Sanmao, who traveled all over the world, came to the streets of Chengdu and left behind what?

Sanmao is an excellent writer and speaker. He has been to many cities and countries in his life, but he has a special liking for Chengdu alone. Maybe because Jose likes it, she likes it, too. She always goes to Chengdu once a year, so the last photo before Sanmao committed suicide was taken in Chengdu. In the photo, she was alone in the streets of Chengdu, and her eyes were full of loneliness and unspeakable sadness. No one knew how she felt at that time, and then Sanmao committed suicide in the bathroom of the hospital for four months without leaving a suicide note.

Black and white photos of streets in Chengdu

Sanmao, formerly known as Chen Maoping, feels that she began to learn to write when she was a teenager? Hey? This word is too complicated, so I changed my name to Chen Ping. A famous writer and speaker. Born in Chongqing, 1943, he settled in Taiwan Province province with his parents at the age of 5 and began to study in Spain at the age of 24. From then on, she began her world tour. At the age of 30, she settled in Western Sahara and married her boyfriend Jose. Eight years later, she returned to Taiwan Province Province to teach at a university. At the age of 4 1, she quit all her jobs and concentrated on writing and speaking for a living.

Sanmao's life can be said to be full of legends. San Mao was an independent and powerful female writer and speaker at that time when women were still treated unfairly. In her works, we can see her rejection of the times and longing for a better future. Her works also give me a strong sense of freedom and freedom, such as a glass of wine in the spring breeze of peaches and plums and a chic lamp in the Jianghu for ten years.

From her words, we can see that she is a real woman with a strong heart, full of feelings and freedom. At that time, no one could say and understand what she was thinking, so she recorded her thoughts in words, thus becoming a generation of famous artists.

The last photo that Sanmao left before her death was that she went to Chengdu for five days in September. 1990. Photographer Xiao Quan took this precious photo album for her with a stupid camera. Sanmao loves traveling all his life. He has traveled through hundreds of provinces and thousands of urban areas in more than 50 countries. He has seen a lot in his life. Such a thoughtful man has seen countless landscapes, so he will write literary works that shock his soul.

In the black-and-white photos taken on the streets of Chengdu, Sanmao looks natural. On the side of the road, Sanmao saw many old people gathered in the nearby pavilion, drinking tea, chatting and playing chess. Antique tables and chairs, San Mao likes this feeling very much. She has seen too much splendor, but she has not captivated her heart. On the contrary, she likes the simplest earthly fireworks. Perhaps in her heart, she is also a little girl, hoping that someone will comfort her uneasy heart, and fireworks on earth can best comfort the hearts of ordinary people.

Sanmao in the photo is optimistic at first glance and smiles a lot, but I will look at these photos after I know that she hanged herself in the hospital four months later. Very meaningful. In the black-and-white photo, Sanmao's eyes are full of eyes that others can't understand, giving people a deep but lonely feeling, as if I were alone in this world after all.

You make me sad alone.

San Mao's life-long treatment of feelings can be said to be the ultimate. Perhaps this is a common problem of many famous writers. When college broke up with her first boyfriend, Sanmao's love seed failed to relax, so she tried to commit suicide and was saved. She had more than 20 stitches in her wrist. It can be seen that Sanmao is a woman who attaches great importance to feelings. Later when she was studying in Spain, she met the love of her life, Jose.

Love often makes people crazy, especially for such a woman writer whose inner world is extremely rich and fragile and sensitive, love is full of beauty. Sanmao fell in love with his beloved Jose for six years and got married for six years. She said the number six meant a lot to her. Her life seems to have a new beginning every six years. Every six years, her understanding of the world will be different and she will have a new understanding.

Two years after her beloved Jose died, she also passed away. The most painful thing in the world is where you will go. How can I live without you? While you were away, I wandered around. I'm not sure if Jose's death is an important reason for Sanmao's suicide, but I think it must have some influence on Sanmao. You left me alone in this strange world. You told me with your departure that I didn't have to chase, but I didn't.

The bathroom in the hospital took the rest of my life.

199 1 At the beginning, Sanmao hanged himself in the hospital bathroom at the age of 48. The news shocked the literary world at that time, because it was 12 years since Sanmao committed suicide, and her beloved Jose also passed away. Sanmao's friend didn't expect Sanmao to have suicidal thoughts. Colleagues and colleagues are very sad and it is difficult to accept this fact.

Looking back on Sanmao's life, she traveled all over the world and saw beautiful scenery and wonderful moments that many people have never seen in their lives. Although her sudden suicide was unacceptable to many people, she had no regrets about what she had experienced in her life.

San Mao was insensitive to numbers when he was young, which may be one of the common faults of writers. I remember when Sanmao was in primary school, she was humiliated by the teacher in public because of her poor math performance, and she drew a circle on her face with a pen, which led to Sanmao's severe autism and could not continue her studies.

Later, Sanmao's parents were also literate, which can be said to be scholarly family. With the careful companionship and guidance of his parents, Sanmao gradually recovered, and later became an auditor in the Chinese Department of the University. She is very sensitive to words and is naturally suitable for writing. Because of her outstanding literary talent, she went to Spain to study, then met Jose and fell in love with him until she entered the marriage hall. Then she travels around the world, 12 writes books.

Love is gone, and San Mao is gone.

Maybe since Jose died, Sanmao always wanted to go with him, but for various reasons, she couldn't do it. Maybe she was just waiting for the right time, maybe she really stopped pursuing and caring about the world, so she chose to leave. Maybe, maybe, only Sanmao knows the truth, because she didn't leave a suicide note when Sanmao committed suicide.

Ms. San Mao has been wandering all her life, but there is no doubt that she dares to love and hate and doesn't care about the secular vision. Her parents opposed her foreign love at first. Although the ending was not very good, the process was undoubtedly the most beautiful. We also believe that a lady like San Mao can manage her love as well as a flower.