Photographer's feelings

Mom, I always want you to be in my words and live in simple words; But when I miss my poor pen, I always feel uneasy. I used to write freely, and I don't know how to rise and fall. My mind is so weak, I dare not drop the ink, for fear that the understated words will not make you jump off the page. Mom, you are heavy in my heart; Mom, your beauty, your kindness and your virtue, let your daughter know that the perfect combination of external beauty and spiritual beauty is the most beautiful; Mom, you are sacred in your daughter's heart; You wrote the song of life for me with your tenacity and broad love! You have created a miracle of life! Mom! I told you from the bottom of my heart more than once: Mother, I must write to you in words, so that you can smell the fragrance of my words, let you hear the melody in my heart, and let your kind face bloom with a warm smile.

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Picking up the pearls of the years and looking back at the warm memories, my mother gave me not only a gift of life, but also made me cherish my hard-won life and appreciate my mother's boundless love.

In the first grade of primary school, I didn't wait for my mother to tell me to get up early, so I happily put on the new clothes my mother sewed for me and sang and danced with my classmates all the way to the yearning campus. Under the mottled shadows of trees on campus, people are crowded. But the students were whispering, and some students came up to me curiously and asked me, "I heard that you are not your parents' biological, right?" I quickly said, "How? I am born to my parents. " They said, "Then why are your parents so old?" I was speechless when I was young. Many people say that this has become a fact, and for a time, the legend seems to have wings. I was often pointed at on the way to school, which really made me feel bad and began to be dubious.

One day after school, my mother was wrapping jiaozi in the kitchen. Bao Jiaozi's mother is good at it. Those dumpling wrappers rolled thin by her, in her dexterous hands, magically turned into jiaozi with various patterns in the blink of an eye, from chubby pigs to small and exquisite mice. In the past, I would have picked my favorite jiaozi, but today I'm not interested and I'm depressed. See mother intently rolling jiaozi bag jiaozi, words to the mouth pharynx back. Mother saw that I was absent-minded, wiped the flour in her hand and put down the rolling hammer. Whispered: "What's the matter? Is there anything unhappy at school? Or did you quarrel with your classmates? " I shook my head: "No, it's not, it's ..." My mother smiled and said: "This child, why are you still hesitating? Hurry up, what's the matter! " I had to tell my mother everything. My mother smiled and said, "Hey, how about this?" ? Go to the yard and ask Aunt Yin who picked me up! "My mother's laughter and relaxed words made my cold heart feel a little warm. The tangled psychology of solving the mystery of my life drove me straight to Yi Yin's home.

Yi Yin, the head nurse of the staff hospital, is a beautiful aunt with big eyes. She smiled to reveal a pair of white and neat teeth, and her skin was dark but beautiful. Aunt Yin is an interesting woman. There are many flowers and plants in the yard, including cockscomb and Chinese rose, as well as jasmine with a faint fragrance. There are also several cooing chickens in the yard, leisurely foraging in the grass. When she saw me come in, she took my hand and asked, "Girl! Why did you come alone? Can I help you? " I timidly said what I wanted, and Aunt Yin took my hand and walked into the room. When she saw me sit down, she said gloomily, "Alas! Your mother is not simple, she is an amazing woman! I know best that you are still young. When you have children, you will know that your mother is not easy ... "

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Aunt Yin told me her mother's shocking experience. Mother was 28 when she married her father. Because of habitual abortion, all five children died of abortion. Watching other people's children starve to feed, giving birth to their own lives and dying again and again, the pain they bear is beyond ordinary people's understanding. In order to breed fresh life, my mother tried many folk remedies and wild medicines, drank bitter and unpalatable Chinese herbal medicines, and the dregs quickly piled up into "hills". Yi Yin once kindly advised her mother to adopt a child, but she never gave up a glimmer of hope.

