Mood diary

I love and hate clearly, dare to love and hate,

I really hate my indecision,

My heart was severely gouged out, but I still can't hate it.

I'm waiting for that day,

I am fully capable of taking care of myself, even if I lose everyone,

Like a truly independent adult.

I'm waiting for you. I don't know how much courage it takes.

It takes more courage than I love you.

Not everyone is willing to wait, and not everyone is worth waiting for.

I am waiting for you, which contains a lot of helplessness, sadness and bitterness.

Maybe I can't love you, maybe I can't love you. Anyway, I'm waiting for your promise.

Far more beautiful than I love you. But how much love can stand the wait.

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I'm waiting for that day,

I know how to cherish myself,

I don't hurt my body with a knife anymore, I don't drink or stay up late,

Really love yourself.

I'm waiting for that day,

Really live for yourself and not be influenced by other people's emotions.

Don't wronged yourself for others,

I really know that my heart hurts.

Everyone has a dead end,

If you can't get out by yourself, no one else can get in.

I put my deepest secret there.

You don't know me. I don't blame you.

Everyone has a wound,

Deep or shallow, covered with cloth, thinking it doesn't exist.

I drew the reddest blood there.

You don't know me. I don't blame you.

On the eve of "Christmas", at the invitation of my alma mater, my wife and I crossed the river by car, braved the unscrupulous attack of the strongest cold air this winter, walked into Anqing School for the Blind and Deaf, and met Mr. Ye, who came from Hong Kong specially and was called "Santa Claus" by our classmates.

Teacher Ye speaks Cantonese and Mandarin. He is not tall and his voice is not loud. Because he often comes to the mainland, it is not difficult to communicate. Listening to his laughter from time to time, it is hard to imagine that he is a middle-aged blind man who has experienced ups and downs for 40 years. He was born blind in his left eye. At the age of 27, his right eye suddenly became infected and complicated with iriditis. The failure of secondary glaucoma surgery completely plunged him into a dark abyss. Being resigned as the project manager of an internet company is like giving timely help and chilling. Fortunately, even if the blind people in Hong Kong are unemployed or unemployed, their basic livelihood and old-age care are guaranteed. However, the youthful Mr. Ye did not want to accept this unexpected food. With 10 years of network experience and excellent computer technology, Huibo Network Co., Ltd. was resolutely established, engaged in software development, anti-network security services and website hosting, and soon became a famous "computer superman" in Hong Kong. After making a fortune, he didn't live a luxurious aristocratic life like some "richest people" in the mainland, but registered and established the Yabo Charity Foundation, and transferred the annual profit of 10% to the foundation account. After friends' introduction and on-the-spot investigation, he became attached to Anqing Overseas Friendship Association, and took the initiative to become attached to the school for the blind and deaf, which was established more than 50 years ago, and donated five Dell computers, 1 dot display and 10 standard massage table to the school's education department for the blind. At this point, it is no longer an invisible theory that blind students attend computer information classes.

In the early morning of February 25th, 65438, Teacher Ye and his party strolled out of the sun, filed in and out of one classroom after another, and handed out a pair of warm shoes to every blind and dumb student. In this cold winter, the warmth of blind and deaf students will rise from their feet. At noon, Mr. Ye has prepared 2000 yuan of beef, wearing brand-new warm shoes to eat with his classmates in the school cafeteria. Nearly 300 blind and deaf students, plus all the teachers and Hong Kong guests, the school canteen has never been so lively and festive as it is today. The third gift from Teacher Ye is two English teachers he invited from Hong Kong in the name of the Foundation. He thinks that the way out for blind students can't just rely on massage, and computers and foreign languages are also good choices. After two successful teaching attempts, he and the school are full of confidence in English teaching for blind children next semester, which makes Yan Huixin, the vice president in charge of teaching, extremely happy. Yan Hui also told me that Teacher Ye reached two agreements with the school during this trip: First, he donated 250,000 RMB to buy a large solar water heater for the school, which can meet the bathing requirements of all teachers and students. The second is to provide 29 poor students with all tuition and living expenses from primary school to "vocational high school" graduation. Previously, the foundation and the school have jointly formed four investigation teams to visit these 29 poor families. Mr. Ye led a group of people and drove to the mountains and stone platforms in the east. Some mountain roads are impassable to cars. He walked with his entourage to the homes of poor students ... when he left, many villagers sent them to far away places. Through these, I can easily see the intrinsic nature of Mr. Ye's career success.

