Mu Xin: Seduce seriously and lose your virginity seriously.

"I am a person who is snowing in the dark."

I still remember the first time I met Mu Xin, because I read the article My Master, Mr. Mu Xin, written in Chen Danqing's "Retrograde Series" in 2007. At the end of the article, Mr. Dan Qing wrote frankly, "Please forgive me: I write books in the hope of establishing a suspicious reputation to lure people to read Mu Xin's books one day."

Thirty-five years ago, in the autumn of 1982, Chen Danqing, who had just come to new york to study, happened to meet Mu Xin, who was over 50 years old. Half a year later, when he read an article about Mu Xin in the newspaper, he called Mu Xin directly and made an appointment to meet him. The two met and chatted the next morning. The following year, Chen Danqing began to take artists and friends around him to see Mu Xin. From 1989 1 month to 1994 1 month 9, Mr. Mu Xin started his classes in new york. Artists take turns to provide their own living rooms and listen to Mu Xin's lecture on "The History of World Literature", which lasted for five years from the expected lecture to the end of the lecture. In five years and 85 classes, Chen Danqing filled all five notebooks with lecture notes.

Mu Xin and Chen Danqing.

1In the winter of 994, Mu Xin quietly returned to his hometown and came to Wuzhen alone. When I returned to new york, I wrote an article, Wuzhen, which was published in China Times. He wrote, "I gradually became a romantic factor from tragic things. I respect other people's misery without words, but my own misery, yes, is tragic, but also very romantic. This idea is really a good way to turn sorrow into joy, and maybe it can be called the most convenient redemption of the world of mortals. Goodbye, I won't come again. "

The loneliness in his heart is a long story, but it also expresses homesickness. When he returns to his hometown, he will definitely miss Sun Jia Garden. When he was five years old, his family moved to the Bay of Wealth. Otherwise, he won't mention his hometown many times in his works, and he will never forget the place where Mu Xin, the "master of Sun Jia", played in his childhood.

1999 was read by Chen Xianghong, Party Secretary of Wuzhen Township. Chen Xianghong asked Mu Xin to return home. From June to 10, 2006, Mu Xin returned to Wuzhen from new york to settle down.

Wuzhen (photography Cissy)

I really started studying in Mu Xin in 20 1 1 year. I was pregnant that year, and reading Mu Xin became the happiest time in those months. From essays "Random Thoughts of Joan Mecca", "Going to the Plain" and "Feast of Fish Beauty" to poems "The lark has been calling all day". I was attracted by this old man who projected a unique humanistic temperament and personality charm between the lines.

In Columbia's Reflection, he wrote: "What is life? Life is at a loss all the time. "

In May, he wrote, "You blow like this, cool and soft, and then blow again. I know it's not you. "

In Diet for Teenagers, he wrote, "Nothing is milder than porridge. You can't find a gentle person like porridge in the world of red glass all your life. "

In "Larks Cry All Day", he wrote, "I am a person with heavy snow in the dark."

I thought to myself: What a soft and beautiful heart it takes to write such a cool and warm poem.

On February 2, 65438+ year, Mu Xin died in Wuzhen. In my mind, he wrote down the sentence in "Random Thoughts of Joan Meka", "If you want to meet each other, I have mixed feelings of sadness and joy".

He is a clever and interesting old man. On Valentine's Day, February 14 was his birthday, which made me feel the romantic atmosphere in his bones. I'm not sure that I am a reader who can read Mu Xin, but I have been attracted by him. Immediately, after knowing his life experience, I paid more respect to him.

In the spring of 20 12, at the request of readers, Chen Danqing began to sort out the transcripts of lectures in new york that year. He read on from page to page, dumbfounded, lost in thought, burst into laughter and then began to cry. "I saw the dead Mu Xin lying on the coffin bed. I clearly saw everyone around Mu Xin more than 20 years ago, listening to his lectures ... did we really have a long five-year new york party? When I look at the wooden heart full of paper, what I say is my notes, just like his legacy. " That's better than being a teacher, a father, a father and a son. Did an outsider say everything in a few words? As a reader alone, I admire Chen Danqing's heartfelt respect for Mu Xin.

Chen Danqing arranged five lecture notes into Memoirs of Mu Xin Literature, which was published on 20 13. He said, "Sir, I don't disobey." But I am sure that my notes have its value: apart from the lecture content, I have faithfully recorded many quips and anecdotes that Mu Xin deviated from the theme: there is no guarantee that 100% is accurate, but as long as Mu Xin is talking, I will remember that once I even recorded a conversation between everyone and him walking in the park after class. "

Chen Danqing's "Sick Wood Heart Map".

I began to read Mu Xin carefully through Memoirs of Literature.

He said: "A person who loves me will know that he loves me if he stutters and incoherent."

He also said, "It is impossible to be a life director. Second, be an actor. Second, be an audience. "

When I read these sentences, I can't help but imagine the old man who still speaks in a humorous tone after being displaced.

The last lesson was particularly impressive. 1994, Mu Xin in her sixties said in class that literature is lovely. Life is interesting. Art has to be sacrificed.

There is a passage "Literature is Lovely" which I particularly like. Mu Xin said:

"Diary is a letter to yourself, a letter, a diary to others. You sent me a message or described my situation, and when you came back, it was all out of shape. My speech and literature are rigorous, and my life is strange. I can completely convey other people's words and situations, and gradually reach the meaning of others, more thoroughly than others. Outsiders will brag when they hear this. You have to testify for me: Mu Xin is not a monster, but an ordinary health of the elderly. "

This "old man" is really interesting

20 14 teacher Dan Qing wrote in the postscript of Memoirs of Literature in his book Cao Caoji:

"Once in class, everyone was waiting for Mu Xin, and the sunshine was wonderful. When he entered the door, he said that he felt that he could forgive everything along the way, but he didn't know what to forgive. After returning home that day, he wrote the following poem, Forgiveness, entitled Jackson Heights:

May will be over soon.

