Ideas are more important than efforts.

Completely different results must have completely different processes. You can't change the result unless you change the process.

Someone once said that youth has nowhere to be placed. I used to think that my youth must have been spent in various interviews.

Although at first, between the newspaper and the TV station, I was forced to choose the newspaper because of family reasons. Although there is only one word difference between the two provinces, it is a world of difference for a person who has been pursuing his dream. There is no doubt that I chose a detour. At that time, I chose a dark road with no end in sight.

It took about a year to get used to and fall in love with this job. In layman's terms, I have a sense of mission and a strong sense of mission in my heart. From then on, I fell in love with the job of journalist.

I like interviewing, walking, listening to stories, watching different scenery and experiencing different lives.

I remember that the first time I was assigned a long-term interview task was in the photography department. The director arranged for three young people to interview in different counties. I'm going to Huangyuan County, and the interview time is about one week, including economy, agriculture, education, tourism and so on, involving all aspects. I went home to get my luggage with a letter of introduction and got on the bus to Huangyuan with my small boarding box. After I found the local propaganda minister to explain my purpose, I started a week-long interview.

I don't know the mood of other colleagues during the interview. I was nervous and excited. Fortunately, when everything was arranged properly, I met a colleague from the Ministry of Economic Affairs, so the first afternoon, we went for an interview together. A good start is like eating a reassurance, and the next tasks are smooth.

So, I began to interview in the countryside once a month, mostly for more than a week. There are stories to listen to, different scenery to see, different feelings to feel, materials to collect every day, manuscripts to hand in every day, and basically my name will be seen in the newspaper every day. Of course, my heart is full of expectation and pleasure.

Youth is not like this. You gain a sense of existence and value in your busy work.

A year later, I transferred from photography department to another department and began to learn as many skills as possible, such as writing internal reference, typesetting and editing. During this period, I have a dual identity as a journalist and a photojournalist. What role was I assigned to interview?

Such is ambition. When you think you have done well, you want to learn more, which is exactly what you want.

But after a long time, I gradually found myself lacking in energy. Everything seems to be doing, but nothing is as good as before. For a perfectionist, this is undoubtedly a huge blow. In addition to being arranged to go out for interviews and photos, I remained excited, and the rest turned into pain.

Take editing manuscripts as an example. At that time, I felt that I was not so confident in words, and I felt that I was still in the learning stage. So I once refused to edit the manuscript and let them suffer once until their self-confidence was exhausted and they fell into a confused period.

Naturally, I forgot that everything that happens in my life is actually an opportunity, not an obstacle. What we have to do is not to find what we want, but to try to feel what happens in life, the existence of these things and the reasons why they happen.

However, when people pursue perfection excessively, it is a process of self-pressurization. When they are in a state of high pressure for a long time, their thinking will stagnate, they can't think in multiple dimensions, they won't feel anything inside except pain, they can't consider the significance of doing so, and they can't receive the freshness and stimulation from the outside world.

So I fell into a black hole. I don't know how dark and deep this hole is. Before all the pleasure and superiority disappeared together, leaving only confusion and helplessness.

Until today, I took out two notebooks, one pink and one blue. The pink one records the interview diary, and the blue one also records it every day. Just some classic quotations and methods about how to interview, how to learn to live, how to know yourself, etc., are written every day in the process of editing manuscripts and making layouts.

It turns out that it's not that I haven't tried to change my mind, but that I'm too stubborn, too stubborn and not perfect, and I can only come to a conclusion that I can't do.

In fact, whether it's interviewing, editing manuscripts or making layouts, I have gained something.

The interview gave me the spirit of asking questions, the determination to pursue the truth of things, and increased my curiosity about things; Editing manuscripts is an opportunity to improve writing ability quickly, and the process of editing is a learning process. The more you edit, the smoother the natural structure of your writing. Layout is a process of sublimating the soul and theme of the manuscript. A good layout will be attractive, vital and energetic. So in fact, everything is to make me a better self, a more comprehensive self, and there are gains behind everything.

On the blue note, there is such a passage:

There are two rhythms in a person's life. One is the rhythm of life, which is planned, step by step and orderly; A rhythm for the soul, not chaotic, not envious of glitz, not drifting with the tide, not drifting with the tide, there is a calm helmsman in my heart, no matter how big the storm is.

He also said: the rhythm of the river knows, the rhythm of the wind and cloud knows, and your soul knows.

It turns out that in the past, I blocked the communication between life and mind. Although I didn't realize until now that completion is more important than perfection, opportunity is more important than "self-satisfaction", and slowing down is sometimes more important than fast pace. Fortunately, it only took me a year, not too late.

In fact, hard work is not the foundation of success, what matters is the concept. And changing ideas is entirely determined by the way of thinking. Now that things are clear and transparent, the next thing to do is to maintain passion and love for life. When you encounter pain again or your mind is stagnant, stop decisively and let yourself go first.

As Kahlil Gibran said: Don't go so far as to forget the reason why you started.