddenly that Chen Dou was taken aback. Chen quietly turned to look at, just for the eyes. Smile indifferently, as if playing handsome with Chen. Looking back at Wu Qingshan's brand-new exercise book, there is no stain on it, just like Wu Qingshan's face and Wu Qingshan's smile. Chen felt a warm current in his heart, moved and liked it. ...

Chen listened carefully in class and made many notes in his exercise book.

(6)

Time is spent in the frolicking of boys and girls. The troubles of youth seem to have little influence on boys and girls, and everyone grows up in laughter and thinking.

Chen and are not at the same table.

On the day of changing tables, I gave Chen Yi a postcard. The postcard shows a waterfall that Chen has never seen before. It is magnificent.

"My aunt gave it to me. I like this place very much. I will give it to you. " "Chen, you want to smile more, don't always sad face. Homework won't, remember to come to me at any time ... "Wu Qingshan still smiled so pure and brilliant. "... OK ..." Chen's throat seems to be choking, and he can't make any sound.

Chen was in a daze that day and went to bed early at night.

Without this deskmate, Chen's heart is always empty. She knew that she was used to Wu Qingshan and even depended on it. She won't clearly see the side face of Wu Qingshan eating breakfast; She can't have the cheek to copy Wu Qingshan's answers in the exam; She can't always feel Wu Qingshan's warm smile. ...

No longer let Chen bring breakfast. Because, Wu Qingshan became an ordinary school student and went to and from school by bus every day. Fortunately, one or two days a week, Chen can walk to the school gate after cleaning. Chen cherishes this matter, and he can take this opportunity to have a talk. Wu Qingshan is the same. No matter what he says, his smile is always on his face.

Campus is a magical place, who likes who, who secretly loves who, who is with whom ... These topics are always talked about by students, especially adolescent boys and girls, who always have a restless heart under their immature faces.

Chen Ye didn't know how these words haunted him. I don't know who took the lead in discussing Chen He in class. Chen didn't show his love for Qing. Maybe gossip is because of a joke, an action, or even a look. ...

"Chen Kong Yuan likes Wu Qingshan." In this case, Chen listened once and blushed once. This is not a guilty conscience, it is a fact. However, Chen will still try his best to defend himself. "I didn't." "No, why are you blushing?" There is more laughter around. At this time, Chen had to bury himself in the book and ignore it. If he rushes out of the classroom, it will only attract more suspects.

Wu Qingshan doesn't seem to have any influence. He still has classes and plays basketball. He still cleans with Chen and leaves school together. Is Chen, as long as there is around, it is uncomfortable.

Gossip always has a shelf life, and once the heat passes, people will gradually forget it. Chen finally breathed a sigh of relief Fortunately, this matter didn't reach the teacher's ears, and she was able to talk freely with Wu Qingshan.

Wu Qingshan wants to be admitted to the best high school in this city, which is near his home. Chen knows that at his present level, that's impossible. Wu Qingshan was her first friend and the first person she liked. She fantasized countless times that she and Wu Qingshan could walk into the same campus, the same class, and even sit at the same table again. ...

Chen stopped delivering breakfast, but she got up early and didn't dare to be late.

Chen was afraid to ask about her homework, so she stopped dozing off and listened carefully.

English is very poor. Chen recites words and texts every day.

Geometry problems can't be done, so Chen Tiantian looks for problems to practice.

In this way, Chen finally entered the top ten in the class, and Chen was very happy. There is also the senior high school entrance examination in the first half of the semester, and Chen is full of confidence. She often dreamed that she and Wu Qingshan entered the same high school, the same class and sat at the same table.

"What a coincidence."

"Yes, what a coincidence." ……

(7)

"I'm sleepy, Sister Fang." "Go to sleep." I tucked Chen in and went back to the duty room. Chen is a patient in oncology department. Being close to our department and a fellow countryman, we gradually got to know each other. When I am bored on duty, I like to chat with Chen. The girl has a good personality and laughs all day. She can't see that she is a cancer patient at all. Her smile is pure and bright, and it is easy to infect people.

On this day, I asked for leave, stewed some soup and brought some to Chen. A young girl, sick and unattended, is poor. By the way, I also want to hear her unfinished story. To tell the truth, her story is not so wonderful, let alone thrilling. It is nothing more than the ignorance and small feelings of children's families. But I like listening to other people's stories, and I like the tone and way of others' stories. ...

"Far away, come and have a taste." "Sister Fang, you are here." Chen is permeated with her trademark smile. In the ward, Chen played Chen Li's "Empty Mountain". She seems to like this song very much.

