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Volume 3: diary of the best way to become an audit dog

In fact, there was a time when I really thought I liked financial management and auditing, and I vowed to go to the office. I don't want to waste my life on a flat land without waves and waves. I want to "read thousands of books, walk on Wan Li Road, and read countless people", and I want to integrate into a team, then go on business trips together, stay up late to discuss and work on projects together, so Zhao Qiu walked into the office full of blood.

But I don't know, "As soon as I enter the Houmen, it is as deep as the sea, and the lintel of the imperial court may not be the original one in my heart!" At first, I wanted to make a career in the office with full fighting spirit, but after nearly half a year of internship, I found that sometimes work is even more boring than campus life, and even mechanical triviality is meaningless.

I think everyone has been filled with blood and drenched with a pot of cold water at some time. At that time, I thought life was ridiculous. I worked hard for two years to get the certificate, not for mail merging and sending and receiving express registration confirmation letters day and night, nor for wasting the manpower, material resources and financial resources of Party A, Party B and Party C to make a meaningless formalism. I also thought about giving up and trying to make a living while I still have a chance, but after thinking about these two years, I really don't think I can go back.

Later, after jumping out of the argument of self-paradox, we found that all life is the same, and what we see in our eyes is only what we see. Life is so ordinary, let alone work. Later, consciously or unconsciously, I saw many seniors come to talk about graduation and work, the meaning and essence of work, and then slowly wake up and turn around, meaning or not, happiness or not, sometimes not now, but at some point in the future.

Erh Lin, I hope you can remember that you are excited, disappointed and calm when you may collapse and be depressed countless times in the future. I hope you can stick to it, even if you still ignore the consequences.

August 20 18 3 1

This summer has finally passed, unconsciously. In July and August, I tried every day to think that he would pass quickly and that he could have a good rest after finishing the exam quickly. As a result, in the days of the real exam, although I was very flustered, I was really lucky that all the knowledge points I learned in the exam were memorized. On the contrary, the day of the real exam was the easiest, and the stone in my heart finally fell to the ground. After the exam, I played at YL and Little Sheep's house for a few days, and then I went back to school and began to submit my resume to find a job. This is the next journey! I really appreciate those days when YL and Sai were in the exam. YL is really a good girl. She is sincere to me. I also want to treat her well, my old friend! I think we have known each other for six years, and time has passed silently. We are still old friends we haven't seen for a long time, but we are still very close when we meet again. How nice!

After the exam, the days passed quickly, and now I can't tell my mentality. I don't look relaxed, because finding a job is a bigger pit waiting for me to jump! Looking back now, think about my life in the past six months. Although I complain about the boredom of life every day, when I really walked out of this summer, I actually found that those depressed and cramped days were so much. Really, it was only such a short period in my life, and it came to an end with this summer. Therefore, no matter how difficult the moment is, it will eventually get through. When you encounter such a moment again, you must learn to explain yourself!

Looking back now, I feel that I spent the past two years on CPA. I only know the sadness and depression during this period! When looking for a job, it seems that I suddenly found myself without any advantages. The CPA certificate looks high, but I always feel that I have not improved. These are all knowledge from books, and I can take the exam, but I may not be able to learn to use them in actual combat. So when I applied online these two days, I was actually very discouraged. I'm really not confident. I've lost my courage in college these two years.

In fact, when I applied for Unilever's online application today, when I was writing about my college and graduate experience, I suddenly realized that my six years were really not in vain. Every moment of these six years, I have been moving forward step by step towards my goal. When I was an undergraduate, I wanted to exercise myself more, so I overcame my timidity and took part in competitions again and again: speech contest, career planning contest, part-time interview, forcing myself to grow up again and again and escaping from my comfort zone. In fact, I'm really getting brave! In the past two years as a graduate student, I have made great efforts in textual research. In fact, in the process of self-study, I found myself interested in learning more about finance and auditing. This is actually the only direction I can try to explore further when I can't see what I want! At least, I like it, don't I? Repeated study until I am profound is the starting point of love. Although there seems to be no trace of the road I have traveled in the past six years, if I look closely, I can still find that every time I choose the road I want to go, every time I achieve something, I am further exploring the field I want to devote myself to in my life. I exercised my courage in college, and now I have been studying professional knowledge in school for two years, all in order to get closer to what I want to do and what I can do. So, I want to do it bit by bit. Even though I have been exhausted and depressed by school countless times in the past two years, I still wrote this diary of 65438+ million+in this lonely depression! Perhaps, in retrospect, my biggest gain in the past two years at school was not to get the certificate of certified public accountant, nor to send a paper of North Nuclear University, but to write down my mental journey of 654.38+0.54 million words in self-explanation again and again. This is my most precious thing!

