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A while ago, my friend's dream of writing full-time finally came true. He got a signed letter from a well-known company and won the first prize in two large-scale essay competitions. Behind these seemingly easy things, I'm afraid outsiders can't know how difficult it is than he knows.

As far as I know, before that, he had been living in a small room of 10 square meters. After finding several jobs without success, he wanted to change his situation by writing.

However, judging from his circle of friends, his life is not so good. He met a great roommate, quarreled more than three times, and almost fought once. The poor sound insulation of the house has affected his creation and rest more than once.

When he was full of fighting spirit and passion, his field of expertise was hit hard again. During that time, he felt hopeless in life and lived a life without love every day.

Fortunately, he persisted and finally succeeded when he was about to give up.

I couldn't sit still after learning the news of his success. I changed two jobs in Changsha because I was not used to the life and rhythm of second-tier cities. Half a year has passed, and I'm still not used to it. I have always wanted to go back to Beijing, and I have always felt that big cities have their own opportunities and space for development.

So another friend and I began to complain about my idea of quitting writing and gave her a bunch of cases around me, except their failures. She didn't say anything and threw me some questions.

How many fans do you have on several platforms now?

Less than two thousand.

What is the reading volume of the most published works?

Less than 20 thousand

How many words or works have been published?

Less than a million words, less than a hundred photos and videos.

How much money do you have now?

Barely support oneself

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The more I talk about it, the less confident I am. After some meditation, I thought for several days, carefully analyzed my own situation, and dismissed the idea.

I don't have enough capital around me, neither the knowledge and thinking of a freelance writer, nor my father who has money to work. I think most people are just ordinary people who are as busy as me.

If you don't go to work, you can't support yourself. You always have a youthful dream hidden in your heart, but it can't be realized. When you see others doing what you have always wanted to do and succeed, you will be on pins and needles.

But aren't we the envy of others? When you complain that your life at two o'clock every day is boring and your future is bleak, others may envy your white-collar life in a high-end office building every day.

In my junior year, I worked as a cold worker in a factory for two months, and I met Du Du from Dashan, Guizhou, whose family was not very good. He went out to work before finishing junior high school.

Sometimes he will comment on my circle of friends and chat with me for a while.

I was in a bad mood for a while and sent a message "Can I kill the past?" In my circle of friends, Du Du commented to me, don't kill the past, but live in peace with it.

At that time, I didn't quite understand why I had to settle. Later, I realized that reconciliation is just accepting the imperfect self and the imperfect past.

Du Du said that because his younger brother and sister had to study at home, he had no choice but to drop out of school to earn money to support his family. He hated his parents at first, but when he saw more in society, he stopped hating them.

You can't choose when you are born, and neither can the family you come from. These things are inherently unchangeable. However, we can change ourselves, and the first step to change ourselves is to accept ourselves and reconcile with ourselves.

A while ago, it was the postgraduate entrance examination in 2020. Before that, I never dared to tell others about my failure twice, for fear of being laughed at and not being able to get through that hurdle. But now, I think it's nothing. The word failure will only be accepted when I have experienced more.

To tell the truth, it is impossible to say that you are not depressed when you fail in the postgraduate entrance examination. Besides, both times were because of English, and the second time you had a fever.

Later, I used my previous manuscript and the experience of some writers to successfully change careers, and as a newcomer, my salary was much higher than that of relevant professionals who just graduated and entered this industry.

I have written something after work these days. Although I didn't get much, I continued to explore the road of writing, but an article published in Weibo was over 10,000 in less than a month, and it was read by 8,000 people in two months, and I also got a lot of encouragement.

This surprised me and made me grateful. Weibo is also an article with a score of nearly 100 in seven days. Although these two articles are not my best level, although this is only a small gain, it is good to make progress.

I know you don't want to change, but calm down and stick to it. Believe me, you will see different scenery.

Before that, please accept yourself, please admit that you are an ordinary person, so that you will be down-to-earth and then the opportunity will meet unexpectedly.