Story: Falling in love with a woman fifteen years older than me.

1

I am a male reporter.

I met Xiao Xiao at an event. She is fifteen years older than me. She is older than all of us, but in terms of appearance and temperament, she is younger than everyone else.

That day, Xiao Xiao carried a "Blue Balloon" watch worth tens of thousands of yuan, sprayed Dior Sweetheart Miss perfume, and stepped on eight-centimeter high heels and got out of the Lamborghini she just picked up last month.

She is a strong woman in the new century. She is very financially savvy. After her divorce, she opened a new media company in Century Square and made a lot of money. It is said that the year-end bonus alone was divided into three parts. Ten million.

Everyone knows or understands Xiao Xiao only because of what she said to a reporter in the media, "I have a lot of money, so my bottom line is a handsome guy."

What about love and bread? Whichever one she chooses, she can make the money herself. Of course, men have to choose good-looking ones.

Indeed, Xiao Xiao is really picky when it comes to choosing men. Basically, he is either an impressive young man or a popular internet guy.

There was more than a slight difference in age, but Xiao Xiao didn’t look like he was almost thirty when he stood next to them.

There is no greasiness like a wealthy woman keeping a young girl.

It's like the feeling a girl in her early twenties feels when she's in love.

She was immersed in it.

There will also be many people whispering behind her back. She is almost forty and still so coquettish, looking like a vixen.

Some people say that she dares to speak out her desires in front of the media, but she is really seeking death. When she catches some disease and people take away all her money, she will cry without finding a way out.

Xiao Xiao is open-minded, "On the Internet, they type on the cold keyboard and criticize people they are not familiar with or know through the screen without any cost. This kind of pleasure Why not use Wai Wai's way of venting?"

Therefore, eight out of ten comments about Xiao Xiao from netizens were not good, and the remaining two were even more unpleasant.

2

Through that activity, Xiao Xiao and I became familiar with each other.

Maybe it was my looks, or maybe it was the fact that I was the only one in the press corps who didn't speak out about the offensive issues.

Anyway, she left my contact information and made an appointment with me for a column visit next weekend.

Weekends. I arrived at the visiting place in advance and was about to share the milk tea I bought with others when I turned around and saw Xiao Xiao.

"Hey, you're here so early?"

"Same for you."

I smiled and handed her the phone and a latte. , she said thank you lightly.

The visiting time had not yet come, so the two of us sat down and chatted for a while.

I asked her, "Have you never thought about getting married again? You are good-looking and have a well-maintained figure. I only see you making one boyfriend after another, so you don't want to settle down?"

She replied, "There is no wife who likes me. I don't lack anything, whether it is love or money. In fact, I have taken it lightly. I enjoy the kindness of these men to me. At the same time, I also I don’t want them to get involved in my life.”

Fortunately, Xiao Xiao said this to me. If netizens heard it, they would probably yell at me.

But in my opinion, it is reasonable.

You don't look like a reporter, she said. Why do you say this? I asked.

"Shouldn't journalists seize every opportunity to make headlines? What I told you just now was such a big news, and you actually said it was reasonable?" Her eyes widened.

"Can you tell me about your past?" I tried, for fear of touching her scar.

There is definitely a story behind why a woman doesn’t want to get married.

"Okay." She was not wary of me.

3

Ten years ago, Xiao Xiao got married.

At that time, she graduated with her boyfriend and got married naked at the speed of light despite her family's objections.

No flowers, no applause, no blessings.

Just one sentence from your boyfriend, marry me and I will be good to you, please believe it.

With this sentence, Xiao Xiao was moved to tears.

The moment they got their certificates from the Civil Affairs Bureau, her boyfriend hugged her and cheered, "You will be my wife from now on, and I will not let anyone bully you."

Xiao Xiao looked at her boyfriend's excited face and thought, this is him.

The days after marriage were peaceful. Xiao Xiao took care of her boyfriend's three meals a day. At the same time, she also found a relatively easy job with a low salary.

Just a few years later, her boyfriend's career has improved a lot, but Xiao Xiao has changed nothing except wrinkles and belly.

She lost the charm of the past, and also lost her attraction to her boyfriend.

Slowly, quarreling became a common occurrence for the two of them. It became a rule that they would have a small quarrel every three days and a big quarrel every five days.

And Xiao Xiao’s boyfriend was already tired of this kind of life. He kept his mistress behind her back, and he also fully implemented the method of returning home as a concubine of the main wife. I went to the concubine on Saturday and Sunday, but unfortunately, it was Xiao Xiao who was treated as a concubine.

4

Speaking of this, Xiao Xiao smiled bitterly, "His divorce agreement came very suddenly." She fell into memories again.

Ever since Xiao Xiao’s boyfriend openly and openly took the bait, the situation became more and more violent. One day, he even brought his mistress to his home.

