Ju' nan timestamp children's photography address

It's April night when lilacs are fragrant. That's what I finally smell in the world.

Everything is as simple as that. Taking advantage of the night, I glided out of the sixth floor window of the girls' dormitory, just like a roller coaster on the playground, but I never returned to the original point. When I landed on the ground outside the lilac hedge, it seemed that all the lilacs in the world suddenly turned to me, emitting endless, sharp and painful fragrance.

What happened later was completely unexpected to me.

I lay still, thinking it was all over. However, with the passage of time, the mind is still as clear as crystal. I heard the noise on the volleyball court in the distance, and heard the girls coming to the dormitory in droves, talking and laughing clearly at night. It won't be long before someone finds me. I tried to get up from the ground, but I couldn't move.

"Alas, son," someone said not far away, "get up quickly and leave that body."

I don't understand this sentence. However, just a slight mental movement, I have stood up gently.

Just like taking off an old dress, I left my body, shivering with cold, and looked down at the motionless girl in a gray-purple fluffy skirt on the ground. I dare not look at her face, her eyes closed under her messy black hair.

At the same time, I found that I stood up in the dark, my body was almost transparent, and only my fingertips and hair tips shone with extremely weak light. If it weren't for these lights, I couldn't see myself. What surrounds me is no longer the warm April air, but an unknown substance as thin as ice and as green as moonlight, in which there are countless small arrows from diseases. However, they didn't hurt me at all, some brushed me, some penetrated me and flew into the unknown darkness.

"What is this?" Surprised to see the small arrows like rain, can't help but ask.

"Time. Look at the time now. " The voice not far away gently replied.

"Time?"

"Yes, you can see time when it means nothing to you."

It seems that heaven and earth have become a huge hall for removing doors and windows, and the cold wind has fallen from the sky. I clung to myself and followed the direction of the sound. Suddenly, a floating stall bed decorated with colored lights lit up in front of my eyes. It was full of lovely fantasies and kept flashing, so I couldn't see clearly. If you look closely, you will find an old woman as transparent as me standing behind the booth. She is wearing a dark dress with a little Huang Shoupa at the neckline. This reminds me of my dead grandmother, and I also like to put a dust-proof scarf at the neckline of my sweater. However, on closer inspection, she doesn't look like her grandmother.

Who are you ...? "Although I think it's impolite to ask, I still asked.

"I am your guide."

"So, I really left this world?"

Behind the colorful lights, she smiled: "Come on. The first scream is about to start. When someone found you lying there, you really left. "

"So, what should I do?"

"Throw these two dice." She said simply.

The colorful lights, flowers and small animals on the booth were still and retreated into the shadows. Two dice seem to be suddenly illuminated by a spotlight, one is white and the other is black. The whole body of the dice is covered with illegible numbers.

I have dice in my hand. One is as light as a feather, the other is as heavy as a lead bullet, the other is as hot as a candle, and the other is as cold as a snowflake. Because of the cold, because of this wonderful feeling, I can't hold them at all In an instant, two dice rolled to the booth. The white one is "1" and the black one is "2".

"You have the right to live in this world for three days."

Just then, a shrill scream came from the lilac hedge, breaking the quiet night in April. Then, the screams came and went, turning into hysterical cries. The voices of running, asking and shouting have turned into nervous voices, and the crowd is surrounding the scene of the accident. Looking over there, I sighed.

"But, I have left there!"

"Yes, but you can still stay for three days. After that, the door connecting the two worlds will be closed forever. "

"But what am I going to do these three days?"

"Walk around, see the people you love, and go to the places you used to like. Heaven will arrange a small program for you. "

"I don't want it." I said simply, "I'm leaving now. There is nothing to miss. "

"You this child, don't want to see your parents? Don't you have any special friends? So young, do you have a favorite boy? "

"Everything is not worth nostalgia. Otherwise, I just like this ... "

The old woman shook her head and said, "After being a tour guide for so many years, I have seen many children like you." The more you don't care about anything, you will definitely be reluctant to part with everything in the end. Alas-"

"If there is any traffic accident or someone dies of illness ... just give me to him these three days." I said disapprovingly.

The old woman's face suddenly became horribly serious: "Stop it! The rules of the kingdom of heaven can never be changed. You are really a rash, fragile and confused child. "

"This is my own life, I have this freedom. Right? " I bumped back and scared myself. In fact, I am an introverted and shy girl, and I never have conflicts with people. Standing here now, I feel very relaxed, even if I go against anyone's wishes, I don't care.

The old woman stared at me, slowly reached into an orange flower-shaped button and patted it.