Mother miscarried again. At this time, Yi Yin told her mother a folk prescription: If she ate the aborted fetus, she would protect it. Mom! Father kills chickens, but you are soft-hearted and afraid of mice. How can you swallow a bloody and heart-wrenching fetus? Mother is like grasping at a straw. I didn't think much about it. The folk prescription says that the aborted fetus is about the size of pig bile and can't be fried in an iron pan. Mother covered it with an aluminum lunch box and cooked it on the stove. Mother spat out the dates and ate them. I once asked, "Mom, how dare you eat the fetus?" Mother said, "What is so bold? I just want to have a baby! " Mom's words made me realize that the power of maternal love is superhuman, but the strong desire for life is extraordinary.

Mother's love touched God, and she really wanted to have me. The reaction of vomiting during pregnancy excited and expected her. My mother doesn't take medicine for fear that I will die young and catch a cold. She remembers to eat cod liver oil every day and go to the hospital to have a baby every day, rain or shine. Once, my mother dragged her six-month pregnant body to the hospital in the pouring rain. It happened that Yi Yin was on duty and saw her mother soaking wet, sallow and trembling. Yi Yin said distressfully, "What are you doing? Don't die, I can go home and give you an injection! " Mother took the towel handed by Yi Yin and wiped the rain off her face. She said flatly, "Nothing, I can bear it no matter how hard it is!" .

Cold comes and summer goes, and pregnant in August. Mother insisted on going to the hospital for injections every day, and her faith supported her to give birth to a child. But every time I give my mother an injection, it becomes a worry for nurses. Some sisters turned around and ran when they saw their mother coming. That hip is covered with pinholes, so it is difficult to inject it in a fixed position, and sometimes it can't be absorbed after injection. Mother's injection had to be borne by the head nurse Yi Yin. She coughed and sighed every time she had an injection, and said with distress, "How did you suffer from this?" How good is it to raise a child? "

After enduring unspeakable pain, my mother finally gave birth to me early when I was eight months old. My birth is not only a happy event for my parents, but also a good news for the residents of my compound. The aunts in the yard came to congratulate my mother. They are the best witnesses who have witnessed my hard-won life.

Yi Yin gave birth to her mother. Because she was eight months premature, my weight was only three and a half pounds. Watching me yawn in the incubator, weak as a big mouse, slender fingers as small as incense, but crying as thin as a cat ... Yi Yin's eyes showed concern and secretly felt sorry for her mother. I'm afraid it's hard for me to live. Worried about my fate. More than her? The aunts in the yard all sweated for my mother and prayed for my mother from the bottom of their hearts, wishing me to live and appease her heart! In order to express their blessing to me, they gave me the clothes worn by their children. It is said that children who wear "hundred clothes" are easy to feed. My mother waited for me day and night and dared not make any mistakes. The next month, in order to get up at any time and sleep for a month, my mother dared not sleep well every night. A month later, the aunts in the courtyard came to see me, and they were overjoyed to see that I was fat and lively and lovely, and they were really happy for my mother. An aunt couldn't help saying, "Is this child healthy? How can you say that? People say that seven lives and eight lives are not alive, but this child is still alive, what a life! " Warm words let everyone's hanging hearts fall to the ground.

From then on, I became the favorite of everyone in the compound. At that time, most of my uncles and aunts had three or four children. They loved me more than their own children and gave me anything delicious. At that time, I was still young. When I saw delicious food sent by other children, I always looked at it with eager eyes, and my aunts silently brought it to me from home. Mom said I grew up eating and wearing!

With me, my mother has hope. My delicate mother took me to a photo studio to take pictures when I was seven months old. A few days later, the neighbor's aunt came to tell her mother, "Sister-in-law, the picture of Qiushi is in the window. Go and have a look! " Mom picked me up and ran to see it. In the big window, I smiled and looked at my mother with big bright eyes, as if to say to her, "Mom! Are you proud of me? "

Many years later, my mother told her niece like a family history. She was wrinkled and talked about the fun of taking pictures. According to my mother, I was disobedient when I was sitting in that small chair, so the photographer gave me an apple in my hand. Who knows, when the camera light flashes, I am afraid that the apple will fall between my legs. I looked at my mother in front with my eyes wide open, and the apples in the photo were also very eye-catching. This moment is frozen forever.

