I can only accompany you here, the girl who is no longer waiting in Old Town of Lijiang.

Someone said, "People who have appeared in your world, whether they are familiar friends around you or confidants who have never met in a very distant place. Maybe you will love many people, or maybe you will be loved by many people, but those who really have the patience to understand you have a probability of less than .1‰. " I believe it, because that Miao girl in Old Town of Lijiang.

At the Spring Festival Gala in 222, the New Year bell rang, and I was alone in a daze in front of the TV, like a Buddha sitting in a temple. The crackling firecrackers sounded outside, and in this noisy and festive eve, I just wanted to be silent. Memories slowly, the first love girl whom I couldn't love, her goodness is vivid in my mind, repeating and replaying in front of my eyes like a movie.

In this small town where we have lived for more than ten years, there are too many familiar places with our sweet memories. Always inadvertently, a familiar scene reminds me of her deeply. I want to escape from here, go to a new place, lick my inner wounds, change my mood and let my life start over. Some people say that Lijiang is suitable for affair and Tibet is suitable for cure. I don't know if this makes sense. I don't know where I should go between Tibet and Lijiang.

Looking out of the window, the snow flying all over the sky, distant houses and nearby lawns are all covered with a white coat. There seems to be a faint fragrance of flowers in the wind. When I smell it carefully, I am in a trance. That faint fragrance, light and elegant, once fascinated me! She once said that her greatest wish was to accompany me to Tibet, to find a deserted place on the prairie, and to live a peaceful and carefree life like Sanmao and Jose, but now she has chosen to forget.

the only constant in the world is that everything is changing. I have no reason to ask you to stay with me all your life. I know that when she loves me, she really loves me, and when she doesn't, she really doesn't love me. Love has a shelf life. Unfortunately, we didn't extend it. It is impossible to go to Tibet with her in this life. So, I decided to go to Lijiang alone. I don't want to have an affair, just want to be alone, lick my inner wounds and heal myself in another place.

After the Lantern Festival, the distant train finally left my hometown and headed for Old Town of Lijiang, carrying too many thoughts. I didn't look back again, although everything here once made me so nostalgic. After getting off the train, it was already late at night, and the spring breeze at midnight was mixed with a little chill. I called a taxi and wanted to find an inn to settle down first, but I don't know where to go in this strange city. The driver was driving and telling me about the charm of this ancient city.

I looked blankly out of the window and saw a petite figure holding a tree on the roadside ahead, vomiting a few times and stumbling down. My heart has a torn pain. I know she won't appear here, but it really seems to be her figure.

must be a man with a story. I asked the driver to stop and carry the girl. The driver refused to agree because he was afraid of throwing up in his car. I have an illusion of being in the same boat. It must be very unsafe for her on such a cold night.

I paid the fare, took my luggage, walked over and gently helped the girl up. It really smelled of alcohol. It seems that the cold wind in the street woke her up. Maybe after vomiting, she was not as drunk as before.

mumbled, "Well, thank you, I can walk back". I said, "It's not safe for you to look like this on such a cold night. I'll take you home. I'm also on the way." She looked at my luggage and smiled knowingly. I was a little embarrassed that the lie was caught.

She smiled and said, "Have you just arrived in Lijiang? You still have your luggage. Are you here for a trip? Thank you for coming down from the car to help me up. You must be a very kind person. "I smiled awkwardly and said," Yes, I just arrived here and haven't found a place to live. "

She said, that's just right. I'll be your guide. There happens to be a very affordable hotel next to my home. I nodded excitedly, and the confusion in my heart was like fog, which was blown away at once. In this strange place, I seemed to meet my relatives.

I held her and walked trembling in this deserted street. The neon lights on the street stretched our figure for a long time. A cold wind blew, and she shivered. I took off my coat and put it on her. She looked at me gratefully.