Ding Ling is like an automatic candy vending machine, and something rolls out in front of me. This is a round light blue fruit hard candy. I reached out and caught it.

"This is a little gift from heaven." The old woman seems tired of talking to me. She lowered her head and began to make the bed. The lights went out one by one, and it looked like a depression.

I looked at this candy carefully. I don't know why that delicate light cyan makes me feel sad. I put it in my mouth and immediately tasted a little sweet and sour. However, the more you want to pursue the sweetness, the more slim it is. In the end, only the sad and green taste was left, which slowly melted on the tip of my tongue.

"I think the taste of this candy is familiar." I can't help but say.

"Yes, that's the taste of your life." The old woman said casually.

For an instant, I was shocked, and the tears in my eyes flew away gently, with tiny light, like the dust of the surrounding stars.

The old woman shook her head piteously. "The train to heaven will leave here in three days. Don't be late. "

"So ... where am I going now?"

"You have nowhere to go, in other words, you can go anywhere."

The lights are completely out, the bed is gone, and the old woman is gone.

The night is deep, and the girls' dormitory is still brightly lit. The scene of the accident has been surrounded by white lines, and everyone will have a sleepless night. It occurred to me for the first time, when will mom and dad get the news? Tonight, now, or tomorrow morning? Where is Shu? What about Komachi?

I don't know when a huge moon rises at the end of the world. The moon is covered with craters, and the lonely and pale moon seems to fill the high sky. For a moment, I felt that there was only the brilliance of Leng Yue in my heart.

Deep despair surrounded me. I'm still a new ghost and I'm not used to the feeling of wandering. I buried myself in lilacs, not listening to the noise in the middle of the night, trying not to distinguish the familiar sounds. The rich fragrance of cloves wrapped me, giving me an almost warm feeling.

The next night.

The sun shines on lilacs and me, but it is not warm at all. Flowers rose with a deep purple fragrance, intertwined with the light blue fog of time around me. I slowly left the flowers and wandered in the shadow of the dormitory. Although the scene of the accident has been cleaned up and the cordon has been temporarily blocked, there are still many students standing outside for a long time to watch and discuss, and sighs of surprise can be heard everywhere.

By now, Komachi should have found my letter in her school uniform. This letter is very brief:

Dad, Mom, Asu, Komachi:

I hope you can live better without me.

My heart is cold when I write this letter. Now, this kind of cold goes hand in hand, as if it has penetrated into the bone marrow, which makes me grit my teeth and shudder in the lush April day. I really can't wait to get on the train in heaven and leave this world forever and completely.

But I saw Shu.

Sue, who ran across the volleyball court in the morning, was full of sadness and anxiety. He was tired of staying up all night. He probably called Komachi all night in the boys' dormitory. As soon as the dormitory door opened, he came in a hurry. I stared at Asu getting closer and closer, and was surprised to find that in the fog of time, Asu's image kept changing like a breeze blowing through the reflection on the water.

When Komachi ran down from the sixth floor of the girls' dormitory with red eyes, he almost passed me standing in the shadow at the door. She must have been crying all night, cold, scared and sad. The tall small town, the small town of high school women's volleyball setter, has never been so frightened and weak. Standing in the spring sunshine, she shivered with me. Like Asu, the image of Komachi is flickering, as if a transparent watermark was superimposed on the photo.

I stood silently and looked at them in despair. Gradually, I understood that it was their overlapping memories, an infinite future, and a thousand silhouettes reflected by Qian Qian in the background of time.

As if I wanted to see through a kaleidoscope, I looked at Asu and Komachi with fascination-I saw Asu, who was just a toddler; In the first grade of primary school, I cut branches by the canal to make windmill trees; Asu, who was diagnosed with myopia in junior high school, had to wear glasses; Sue, the first time you met me was in the gym; Standing under the basketball stand, it seems that he made a great determination. Finally, he told me that he decided to apply for medical university.

Similarly, I also saw a small town with excellent grades from primary school to high school, which was regarded as a treasure by my family; A small town that just entered the volleyball team and trained hard; Shomachi, who clearly reached out to me and said with a smile, "I like your hairstyle", and I hid in the dormitory, learning makeup, exchanging little secrets and whispering; There is another embarrassing question, avoiding my eyes and saying, "I want to apply to medical university."

I close my eyes. The happy scenes of the past are vivid.

"I really like your hairstyle!"

This is the first day of high school registration. Just after the dormitory was divided, I sat glumly in the lower berth. Other students are accompanied by their parents, and my parents, who have separated, thought that the other party would come. In order not to meet, no one came. I have been living in junior high school, and I have tasted loneliness. Now, the lonely three years are about to start from scratch.

