Early in the morning, teenagers rode bicycles in the mountains.

Xinjiang is really a good place, with not only Hotan dates, cantaloupes, saute spicy chicken, but also Li Juan.

Li Juan, a very common name, has numerous "Li Juan" in China, but only one "Li Juan in Altay". In China's prose world, "Li Juan of Altay" can be regarded as a golden signboard. She started writing from 1999, and published seven or eight essays in one breath, among which My Altay, A Corner of Altay and Winter Ranch have been best sellers for many years. Li Juan's writing style is fresh and full of spirituality, and he is praised as "the Elf of Altay" by readers. So, how good is her article?

Zhu Tianwen said, "When I was in Taipei, I read a report about Li Juan. It's incredible that I'm in the only Xinjiang in Li Juan at the same time. " Chen Cun said: "This kind of writing can't be taught." Liu Liangcheng, Li Juan's Bole, said: "I am happy to read such essays, because it is difficult for writers of our time to write such things."

I have known Li Juan for five years. In the past five years, I have read almost all her books and followed her Weibo and WeChat official accounts for fear of missing one of her articles. As a die-hard fan of Li Juan, if I had to choose three words to describe her writing, I would choose: sincerity, fun and compassion.

Nine Snow is Li Juan's first novel, which was first published in 2003. At that time, Li Juangang was in his early 20 s, a small tailor in the depths of Altai Mountain. 16 years have passed, and now she has become a famous writer. At the beginning of August last year, her latest collection of essays, Sunflowers in the Distance, won the 7th Lu Xun Literature Prize (Prose).

Seeing this news, I smiled from ear to ear, happier than giving out the year-end bonus. In the past ten years, Li Juan has won almost all the important awards in China literary world, and I also know that all her achievements today are achieved by herself with her bare hands. She deserves these honors. To this end, I really want to stand up and applaud her.

In my opinion, Li Juan's prose achievements have surpassed literature and entered the field of philosophy. It's no exaggeration to say so. Generally speaking, Li Juan's prose has three themes: life, loneliness and love. These contents are grand and profound enough to cover our long life.

Once Li Juan.

0 1 wilderness philosophy: in front of nature, human beings are always small.

Li Juan was born in Xinjiang in the late 1970s. Her ancestral home is thousands of miles away in Lezhi County, Sichuan Province.

There are three people in Li Juan's family: Grandma, Mom and Li Juan. Grandma is over eighty years old, kind, strong and a little naughty. She has lived in her hometown in Sichuan for most of her life. Because no one took care of her, she had to follow her daughter (Li Juan's mother) to Xinjiang for the elderly.

Li Juan's mother was an agricultural technician in a construction corps in Xinjiang when she was young. After the disintegration of the Corps, she became a social idle. In order to earn money to support her family, she took her old mother and young Li Juan to the sparsely populated Altai Mountain and opened a mobile grocery store (also a tailor's shop). A family of three lives with Kazakh herders and does business with them, earning hard money. Li Juan's mother is the pillar of the whole family, because she is witty, smart and willing to endure hardships.

Grandma, mother and Kazak herdsmen constitute the important contents of Li Juan's early works. In "Nine Snow", there are broken straw hats bearing grandma's half-life memories, mothers watching sparrows in the wild, herders who are in arrears with their drinks, some of whom make people laugh, and some make people's eyes red.

nomadic life

It is extremely difficult to live on weeds. What is commendable is that what Li Juan wrote is not sad. She inherited the optimistic personality of her grandmother and mother, and never regarded suffering as suffering. Instead, she takes pleasure in suffering and realizes the way of happiness in small things. A bunch of wild flowers, a few wild strawberries, and even small things like washing clothes by the river can all be a light in Li Juan's life, illuminating her gloomy girlhood.

In Nine Snows, several articles are related to the wilderness. Wilderness is both a real existence and a metaphor. What is metaphor? Of course, it's too slim to see the future life.