Go on the road of finance well, and then keep writing my own diary. These are the most precious things in my life!

20 18 September 13

I've been in a confused mood recently. Just walking on the playground for half an hour, I met my classmate and chatted with her about finding a job. I find that people's mentality is really different. For her, it is good to go back to Wuxi to find a business, as long as it is safe to be close to home, but in my opinion, she is eager to submit her resume to find a job. What she thinks about every day is going to audit or go to company finance. Different mentality reflects different dependence behind it. My childhood experience shaped my character. In my heart, I will always rely on myself, so, no matter what the future is, come on!

When I just left, I thought about the next arrangement: I must study hard to prepare for T's interview these days, and strive to get the internship notice through this interview, so that at least T's offer is in hand, and if it goes well, I can get it before the Mid-Autumn Festival. Then I began to prepare for Puhua's online application and interview, and I must overcome my psychology of avoiding English. This is a major event related to my work in the next few decades, so I still have to work hard and then write a paper. I have to finish my thesis and show it to my teacher in 10 and 1 1 because I will arrive in February of my internship at T.

What I'm thinking now is: in fact, everyone says that the firm will work for a few years before jumping out, but I think when it really goes out, the position in the firm is already at the manager level. In that case, it's actually not as lively as when I was a child. After all, the more you go up, the more you have to catch the big head. It doesn't matter whether I jump or not. Therefore, I think my temper is that I like to work in a company for a long time, so T and P don't play a big role as a springboard for me, so I can accumulate experience in T with peace of mind, and get through the first few years, reading Wan Li Road in thousands of books and reading countless people. Maybe in the end, I can write my own novels and stories to realize my dream as a writer. I can't answer whether I can succeed in the firm or find a good job, but I think if I am so pessimistic from the beginning, it will be unfair to myself and T, and information asymmetry will always exist, so I would rather believe in myself than others. No matter how hard and tired you are, if you choose, go on your knees! Think about it, while you are young, you may do what you really like first. How nice! Even if I really don't think it's suitable for you after contact, after all, I made my own decision after my personal experience, which is a valuable asset in life!

So, don't think too much, once you make up your mind, you must realize it!

2065438+September 23, 2008

Seeing Zhang Xiaofeng's words, I suddenly feel very lucky. I should always be grateful! Everything in this world is like this, from the individual to the home country. There are always some invisible but real connections between people. Imagine that I miss going to T today, but it is the unremitting efforts of the founder of T and countless T people that make T grow step by step and let me know and yearn for it today! Imagine, countless China Dongao teachers' word-for-word teaching and countless CPAer's day-to-day efforts will allow me to share the knowledge of online courses and get CPA at one time. Imagine, our food, clothing, housing and transportation are all true!

Yes, all the good things in this world happen like this. In fact, as long as we have good thoughts and cherish this life, we will find that no one is a lonely individual. We are all connected by invisible lines, and we will feel warm in countless rainy nights!

Things in the world are just what people think!

If you love someone, you can't help but hope that you are more beautiful, that you will be remembered, that your appearance and physical appearance will be seen by the other party in its heyday, and that you will never forget each other. Even in the winter of bustling trees, there is a person as heavy as the pupil of history books to witness your glory. "-Zhang Xiaofeng's life is a constant encounter and separation."

2065438+September 24, 2008

Today and yesterday, I built a small house for YL. In fact, as long as I get serious, I am really satisfied with doing what I am doing, which is "very efficient" in the words of K. So I'm not worried, I have the power of the wild in my body, hahaha! I finished my little house today, so I can't resist it. It's delayed. In fact, as long as I take the first step, I will slowly reach the distance I thought I could not reach! After two days, I successfully unlocked the self-made manual plus series circuit. Hahaha, please don't be afraid of the unknown and unfamiliar in the future. You think you can't, but you can! Come on! Run to the future, run to a better life!

2018101October 6th

At this time, the light is like day.