The girl in the upper bunk, who had been decorated for a long time, suddenly leaned out of the bed and said to me, "I like your hairstyle very much!" " Your name is Xiao Wu, right? "

I didn't expect someone to take the initiative to chat with me. I was taken aback and looked up at her bright smiling face. I couldn't help but give her a shy but sincere smile.

"Hey, look at my bed!"

She stretched out a hand and pulled me up. I was so embarrassed that I shook my head and looked up at the bedside.

The bed in Komachi is really cute. Monochrome flower wallpaper is stuck on the wall, books and records are filled on the small bookshelf, and giraffes, zebras ... many plush toys are on the bedside. I like her white gauze bed best. If you get up in the moonlight, it will be like a small palace!

"I haven't lived in a dormitory! I am so excited. I really want to decorate it into a cave ... you should come up and play often in the future, ok? "

Later, I always liked Komachi's bed, just like the door she opened to people without reservation. The upper bunk of the town has really become our secret cave. We pull bedding, eat snacks, read magazines, listen to music and whisper in it.

After Komachi joined the volleyball team, I, who was not good at sports, always waited for Komachi's training in the gym after school. With honey black tea in his hand and Komachi's mobile phone beside him, he just stared at the volleyball court with his chin cupped.

Finally, one day, Asu, who was attending basketball training at the other end of the gym, ran to me.

"Classmate, also help me look after the phone? There may be a phone, so it can't be put in the locker room. If you have a phone, call me. " Asu smiled happily at the first sight and leaned over and said to me. That is a kind tone that can't be refused. I have to nod.

"Then, please!" Ashu ran back to the basketball court and turned and waved to me. Ten minutes later, the mobile phone really rang. I picked up my cell phone in a panic and looked at the basketball court. Should I shout? But, what are you shouting? I stood up and hesitated to go to court.

Komachi wiped his sweat with a wristband and ran to me: "Xiao Wu, what's the matter?"

I raised my mobile phone and pointed to the basketball court. She immediately understood: "Whose is it?"

"A boy in a black tracksuit."

Komachi immediately turned around, put his hand over his mouth, and shouted at the basketball court: "Classmate, phone ..."

In this way, the three of us met and became good friends who talked about everything. I still spend every night in the gym, waiting for the training of Komachi and Asu to end. The cup of honey black tea is getting bigger and bigger, and finally it is simply changed into a small thermos.

"Little dance is the gentlest!" Drink my black tea, Sue always says so on purpose.

"Why only praise small dances?" Komachi always pretends to be unconvinced.

"Because of you, the combat effectiveness index is too high! Fall and get up, fall and get up ... just like the big BOSS of the game clearance! "

I think it's funny. I'm smiling with my coat in my arms. Indeed, when Komachi was training, it was like a different person. Even though his knees were black and blue, he didn't say a word. For this, I think Asu also admires it in his heart!

Soon after we met, Sue knew about my family. He and Komachi take special care of me, and I am willing to do everything for them. The outstanding Asu and the equally outstanding small town, whether in exams, sports meetings or cultural performances, are like twinkling stars in the crowd ... I always applaud them sincerely.

I cherish the time spent by three people together. Asu and Komachi, like treasures that accidentally fall from the moon, are more important than anything else.

In the secret "cave" of the small town, I always stubbornly said, "We won't be separated when we are admitted to the university. University graduation is not separated. "

"good! Let's find a job together and rent an apartment together. " Komachi always answers me so happily.

"I will come back from work early, cook for you, clean the room and keep a pet!" I speak as if I were there.

"Then I am responsible for shopping, driving and arranging travel routes!" Komachi also responded positively.

"Then you can't be separated when you get married, and you can't be separated anyway."

"Yes, yes!" When Komachi said this in high spirits, we always giggled and hugged. At this time, in my mind, all doubts and pessimism about the future have vanished. I believe that I can go anywhere in the world with the company of Komachi and Asu.

The smiling faces of the past overlap with the painful faces of today. Asu took off his tracksuit coat and put it on Komachi. He said in a hoarse voice, "Komachi, I'm going to the canteen to buy some breakfast."

Komachi's voice is speechless. She grabbed Sue's hand and shook her head desperately.

I'm sure they won't think of it. The gentle little dance, the shy little dance, the little dance that never dared to speak loudly and was so attached to them, just left without looking back. ...

Before I left, I wore a dress in the small town, and stayed quietly in the upper bunk of the small town for a long time, thinking about going back to the past. Then, I carefully rolled the written letter into Komachi's school uniform.