In "Happiness can be made up by mending shoes", there is a scene in which Li Juan's family is thinking about the future while mending shoes for Kazakh herders. They are looking forward to one day being able to get rid of the turbulent and poor life and live a civilized and rich life of urban people. Grandma wants to go back to her hometown, and mom wants to buy a house in the city and travel around the country by bike. After imagination, my mother turned to everyone and said, "For these goals, we must work hard!" "

I like to think about the future, which shows that I am not satisfied with the status quo. The more dissatisfied you are with the present situation, the stronger your imagination will be. This is a struggle between life and fate. Wilderness is a corner of nature. In the face of nature, people are always small. However, no matter how small, you can make a difference. Survival in the wild tests not only hard skills, but also psychological endurance. Silence in the wilderness, this absolute silence, can kill people spiritually and nourish people.

In the face of wilderness and silence, a person can feel at ease, which requires great concentration. Li Juan did it, and without a trace of deliberate. Li Dongyang Juan is like a dandelion. Wherever the wind blows her, she takes root without complaining or lamenting. This carefree and open-minded temperament permeates every one of her works, which has penetrating power and soothes the hearts of countless readers.

The more desolate life is, the more people should love life. This is Li Juan's wilderness philosophy.

Li Juan four or five years ago.

02 The sadness of youth: Pain is the normal state of life, and no one can escape it.

At the age of 2 1, Li Juan left his hometown and went to work in Urumqi. At that time, according to her own words, she was "young and frivolous", "acne all over her face" and "ate a lot".

And the place where she works is not a serious company, but a black workshop. In "Nine Snows", they recorded that very unpleasant experience like needles and empty hearts.

As a female worker in a black workshop, Li Juan has to work more than ten hours every day, but her monthly salary is only 250 yuan. What makes people speechless is that the proprietress is stingy, but Li Juan works slowly and eats a lot. Such employees are naturally unpopular with the proprietress. So the proprietress often humiliated Li Juan in public, and Li Juan never quarreled with her for a living.

On one occasion, the proprietress lost two gas tanks at home. She said behind everyone's back that Li Juan had stolen the gas tank. Li Juan couldn't turn his face, so he had to submit to humiliation and work harder than before. She just wants to prove to the proprietress: Please see clearly that I didn't steal your gas tank, and I did better than others.

Since then, Li Juan seems to have really begun to understand, and his work efficiency has also improved a lot, becoming a model worker among employees. Now, the proprietress smiles, and her attitude towards her has changed a hundred and eighty degrees, which makes Li Juan flattered. At this point, Li Juan has made up his mind to go. When the proprietress learned about it, she had a long talk with her and tried to keep her with emotional routines, but Li Juan finally left. You know, when a person's heart is empty, it is impossible to turn back.

Seeing this, I believe many office workers will feel the same way. Although we don't work in a black workshop, our grievances at work are similar to those of Li Juan. Who hasn't been insulted by a guy who has a higher status and earns more money than you when he is young? That terrible pain may not be cured after many years.

Nowadays, when it comes to youth, people always throw out many compliments. And true youth is not necessarily beautiful. Pain is a "necessity" of youth, at the same time, it can also witness our growth. There is a saying: a person's mind is supported by grievances. It is recognized that Li Juan's style of writing is very large. And this big pattern stems from her liberation after suffering and humiliation in those years.

In the preface of Nine Snow, Li Juan said that when he was young, he was like a frog in the well. But she also admitted that at that time, no matter how many times she fell, she could get up without hesitation, and the newborn calf was not afraid of tigers. I admire that kind of courage and envy myself now.

Pain and happiness are the price of growth, and no one can escape this law. Li Juan showed us this real state of life without reservation, which made us feel the same. Truth is the greatest charm of Li Juan's writing, and Li Juan is so loved by readers because of her "truth".

Li Juan, today.

People are born lonely, and love is the only antidote to loneliness.

One-third of Nine Snows is Li Juan's personal feelings, and its content is unconstrained, including snow, sheep, starry sky, forest, rainstorm and so on. These lines are full of loneliness, confusion and fear.