I quickly said, "Nothing, I'm not cold". She blushed and said with a smile, "I made you laugh, little girl is not a good drinker." I'm awake now, but I'm still a little drifting when I walk. "

Along the way, you talked to me sentence by sentence. She said, "My name is Feier, not a native of Lijiang. My hometown is in a mountain not far away, a Miao girl. I just graduated from college, got my first job, had dinner with my colleagues, and got together for the first time. I was afraid of getting along with my colleagues, so I had to drink hard to express my sincerity to the company and my colleagues.

A group of unreliable colleagues were all drunk, so I had to go back alone, trying to stop a taxi. Can wave many times, the driver saw my appearance, and chose to turn a blind eye and gallop away. Fortunately, I met you, otherwise I might have fallen asleep on the side of the road. "

I smiled a little shyly and said, "Nothing, I should thank you. It's my first time in Lijiang. I'm a stranger here. I don't know where to find an inn. Fortunately, I met you."

"Are you here to travel?"

"Not really. I work as a salesman in a small county in my hometown, but I'm tired of that kind of life. I want to change my place and lifestyle. I heard that Lijiang is beautiful, and I want to find a job here, earn money and enjoy the beautiful scenery here, killing two birds with one stone."

"Well," she said excitedly, "it's just that the sales department of our company is also recruiting. This Miao girl in front of me must be an angel sent from heaven to save me. I laughed happily.

"that would be great, but it will take a long time to apply. I wonder if your company can value me?"

She smiled mysteriously and said to me, "Don't worry, I'm from the personnel department of our company. It's absolutely no problem to talk to our leader."

I almost lost my jaw, and such a good thing happened to me. I couldn't help giving her a grateful look. She is also looking at me, her eyes full of simplicity and enthusiasm unique to mountains.

"The highest mound in our place is less than 2 meters above sea level, which I envy most. There are mountains and water in the mountains. My greatest wish is to find a secluded place in the deep mountains and become a hermit when I have saved enough money." I said enviously.

She smiled happily. "Well, after that, I will give you that shabby house behind my house, which will definitely satisfy your dream of being a hermit." I was a little embarrassed and quickly changed the subject. I jokingly said, "Your smile is really beautiful, really, it's not because I will have an interview with you soon. You must be a very happy girl."

Smile on the face, instantly solidified in the corners of the mouth. My heart sank and I knew I must have touched the scar in her heart. The scene was even more embarrassing, and I was at a loss.

she saw my embarrassed expression. Instead, he comforted me, "It's okay, I'm used to it. You don't have to mind. I'm a child who grew up in bitter water. If I want to sum up my growth process in one word, my fate is the most suitable." After a moment of silence, Phyl told me about her experience.

My parents divorced when I was very young, about three or four years old. Within two years, my father went to heaven. At that time, I didn't know how far away heaven was. I just thought it must be beautiful there. He went and never came back.

I have no impression of my father's strangeness except the photos hanging on the wall. It has always been my mother alone, dragging our brother and sister with painstaking efforts. She goes to the fields and works like a man, while being a father and a mother, taking care of our lives.

physical busyness is tolerable. Mental suffering, I think it must be the most painful thing for my mother. Because I often get up in the middle of the night to go to the toilet, I find that she can't sleep over and over again, and sometimes she cries secretly. I know that there must be many pains in my mother's heart. For the sake of our brother and sister, she chose to support this family alone.

Only later, I gradually felt that my mother's temper was getting bigger and bigger. As long as I appear in front of her, it seems that everything is wrong. You always have a big fight with me. Once I thought my mother didn't love me. I once wanted to leave this warm home.

but it costs money to go out, so I started to secretly pick up bottles in the trash can and sell them. I wanted to save enough money for the trip, so I left home. But before I saved enough money, my mother found out. My mother hugged me and cried. I haven't felt my mother's love for me for a long time.

My mother cried for a while, and said to me, "I'm sorry, Bao Er, my mother is depressed, and she often can't control herself, which makes you feel wronged.". I don't know what kind of disease depression is, but from that moment on, I already know that I can't leave this home, but I have to be the pillar of my family and take care of my sick mother.