Sleeping alone in a hotel in Ningbo, tossing and turning is difficult to sleep! Attending Mr. Chen's wedding is the first time in my life to be a bridesmaid! I've fantasized about it countless times, but it's not as profound as this experience. Teacher Chen, a frank, pungent, delicate and soft person, what kind of person will he meet and walk hand in hand through the years to come! Looking at Mr. Chen's preparation for so long, he quietly sat down with makeup, put on makeup, and sat on the bed covered with China red wedding dress and beaded flowers, waiting for the groom to break through the barrier of the bridesmaid group, taking one photo after another with the photographer's joke-like investment, the anxiety when the groom and the groomsman group were looking for wedding shoes without a clue, the sincerity when the groom read out the commitment letter of love compliance, and the cleverness when mom and grandma sent food to their mouths. I was reluctant to say goodbye to my parents and elders in the wedding car, with tears in my eyes. I was patient when I changed clothes and put on makeup again and again. It was sweet when I took photos with the groom and relatives and friends. When I opened the door and walked to the center of the stage step by step, I was dazzling. When I walked hand in hand with the groom, I was pious and solemn. Tears welled up in my eyes when I watched my parents and in-laws slowly walk up to me. When I propose a toast to friends, elders and colleagues, I am full of enthusiasm.

Wedding planning is long and complicated, but it also witnessed a girl's identity change from green to mature. Like a joke, I said that I have experienced this kind of "tossing" day, and getting married is really tired! But it is precisely in this complicated noise that the custom of marrying a woman has been manifested since ancient times. The blessings from all directions are deeply imprinted in the memory of the bride and groom. When they pick them up many years later, they are still "tired and happy"!

"For me, to love someone is to live with him contentedly. HarmonyOS system is desolate. We can't imagine expanding ourselves into a space in all directions. We just want to fill the life time that belongs to two people with each other's embers. If you love someone, you can't help but hope that you are more beautiful, that you will be remembered, that you can be seen by the other side like Xia Guang in its heyday, and that you will never forget each other. Even in the winter of bustling trees, there is a person as heavy as the pupil of history books to witness your glory. "

Every time I read this passage by Zhang Xiaofeng, I feel warm and soft in my heart. The seasons change, the mountains and rivers remain unchanged, and life is long and short. Even strong and independent women still expect a pair of warm hands at some point!

Back to Suzhou, the next day is a new journey. In the chaos of graduation, we must go our own way firmly!

It's dark outside the window, and the indoor lights are like day!

201810 June 14

I think I'm in good shape now. Although I am about to enter the "bald industry", as I answered in an interview with par, as long as I find what I really like and suit, I think it is not too late even now. Just do it well!

I don't know how difficult and horrible the so-called "choice is more important than hard work" and the so-called firmness are, but I think I won't regret it this time! While I am still young, I still have capital willfulness and choice. I must try something I really like, even if it turns out to be unsuitable, which is much better than giving up on myself at the beginning and then regretting it in countless carefree days in the future!

Anyway, this time, I will allow you to be willful once! Always try to chase your dreams first, so that you can face life without regrets!

20 19 March 10

In fact, I am really a very careless person. When writing a paper, the format is always unsatisfactory, and there are always omissions here and there in the procedure. Even when the inquiry letter is stamped, I can forget to check whether the seal is complete. At that moment, I really deeply questioned whether I was qualified for this job. At that moment, all I could think about was whether I should tell the manager directly that I was too careless and might not be suitable for this job, and then leave. But the next second, I had nowhere to go after I left, so I gritted my teeth and told myself that I should be thicker-skinned, ask more questions and make fewer mistakes, and try my best to make up for my image in everyone's eyes!

When I was studying, I was like a psychological tutor. I always like to enlighten YL lamb in detail, but when I really start working, I can't remember those reasons! Mentality is very important, so is faith. Moving from campus to the workplace is an important identity change, and making mistakes is normal.

March 23, 1965 438+09

This is a dream, oh no, this is my internship.

20 18 hot summer

I am struggling in Wencheng.

Can you prepare for textual research while practicing?

So one day in my dream,

A brightly lit building

There is such a person.

Wear a slim suit and skirt

The voice of high heels is very firm.

Joke in the elevator.

More and more mature and cautious.

Wake up in the middle of the night and turn the moon like a hook.

Looking at the blue bedstead above the dormitory bed, tybalt slain.

This is a dream, oh no, I'm an intern!

20 19 this thin and cool spring

I am very entangled in my heart.

Stay or leave at the right time.

The company building is brightly lit? Everyone is well dressed.

There is such a person.

Sitting in a cubicle that doesn't belong to you every day.

Check the page numbers with a red pen and write down the indexes one by one.

Confirmation letters are flying everywhere.

This is hers, his and his.

Run into the subway secondhand every day.

I dozed off at four stops.