Living on weeds, wandering from place to place, also makes people's hearts turbulent. People who live in this environment for a long time will be unconsciously divided into two categories. One will become more and more numb and gradually lose enthusiasm for life; The other will become extremely sensitive and indifferent to the dust and sand in the world. Li Juan belongs to the latter. Her girlhood was full of insecurity, which gave her far superior insight.

Words are the reflection of life. Life is turbulent, and even the words are full of wandering feeling. Fuyun County, Shayiheng, Bulake Baglale, Urumqi ... These places are all places where Li Juan once lived, but none of them can be called home. Yes, her home is a mobile grocery store.

Loneliness is the eternal theme of life. People can't get rid of loneliness as long as they live. Whether a person can accept loneliness determines his spiritual level. People who can't accept loneliness will lose many opportunities for growth. Once a person is lonely for a long time, he falls in love with loneliness. Li Juan, just a lonely beneficiary, gave her a delicate and sensitive heart, and time polished it thoroughly and peacefully. Li Juan said in an interview that loneliness is a wonderful feeling, which brings her freedom and enjoyment.

The lonelier the surface, the more gorgeous the heart. Li Juan's heart is always full of love. And love is the only antidote to loneliness. Grandma and mom gave Li Juan love and warmth. They helped her through the most difficult years and became the source of her later creation.

Li Juan said that writing is the only thing he can do well. Writing is like a door for her, leading her to explore the unknown world constantly. In Li Juan's prose, there are silent contrasts everywhere: the contrast between the harsh living environment and people's tenacious vitality, the contrast between trivial things and broad humanistic feelings, the contrast between exotic customs and human nature, and so on. Of course, it is also mixed with the loneliness of growth, the silence of youth, the desolation of life and the grandeur of the world.

Li Juan told us in her words that since life can't get rid of loneliness after all, it is better to stop and enjoy loneliness quietly. Loneliness can strip away the external noise and return life to its pure essence. At this time, we will reflect on ourselves and life more deeply. And this kind of reflection will feed back our lives and bring us endless strength.

Li Juan's handwriting.

Life is a mirror, whether we cry or laugh depends on ourselves.

Every writer has his own "base": Xiao Jianghong is from Guizhou, Ma Jinlian is from Ningxia, Sun Pin is from Shaanxi, and Li Juan is from Xinjiang, specifically from Altay. Although she doesn't live in Altay now, Altay is still her spiritual home.

Li Juan has deeper feelings for Altay than for life itself. That kind of power from the heart, quiet, warm, far away, reaching people's hearts, unforgettable.

Li Juan said: "Suffering is a kind of fate, which should not be praised or complained." He also said: "Pain is something that should be hidden in your heart. Sadness is born to be restrained. You must forgive the harm and deception you have suffered. People who care nothing are not heartless. The quietest and loneliest growth can also make people practical, confident, strong and kind. "

Yes, when we grow up and see the absurdity of the world and the complexity of human nature, the only thing we can do is to keep our hearts clear and not be changed by the world. When suffering comes, life is a mirror. Whether Byakki Smoker cries or laughs depends on us.

Altay scenery

After studying in Li Juan for five years, my feelings are constantly changing with time. When I first started reading, I was often amused by her humorous words. When I read it again two years later, I felt "thinking about heaven and earth, boundless, boundless, crying alone"; Now read it again, and when you are moved, you will be relieved. This is good, which shows that I am growing up myself.

I am very grateful to Li Juan for her five years of "companionship", so that I can be myself with peace of mind. Time can take everything away, but it can't take away the once moving. When I close Li Juan's book, I suddenly feel that nothing in life is the best and nothing is the worst. Living with one's heart is the perfect life. Calm down, everything is natural.

The writer Qiu Wei said in "Girls and Teenagers" that she likes to call girls with a sense of youth "girls and teenagers". Li Juan is such a young girl. Although she has experienced many ups and downs, the years have not left too many marks on her. Today's Li Juan, out of Altay, out of Xinjiang, and even out of China ... However, in my heart, she is still the girl standing in the wilderness wind.

Thank you, Li Juan from Altay.

Li Juan's photographic works.