Although Komachi is taller than me, I still like to exchange clothes with Komachi. The feeling of intimacy attracts me like a magnet. I especially like a gray-purple long-sleeved fluffy skirt in Komachi. It's a little long after wearing it, but its temperament is a bit mysterious.

"This skirt is for you." Komachi told me more than once. I always shake my head desperately. I don't want to take something that others love.

However, I have this skirt with me. I hope Komachi will think of me more because of this skirt.

On this bright and sad April morning, I stood quietly beside them. Can I see their future before I go to heaven? What is the future without little dance?

It's not that I don't feel it. Asu and Komachi are closer, more tacit, and the atmosphere is more subtle. Just exchange eyes a little, and you will understand each other's thoughts. To this end, they have a little more guilt and meticulous care of my mood. I don't want to pay attention to all this, let alone think about it carefully. I just naively hold the firm belief that "we will never be apart".

However, high school life is coming to an end. What university to apply for has become the first important thing in life. It was also at this moment that I realized that Komachi always responded to me warmly in the past, but he never said what kind of school he wanted to enter and what kind of life he wanted to live. Is that because the strong pity the weak?

The schoolwork is so tense that people can't lift their heads. Asu and Komachi haven't trained for a long time. My grades are not good enough, but I am easier than them. At that time, the number of three people getting together gradually decreased, and even the time I spent with Komachi became less.

As an ordinary girl, I can't understand the life pressure that Asu and Komachi bear because of their Excellence. It was in those days when they were thinking about the future every day that they made a wish to enter the medical university together, right?

"You said, want to apply for medical university?" I feel dizzy on the empty basketball court. With my grades, this is an institution of higher learning that I dare not even think about. This sentence is so far away that Asu suddenly becomes a stranger.

"well. However, I'm not sure ... "Sue didn't look at me, holding the basketball stand. He must be recalling the sentence "three people should be together forever", right? I, the weakest and most ordinary person, thought it was easy to achieve.

Even in this mood, I didn't forget to buy the mint cake that Komachi likes to eat and take it home.

"Komachi, I brought back mint cakes."

"Thank you!" Komachi reached out and took the dessert from the upper bunk. I leaned my head against her bed and looked at her quietly.

"What's the matter, Xiao Wu ... today is very different!"

"Well, I'm thinking about applying for a university." Am I too sensitive? When I said this, I felt as if the air in the room had solidified. None of us looked at each other, but we clearly heard each other's breathing.

"I want to apply for universities in this province. In this way, we will be more sure, don't you think? " This is the first time I have talked about this topic so rationally. After listening to my words, Komachi seemed relieved. She said eagerly: "Xiaowu must have confidence and be admitted!"

"What about you?" Naturally, I can't ask more.

Komachi hesitated again, and I felt that she was a little embarrassed. Maybe she didn't have the heart to lie to me. She said with some difficulty, "My family wants me to study medicine, so ... I want to be admitted to a medical university."

At that moment, I really believed that the era that belonged to the three of us was completely over. Asu and Komachi know best, but with my strength, it is absolutely impossible to go to a medical university. I am the only one who has always dreamed of being together forever? How long have they decided to leave me?

"I know! Komachi wants to refuel, I wish you success! " I gave the brightest smile to Komachi.

Looking at their rippling figures in time, I gradually saw the trajectory of fate.

Xiaomachi and Asu, who did not apply for Capital Medical University, were admitted to two schools far apart. The newly budding feelings, accompanied by my departure, have become unforgettable memories. In the following years, they never contacted each other again. Just like two tracks in the wilderness that extend to the horizon respectively, there is no intersection anymore.

I saw that Komachi became a company employee and soon got married and had a daughter. The secret "cave" of high school is so far away from her that no one knows how radiant the quiet town of girlhood is.

I also saw Ashu's tired face after many years, which happened to appear in the window of the night, set off by thousands of lights, staring at his middle-aged face. Asu remembered her youth, Komachi and me, and burst into tears for an instant.

This is because my leaving alone has brought a small and far-reaching shock to the world. I was a little confused at the time. Is this really what I want? Do I really have to decisively leave a dark mark on them for the rest of their lives?

"Have you seen enough?"

A voice suddenly sounded behind me, which startled me. I looked back in horror. It was the same old woman who frowned at me last night.

"Come with me, there is a movie."

"I don't want to see any movies." I can't bear to leave Asu and Komachi, but I still stand where I am.

"This movie must be seen. It is your own story. "

"What's my story?" Hearing this, I am more and more disgusted. Who knows his own story better than me? I live in a quiet junior high school in fear of my parents' dispute. I stayed here for a few days during the holiday, and I didn't feel "home" at all ... I can't even think about such a life.