The evening breeze in Daiyue is cool.

Go home at a brisk pace.

Then wash it gently.

Just to stay awake.

Parents who are already asleep.

Sneak into the room

There is a small bed there.

The bright moonlight kept the curtains from stopping.

Is the initiator of sleepless nights.

Close your eyes and open them again.

This is a dream, oh no, I'm an intern!

2065438+March 25, 2009

When that day

As soon as I opened my eyes, I felt very tired and flooded.

As soon as you pick up chopsticks, you can easily open variety shows.

As soon as I got on the subway, I began to brush my mobile phone.

Start the mechanical mode as soon as you arrive at the office building.

Smile professionally when you meet your boss.

As soon as I stay up until the weekend, I stay in bed to catch the play.

I automatically lose my memory as soon as I meet and eat.

When that day really comes.

Do you remember?

When planning on a daily, weekly and monthly basis

When I was studying endorsement and brushing questions day and night,

When I was so nervous that I couldn't sleep at night a week before the exam

When chewing bread and turning over notes in the examination room.

When I woke up automatically at six o'clock the next day after the exam.

Clear blue sky in the morning

A short nap in the afternoon.

The purplish light in the evening

Midnight is like a string moon.

When that day becomes a daily routine

Do you remember?

The mental journey of entering the company building on the first day.

In the flowing eyes

Seven-point expectation? Three-point uneasiness

At that time, I held hot pillow full of hope.

At that time, I longed for exquisiteness and glory

At that time, I firmly believed that youth had love and dreams.

At that time, I was convinced that life was lovely, hateful, hilarious and ridiculous.

When the clock struck midnight that day,

Like a big dream

Tears are also sweat.

Spring buds and autumn leaves fall.

Calendar cards cycle back and forth.

One after another on the road of life.

This shore is ever changing.

The other shore is brightly lit

Arrive from one shore to the other.

Not overnight.

But in a certain mental state,

An idea may be wasted.

An idea may be shocking.

2019 March 3 1

Life is dull and predictable.

Even though there are waves in my heart, it changes rapidly, but fortunately, walking around will still capture the warmth and touch of a certain moment, and I feel that life is dull and predictable!

Internship for five months, sometimes really busy during the annual report, but more often, we interns just get off work every night 10: 30, while watching full-time employees do nothing. The trivial daily life of machinery seems to have killed all the expectations and longings of the original research. I used to want to give up and leave, but every time I think about the hard work and sweat I have paid for it, I can't bear it. Life is still so busy but boring. During the time when I left the campus, many things happened, but it seemed that day and night alternated in parallel time and space.

I didn't go to Nizi's wedding day, so I couldn't take a vacation and had to see a doctor. Although Hangzhou is far from Wuxi, it is not so close. After leaving school, the physical distance is always magnified invisibly, the helplessness at work, or the exhaustion of social life after this mechanical state gradually wears away the fighting spirit! Only a one-day weekend made me just want to stay at home and read novels, which automatically shielded the noise outside the four walls. Nizi is the best friend of graduate school for three years, and can chat with each other to solve doubts and fill your blank time in those lonely times!

I still remember sleeping until 6: 30 that morning and I couldn't sleep anymore, even though my head was dizzy and my eyes were dry and tired. Get up early on the only rest day, wash and cook, then eat, and go to the hospital after cleaning up. The crowd surged through the hospital. It seems that the busyness and leisure, fun and boredom of life are the same in a trance! Shake your head and wake up. I went to the information desk and asked the doctor who was in clinic today. Only then did I know that otolaryngologists had a weekend off, and the hospital would ruthlessly accept those who were sick day and night. But compared with those who were pushed into the emergency room, I was so lucky and healthy! When I walked out of the hospital and looked at the people coming and going, I suddenly remembered that my roommate should have taken the bus from Suzhou to Wuxi at this time, so I stopped and edited a blessing to Nizi against the crowd: Nizi, I wish you an unforgettable wedding, a person worthy of your dedication and a life worthy of savoring in the sun when you are old! Life is dull and predictable!

I don't know why I suddenly made such a sentence: life is dull and predictable! After playing, I feel like a good wish to others and a confession to myself. When I was in high school, I liked writing very much and looked forward to the magnificent youth scenes in the book. I always thought that after the college entrance examination, it would be a bigger world full of infinite possibilities, waiting for us newborn calves to laugh, frolic, develop, succeed, fail and write colorful music of life. However, when we really crossed that line and really experienced exploration, we found that youth was far from as hearty as written in the book, and the world was not as brilliant as expected by 17 years old. In other words, most people's world is unremarkable, and each stage always follows the existing model, as if this long life had been written from the moment we left campus, perhaps earlier, the road had been planned, and we are looking forward to the arrival of all beings.