Strong light shines for days.

Lu Yi Lu Yi Shadow

Dull till night

The red-breasted bird is chirping on the wire.

It's getting dark.

That's slow, slow.

The White House in the Green Leaves

The setting sun shone on the glass.

The lawn is wet and still watering.

Purple iris is very dreamy.

Meet in the dark, in the dark.

Clear, cordial and euphemistic.

I don't know what to forgive

I really feel that the world can be forgiven. "

Teacher Dan Qing wrote emotionally at the end of the article: "Mu Xin walked like this, watching,' all the way in the shade', on his way to lecture; After class, he walked home. It was getting dark. None of Mu Xin's poems mentioned it, and new york City and Jackson Heights never knew that a small group of China people had taken a world literature class here. Now Mu Xin is dead, my mother is dead, and AG is dead. After that, I won't go every year-'I don't know what to forgive, but I really think things can be forgiven'. Now I only hope that Mr. Wang will forgive me for publishing my speech without authorization and making this big book. "

"He is eager to know who his readers are, but he refuses to see them; He wanted to talk to someone, but he was disappointed when he came. Occasionally, some people are interesting but inappropriate, while others are decent but boring. These are all things he will find fault with. When he is lonely, the garden is so quiet that it seems that a murder will happen, but when someone comes, he gets bored. "

Mu Xin's aloof soul is really stubborn and lovely.

In Cao Cao Ji, Guarding and Farewell are divided into two chapters. Mr Chen Danqing recorded Mr Mu Xin's last days.

During the last period of Mu Xin's return to settle in Wuzhen, two boys, Xiao Yang and Dai Xiao, took care of Mu Xin's diet and daily life. The day after the funeral recorded in the book, Chen Danqing asked Xiao Yang and Dai Xiao, Are you bored? In the hospital? The child said nothing, just froze. "Long bed without a dutiful son. Why are you two so good to your husbands? " Chen Danqing asked again.

Xiao Yang, look at Dai Xiao. After a pause, Dai Xiao said slowly, "You know, Mr. Dan Qing, we work outside, just two dogs ... when we came here, our husbands treated us like human beings. For example, if I do something right, my husband will praise me If I do something wrong, he never scolds me ... "What about him? "He will teach me what to do next time and what to say next time."

Chen Danqing said, "Seeing Xiao Yang and Dai Xiao is like seeing Mr. Mu Xin in his later years. These two children never leave and take care of him wholeheartedly. "

After reading it at night, I burst into tears. Thinking of Kang Deyan, "having a direct interest in natural beauty is always a sign of kindness." Mu xinyan, it can be said that anyone who is no longer kind has lost direct interest in natural beauty.

Mu Xin is such a kind old man. He integrated all the feelings and beauty of nature into poetry, painting, music and soul.

Mu Xin, Xiao Yang and Dai Xiao.

Tongxiang in spring is carefree and quiet. Once I walked on the Qingshiban Road in Wuzhen, a water town, holding my daughter's hand and wandering in the depths of the alley for several days. When the sunset shone on the wooden door of Mu Xin's former residence, I was shocked by the warm light in the alley. ...

At that time, my daughter asked me, "Mom, who lives here?"

I replied, "It's an old man whom I respect very much."

"Is that grandpa in the photo?" She asked.

"yes." I answered.

"Then where did he go?" She asked.

"He's gone." I answered.

"Are you? Grandpa must be very happy to have so many uncles and aunts come to see his paintings and books, and like him as much as his mother. " After that, she skipped into the alley.

Yes, Mu Xin has returned to his hometown Wuzhen, where he will stay forever. From reading his books to staying in Wuzhen for a few days, going to his former residence and going to the Mu Xin Art Museum built for him by Mr. Chen Danqing, when my daughter and I stood opposite the bridge of Tashi Mu Xin Art Museum and looked at the art museum standing on the water, I remembered the sentence "Oh, I saw the design of the art museum before Mr. Mu Xin died, wind, water, a bridge ..." I really feel why Mu Xin often likes to quote a sentence from French writer Flaubert. Now I seem to understand everything.

Mu Xin Art Museum (Photography Cissy)

Huang Lei once wrote that when he is old enough to read Mu Xin carefully, he will think that he lives in Wuzhen, the place he knows best, but he has no impulse to see him. "After the old man moved back to Yixian Zhu Xiao, I had another feeling in my heart, but I was getting closer and farther away from him. He lives in the east of Dongzha, close to Caishen Bay and the expressway outside the scenic spot, and has become a very important position in my heart. ..... I'm a little scared and at a loss. I can't relate my familiar words and people to him, just as I am afraid when I face my hometown. "

In recent years, documentaries about Mu Xin have been shown from time to time, from the returning outsider, my master, Mr. Mu Xin, to the confrontation between dream and reality. Mu Xin's readers span a great age, and more and more people are pursuing him. However, in recent years, when I read Mu Xin, I only feel that he is an old man who makes me happy and admire. I recall what Mr. Mu Xin wrote in "A Journey to the Plain": My happiness is "happiness". If ""is removed, I will not be happy. I will still reread his words over and over again for many years to come. As a reader of Mu Xin, this is also "happy" for me.

Mu Xin wrote, "Sometimes, life is not as good as a Tao Yuanming."

I also want to say: sometimes, life is really not as good as a wooden heart.

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Sissy

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Editor/Yi Xiaowan

The article first appeared in the folk songs and poems of the official WeChat account. Welcome attention. Id: Twilight-