"No, it has already started." The old woman took my hand and walked forward.

Like a mirage, a colorful tent appears in the air from top to bottom. On the top of the tent that was first exposed, there were many white pigeons whispering softly. When I approached, they flew down, circled around me and looked at me with clear eyes.

"There are many pigeons in the kingdom of heaven. Now hurry in. " See me stop, the old woman urged.

The tent has become a bright and solid entity. I opened the golden curtain and went in. The lights are all dark, and the screen shows a soft and bright picture.

On the clear background of blue sea water, delicate pink objects as soft as mussels wriggle gently. I paused and immediately understood that this is what the fetus looks like in the mother's body.

Then, the picture gradually became chaotic, like a dark space. Surrounded by the flocculent nebula, the little life is clear and vivid bit by bit, rotating like a planet and growing slowly.

"Although I have seen it many times, I still feel great. Everyone is a small universe. " The old lady has sat down beside me, folded her hands and sincerely praised her.

"Boring, isn't this a science and education film?" I turned to the old woman and said, "What's the point of seeing this kind of thing now?"

The old woman stared at me for a while, but her face didn't sink as I expected. She said patiently, "It is precisely because you don't cherish life and throw it away at will that we want to tell you how precious life is. If you don't know this, you can't enter heaven. "

I have to continue to observe in the dark.

The baby grows up like a rose bud, and gradually you can see soft fetal hair and pink eyelids. From birth to growth, the focus of the picture is always the little girl, and the background is only soft light. Occasionally I can hear my parents' voices outside the painting. Whether sitting, crawling or walking, her clear eyes always look at a certain point in the void, as if knowing that someone is watching her.

"The kingdom of heaven has a record of everyone's life." The old woman said to me.

I nodded silently.

At the age of one, she tirelessly looked at a string of colored rattles at the bedside;

When she was two years old, she often listened to all kinds of voices. In her wonderful world, you can hear the tiny sounds of raindrops, snowflakes and candle flames;

When I was three years old, my father bought a beautiful picture album and put it on the carpet at will to let her turn it around. She turned back and forth, and her hazy eyes seemed to absorb magnificent colors;

At the age of five, she began to learn to play the violin. In the next three years, whenever she heard her parents arguing again, she quickly picked up the bowstring and played a sharp and high-pitched piano sound, trying to completely drown out the sound;

At the age of ten, she was very introverted. Every day, I go to school through a cedar passage full of pine towers. She feels that every tree is like an unadorned Christmas tree, full of small gifts;

When she was fifteen, she received a birthday present from her father. That's a pink telephone extension. Although no one called, she wiped it carefully every day to prevent the phone from falling a little dust;

At the age of sixteen, she had good friends named Komachi and Asu. However, there is still only herself in the picture. When the three of them walked together, she gave a crisp and happy laugh. In the bright sunshine, her smiling face was like a spring flower.

Seeing this, I suddenly understood that I don't depend on anyone to exist. Although I have to draw strength from my peers, my life really belongs to me, sad, happy, lonely memories and happy memories. It is these ordinary bits and pieces that have gathered into me today, unlike anyone else. If I had understood this earlier, I might not have made such a hasty choice!

The picture continues to be displayed, but it becomes black and white. From the spring night when I was eighteen, that is, the night when I left this world, all the images became black and white and became silent movies.

"For example, it was originally a 90-minute movie, but from the beginning of 25 minutes, the movie was completely destroyed." The old woman said.

I nodded again.

I didn't say goodbye to the world on the screen, it was just a moment's difference. ...

The college entrance examination is like a watershed, separating me from Komachi and Asu. During the four long years in college, we lost touch.

After graduation, I worked as a photographer's assistant for a while, and gradually became a famous makeup artist with talent and hard work and long-term study. That day, a friend invited me to make up for a bride's wedding. Sitting in front of the bright crystal mirror, the tall girl in a white wedding dress is Xiao Mu, and the groom who comes to meet her is Asu.

The three of us hugged for a long time, but we couldn't bear to part. I made a particularly beautiful makeup for Komachi and made a unique hairstyle with my heart. When I stopped to look at the beautiful town in the mirror, she was also looking at me. At the same time, we remembered what she said to me when we first met: "I like your hairstyle very much!" " "

In the mirror, both Komachi and I laughed to tears.

In the darkness, my eyes unconsciously filled with tears. Silent black-and-white silent films are still interpreting the future I have given up.

After a long, lonely and bleak girlhood, I finally became a cheerful, mature and strong person, met someone who could open my heart and formed a happy family.

It's not over yet. You ask a question and I'll add it.