Having a daughter, I understand my mother's feelings. Although my mother is not an artist, she went through a difficult process of giving birth to life. I am the work in her mind, and I am the hope of her life.

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In the later days, the body with congenital deficiency experienced two major diseases, and it was my mother's company that made me overcome the disease strongly.

Thirteen years old, in the countryside, living environment is relatively difficult. I am preparing for the final exam in the season when mosquitoes and flies are rampant. My temperature began to rise and I burned unconscious. Later, I learned that I had epidemic meningitis B. I remember two girls and a boy who were admitted to the hospital with me listened to their screams, because this disease can cause unbearable headaches. Just when I had an intravenous drip, I had a headache and felt sleepy, but they left this world one after another. In the dark, I heard my mother shout softly, "Qiushi, why don't you shout it out?" Shouting it out will relieve some pain, so hold on! "My mother's tears ran down my hand, and although my mind was splitting with pain, my consciousness began to be confused; Even the visual image was reversed, and I vomited blood, but I kept silent and endured it silently. I secretly remind myself: I must insist, I want to live for my hard-won mother. Maybe heaven has eyes, maybe my mother's insistence touched heaven, and I miraculously survived and became the only one in the ward.

The tempering of this disease made me realize the preciousness of life, and also let me know that my mother gave me not only life, but also persistence and persistence in life.

That year, I worked as a secretary in the office of a large enterprise, which was a well-known advanced enterprise in the same industry in China. I need to write a lot of deeds and materials, I am not very strong. Coupled with irregular sleep, serious overdraft, got pleurisy. I have a sudden high fever and unbearable chest pain, but I don't know why. I took painkillers to save my life, but the symptoms of pain didn't ease at all. My face is getting haggard every day, and my original face is as thin as a knife. After a few days, I dare not move. My face was soaked with sweat in pain, and my mother wiped my sweat with distress. I didn't say anything. I secretly wrote a suicide note: mom and dad! I'm sorry! I'm afraid I can't be filial to my parents!

Father accidentally saw the note, and mother learned that she was very gentle and never scolded her mother. She slapped me in the mouth and said angrily with tears in her eyes, "You really let me down and left us like this?" Let's go to the hospital! "My mother's heavy slap woke me up. I suddenly found that under her gentle appearance, her heart was so strong that I felt humble in front of her.

The unit leader sent a car to send me to the best local hospital for treatment and was diagnosed as "permeable pleurisy". I was very scared when the doctor held a big plate with needles in it. My cousin next to me held my cold hand tightly, and my mother looked at me with eager eyes, as if to say to me, "autumn harvest!" Be strong and hold on! " I am very strong. I bite my teeth and say nothing when it still hurts after anesthesia. Colleague Yu Jie couldn't stand it anymore and quietly left the ward; Cousin holds my hand tightly, I want to live, I want to live for my mother!

After that terrible hour, 500 ml of water was pumped out of the chest. The doctor looked at the oozing water and said, "You are so lucky! If you are late, the pleural effusion will fester, and all kinds of medicines can't save you! Otherwise, it will be a pity in the flower season. "

My mother's care made me pass through the gate of hell again.

Now, I am a middle-aged mother. No matter what life problems I encounter, my mother warms me up in my heart. Mother, she gave me not only life, but also perseverance to overcome difficulties and hardships; Mom, what you have given me is that on the road of life, no matter whether it is good or bad, we must have a sunny attitude and accept the problems that life gives us with a calm attitude!

Mom! Thank you for giving me life and letting me know the true meaning of life! Mom, I want to make you proud of me with my hard-won life!