Looking at those things, I understood his love

For most of my life, I have been a little shy when talking about my love. But wrinkles are just the mark of time. Although middle-aged people do not have the vows of love that they have made before and after the moon, they have a love that is more mellow and sincere than that of young people.

This kind of love is hidden in the little things that are easily overlooked.

A few days ago, I had constant pain in my lower abdomen due to gynecological diseases. I was admitted to the hospital and was given an intravenous drip every morning and afternoon. When I am sick, I need companionship the most, but he is busy and sometimes is not by my side, which makes me very unhappy. That night I finally broke out. I asked him: "Where have you been? If your mother is sick, will you leave?"

He said: "I took the time to go get a haircut. I made arrangements for the nurse when I left and asked her to listen. Come over when the bell rings." I said aggrievedly: "Can't you wait until I finish getting the water to get a haircut? What a big deal, you are in such a hurry!"

I had a big argument with him that night. When I was young, I said some hurtful words to him and then ignored him for several days. So, he called his daughter in the northeast and told her about our quarrel. My daughter knew that I was stubborn, so she wrote a WeChat message to persuade me. My daughter said that when you and your father quarreled, he felt very uncomfortable. You said something to irritate your father, but he let you go. If he didn't say some things, it didn't mean that you were right.

After reading my daughter’s WeChat message, the corners of my eyes became wet. I put down my phone and sat blankly on the sofa, reviewing my shortcomings and bad temper, and slowly thinking about all the good things he did to me.

After being married for more than 20 years, whenever he is at home, he is the first-class chef in the family. Even in the sweaty summer, while he was busy in the kitchen, I was watching TV like an idler.

As long as he is at home, he will make a sumptuous lunch, catfish stewed with tofu, fried celery, chicken roasted with mushrooms, fried beans. He likes to eat meat, and I like to eat vegetarian. Every meal is a combination of meat and vegetables. . Even if he goes out for a meeting, he will cook the mutton, cool it, cut it into pieces, wrap it in a plastic bag, and put it in the refrigerator. When I eat, I can take out a few pieces of mutton and put them in the soup, and then the noodles will be ready. Very convenient. Sometimes when he goes out to socialize, he also has to prepare lunch before leaving home.

That day, he chopped lamb chops with a machete, and there were dots of blood on the kitchen stove and tiles. When I saw it, I said, "I'm annoyed when I see these bloody things. I will never go into the kitchen in my life, and I don't want to go." He took my words and said, "Do you think I want to go into the kitchen? I serve you every day. Don't leave." You know!" I smiled and said, "I have met a good person in my life, I should be lucky."

He is not only my chef, but also thinks of me during various festivals. , either giving me money or treating me to dinner to make me happy.

I remember it was a rainy day and it was our wedding anniversary. He bought a lot of roses and took his six-year-old daughter to a Huajiang dog meat restaurant. He ordered a pound and a half of dog meat, which was hot and waiting for me. When I showed up at the dog meat restaurant wearing a tacky gray sportswear with wet hair, he laughed loudly and said, "Girl, give me flowers!" My daughter was so happy that she handed the rose to my hand. . At that moment, I was so excited that I burst into tears and couldn't say a word.

I took the rose and smiled like a fool, "Hey, hey, hey." That cheerful laughter seemed to knock the smell of dog meat in the private room out of the window, and the sound of rain outside seemed to It also became vivid and loud.

That summer, I took a fancy to a mulberry silk casual top with a peony pattern. It cost more than 800 yuan. I thought it was too expensive and couldn't bear to buy it. I told him, and he immediately gave me a thousand yuan and said generously: "If you like it, buy it and I'll give you the money." But I still hesitated and refused to buy it. The next day, he took me to the store on his bicycle and forced me to buy the dress.

Four years ago, my daughter went to the distant Northeast to study at university. He was busy with work, and when he returned home from get off work, I was mostly alone, and I often felt empty. For almost half a year, I was depressed, restless and irritable. I tried to find a way to find the bright colors of life. I want to travel alone and see the outside world. But when a person travels far away, he is a little worried about the unknown journey and possible accidents on the road, and he does not dare to take the first bold step.

That night, when he came back from drinking, I talked to him about wanting to travel. I said, I feel too depressed and want to go out for a walk alone and get your support. He sat next to me, put his hand on my shoulder, and said in a drunken voice: "Go ahead, I support you. If you encounter any problems outside, I will drive." I'll take some brothers to pick you up." After hearing his words, I felt reassured and gained more courage to travel.

In December of that year, I went to Suzhou for the first time, starting my journey of traveling alone. From then on, I couldn't control myself. I traveled to other places time and time again to relax my body and mind in the natural mountains and rivers and ancient villages in cities and towns. I became confident and happy because of it.

Because of traveling, I fell in love with photography again. In order for me to take better photos than the images on my mobile phone, he bought me a Canon 70d SLR camera three years ago. This year, I wanted to sign up for a photography class. After he inquired about it from colleagues at work, he came back and told me that he wanted me to sign up.

In late July, I participated in a photography group in Xiapu, Fujian, and saw so many photographers carrying high-end cameras. After I came back, I said to them: "Compared with other people's cameras, my 70d is really inferior." He knew what I meant, looked at me and said, "Don't you just want to buy a high-end full-frame camera?" I responded with a playful smile: "He who knows me is a stupid dad."

A few times I really couldn't bear to buy a camera that cost 10,000 yuan. I was always hesitant when it came to spending a lot of money. I needed his push and decision. When I thought about Canon's full-frame secondary camera, I felt itchy in my heart, but when I thought about the high price, I immediately became discouraged and gave up the idea of ??buying it. One day in August, he called and said he was going to drive to Xuzhou with his colleague Bin, who knew about cameras, to buy a camera, and he wanted me to go too.

I stopped him and said: "It's too expensive. You're crazy. If you don't feel bad for tens of thousands of dollars, I still feel bad for you. Let's wait for a while." He said firmly: "You want, I will buy it for you, sooner or later, why not buy it now." I couldn't resist him, so I followed the car and went to Xuzhou with heartache and joy, and bought back a 5d4 Canon camera.

When I returned home, holding the heavy camera, my heart was like fifteen buckets fetching water, and I was very nervous. This camera is my year's salary, it's a waste of money. But for my hobby, he didn't feel sorry for me at all.

He supports almost all my hobbies and actions, and for this, I really have to thank him. I have a strong personality and a bad temper, but he has always tolerated me. He told his daughter on the phone that except for his relatives and lovers, he would not be so tolerant to others. He also told his daughter that he would never do anything sorry to me in his life.

Indeed, he has tolerated me and pampered me for so many years. What is this if not love? When I took stock of everything, I finally understood his love for me.

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