“I admit that when I saw that hot woman holding my husband’s arm, my first reaction was not to go up and fight with her and ask her why she was destroying my family, but I want to find a crack in the ground with all my fat."

I moved my mouth to say something, but I just let out a long sigh.

She went on to say, "Hu Ming, you know, my life has been smooth and I seem to be lacking nothing. But after I met you, I realized that all I lacked was courage."

Later, Xiao Xiao’s boyfriend’s divorce agreement came as promised. The agreement was like a big stone, weighing down Xiao Xiao’s breath. No matter how she begged or cried, he never looked back.

He gave Xiao Xiao a breakup fee of 100,000 yuan and youth loss compensation, but in Xiao Xiao's eyes, her youth cannot be bought back with 100,000 yuan.

Her fingertips touched the thin and stiff bank card. Is this all a relationship can give her? A quantified number ended her youth.

"But I was timid at that time. I was afraid of returning the disdainful looks of my neighbors, and I was afraid that they would gossip about my family behind my back, so I resisted all these things alone. "

Xiao Xiao shook his head and smiled bitterly. His life had already been kidnapped by his husband. So what, it was all of his own free will.

She didn’t dare to tell her family that she was divorced, she didn’t dare to tell her friends that her husband had cheated on her, she didn’t dare to take this step, and unknowingly, she became a living corpse in the vast sea of ??people, and She knew that if this continued for a long time, she would completely give up her resistance to the world.

"At that time, I was worse off than alive."

She described the failure of her marriage accurately and without any ripples on her face, as if she was narrating someone else's. The story is the same. At the end, she said, "Hu Ming, it would be great if I could do it all over again."

If I could do it all over again...

5

"Sister Xiao Xiao, actually our interview has already started." I pointed at the light camera.

"I know."

I was surprised by her reaction. She just said "I know" lightly. She should have known that once her interview was dialed out, , will trigger a new wave of criticism.

"I plan to go on vacation. Where do you think it would be better, the United States, Australia, Los Angeles?" She continued talking to me as if nothing had happened.

I had no intention of helping her choose, so I just sighed, "Sister Xiao Xiao, you don't care about other people's opinions so much?"

Xiao Xiao smiled and said, "This is you Isn’t it the reporter’s responsibility? Everyone has interests. If I make you a friend, I should return the same big news, right?”

She added, “I’ve been too busy recently. I’m tired and want to relax completely. Tell me where to go.”

“It’s spring in Australia. The weather is nice and warm.”

“Okay, that’s it.” Australia." She paused, "I have to bring my little puppy." She stood up with a smile, adjusted her skirt with her slender hands, and left with her tall and charming figure behind.

I envy her a little, envy her ability to live a carefree and unrestrained life, envy her feeling of high spirits.

Hey, no, I thought about it and suddenly felt a splitting headache, "Sister Xiao Xiao, the camera is not turned off, what are you talking about here."

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I never saw her again, and I was just limited to chatting on WeChat. This resolute and resolute woman bought her own good media company and went to Australia to enjoy life.

In another WeChat video, she told me that she brought her parents to live with her. There are art centers everywhere in Australia, including painters and artworks. She likes the relaxed atmosphere here very much. .

The family of three walked slowly, stopping from time to time to look at the various strange gadgets on the stalls. When they were tired, they stopped to eat something and watch the sunset by the river. It was so pleasant.

"Remember what I told you, it would be great if I could start over. Now I finally understand that the person who said this is actually escaping, but I looked away. No need, these were taught to me by the two elders.”

The camera turned and showed two old writers sitting on a bench. Opposite them there was a freelance painter who kept telling them how to pose. In this posture, the second elder is smiling. The sunshine at this time has a gentle warmth, like an invisible hand, covering the second elder's body.

"You are living the way you want to live, and I am really happy for you.

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"By the way, I'm getting married, and the other party is a big foreigner. "She blushed, and a charming smile appeared at the corner of her mouth.

"Didn't you say..." I was surprised.

"I said I wouldn't get married, but... He is the person I am looking for, in my mind, it is him. She smiled, "I really want to start over, Hu Ming." "

"Hey, Xiao. "A tall and straight man walked over with a cup of milk tea in his hand. He had short hair and was wearing a decent white shirt.

Xiao Xiao turned around suddenly, with a deeper smile on his face, and then turned around, " Hu Ming, I won’t talk to you anymore. We’ll see you next time. "

"Can we see you again? "I rushed to say.

"Yes. "

"I really hope I am the person you are looking for! "I shook my head helplessly, but Xiao Xiao hung up the phone and didn't hear it.

In the end, I didn't do anything to hold her back. I should be happy for Xiao Xiao to find her happiness. Xiao said that she has never been brave. In fact, the least brave person is me.

Secret love is really a skill.

I smiled and picked up the one I had hidden in the cabinet. I thought about the interview tape below, and finally put it into the computer. When Xiao Xiao lowered his head and fell into memories, I could see the slightest blush on my face sitting next to me.