No one died in the hands of others, but in their own love.

? "What is growth? Is it the person who wanted to die before, and finally shook his head and said forget it? "

She left such a sentence under a post waiting for you, and the landlord replied to her soon.

? "That's not growth, it's loneliness ..."

When she saw these eight words, her heart somehow missed a beat, followed by an avalanche of memories, which made her feel at a loss.

In the evening, she used her QQ trumpet to send an article about …

"Nobody likes loneliness, just don't want to be disappointed."

Her name is Zhao Hanyu, an ordinary girl and a stubborn girl.

She usually took the math mock exam 1 10+, and only wrote 50 points for the boys she liked in the college entrance examination.

Then, when others were stunned by the college entrance examination, she silently thanked herself for being one step closer to him.

Finally, they missed it. The boy he liked went to military service after the college entrance examination, and finally didn't go to the higher vocational school he never forgot.

She received the admission notice from that university and began to cry on the disconnected phone.

? She said, "Su Chaoqun, you are a big liar."

Tricked her into coming to a strange city and leaving her alone. ...

2

I am the landlord who replied to her "That's not growth, that's loneliness …".

A few days ago, I posted such a post with a vest registered for three years.

"Can I give you a hug as before? I am in Changsha, waiting for the wind. "

Soon after it was sent out, many people replied to me, most of them were experienced in wading, and only Zhao Hanyu replied to me seriously.

Her words made my heart tremble, and there was a magic that drove me to ask her contact information.

However, she didn't tell me, only told me this simple little story, and I haven't heard from her since.

I think she must be a sad girl with her own unique mind. She is weak inside and strong inside.

She also told me, "You know, I liked him for three years. I finally got up the courage to confess, but I didn't have a chance to say it. "

She said that her college life was not good. She is very withdrawn and always lives alone.

I asked her why she didn't find a friend or boyfriend. She didn't say anything but gave a smiling expression.

That was the first time I felt that smiling was also a desperate expression.

three

? The chat record of the post bar has been stopped at her smile, because she didn't read my good morning and good night later. I think she may have licked the wound herself, so she silently deleted all the chat records after smiling.

? Later, I accidentally read a sentence in Weibo: I was lonely for a long time, and then the person who met my heart smiled and shook his head and said forget it.

I probably figured out why Zhao Hanyu laughed.

It's been a whole year since that smile. When I almost gave up the software of Post Bar, Zhao Hanyu replied to me.

? "After waiting so long, I went back to answer. I am in Changsha now. Will you wait for me when the wind blows? "

Her tone is very relaxed, and there is no previous sadness between the lines. Should she let go?

Or she didn't say.

On the first day of freshman year, I went to her school to send her watermelon for military training. That was the first time I met her.

She is a typical beauty in the south of the Yangtze River, with Wu Nong's unique gentleness in every move. I really can't imagine why such a beautiful girl was so sad at that time.

three

Later, I went out with her several times, mostly to Wuyi Square. She likes abnormal spicy crayfish, but she eats a lot every time. She also likes the fireworks in Orange Island, but she will burst into tears every time she looks at it.

I couldn't figure out the extent of her tears at first, until I picked up the MP3 player in high school again, and the lyrics of Vae's "Funeral of the Rose" directly hit my brain.

-It's really beautiful. When the fireworks rained that day, I said I would wear a flowered skirt to marry you.

Zhao Hanyu, it seems that there really is a washed white floral dress.

4?

It's almost National Day, and she sent me another post yesterday.

? "Chen Yan, are you going to Fenghuang Ancient City on National Day?"

? "What is this story?" I made a yi tooth expression.

"I have crossed bridges in many places, seen clouds many times and drunk many kinds of wine, but I have only loved one person at the right age."

I was about to scold her for sending such a primary school student's QQ signature, and she replied to me: "I want to see Mr. Shen Congwen's love story."

I was suddenly enlightened. What I just said seems to be what Mr. Shen Lao said.

? I promised her, "I will go with you when I have time, but I have already been there."

She agreed and finally gave me her contact number.

? Love for a lifetime, it is too difficult to turn back. Her circle of friends has nothing but this circle of friends. The time happened to be the day when she replied to me in the post bar.

? It suddenly occurred to me that on New Year's Day last year, I teamed up with several good friends to spend the New Year in Fenghuang Ancient City. That morning, I got up the courage to give him a call.

? I said, "Happy New Year, just thinking of you suddenly."

He was sleeping, so he said lazily, "I see, I am sleeping."

At that time, my tears flowed down. I shouted at the fireworks across the Tuojiang River: "Happy New Year, I miss you so much, you know?"

five

The last meeting before breaking up, the days of cold violence, made me very extreme.

A strong sixth sense. I asked to see his wechat. He hesitated for a long time and finally confessed: "I'll go directly to her for you." There is nothing else to see. "

You are so good at basketball and handsome. I can't believe you don't have a girlfriend.

I really don't have a girlfriend.

Two conversations became the last knife to kill our fragile relationship.

I was very sour in my heart. I forcibly suppressed it and pretended to be very calm: "Didn't WeChat say that you don't have a girlfriend? Then from this moment on, I will no longer be your girlfriend. "

Five years! More than 1700 days, put it down, less than 17 minutes. He's fine. He's fine. I don't think I'm bad either

I wish you peace in the future. This is the last sentence I sent him before deleting him.

Love for a lifetime, it is too difficult to turn back.

These eight words, I used to describe the space of three years. After breaking up, it was changed to "although thousands of people have gone."

If you don't know what it means, you can search Baidu and Du Niang will tell you.

Although it's a common saying, condemned men mean death, which comes from Mencius' Gongsun Chou. Even if they are blocked by condemned men, they should go forward bravely. The non-mainstream explanation is that you are not afraid of being blocked by thousands of people, but you are afraid of surrendering yourself.

However, if I lose my helmet and armor and return to the enemy, you will no longer be my belief.

No one died in the hands of others, but in their own love.

six

Mr. Shen Congwen's works are beautiful, and they are also beautiful in real life. I wonder if Zhao Hanyu is still waiting for Su Chaoqun. I only know that the last sentence of Border Town is; That person may never come back, or he may come back tomorrow.

Recently, the movie "Sorrow Against the Current" directed by Jing M.Guo opened in major cinemas all over the country. In those years, the youth pain literature, which was popular in the north and south of the river and earned enough tears for girls, made a comeback after several years. I have indeed read many novels about youth literature, and the most impressive one is "I'm just sad that I can't grow old with you". After reading it in high school, I felt suffocated under the quilt.

At that time, I shared this novel with him who had just been together, and he promised that I would definitely read it. I don't know if he read it, but it doesn't matter. 17 years old clamored for a 27-year-old man to get married and eventually disappeared into the sea of people. I'm just sad that I can't grow old with you. This is a novel and a reality.

Mr. y, I hope you will be healthy and safe all your life.

I forgot to say that Zhao Hanyu is me, another me in this world. I will give up the college entrance examination for the person I like, but I am not me anymore.