What happened between Wang and San Mao?

If you know the story of Sanmao and Wang, you can roughly infer that Sanmao's suicide may be related to Wang.

Sanmao was born in Zhoushan, Zhejiang Province, and moved to Taiwan Province Province with his family because of the civil war.

When she was a teenager, Sanmao was particularly rebellious, perhaps because she couldn't stand the institutionalized education, so her grades were not very ideal, but she showed great interest in literary creation.

With the help of her family, she began to study China's classical literature and foreign languages, which laid the foundation for her study and writing in Europe.

San Mao met her later husband Jose when she was studying in Spain. However, due to family reasons, Sanmao returned to China to prepare to marry her fiance. However, shortly after Sanmao returned to Taiwan Province Province, her fiance died of illness.

Sanmao, who is not bound, quit her job and wandered to the Sahara desert in Africa to find the freedom she longed for.

After Sanmao came to the Sahara desert, he told Jose that he was in the Sahara, so Jose quit his job in Europe and went to the Sahara to find Sanmao. Shortly thereafter, the two married and settled in the Sahara desert.

The time San Mao and Jose spent in the Sahara should be regarded as the happiest time in her life. Jose's spoil of Sanmao can be said to be hard to see. As a romantic writer, San Mao likes to travel without a plan. No matter where Sanmao goes, Jose is always with him, blocking all the wind and rain for Sanmao.

During this period, Sanmao also published many works, such as The Crying Camel, The Story of the Sahara, The Scarecrow's Notes and so on.

But San Mao's happiness didn't last long. Her husband Jose died unexpectedly while diving in 1979. Jose's death caused an indescribable blow to Sanmao, who returned to Taiwan Province Province under the care of her family.

At that time, Sanmao was less than 40 years old. His family once thought of introducing San Mao to another partner, but no one can replace Jose's position in San Mao's heart. San Mao lives in Jose's memory every day and tries to express his feelings for Jose in words as much as possible.

San Mao lost his mind about Jose's idea, and even told each other through "psychic". Just when Sanmao felt that life was extremely gloomy, a song by Wang touched Sanmao's heart.

The folk song "In that faraway place" has attracted people's extensive attention since it entered Taiwan, and this song is also Wang's masterpiece. Although Wang Yisheng has never been to Europe, his songs have been included in the textbooks of some conservatories in Europe.

Similarly, this song touched Sanmao's heart. At this time, Jose has been dead 10 years. In the past ten years, San Mao has been at a loss. This song paints a colorful picture for Sanmao's black and white world.

According to a news report in Taiwan Province Province, Sanmao learned that Wang had been imprisoned for more than 20 years in a special period. Although fate was unfair to him, he never gave up his pursuit of life.

Wang's life is also full of misfortune. His wife died soon after he got out of prison. In the 10 years after his wife's death, he didn't look for his wife again, but he often expressed his thoughts about his dead wife with songs in the sunset.

Similarly, Jose left Sanmao 10 years. Sanmao especially understands Wang's feelings. Wang's songs make Sanmao feel that he has found a bosom friend in life.

So San Mao thinks he's going to meet the king anyway. Just then, the reporter San Mao knew went to the mainland to interview Wang. So Sanmao got the contact information of Wang and successfully got in touch with Wang.

1990 In April, Sanmao signed up for a tour group to visit the mainland in order to meet Wang. Because the relationship between the mainland and Taiwan Province Province was still complicated at that time, San Mao's trip to the mainland was full of various frustrations.

When Sanmao came to see Wang in Xinjiang, he found that he was not as handsome as he thought, but an old man with gray hair. After all, Wang and San Mao are 30 years apart. Wang also welcomes Sanmao very much and treats Sanmao warmly.

In the next two days, I led Wang Sanmao to visit the place where he lived. In these two or three days of contact, San Mao is full of affection for the old man in front of him. After all, San Mao is also a romantic writer, and it is understandable that he is full of special feelings for Wang. After Sanmao's travel period expired, Sanmao reluctantly left Urumqi.

San Mao immediately wrote to Wang, expressing his feelings after returning to Taiwan: "Close your eyes, it's all your shadow. You can't ask me not to love you, because I am free. " .

Sanmao's confession was so direct and sincere, but Wang Wanyan refused Sanmao.

Wang's rejection of San Mao is actually understandable. After all, Wang is 77 years old and San Mao is only 47 years old. Even if Wang wants to talk about a vigorous love, she can't do it. The internet has never been to Europe, and I don't understand the love concept of young people now. With his traditional thoughts, he can't accept the secular vision at all.

So she showed great indifference to Sanmao's warm feelings, but she didn't let Sanmao give up completely.

After a lapse of half a year, Sanmao was invited to Beijing to participate in the script of "Rolling Red Dust" and make revisions. This time, San Mao came to Xinjiang again to find the king.

Wang was very excited when he learned that Sanmao was coming to find himself again. He prepared a room and daily necessities for Sanmao in advance, and arranged for a student to take care of Sanmao's daily life. On weekdays, he and Sanmao walk together, talk about life and live a leisurely and happy life. But Wang never dared to be with San Mao.

San Mao once publicly held Wang in front of reporters and said, "I only want you." Although Wang was very excited at that time, he refused Sanmao. After being rejected, Sanmao felt that it didn't make any sense to go on, and soon returned to Taiwan Province Province.

After returning to Taiwan Province Province, Sanmao got a serious illness and was admitted to Taipei Rong General Hospital. During the treatment, San Mao hanged himself. The day after Sanmao committed suicide, Wang set up a memorial tablet for Sanmao in the room where Sanmao once lived and started his drinking life.

In fact, to some extent, Wang's refusal is really the last straw to overwhelm San Mao. Wang is actually willing to be with San Mao, but he can't accept this secular vision.

Generally speaking, San Mao and Wang should be regarded as "lovers who love each other but can't be together". Because of the great difference in status and concept between the two men, although San Mao had confessed to Wang many times, he was rejected by Wang.

After being rejected, Sanmao returned to Taiwan Province Province from the mainland and began to have various health problems. She has been admitted to Taipei Rong General Hospital. San Mao may feel that life is too lonely and dark during his hospitalization, so he hanged himself in the toilet with silk stockings.

After Sanmao committed suicide, both literary and entertainment circles thought it was because Wang refused to let Sanmao die. The investigation result given by the Taipei police is that he committed suicide because of illness and weariness. Maybe there are both reasons.