"I'm on vacation today. I learned to make some soup and brought you some. Come and try it. " Chen sat up from the bed with a smile on his thin face all the time.

"I haven't finished your story yet!" I looked at the lyrics in Chen's mobile phone. To tell you the truth, I don't know much about this song.

"The story is coming to an end." Chen turned off the music. "Two months before the entrance examination, my mother suddenly came back and took me to another city, where I spent high school and college." "In that city without him, I memorized many words, did many math problems and laughed at many people. But I have never met anyone like him ... "Chen took a sip of soup and looked out of the window.

I know all the later stories. Chen Cheng became a photographer, traveled all over the world and then came to this hospital.

"Didn't you go to see him?"

"After the third year, I got his contact information. He was surprised that I didn't forget him. " "We made an appointment to meet in junior high school ..." "I stood up."

"If you like it, why not?"

Chen paused and took a sip of the soup. "I don't know." "Maybe ... I always lose to my cowardice."

"You've been to so many places alone that you don't even have the courage to go back to the places you know with him?"

"... in front of him, I am as low as dust ..."

Chen gave a wry smile. After drinking the soup, he was lost in thought. I picked up the bowl and spoon and savored the phrase "as low as dust". I remember a writer once said the same thing.

"Sister Fang." Chen suddenly stopped me. "I went to that place, the place on the postcard he sent me." "That's Iguazu Falls. I didn't take pictures there. Because I think it should be two people standing under the waterfall ... "

Later, I looked up the place on the Internet. There is a movie about waterfalls. There is a line in the movie that says, "I finally came to the Great Falls. I feel so sad when I think of He Baorong, because I always feel that there should be two people standing under this waterfall. "

(8)

Three weeks after the operation, Chen died and his condition suddenly deteriorated.

I feel even more sorry for Chen after reading too much Where Will You Go. When a person is on duty, I often think of her kind smiling face, but I can't help but sigh the ruthlessness of the disease.

Last time I saw Chen, she sent me a yellowed postcard with Iguazu Waterfall on it. Chen's cheeks and eye sockets are very thin. She tries to smile at me. "Fang elder sister, you said you like to go alone, dare not let each other know. Is this kind of person particularly useless? "

I can't think of the answer at the moment. Not all likes in the world have results. Some feelings are only suitable to be buried in the bottom of my heart and let it take root. "Everyone has something to hide, and whether you like it or not is by no means a criterion for judging this person's uselessness."

"I have been obsessed with the past for a long time, obsessed with the memories of the past ... I left my tears and the past under Iguazu Waterfall. Now, I am no longer persistent, really ... "Chen was so tired that he lay in bed panting.

I don't know why she said that. Seeing that she was tired, I stopped bothering her. "Quick rest! Far away. " I don't know, this will be the last time I see her.

On the back of the postcard is the lyrics of Chen Linyi's "Sexual Empty Mountain". The waterfall poured down with great momentum. Maybe it has been waiting for two people. ...

Two years later, I met a patient named Wu Qingshan. Wu Qingshan is a professional traveler. He broke his leg climbing the mountain. I found his smile as empty as Chen Yuan's.

Wu Qingshan likes chatting with me, too. His travel experience was strange and wonderful, which attracted me very much. "Do you know, doctor? My first trip was to Iguazu Falls. I know this place from a postcard, and my wish at that time was to go there. Later, I gave this postcard to a girl. " "My wish has come true, but I have never seen that girl again ..."

He likes the song "Empty Mountain" very much, and he is often heard listening to it during rounds. One day, he told me a story very similar to Chen. The men and women in the story are confused, like an unopened bud, quiet and beautiful.

"Iguazu Falls has a sad legend-a beautiful girl refused the courtship of the gods and decided to go boating with her lover. The furious gods cut off the river they crossed. Since then, there is only one Iguazu left in the place where they walked ... Iguazu is a place to commemorate love. "

"I met a waterfall rain under Iguazu Waterfall, and the spray mixed with my tears ran down my face. I saw many couples, and the huge waterfall witnessed their love. I am so sad that I am the only one standing under the waterfall. "

"I know, she must have been there ..." Qing-Wu Shan said firmly.

The ward echoed with Chen's song "... without news, I was very empty ..."

When Wu Qingshan was discharged from the hospital, I gave him a waterfall postcard. I don't know what his expression is. After thanking him, he disappeared into the corridor of the hospital. ...

"... no news, I empty mountain ..."