Reflections after the first class on the journey of transformation

After three days of classes, I was late every morning. I realized that I just like to sleep in in the morning.

? On the first day, I like to enter the venue, sit on a chair, and listen to the lecture half-lying. I feel so relaxed. I am here to relax. It is my own time, with a group of people who love to learn. It's great to be with many people without the interference of children or husband. It's just like a vacation, and I can learn something and go home to refresh my stubborn mind. I was so happy that when I went out to eat at noon, I was still in a relaxed state without any vigilance. When I left after eating, I didn’t even take my bag and I didn’t realize it until Teacher Dandan mentioned it to me at the meeting. I am a lucky person, and I am grateful to have met Mr. and Mrs. Ji Hui. It didn't cause any trouble.

In the first two days of class, I often fell asleep when I was relaxed. I would fall asleep after lunch and towards the end of the afternoon. When I got home at night, I regretted that I had not learned the true knowledge and wasted time and money. Money, in order to protect themselves, people shirk their responsibilities and look for reasons outside. They start to blame Teacher Xu for ending his class too early. It ended just after he woke up. Why didn't he teach until 11:00 at night? When everyone reported the weather forecast in the morning, I felt that Teacher Xu was stalling for time again. He felt that this link took too long, and it had nothing to do with him. He listened selectively and could not understand the purpose of arranging the weather report. I listened carefully to the class on the third day. It talked about cherishing oneself and accepting oneself. It talked about expressing anger without emotions, which is actually a sign of inner strength. I agreed with it very much. I felt that I had learned something again and it was worth it. From now on, when I look at the people around me and people who get angry at the slightest sight, I will think that it is his problem and a sign of his weakness and incompetence, not that I am not doing well. Suddenly I understood this truth and understood this phenomenon. I feel relieved a lot. In the past, when I saw people getting angry at me, I would think it was because I had done something bad that made them angry. I blamed myself and slowly lost my self-confidence. In class, I also found that I was thinking too much and was afraid of being found out that I was not good, had shortcomings, was incoherent, and had no beautiful words. When I stood up, everyone was at a loss when they saw me speaking. My heart was shaking violently. When the course was doing case studies, the representatives who were invited showed up naturally with their body expressions and expressed themselves in very relaxed sentences. I was particularly envious of these students. This is what I will do in the future.

After three days of classes, I gradually became calmer after entering the venue, and I also felt the warmth among my classmates. I felt the stiffness in my body and realized that my mind was thinking too much. I also learned that it is useless to know too much, but to do it is the best.