? However, there are always some unruly, playful and troublemakers who want to wander to other roads. Whether it's an unknown narrow path, thorns or flowers, no one can give the answer, but the curiosity of boys and girls overcame fear, the courage overcame cowardice and opened up their own unique path.

? Brave departure will indeed bring new gains, but if you follow the trend, you may not be happy to make a little progress on this road! The world sighs for the brave, but I think courage may not lie in whether you chose a road at the beginning, but in whether you set foot on a road at the beginning, but insisted on going on!

The days of internship did wear off many edges and corners, but they also taught me a lot. Caution, equality, respect, more contact with some people, take some roads, hesitate, but submit to humiliation and move on. When I first ran the letter, I sat in the car of the account manager, chatting all the way, talking about life with the elderly and talking about work with my peers. Even if I spend a day, I may not be able to go to many homes, but I can walk out of the meeting room and stop when the weather is fine.

Furthermore, during my internship, I can walk with my parents at night in Hang Cheng, even in the streets everywhere, even if I walk aimlessly, but it is really not easy for the three of us to grow up with our grandparents when our parents are away all the year round! When I was alone at school, I often thought that it would be great if I could go shopping with my mother every day, buy fresh seasonal vegetables and fruits, cook by myself, and then take a walk to digest food! So those Saturday and Sunday nights are short but worth cherishing.

Furthermore, think about it carefully, how many people in life can engage in the work they like from the beginning, and it is very rare to do the work that they are slightly good at! Although my present job is not what I have always liked since I was a child, what I have chosen for myself over the years may suit me, and I have also paid and gained in this respect. How many jobs are needed now, such as gender, age, education, certificate and so on. It is not easy for me to stick to this internship and stay.

Work is not love from the beginning, but slowly paying time and energy to start nurturing love! Not everyone can choose this road from the beginning, but if you keep going, maybe you will find it at some point. Maybe this road, walking by yourself, is also suitable!

April 9, 1965 438+09

Smoke from the kitchen

Standing on the rooftop on the fourth floor somewhere in Liyang

Over the opposite spherical eaves

Smoke from the kitchen

Fog, yarn and cotton wool

Spring breeze in April

Keep rising, blowing away, stretching.

Like a mother's soft boneless hand

Thousands of miles away in the countryside.

On the threshold of the iron sliding door left unlocked.

Call you back.

20 19 April 16

These days in April, I often think that maybe in the office, what I fear most is not the darkness during the annual report, but that when others are busy, you have nothing to do, not a day, but a week or even a month. I am a busy person, although during my internship, I am often immersed in Gu Yan's novel world without the constraint of the tight string in my mind when I do textual research every day. However, I have always known that I am still the person who can't be so free and easy. I have nothing to do all day, and my temper will be grumpy and even crazy.

I feel that my expectations for work and hot pillow, when I first left campus and entered the society, are really going to be overwhelmed! This place needs not imagination, but mechanical thinking; What is needed is not Excellence, but conformity. At the beginning, I wrote in my diary: I hope that when I work, I will wake up every morning with the expectation of a new day, with hot pillow like the first day I entered the company; But in such a place that is not remembered, valued and exercised, I feel really hard to open my eyes every day. Today, I open my eyes every day and feel exhausted, not like a 25-year-old youth, but like a weak old man.

A besieged city

There seems to be a besieged city that is too high and thick.

Gather from all directions

Wrap us in it

I can't touch kites and the new green of spring.

I can't hear cicadas and frogs in midsummer.

Can't taste the fruit and wheat in autumn.

There is no snow or fire in winter.

It's dark and bright

It's cold and warm

It's raining and sunny.

It seems that a day in the sky has become a year on earth.

As long as it takes.

Can't see tomorrow

Struggle in the present

It's like a year on earth has become a day in the sky.

Ruth transformation

Can't understand now

Don't look forward to tomorrow

In the eye wave cycle

Miss the rainy night and warm the fire. The family once talked about interesting childhood stories.

I miss sunny spring. Once I climbed a mountain with my friends and saw it far away.

I remember writing at dawn, dusk and midnight.

How much do you want to spend?

This ordinary human warmth

Break through the cold encirclement

2019 April 18

I had hoped.