When was the moment when your boyfriend gave you chills?

I went hiking with him. I was anemic and had low blood sugar. After reaching the top of the mountain, I was so dizzy that I couldn’t stand up. I squatted on the ground holding my head. He was standing next to me at the time, holding his hand. I took a bottle of drink for myself, looked down at me and said, "Have you never climbed a mountain before? Why are you so watery (we use water to mean fake, inferior)" I said that I want to be a DINK in the future. , I didn’t want children (I was only nineteen, maybe because I didn’t have a strong sense of responsibility), but he said, “If you don’t give birth to me, who knows whether you will give birth to someone else?” I went to the hospital when I was sick. It was the first time in my life that I went alone. I had a blood test and I didn’t bring enough money. I called him more than a dozen times and he couldn’t answer the phone (due to professional issues). To be honest, I understood him. Then I asked a male classmate to borrow money and later gave him a I sent a message telling him I was sick. My condition has been getting worse over the past few months. I had a video chat with him two days ago and I was taking medicine, and he actually asked me why I was taking medicine. Moreover, I was a student and I didn’t dare to tell my family about my illness. I saved up money to pay back my classmates. He actually said that my relationship with that boy was too good and he was angry. I said at the beginning that I would not accept long-distance relationships, but he still left for the sake of his future and even said hello. He didn't even call me, and then we lost contact for a year. I kept waiting for him to contact me. He said that it would be fine in two years. Now we have been apart for two years. We are in a military relationship. He said that I should wait for him for another three years. I don't want to anymore. Waited.