After the results of the college entrance examination came out, I received the admission notice from Lijiang Normal University. I like the beautiful scenery here in Lijiang. In my hometown, when I am free, I often climb to the top of the mountain alone and overlook everything below. At that moment, I can temporarily forget all my troubles. I have a dream since I was a child, that is, one day, I can walk out of the mountains and see the outside world.

She choked up a little as she spoke. I can imagine how much she suffered when she was a child.

I want to comfort her, but I feel a little redundant.

sometimes crying is not a kind of venting.

"If you feel uncomfortable, you can cry for a while, and I will accompany you to vent the hardships you have experienced."

Phyl was silent for a while, wiped the tears from the corner of her eyes, and burst into laughter. It seems that she has become accustomed to all this. She went on telling her story.

when I got the notice, my mood was complicated, even painful. I thought for a long time and didn't dare to tell my mother. I was afraid that my mother would worry about my tuition again. I am even more afraid of leaving my mother. It will be even harder for her to stay at home alone with her naughty brother. I am also worried about my mother's depression, and I am worried that the days when I am not around her, the wind and frost of the years will destroy her even more mercilessly.

finally, my mother knew, and she was very happy that day. I cooked a lot of delicious dishes, and said to me, "Bao Er, you did well in the exam. Your mother's hardships for so many years have not been in vain, and you have finally been trained.". I saw the tears in her eyes. I didn't have the appetite to eat, so I cried with my mother.

"Mom, I'm not at home. What should you do with your younger brother and your depression? I really can't rest assured. " My mother helped me wipe away my tears. "Silly child, my mother is fine. I will take medicine on time. I have a precious daughter like you, so I won't be upset. You can go to college at ease. Mom has saved your tuition over the years. " I saw my mother smile, and her eyes were full of tears.

When I went to college, I didn't relax and studied harder. I want to study hard, so I can find a good job and earn a lot of money. I will take care of my mother and brother in the future. I will also call my mother from time to time. Ask her if she can take medicine on time, but don't have any hard thoughts.

during my four years in college, I worked hard to earn some living expenses and reduce my mother's burden by setting up a stall while studying. After graduation, I refused the olive branch thrown by several big companies in Beishangguang with excellent grades. Because I know that my mother can't live without me and this family can't live without me. I found a job in Lijiang. Although the salary was not very high, I tried my best to do everything the leader told me, because I needed this salary to cure my mother's illness and share her worries.

No matter how bad fate is for me, I dare not complain. I have to work hard with a smile in exchange for the smiles of my mother and boss. But how many nights, like my mother, I can't sleep at night alone, turning around and thinking that life is too unfair to me. As she spoke, she choked up a little. I didn't comfort her. I didn't persuade others to be kind without suffering. At this time, letting her cry for a while and venting her bitterness may be the best comfort.

at this moment, I feel that Phyl and I are like the bosom friends who have never met before but have been friends for a long time.

We talked a lot along the way, but we still feel that we are not finished. I hope this road will be long and endless.

how far is the ends of the earth? I don't know.

how long does heaven and earth last? I don't want to know.

I no longer believe that there will be a marriage that falls in love at first sight and has a heart. I think the marriage line of Yue Lao, in this life, may only tie me, a person's feet. I just want to go through this life alone and complete my mission.

drink a bowl of Meng po soup, fly to forget Sichuan, and enter the next reincarnation early. For pigs and sheep, for cattle and horses. I just don't want to walk through the world again, leaving a painful memory.

Soon we arrived at her place. I laid her gently on the bed. She is still soft and weak, her cheeks are flushed, her face is like a peach blossom, and her expression is moving. She said she was sorry and fell asleep. I closed the door and settled myself down.

Phyl didn't say anything wrong. Under her arrangement, we became the best colleagues, and she often laughed like a bell around us. We would talk about interesting things when we were young, the helplessness of growing up, and the ups and downs of the years. When I was with Phyl, I gradually stopped thinking about her.