When I left my alma mater and waved goodbye to Mr. Ye and his party, my wife and I felt warm in our hearts, because the kindness of a blind businessman in Hong Kong left a warm memory in our hearts.

-the kindness of a blind Hong Kong businessman

After graduation, we also left campus. Some friends have found good jobs, while others are still looking for them. We don't know how far the road ahead is, only that we have been working hard. Really tired, as if everything was deliberately arranged, so as not to let others intervene. How can we integrate into this so-called big family? Everything has become a reality. No one knows your past glory. It's all over. You have to start to prove your ability again, but how many people can stand the pain?

The former campus has become strange, and it is no longer your grassland. Your leaving will not make it bitter, but will only bring you sadness and helplessness. This is our ladder. Face it formally. Confusion is temporary, so face it bravely.

Home is a place where people feel safe. It is said that the outside world is good, but when you really face it, it eats people. One person's life is well arranged, but the world of two people is stupid. I don't want graduation to make the past sweet bitter. I have seen too many examples. So I will care for our love with all my heart. In fact, as long as we communicate with each other, understand each other and sacrifice a little, we won't leave any regrets.

Don't let your pride let you down. Everyone is proud. Please open our eyes and have a good look at the world.

Article 4 of the mood diary "One" As long as people get along with each other for a long time, you won't feel her beauty. Therefore, since people know each other, there is no need to be familiar with them, so as to maintain her past beauty in your heart.

There must always be a yearning in people's hearts. I have been looking forward to the future with bright hopes.

If you don't struggle and compete, life is like carbon dioxide in the air, which will be precipitated and filtered out.

In fact, life is like a dream. Maybe we thought we were living, but that was just a dream we had.

When the "fifth" is sad, there will always be the poet's melancholy. If you are sentimental, depression will become a disease.

"Six" really God has been just watching us, and we have always been our own God to save ourselves.

An angel's wings are always invisible, so she never tells the truth.

The rendering of eight can push beauty to the extreme.

The time of "Nine" is always the same, but people feel different.

The beauty of "Ten" has never been carved or disguised.

When "Eleventh" is sad, it is a quiet happiness. When it is happy, it will have a mixed feeling, when it is noisy.

When I was in a high position, my silence was a kind of personality. When I was ordinary, my silence was a pretense of being profound.

Thirteen's creations are inspired, and most good works are generally created by people in embarrassing times.

Fourteen years of lonely hearts, lonely tears and beautiful dreams turned out to be just a dream.

Today is another hot day. The burning sun makes the earth smoke, and people are sweating like being trapped in a stove. The tree couldn't stand it, so it bowed its head. In the garden, flowers and plants sit uneasily on the ground, and everything seems to hope that a storm is coming.

In the afternoon, God really changed his face. It was cloudy, followed by lightning and thunder, and the wind was blowing hard, and the raindrops as big as peas flowed down like flying springs. In an instant, it rained harder and harder, and heaven and earth seemed to be connected into a huge rain curtain. On the eaves, the rain quickly flowed down the ground, splashing and the ground was filled with smoke. The drain pipe seems to keep draining water, so that the earth can quench its thirst. Pedestrians on the road walk hard with umbrellas, like fish struggling in the sea, and big trees and small trees on the roadside dance wildly in the wind and rain. The wind is so strong that the fruits of many plants are shaken.

The rain gradually subsided and stopped.

After a storm comes a calm, a rainbow appears in the sky, the air is so fresh, the house is so clean, the leaves are so green, and I feel particularly comfortable.